Moments like this were rare, and fleeting at best. Here, with her eyes closed and free from distractions, she could let the rest of her senses flourish. The joy of just experiencing nature like this, feeling icy tendrils of the cold sea breeze creep into the small cave and wrap around her paws, the gentle splash of rain against the side of her matted ashen pelt as the wind carried it at an angle. Cold, damp stone beneath her. Another deep breath filled her nose with the salt of the ocean air - such a different sensation from the scents of her clanmates, of the many flowers around the Gaia, of crinkled paper and scented wax long since burnt down and extinguished by time.
She wanted to keep this with her, this sensation of existing somewhere else. Although the wolf had little time for it these days, Grave sought knowledge in all of it's forms. New experiences and information helped to expand her picture of the world - topics that most would consider common would sometimes be a complete mystery to her. With the past eluding her, everything had to be learned from the ground up. No matter how insignificant. Different environments, no matter how trivial, absolutely were part of the experience, and in a time like this with so much stress weighing heavily upon her aching mind, enjoying something as simple as sitting by the sea on a cold and stormy day was exactly what she was looking for.
And yet, even now out here by herself in the middle of blissful nowhere, it seemed that somebody had found her. For a moment, that almost but not quite tranquil state she had found herself in was washed away, as a deep rooted anger crawled up from the pits of her heart and flooded her chest with a stabbing, hot pain, and if it were anybody else Grave would have snapped at them. But Roman wasn't just anybody. It was the distinctive sound of his light touched walk that gave it away - the gentle steps, one beat a little faster with his injured leg, and then bleak silence where a fourth beat would have once been. The cold, ocean breeze and the sound of that delicate voice melted her bottled rage away.
Grave. One word. Five letters. Her name. The wolf opened her eyes to stare down at him. Together in this little space in the cliff, sheltering next to one another from the storm, he looked so small. The surprise hidden behind his words did not escape her. Neither did the edge in his voice, drowned out slightly by the crashing waves and the whistling gale beside them. She had looked upon him in such a way only once before, when she had followed him far beyond the borders of The Sanctuary. Out into the wilds, out into the unknown, where she had found not the soft-spoken, intense fox she knew. But the fragments of someone that had been through so much, pushed to the brink by her own reckless actions, crying out in anguish and regret. It's hell-it's my hell. The image, his stammered, pain filled words still echoed clearly in her mind.
"Roman." Comes the response. It's her own voice that finally breaks the aura of solitude that had been steadily settling in around them - damaged by his approach, shattered by her reply. The tone of her voice comes naturally, and yet it is one of which she had never really used before. That slight growl which never truly left her was there of course, but even by her standards it was low, even gentle. The shell of a voice which was almost used to display wrath, now empty and devoid of that ferocious emotion. "I'm just..." Two words, six letters, trailed off. A half formed reply, soon replaced with something which slips from her thoughts and out her mouth before she can really stop it. "Tell me. Do you feel trapped here? In The Sanctuary?" There is a long pause, filled by the waves and wind. "I know this will sound strange, but...it's as if I feel confined, only free to expand myself within boundaries. Do you...understand?" The question rings hollow. A statement offered in this private place, an admission to something she didn't quite believe even from herself.
Fear is a reasonable response to Life // Nymph/Deputy // The Sanctuary // Tags