Posts by HEAVENSDOOR

^{❝ Heavensdoor always lived on the transparent side of a two-way window, always looking, watching those on the other side, but if one tried to look through to him, all they'd see is themselves in the reflection, unable to see who was on the other side. He was always guarded in this way, unintentionally, not often making his presence known, brushing off others and chasing them away with his stinging words. He never needed anyone, after all, not knowing the feeling of having to depend on companionship, living by himself, for himself, and with himself only.}

^{Of course, it wasn't like he was completely cast out, left to blow away into dust while the others stepped through his ash. He had friends! Well, one really. He and Grave bonded over the whole zombie project as of late, and with them spending so much time together, it was probably inevitable that they at least know each other somewhat well. It was quite hard at this point to see Hev around anyone else. He always followed her around like a lost puppy, never letting her leave his sight once his eyes landed upon her. It was something even he didn't notice he did, yet there he was, always following, simply a speck compared to her large size.}

^{It was strange, though, following her, seeing who else she interacted with, realizing for himself that he never talked much with anyone else, didn't think he could follow them around as he followed Grave. He didn't want to, though, of course he didn't. He had survived alone, he could continue to survive alone. That's what he told himself whenever he saw Fireghost's wounds as they were attacked by a zombie, whenever he watched Felix as he tried and struggled to live normally with his injuries and just made a fool of himself. The pit of Hev's stomach burned, seeing someone who was hurt, someone he knew, but no words ever formed as he beheld them, and he bit his tongue, saying nothing, recoiling from the scene.}

^{These thoughts consumed him as of late, the question of why he reacted in this way. He never needed to care about others, and he still didn't, right? He couldn't say, anymore.}

^{That day, Hev was thoroughly distracted by these thoughts, not even being able to pick a pencil up without his brain being eaten up by his own mind. He couldn't draw, not today, so he headed outside, just for some fresh air, just to clear his head for a moment.}

^{It was a rare sight to see him laying, but there he was, just outside the Gaia, his head placed between his paws. If anyone wanted to join in his "loafing", as Fireghost would call it, he wouldn't complain. His thoughts were much too muddled for him to care, the ache in his head too strong for him to have the energy to shoo someone away. He just needed a minute outside. Yes, that's it.❞}

^{❝ roll: 17}

^{Heavensdoor was, as the kids say, "just vibing", waiting with Percy and Fireghost for whoever else decided to show up to their little meeting. It seems to just be a boring task at first, waiting, but his eyes are drawn to Roman in the distance, who seems to be fighting... a goose? He only huffed as he watched, not really wanting to get involved. He'd had a similar run-in with a goose and he'd rather not have that happen again. Hopefully.}

^{Before he had any time to make a snarky comment to Roman, Grave seemed to just... disappear and reappear again, looking much more flustered when she returned. And she was talking about weird stuff. As far as he knew, Grave was somewhat sane, so he was a bit concerned. "Are you talking to... yourself?" he asked, thoroughly confused. ❞}

^{❝ It was a weary life, being in Willowclan, and Goosefrost knew that all too well. He was never really good at doing warrior duties, fighting, hunting and the like. Nor was that a secret at all after his run-in with, well, a goose. Kinda ironic, considering his name was "Goosefrost". Who even thought "goose" was a good prefix, anyway?}

^{He made his way over to the crowd of Lostfoot, Blacksun, and Firestar, knowing he should probably join this patrol despite not really wanting to. Then again, was there really anything else to do? "Soon, hopefully," Goosefrost mumbled at Blacksun's question, sensing their equal desire to finish this patrol as quickly as possible. ❞}

^{❝ roll: 15}

^{second roll: 2}

^{Hev couldn't really make much sense of what Grave was saying. It was absolute nonsense to him! Maybe it was like those TV shows where people broke the fourth wall as a joke, and somehow, she was able to do it.}

^{He didn't have that much time to think about that, though, as a whirlwind of stickers was suddenly blown at him, the sticky pieces of paper covering his fur. It was suffocating, being completely covered. He could barely move with all the various stickers hindering his motion, and eventually, Hev couldn't take it anymore! He collapsed to the ground, reduced to nothing but a pile of various shrimp-shaped stickers, hearing the distant sounds of trumpets and geese honks as he ascended to heaven's doors. ❞}

^{❝ Hev shifted awkwardly in his seat, wondering once again why he was even there as he stared towards the obviously-drunk Princess Elara. He was only an artist working on commission at the royal family's request, so he wasn't quite sure what made him so special to linger among those with status. Not that he thought he didn't deserve to be invited to this after party, as painting and art was painstaking work that most of the snobs around him would never understand, it really just had to do with the fact that he didn't even want to be at the beginning party in the first place. A party after a party, what was the point of that? Well, maybe a ball didn't cont as a party, but still! ❞}

^{❝ In all his years of living, Heavensdoor never thought he'd ever settle down and claim the Sanctuary as home, walking as one of their ranks, emerging out of his life of hiding alone by himself to find companionship. He was never a wanderer like Hoseok, searching and failing to find a place to stay, he had simply left his old life behind and made his presence known to this group of creatures. Now, cursed with both the role he played within this group and the fact of knowing others, he had stayed.}

^{His attention was caught by a strange scent near the borders, one mixed of many groups, none he could quite identify. Hev approached to see Hoseok, who seemed quite mesmerized by the Gaia tree as he stood there. "Quite a large tree, is it not?" he asked, raising a brow at the feline's fixed gaze. He'd spare the snarky (and frankly annoying) quips he usually had. For now. "What is your name, and what are you doing so close to Sanctuary territory?". ❞}

^{❝ Ghosts were... a bit of a menace, as far as Heavensdoor was concerned. For example, Fireghost. Did he really need to explain that one? Sure, maybe it was a stereotype that ghosts did nothing except mess with people, but what did they have to lose? They were already dead anyway.}

^{His ears pricked as he heard a loud shout from across the hall, the sound coming through his own room and interrupting his very tedious artwork. Heavensdoor was never one for antics (unless he was the one causing them), so he wasn't exactly pleased to have been distracted from his work He abandoned the art piece he was working on and stepped out of his room to investigate, turning his head to see the little fox ghost and Barei, the former laughing it up at whatever prank he just pulled. "Hey, do you mind keeping it down?" he asked once he approached, his eyes settling on the giggling fox, "I'm trying to work on something and you're much too loud for me to focus.". Perhaps his tone was a bit rude, considering he was talking to a child, but did he care? No, not really. ❞}

^{❝ As much as Heavensdoor was one to make comments like Snakebite's, he admittedly wasn't quite tolerant of them. He saw people like that as a threat, almost, like they were personally challenging him or trying to prove their worth. At least he wasn't rude for no reason. Maybe.}

^{"Perhaps you should be more patient, then," Hev suggested as he padded in next to Felix, staring up at... whatever Snakebite was supposed to be. He looked like a weird furry dragon except with no wings. Being nosy as always, Hev noted in the back of his mind to later ask Snakebite what kind of creature he was. ❞}

^{❝ Hev lifted his head at the sound of Grave's voice, feeling much smaller than usual as the lupurca looked down at him, lying there. He had been so preoccupied by his thoughts that he almost didn't even notice her almost bumping into him, and if she hadn't said anything, he probably wouldn't have noticed at all. "Oh, well...". He tried to think of some way to answer her question, not really finding it within him to say one of his usual quips, probably being about Grave almost running into him, if he actually said something about it.}

^{Before he could answer Grave's final question, Felix arrived, giving a simple greeting to both of them before just... standing there. It was weird, he thought, just having two people watching him, wondering what he was doing. He couldn't tell them why he was out there, of course, why his thoughts were so jumbled and why his words couldn't form.}

^{He was distracted by his swarm of thoughts for a second once Dog arrived, making his presence known by just casually sitting within the group, saying nothing. As much as Hev's usual annoyance went towards Dog, it wasn't like the canine was doing anything annoying just by existing there, so he said nothing in return.}

^{Instead, he turned back to Grave, finally thinking of some sort of lie to cover up why he was really out there. "I was just thinking my art. I've been... stumped for inspiration lately, so that's all,". A blatant lie. If one was good enough at reading people, they could see the way his eyes flashed down as he tried to think of something to say, the way he over-exaggerated his tone to cover up whatever unbelievable lie he just told.}

^{It was better than telling them all the truth, in his mind. So, he lied. ❞}

^{❝ How long had it been since he had last visited Solaris Kingdom? A month, maybe more than that? He wasn't quite sure exactly, but what he did know was Heavensdoor would have quite a story to tell them since he had last arrived, for, in truth, what had kept him away for so long was the overwhelming amount of everything that had happened, from personal gripes to group-wide troubles.}

^{Nevertheless, he arrived upon the sandy land, carrying with him a gift basket of various herbs he had found around Sanctuary territory, as well as cheese, as was customary of every ambassador from the Sanctuary at this point. He stood in his usual spot on the border and called out, hoping a few Solarians would hear him, as they usually did. "It's Heavensdoor, the Sanctuary ambassador," he called simply, expecting at least a couple people to recognize him. ❞}

^{❝ Very frequently, almost at all times, when Heavensdoor simply strolled through the territory, his sketchbook and art supplies always floated at his side. Having telekinesis made life quite easy like that; he could just imagine in his mind what he wanted to draw, and his pencil would follow line-for-line on the page, as his mind also controlled where that pencil would land. He didn't have to worry about sticking a pencil in between his paws or his jaws to draw, and he used his telekinesis for so many everyday tasks, he'd like to think he was a master at it.}

^{That is, until Roman gave him this weekly task of trying to test his skill. He quickly passed off the sword-fighting route, as thinking of a floating sword glinting in the light reminded him of a certain angel he'd rather forget. So, he stuck to juggling, and though they weren't kittens he tossed in the air, he never imagined his colored pencils ever becoming like juggling clubs. First, he had used them as weapons against a goose, and now this?}

^{Unfortunately, as his usual arrogance would make it seem, he actually wasn't good at everything. Honestly, he wasn't good at anything except drawing and painting, but that was a different story. He was currently standing right outside the Gaia, his eyes narrowing at a specific blue pencil as it floated from the ground and up into the air. That pencil was then joined by a green one and a pink one, just floating there. Sure he could just move them around in a circle, that was an easy enough task, but it didn't look like he was juggling, instead just moving them around. He struggled with throwing a pencil and catching it while throwing another one right after. So, he simply sat there, three pencils floating around his head, as he thought of how he might get that to work. ❞}

^{❝ Heavensdoor had always thought Percy a curious figure. A stern figure within a crowd, seeming to want to keep to the shadows but always bringing himself out to the light with his aggressive comments and guarded stature. At first, he hadn't thought that the lion would ever become someone he could talk to. Hev never thought of himself being on that same level of grumpiness, after all, but it turned out that they actually agreed on some matters, mostly due to their shared lack of tolerance towards antics.}

^{It was strange, though, for as similar as they were, they took different paths in life. Hev, a more peaceful one, drawing out scenes of serenity using nothing put a piece of paper and some pencils. Percy, on the other hand, acted upon his aggression, always fighting, disrupting that quiet scene Hev so much seemed to enjoy creating. It was a mystery how they got along, but they did nonetheless.}

^{Hev was busy at work in his room that day, working on a somewhat simple piece. He had seen the Gaia surrounded by glowing fireflies the night before, and he knew he had to capture that moment somewhere, so after gathering tones of dark blue paints, he had gotten to work, painting the curling branches of the Gaia and the leaves that sprouted from them.}

^{He was ready to start painting the first dot of a firefly when Percy walked in behind him, and Hev lifted his brush to glance up at the lion as his eyes continued to burn into the canvas. Usually, Hev would get annoyed if he was interrupted, but then again, if someone asked him about his art, he could talk for hours. "Oh, hello," he said, just out of surprise that Percy was even there before continuing, "last night, I saw fireflies all around the Gaia, and I thought it looked nice, so here I am.". He gave a nod over to the canvas he was working on before turning around to continue, putting a little golden dot right next to the tree. "I'm sure they'll be out again tonight, if you'd like to have a look for yourself. Or just look at this painting when I'm finished. They'll look the same,". ❞}

^{❝ Hev only gave a nod at Grave's answer, but he understood completely. He was no stranger to spending long nights awake, toiling over whatever project had popped in his mind that day to work on. Perhaps he was too passionate about his work for his own good, but, watching Grave as she continued to work on her map, it was nice to know that at least he wasn't the only one like that.}

^{Hev then moved in next to her just to once again scan over her work, nodding as his eyes traveled across the lines of the map. It looked a bit bigger than he remembered, though, and it made him feel a bit stupid to hear that that was because Grave had scaled it up. Well, that made sense. Before he got a chance to comment about what she had said, though, she had asked for his help yet again.}

^{Of course, he'd say "yes". Why wouldn't he? In his mind, he'd like to think Grave was his friend, and he didn't really think she needed to ask for his help anymore. She could just say she wanted help and he'd be right there, ready to assist with whatever she asked. Of course, now that Grave was his friend, she also got to see the more... interesting side of Heavensdoor. "Hm, I'll have to think about that..." he hummed, putting a paw to his chin as he smirked. It was a joke, of course, him just being a bit playful and over-dramatic. As much as he disliked antics and jokes, he wasn't opposed to joking around with people he liked. "You know what, sure," he then nodded, briefly looking up at her before directing his attention to her map. "Is there anything you would like help on specifically? Perhaps circles are giving you trouble again?". ❞}

^{❝ Hev's concentration was instantly broken as Chasinghaze approached, the pencils floating around him dropping from their air and onto the ground in surprise. He was much too focused on the task at hand to even notice her arrival before she was already there, staring down at him. "Well, I'm supposed to be juggling," he began to explain with a sigh, "but, unfortunately, I haven't been... very successful.".}

^{He meant to just go back to what he was doing after explaining himself, but as he heard the childish voice of Chi ring out as the wisp approached, his energy to participate in this weekly task instantly disappeared. His head slowly turned toward the fox as he laughed and teased Hev. He sneered as Chi continued to voice his thoughts, very obviously not appreciating being called a clown or a bad juggler. "Alright, how about you find me some lit torches, then?" he asked with a huff, "I'm sure they're just lying around somewhere for you to find.". He then went back to what he was doing, floating his pencils above his head and occasionally circling them around when he had a particularly interesting thought. "Hey, Chi, you have telekinesis too, don't you?". Hev brought his pencils back to the ground and presented them to the wisp. "Why don't you show me how to juggle? Unless you only juggle with glass jars if you're a good juggler.". He shot a glance to Chase, his expression showing doubt that Chi could really do anything, before looking back at the wisp with a raised brow. ❞}

^{❝ Heavensdoor never really had a strange relationship with his powers, but what he did have, unlike most of the other Sanctuary members, was a strange relationship with his height. He was always the smallest in every group, except for Sakaris, but she was a literal child and he was a grown adult. If he could shapeshift, he'd love to have a larger body than the one he was in, though he wasn't sure what he'd shapeshift into exactly. Maybe a lupurca to match Grave's height? He didn't really know.}

^{It was perplexing, then, to look and see a much smaller mammal, a little golden mouse, that strangely resembled Felix. If it was actually Felix, that'd be quite strange to him. Why would someone want to become a prey animal, so small and easily stepped on? Unless Fe just didn't know how to control his powers? He quirked his brow at the thought as he continued to watch the little mouse. "Well, what would normal Felix even taste like in the first place?" he mused, glancing over to Fireghost. He really did have to wonder how their strange mind worked, talking about how someone might taste while said person was right in front of them in little mouse-y form.❞}

^{❝ Heavensdoor had known Amara, talked to her a few times enough to recognize her voice as it rang from within a group nearby. He approached with furrowed brows, wondering who this familiar yet barely-heard voice belonged to. After standing there for a few seconds and hearing her name be passed around, he gave a nod towards the husky. "Welcome back, Amara," he greeted simply, not having much else to say to her other than that. ❞}

^{❝ Heavensdoor couldn't imagine ever being anyone's apprentice. Usually, he just preferred to learn on his own, and his "superior" mind made it quite easy for him to get by without any sort of guidance. Of course, he could see the reason why one may need a mentor, whether they just struggled to teach themselves things or they were learning something that couldn't be self-taught. Of course, being as arrogant as he was, Hev never thought anything couldn't be self-taught.}

^{As he approached, he didn't believe Cessna to be a familiar name. Perhaps he still had yet to meet whoever Maxine spoke of, but apparently she was there. "Welcome to the Sanctuary," he greeted simply. Now, one thing that he had to wonder was what Cessna would even need a mentor for? Was it battle training, maybe medicine? "Just out of curiosity, what subject do you mentor Cessna in?". Ah, there he went, asking potentially personal questions without even introducing himself first. ❞}

^{❝ Just as most long-time members of the Sanctuary were recently, Heavensdoor was absolutely overwhelmed by all the new joiners and... annoying wisps that decided to show up. He had eventually gotten to know everyone, memorize everyone'd faces, but now he had to do that all over again with a new set of people.}

^{So, he approached this meet and greet, waiting for everyone to get their say in before he spoke after Felix. "My name is Heavensdoor, and I'm an Honor here. It's not official, but I can also be an art mentor, if anyone's interested in that," he said simply, feeling strangely awkward just saying that out loud. Oh well, at least people would know who he was, the weird art guy. ❞}

^{❝ Heavensdoor didn't really know much about spirits and wisps other than the fact that a certain one who had recently showed his face was very annoying. He tried not to be bothered too much, tell himself that wisps were just like that, playful and mischievous, but Hev had never tolerated playfulness much, so it was hard for him to not be annoyed by the floating spirits that roamed the Sanctuary.}

^{At the same time, though, it felt wrong to do any real harm to them, as he observed Lamentingspirit eat a wisp whole. Hev thought you were supposed to protect wisps, and if one of them liked you enough, they might follow you around for the rest of your life. Not to mention, as he had learned, wisps could manifest, have personalities of their own, be like real, living beings. To him, eating a wisp seemed like murder, in that sense, even if the wisps were already dead.}

^{His eyes followed the path from Roman, to Chi, and then to Spirit with furrowed brows. "Are you sure there isn't anything you could eat instead?" he questioned. Of course, Hev wasn't afraid of a gang of wisps angrily tearing the Sanctuary apart because Spirit ate one of their kind, but it just didn't sit right with him to watch it occur, thinking of whoever inhabited that wisp, wondering how the other wisps felt seeing their friend be consumed. Could they feel sorrow and anger, sulking over the fact that they'd never see their friend, potentially even a family member, ever again? With one more glance towards Chi, he didn't need to ask the question aloud for it to be answered. ❞}