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    LOL I'm actually a cat person myself, but you're right.


    It's funny, one of our cats is CONVINCED that my DH is going to *eat* him, of all things. Nothing we can do, Whisper is psychotic that way. Never seen a dog act like that in my life (for no reason). The other cats tolerate DH okay and the gliders *love* him.


    Actually I think I'm a small animal/exotics person. :)

    Feeling slightly embarrassed, Sure's whiskers twitched and she settled more deeply back on her haunches. She wasn't too proud to accept something from the confident and flamboyant tom, but she was also beginning to feel an ache to prove herself to the other cats. That, and she'd been taught that pecking order mattered, and that she was at the bottom of it.


    The little she-cat quivered slightly and glanced over at Plus, nudging the mouse closer to her older companion. "I..." she began, and then tossed her head with a hint of confusion at the way she felt. She growled, a low sound that was directed at nobody. She had instincts, didn't she?


    Sure crouched down low to the ground, her chest touching the earth beneath her paws. Her pads were still sore, and she frowned for a half an instant as she registered the pain and then swiftly forgot about it again. She had a mission, and that mission was to bring home some food for the little band. She would eat tonight -- she was determined of it, even if it meant eating the mouse Fame had brought her. She'd rather not eat alone. She'd done that for the past month before finally deciding to take to the wild, and she didn't much like it. She hoped they'd still be there when she got back.


    Ears on alert, Sure tuned out the sounds of her companions and listened to the natural world around her. There were birds. They were up. She could hear the chattering of squirrels as they scolded from the tree branches as well. Insects were plentiful but rodents were preferable. She'd never eaten fresh kill before, but the smell was intoxicating.


    Low to the ground, Sure finally pinpointed the sound, and the scent, that she wanted. She crept forward, her body still low, her soft paws making no sound on the earth beneath her. Her tail was low, but didn't drag, and her ears were positioned low to her head, even as she was alert for the slightest sound coming from her quarry.


    The she-kit could see it now, a small brown and white field mouse, scurrying through the brush in front of them. It wasn't still as Fame's kill had been, and she wondered for a moment if she should wait for the small animal to stop before she moved. She decided against it, figuring that if she waited too long, the mouse might scurry away.


    Stalking, slowly and steadily brought Sure closer. The mouse was slow, casual. Upwind. Then... she pounced, pinning the mouse beneath her paws. With a quick motion, she caught the mouse between her teeth and shook her head, making her kill.


    Proud, her tail in the air, Sure trotted back to her party and dropped the mouse to the ground between them. "I did it!" she meowed happily. "I did it!"

    Okay, I want another character. I know that I can have as many as I want, etc, so my question isn't about whether or not it's allowed. I need some help with a bio character, since I'm just not comfortable scratch-creating something that I'm hoping becomes a little bit complicated.


    Sure is a loner. I don't want to do another loner right now.* I want to get involved in something a little bit different as I explore Warriors, since I don't have any background coming into the game. I don't want to do an inner clan, since I just don't know enough from the books to pull it off (IMO). I may adopt an Inner Clan kit at some point in the future, but not yet.


    I would love some advice to get me started doing a bio for a new character. I want a char that can be involved deeply with a plot, but I don't want to be central to a currently ongoing plot unless it's part of an upstart pseudoclan.


    Any ideas?


    * I am really enjoying Sure. Please don't misunderstand my motives!

    Sure dipped her head a bit demurely. Now that she had it, she wasn't entirely sure what to do with her kill. She'd never eaten anything fresh before. All the food she'd eaten had been prepared by twolegs and set out for her. Of course there had been the occasional bug, but those had been eaten more in play than with any intentional purpose.


    She didn't want to let the older two cats know that she wasn't sure what she was doing, so she glanced toward Plus again, hoping that she'd start on the mouse that Fame had caught so that Sure could get the idea.

    Hey Larky, do you have a link for Poisonedclan? Definitely looking for Pseudoclan. I just think I'll adapt better to the "regular" clans if my cat is born into the clan. I guess I'm just not yet sure of myself.


    Oh, and I'm still having trouble finding things I'm looking for :(

    I can't always find the threads that I'm looking for, and I've long since given up on searches, particularly on large boards. I always find it easier to ask somebody who knows.


    I've bookmarked the clan page. I join by putting an application on the clan thread once the cat bio is approved?

    Since I'm SO new to Warriors, the best that I can do really is to come up with something that's fairly loose and fluid. For example, it's hard for me to say that I want anti, pro or neutral. What I *do* know is that I want something where I can get into the thick of things and (I hope) learn the game more quickly. I love plot, but I'm not the most creative person in the world, so coming up with stuff on my own isn't the best option for me.


    After that, I just need to figure out *how* to get involved in a plot without stepping on any toes. I've accidentally power played my way into plots before without realizing it (YEARS ago, on other boards) and I'd hate to have that happen.


    I probably will PM you for some ideas, once I know where I want to go!

    Maybe on theadminzone.com. They have a section for big boards there. I used to mod there very briefly before I got totally overwhelmed because Howard wasn't explaining the rules very well lol


    ETA: How many HUGE RPGs are there? I wonder if one of the RPG directories would add a section for large boards.

    Most of their sites aren't related to role playing, but there is a LOT of help there as far as admins. All the admins here might want to think about joining. I'm not active now because I don't have a forum any more (and thank goodness -- it's too much work!).


    I remember a couple of years ago I really wanted to do a vampire role play. I've always been really into the gothic role playing games, and I love to write, especially vampires and weres. I used to write a lot of short stories about them, in addition to my furry stories (or as part of my furry stories as well).


    Anyway, I found a group that I wanted to join, and it was absolutely enormous. Bigger than WCaRPG I think. I couldn't join. I just could *not* make myself do it and get lost in the middle of the VERY complicated umbrella plot.


    Ironically I chose *this* board because of its size. I figured that it would be easier to bury mistakes on a huge group when I was involved in a "world" that I didn't fully understand (yet). LOL Harder to bury mistakes when you're playing in a world that you should know well (like White Wolf's Vampire: The Masquerade. I should know that one *really* well!).

    Two years ago I was threatened by a neighbor who said that she was going to shoot me. She was absolutely insane and called me over to her house, and then said that she was going to shoot me, that she'd called the police and told them she had a gun and was going to kill me.


    I called the cops, scared out of my wits and really confused. They showed up, and let her entirely off the hook, and then proceeded to harass ME on some bogus claim that she had made against me. Several months later she robbed us. We called the police. Again she was let off the hook, and we got harrassed. We had PROOF that she'd done the robbing, but none of our property was returned and she wasn't ever prosocuted.


    They are also absolutely intent on pulling people over. DH got pulled over for doing a U-Turn in our county. The cop said that it was illegal, but we can't find the law about it. Needless to say he's taking it to court.

    It's crazy. I am THIRTY years old and yet this kind of stuff still happens with my girlfriends. Very, very frustrating. I have one who drinks and then talks about me behind my back. It's taboo to talk about what she's said or done later on, and I wind up having to just keep forgiving her. It's very frustrating, and everybody knows she's aware that she's doing it when she does it.


    Forums are a LOT of work. God, yes they are. Oh wow, what RPG was it that's bigger than this? I might want to check em out.


    When I looked, I couldn't find this board any more. That's why I was careful to say that it was a couple of years ago. I've never seen anything like it before or since. At the time it was about as old as this forum is now. It's probably still out there and has something to do with my poor search skills.


    Again, it was a V:tM board. You might be able to find it with a search if you have better skillz than me lol

    Most of my friends are (much) younger than I am because I met them when I was working at a movie theater years ago. Usually this kind of behavior occurs most when she's been around a particular friend of HERS. I think she feels as though it will boost her standing in her own community if she says things about me to people who know me and at one point didn't like me very much (and admittedly for good reason).


    Most of the jibes are religious, and I try to let it roll off my back but it's still very frustrating.

    These are both mine, copyright Becki 2003. No takey.


    The Cat


    I can see her there
    furled under the tree
    tail flipping from time to time
    mellow and relaxed, eyes
    half closed in
    an expression of contentment. I have to stop to wonder
    how long she's been there
    and if she's ever going home.
    She is thin, and looks old
    beyond her years. Small,
    I give her nine months, tops.
    And that's what's so sad about it.
    Just another child left to die. I can't just walk away
    so I click my tongue
    and she comes running easily
    with the attitude of one
    used to affection and caress.
    I reach my hand out to
    stroke, and the fur is soft.
    Not what I had expected. It isn't faked, this feline
    cry of hungry pain. Her paws
    are on my thighs, begging me.
    But I have nothing except
    for a pouch of day-old tobacco,
    and I know she doesn't want that. I can't just shoo her on her away
    but there is no place for her
    among the brick buildings
    and so many trees you feel you
    might suffocate for the extra oxygen.
    I wonder if this isn't how we
    fight our oppression; white
    people in a white town filled with
    red brick. Keep everything out
    that we think we don't want.
    Yet she persists. This tiny feline body,
    malnurished and underfed
    is stronger than I am
    and than I may be
    in a lifetime of petting.
    There is one thing for her
    out of everything that we have
    forced into her small, microcosmic
    feline tiger tabby world. That one thing is survival.
    How are we to survive without
    one another? Can one exist
    without the other, or will
    we crash and burn too?
    Will we starve
    sitting beneath a tree,
    eyes half closed, the
    wind ruffling our fur? Even here, opressed and forced
    to starvation by the laws of man...
    she is purring, a soft sound
    gentle and token to her existence.
    Somebody will listen.


    This one is based on a true story from my own life. The cat was a real part of the story and it was so very dear to see this old homeless man with a cat in his coat!


    Homeless


    A young man
    Feeble as though with old age
    He is haggard from too few meals
    And too many nights sleeping
    On a bench in the park


    Now he sits
    His empty eyes staring out
    At the children at play
    Mother's rushing their children past him
    But still he watches them
    Stony-silent as though in death


    His face shows the signs of wear
    His cheeks and eyes sunken
    A pale blue in contrast
    To the weathered tan of his complexion


    His only companion sits at his side
    A dog who has known more meals
    Than his master
    And still the ribs show through the dull coat
    And children who would stop to pat him
    Are rushed past by anxious mothers
    In business suits


    An old man teeters past
    Smelling of alcohol
    And holding an ancient coffee cup
    His hands shaking with palsy
    Something tucked tightly
    Inside his long coat


    The young man looks past him
    As though he cannot see
    His eyes gazing instead at another family
    Sorrow in his heart
    A small smile creasing the ancient lines
    Of his face


    The old man sits down at the bench
    Turning his head to his younger companion
    "Mind if I sit down?"
    There is no answer, and he doesn't move
    Reaching his hand inside his coat
    To handle the softly mewling bundle
    Held within


    "Alcoholic!" a woman spits
    Rushing her child past the duo
    As the child's eyes fall
    On the small black kitten
    Hidden in the old man's coat
    And he just smiles and laughs
    Experience telling him more
    Than the young man will ever know


    "What you in for?"
    He asks his young comrade
    The boy just turns his head
    Staring with empty eyes at his fellow
    Shrugs his shoulders and reaches for the bottle
    That lays at his feet, swigging the cider
    And offering some to his dog


    "That stuff'll kill ya,"
    Says the old man with a laugh
    Offering his kitten a bit of cheese
    From somewhere inside his cavernous coat
    The young man only shrugs, eyeing the cat


    A young woman
    Out of nowhere perhaps
    Bottle of coke in hand
    Leather pulled tightly around her shivering body
    "Mind if I sit down?"
    Two pairs of eyes watching her
    Incredulous
    But she only smiles and takes a seat between them
    Patting the dog and offering a bit of her pie


    "Where you on your way to?"
    She asks the younger man
    And finally a real smile
    Creases the lines of his face
    And he passes her his map
    She nods her head, looking down at the card
    "Destination Rome,"
    She chuckles and hands it back
    Turns to the elder


    "Cute kitten," she laughs
    She is well built
    Sat in the lap of luxury
    Next to her companions
    And yet she offers nothing
    Not a quid to spare
    Or even a bit more of her pie
    But eats in silence
    Taking a load off her tired joints
    And they just watch her until she turns her head
    A smile on her own red lips
    "I hear Italy's nice this time of year."


    They continue to stare
    As though in amazement
    That somebody would talk to them
    In spite of the smell of cider
    Permeating the air nearby
    The ocean the only place to bathe
    And yet she isn't offended


    "I'd best be off,"
    The woman says, shoving up off the bench
    Grimacing at the pain in her feet
    And she walks away
    Travelling to her own unknown destination
    And leaving the two men
    To gawp after her in silence


    They turn towards one another then
    Smiles breaking out unevenly on their faces
    One pale and old, the other young and tan
    And break into laughter
    Slapping their knees so that the dog barks
    And the kitten retreats further
    Into her Master's robes


    And they know that they are lucky
    Because they are here
    Sleeping on the benches
    Travelling with their pets
    Not out of necessity
    But out of choice
    And the woman they've watched walk away
    Who sits in the lap of luxury
    Is terrified every night
    That her home may not be hers when she returns to it.


    "Go on, they're homeless!"
    A mother scoots her son past them
    And they stare after her and break into laughter again
    An old woman, being charitable
    Drops a coin into the cup the old man holds
    And he stairs down at it
    As though in confusion
    That there might have been coffee there only a moment before
    And again the young man laughs
    Plucking the quid from out of the cup
    Winking at the old man and pocketing it


    "Poor men. Father and son, look honey?"
    A woman and her lover, pointing towards the unlikely pair
    Didn't her mother ever teach her not to point?
    "Haven't got a home," the man mutters, rushing her past
    And again their laughter breaks through the children
    Playing in the park, as though oblivious


    The old man leans back against the bench
    Folding his hands in his lap as the kitten rests
    "You got somewhere to go?"
    He asks the younger
    The boy only nods, a stupid grin on his once-handsome face
    "Everywhere," he replies.


    "Look at those poor men!"
    A little boy this time, pointing for his mother's attention
    "Mum, you gotta quid?"


    And the old man's eyes wander to the young girl
    Wrapped in leather with a bottle of Coke
    In her polished hand
    Sitting in the doorway of a shop across the street
    Huddled against the wind
    Afraid to go home.


    Paws in the Water


    Her paws are in the water, damp, soaked and cold
    but she will not move away nor embrace the chill.
    She could live here, spreading herself thin on her dreams
    or she could dance in the sea, if only she weren't afraid.
    Time is a spiral, moving outwards for her
    but she cannot join it to spin her way out of control.
    She is trapped in this place, a world between worlds
    and that is how it is meant to be. Few would understand
    and she will not try to explain.
    So she keeps her paws in the water. Still.