It took a lot of strength from her coming down here, not nearly as bad as what giving a life had... Still it was a painful reminder that even to someone like her who arguably was still heavily remembered within her clan was fading so quickly. Her pelt didn't shine as bright as it had when she first joined her ancestors, and perhaps it never would. Lav was doing her best with Tawny, her best to teach him the ways of the code and that he needed to remind cats to follow it... Even if he had to preach it like an insane lunatic each and every day to them. But he was still young, still new to the clans, was it fair of him to place so much on his shoulders? To expect him to do the work of many cats? No.
But she was desperate. She didn't have much of a choice anymore unless StarClan and everyone within it was going to die.
And... would the clans fall if they were no longer around? Perhaps not right away, but there was no doubt in her mind they would eventually. Leaders would no longer be blessed with lives, medicine cats would receive no visions, and powers that cats like Tawny carried would be useless. Hell, they might even just be stripped away from them.
But she wasn't here to chew their ears off, thats what she had Tawny for... A small chuckle in amusement escapes her as she slowly ambles through the forest she once called home.
She still knew it like the back of her paw, every tree, every shrub, every rock.
How she longed to live again... but the thought of living as someone else that wasn't her? She didn't like it.
She achieved everything in her life a cat could possibly want, she wouldn't throw her memories away for anything.
Besides, if StarClan was still yet standing she wanted to be there when her clan-mates still standing on solid ground came to join her. Especially for her kin...
So many of them already walked within the stars, but some still walked the ground.
If she wasn't hear to give them a warning, what was she here then for?
Well... with each day that passed she grew scared. More and more frightened that if she waited any longer she might not ever speak to her clan-mates again.
Besides... it grew very clear to her some of them needed a reminder she was still here. She was still listening and watching them, trying to guide them when she was able.
There was no reason to continue to mourn her presence, if they improved on following the code and such they would get to spend an eternity with her once they reached StarClan.
The uninvited guest slips through the entrance of camp, as she did so memories of her life all came rushing back to her.
She wished so dearly her age hadn't caught up with her... wished she never had to leave them.
But at least today she'd have the opportunity to say hello, and hopefully not for the last time.