Hurting others and hurting myself
my words became blades —
More Arcaniums slipped in just as the meeting began, some familiar, some not. Rae could hear a child cheering for an 'aunt Clove', looking briefly towards the other woman. Seemed like a proud niece of some sort, and the kid should be proud. The scent of the Cartel and Solaris was strong, a whiff of the Ruins and Exiles causing her eyes to narrow a bit. It probably would've made her eye twitch a bit to find out that Jimin had been adopted by Irene, mostly because it would feel like even more of a blow if her absentee mother had simply moved on from her other children. For now, she said nothing about it. As long as there were no complaints.
Speaking of complaints...
Clove spoke of Angelbeats' death and a topic she'd hoped to avoid, amethyst eyes purposefully not looking directly at anybody, not Clove or Asimov or more importantly, Makariy. The child had found himself in Solaris, sobbing about Asimov and his brother. So Raeliana had already been somewhat aware of the other reason that the meeting was held when she'd arrived. It had simply been a ticking time bomb waiting to be dropped.
She couldn't really speak on bad parenting, considering in Raeliana's case, one had died before she was born and one had disappeared shortly when Raeliana had needed her most, but the woman had managed.
Okay, maybe that was bad parenting. She'd become a bit desensitized to the notion of not having parents around, having Irene drift in and out of her life, to the point where she wasn't that child sobbing for her mother every time she'd been let down again. Irene had her own problems, Raeliana was aware, both in BlizzardClan at the time and now, which helped quell the seething rage she'd held towards her mother to some extent, but she supposed she never truly could forgive her until she could actually have a face-to-face, bury those demons that Raeliana had simply shoved in the unused closet in her mind.
Either way, she listened quietly to the first part, head tilted, expression carefully kept neutral. She'd been lucky to have been somewhat prepared on this, the words having been stewing in her mind for awhile, Asimov solidifying her thoughts with his words. She'd be a fumbling mess if she'd just been hit with this now. "I think it could be brushed aside if it was self-defense, or defending one of your kids, but it wasn't. It was a very deliberate, very public, and very slow execution." Raeliana made clear what the issue was on the whole thing. She was more morally gray than anything, but even if somebody was a danger to her own family, she at least had the empathy to know if she was the one underneath the blade, she'd still want her jugular cut properly so she didn't suffer too much. It was also the reason she coated her blade with more quick poisons or ones that induced numbness. "I don't know if it was because I grew up traveling in places that considered pushing criminals off cliffs with only a small group of people or banishment a valid way to go about it, but there were probably a dozen better ways to handle this whole thing, and fancy public execution in front of friends and family with free popcorn was not one of them. A heads-up before deciding this would've probably been great. 'Hey, this is my son, he's attempted to kill an Arcanium, I'm asking for a trial to be held.' Would it have killed you to send a note saying that how many months back instead of just slapping us in the face with this clusterfuck now?" Was that exactly how it went down, free popcorn included? Probably not, but still. The point was that even if it had to be dealt with, which it sounded like it was inevitable eventually, if what Asimov said was true. "Either way, the execution should not have happened. Dunno what the Cartel's stance is on this, don't particularly care, but still. Whether you saw him as family or not doesn't matter. There were still a couple who did and you just tossed that in their faces without so much as a word to anybody until the big moment." Makariy, for example, if his reaction was anything to go by. This trial could've been avoided, the rift between Makariy and his father could've been avoided, a lot of things could have been avoided. Then again, Asimov had said it himself: he held no value to a family tied together by blood alone. The kitsune understood that sentiment, deeply so, considering that her own belief was similar. However, she didn't allow the fact that these people had been relative strangers most of her life due to decisions both in and out of her own control: being born in BlizzardClan, being unaware of her relatives besides what little she knew of her mother's side, leaving BlizzardClan in exchange for a nomadic life without reaching out, partially due to her own fear of being rejected, just as she had been in her birth clan. Her experiences there had shaped that philosophy that blood didn't matter, with her trying to carve out her own place in the world, her travels with her siblings had corrected that sentiment, that blood didn't have to get in the way of bonds, something that was growing ever stronger the more time she spent here. She didn't want to just be tied to them by blood, but to each and every one of them by the bonds that she valued so highly. That was the kind of person she'd always been, that was still the type of person she wanted to be even with fancy titles. Even though she was well aware that would make things extremely messy in the future. Perhaps there had been no way to avoid this. "Everybody has the right to request a trial with valid enough reason. Your son attempting to kill another Arcanium was a valid enough reason. Had either Clove and I, and probably the old ma- Suga and Saran, as well, been informed of that, your son would've gotten the same trial and everything. We can't now since we can't exactly condemn a corpse."
It seemed there was no need to hold a trial after all, Asimov doing the work that worst outcome would've led to. Still, the whole thing was causing her head to throb a bit. His kids saw him, their father, kill one of their siblings with little remorse. Murderer or not, that really screwed with a kid's head. With those last words, he was gone, no snark coming from the new liege, who frankly had found all that tiring. "Just... go home or whatever, I guess." She'd offer half-heartedly, well aware that her uncle would do as he pleased anyways, if his actions so far were anything to go by. Whether he listened to some bratty new liege or not, it was up to him, Raeliana thought with a shrug, a sigh leaving her lips. Couldn't stop him now. Had no intention of stopping him in the first place. He probably was aware of the effect it had on Makariy, what would happen here, yet he still chose to do it. What happened was on him. There was nothing more that could be done now. Yep, this was tiring, extremely so. There was visible tenseness in her shoulders that seemed to dissipate, glad that this part was over, a paw running over her eyes. She can hear somebody saying something, the words barely caught by the woman. "It was indeed. And about half of us weren't around when Suga and Saran were first here, me included. So not a real surprise, actually." She'd been born about a year or so after their deaths, after all. "A lot of us saw them properly for the first time at the last meeting." The last meeting. Only a few months ago. So much had happened since then that it felt a hell of a lot longer than the time that had actually passed. Her paw slipped from her face, seemingly much more composed now, before she'd continue.
"Now that that's settled, funeral." It was more likely that some of the older members, their children or step-children in some cases on Saran's part, would've known the inner workings of the eccentric old man and his wife better than Raeliana did, but suggestions were welcome. "Is there anywhere specific that's important to them? Like Solaris might've been. Or a certain way they would've wanted to be laid to rest? Burial, cremation, big party..." Raeliana trailed off, carefully assessing the others' reactions for the time being.