The dull ache of the pinch helps wake her up a little, just enough to think about the words that follow the action. It's a tragedy we both can live through. She snatches at other details to build a case for hope. Sangria's words aren't followed by a soft push away, or a gently sad smile, or any of the myriad of other things that would signal finality. It's not enough to build a strong case, one that could withstand questions at a trial, but it is still a case for hope. Hope that this would happen again, that the same night events would lead to the same awkward morning with the same beautiful woman. It's enough, and it draws a hum from closed lips.
She tilts her face ever so slightly so lean into the hand holding it, enjoying to warmth, marveling at the closeness of it all. S hadn't had any preconceptions about how close you had to be to someone, emotionally, before it could become physical. Hadn't ever been close in either sense. But, she can't deny that it feels nice to be this close to Sangria, to have light touches set her nerves on joyous fire. It's not something the woman had even allowed herself to consider before, too close to danger to let relationships make her hesitant, but there could be room in her life for more of this. More of a not-relationship while she's in not-danger.
"And if I'd known you were so bad at lying, I could have offered lessons instead." Still new to the concept of intimacy, S is only aware of her kiss being teasing as sunlight on a cloudy day could be aware. There's undoubtedly more, more that she would enjoy giving and taking, but she can't see how it's being held back by her own actions. The sunlight blocked by clouds, her actions blocked by a want for food. It's very easy to forget the idea of pancakes when she's looking into Sangria's eyes. Very hard to look away.
Feeling the gentle rise and fall of her partner's body as she breathes makes it harder still. Vague snapshots hidden behind the filter of good wonderful new fit snugly alongside the sensation of lying together like this. Like they could spark and ignite and roar to life at any second. The idea is tempered only slightly by the easy, affectionate way that Sangria holds S' face, foreheads close, grins shared between them. "Ooh, you wound me," she returns with a roll of her eyes.
The actions that follow go in rapid fire, leaving her hand and cheek suddenly cold but her lips oh so warm. Free from the awkward but comfortable embrace she rests a hand behind her head, torso shifting so she can watch. She doesn't know not to watch. Golden hues linger everywhere on Sangria's body that S wishes she could, light snaking through the blinds to indulge in the temptation. She eyes the tattoos that adorn the woman's skin, appreciating the location, guessing at the meaning. Longing for the memories of the night before so she could remember how it felt to touch the inked skin. It's a shame to see them hidden beneath material again.
The little furrow in her brow holds S' attention as she feels eyes appraise her in a different light. Worry, a tiny thing, a greedy thing, begins to sprout in her chest. Questions would ruin their short morning before it could even properly begin. Questions about her scars would cut it shorter, quick smart. She forces herself through the action of breathing but even so, when the questions go unasked, relief escapes quietly with her exhale.
She joins in with the laughter, quiets it with a bite of her lip. "Like this?" Her thigh shifts closer to Sangria's hip rather than away, temptation dancing closer again. It would be easy to take back her lie about wanting to eat. But she doesn't, instead accepting the ache of swinging her leg away and sliding off the bed. Goosebumps join the scars in covering her body as she walks to find clothes, slipping on fresh underwear, shrugging on the coat she'd worn the night before. Shorts are an afterthought.
The woman combs her fingers with her hair and gives up when it resists. It's not like they had plans to leave the house just yet, and messy hair would be the least of her concerns if that was the plan. S tugs the coat closed and offers a hand to Sangria, head tilting to the door. "Committed to the pancake plan, me. If you tell me what you need I'll get it out, quick-smart." Despite her words she feels her primary need is to crawl back into bed, but she'd heard Sangria's stomach, and her own curiosity about making pancakes is compelling.
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