These are both mine, copyright Becki 2003. No takey.
The Cat
I can see her there
furled under the tree
tail flipping from time to time
mellow and relaxed, eyes
half closed in
an expression of contentment. I have to stop to wonder
how long she's been there
and if she's ever going home.
She is thin, and looks old
beyond her years. Small,
I give her nine months, tops.
And that's what's so sad about it.
Just another child left to die. I can't just walk away
so I click my tongue
and she comes running easily
with the attitude of one
used to affection and caress.
I reach my hand out to
stroke, and the fur is soft.
Not what I had expected. It isn't faked, this feline
cry of hungry pain. Her paws
are on my thighs, begging me.
But I have nothing except
for a pouch of day-old tobacco,
and I know she doesn't want that. I can't just shoo her on her away
but there is no place for her
among the brick buildings
and so many trees you feel you
might suffocate for the extra oxygen.
I wonder if this isn't how we
fight our oppression; white
people in a white town filled with
red brick. Keep everything out
that we think we don't want.
Yet she persists. This tiny feline body,
malnurished and underfed
is stronger than I am
and than I may be
in a lifetime of petting.
There is one thing for her
out of everything that we have
forced into her small, microcosmic
feline tiger tabby world. That one thing is survival.
How are we to survive without
one another? Can one exist
without the other, or will
we crash and burn too?
Will we starve
sitting beneath a tree,
eyes half closed, the
wind ruffling our fur? Even here, opressed and forced
to starvation by the laws of man...
she is purring, a soft sound
gentle and token to her existence.
Somebody will listen.
This one is based on a true story from my own life. The cat was a real part of the story and it was so very dear to see this old homeless man with a cat in his coat!
Homeless
A young man
Feeble as though with old age
He is haggard from too few meals
And too many nights sleeping
On a bench in the park
Now he sits
His empty eyes staring out
At the children at play
Mother's rushing their children past him
But still he watches them
Stony-silent as though in death
His face shows the signs of wear
His cheeks and eyes sunken
A pale blue in contrast
To the weathered tan of his complexion
His only companion sits at his side
A dog who has known more meals
Than his master
And still the ribs show through the dull coat
And children who would stop to pat him
Are rushed past by anxious mothers
In business suits
An old man teeters past
Smelling of alcohol
And holding an ancient coffee cup
His hands shaking with palsy
Something tucked tightly
Inside his long coat
The young man looks past him
As though he cannot see
His eyes gazing instead at another family
Sorrow in his heart
A small smile creasing the ancient lines
Of his face
The old man sits down at the bench
Turning his head to his younger companion
"Mind if I sit down?"
There is no answer, and he doesn't move
Reaching his hand inside his coat
To handle the softly mewling bundle
Held within
"Alcoholic!" a woman spits
Rushing her child past the duo
As the child's eyes fall
On the small black kitten
Hidden in the old man's coat
And he just smiles and laughs
Experience telling him more
Than the young man will ever know
"What you in for?"
He asks his young comrade
The boy just turns his head
Staring with empty eyes at his fellow
Shrugs his shoulders and reaches for the bottle
That lays at his feet, swigging the cider
And offering some to his dog
"That stuff'll kill ya,"
Says the old man with a laugh
Offering his kitten a bit of cheese
From somewhere inside his cavernous coat
The young man only shrugs, eyeing the cat
A young woman
Out of nowhere perhaps
Bottle of coke in hand
Leather pulled tightly around her shivering body
"Mind if I sit down?"
Two pairs of eyes watching her
Incredulous
But she only smiles and takes a seat between them
Patting the dog and offering a bit of her pie
"Where you on your way to?"
She asks the younger man
And finally a real smile
Creases the lines of his face
And he passes her his map
She nods her head, looking down at the card
"Destination Rome,"
She chuckles and hands it back
Turns to the elder
"Cute kitten," she laughs
She is well built
Sat in the lap of luxury
Next to her companions
And yet she offers nothing
Not a quid to spare
Or even a bit more of her pie
But eats in silence
Taking a load off her tired joints
And they just watch her until she turns her head
A smile on her own red lips
"I hear Italy's nice this time of year."
They continue to stare
As though in amazement
That somebody would talk to them
In spite of the smell of cider
Permeating the air nearby
The ocean the only place to bathe
And yet she isn't offended
"I'd best be off,"
The woman says, shoving up off the bench
Grimacing at the pain in her feet
And she walks away
Travelling to her own unknown destination
And leaving the two men
To gawp after her in silence
They turn towards one another then
Smiles breaking out unevenly on their faces
One pale and old, the other young and tan
And break into laughter
Slapping their knees so that the dog barks
And the kitten retreats further
Into her Master's robes
And they know that they are lucky
Because they are here
Sleeping on the benches
Travelling with their pets
Not out of necessity
But out of choice
And the woman they've watched walk away
Who sits in the lap of luxury
Is terrified every night
That her home may not be hers when she returns to it.
"Go on, they're homeless!"
A mother scoots her son past them
And they stare after her and break into laughter again
An old woman, being charitable
Drops a coin into the cup the old man holds
And he stairs down at it
As though in confusion
That there might have been coffee there only a moment before
And again the young man laughs
Plucking the quid from out of the cup
Winking at the old man and pocketing it
"Poor men. Father and son, look honey?"
A woman and her lover, pointing towards the unlikely pair
Didn't her mother ever teach her not to point?
"Haven't got a home," the man mutters, rushing her past
And again their laughter breaks through the children
Playing in the park, as though oblivious
The old man leans back against the bench
Folding his hands in his lap as the kitten rests
"You got somewhere to go?"
He asks the younger
The boy only nods, a stupid grin on his once-handsome face
"Everywhere," he replies.
"Look at those poor men!"
A little boy this time, pointing for his mother's attention
"Mum, you gotta quid?"
And the old man's eyes wander to the young girl
Wrapped in leather with a bottle of Coke
In her polished hand
Sitting in the doorway of a shop across the street
Huddled against the wind
Afraid to go home.
Paws in the Water
Her paws are in the water, damp, soaked and cold
but she will not move away nor embrace the chill.
She could live here, spreading herself thin on her dreams
or she could dance in the sea, if only she weren't afraid.
Time is a spiral, moving outwards for her
but she cannot join it to spin her way out of control.
She is trapped in this place, a world between worlds
and that is how it is meant to be. Few would understand
and she will not try to explain.
So she keeps her paws in the water. Still.