Posts by Ella Ashworth

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — Ella didn't didn't know of the destructive power humans had. She had lived in the loner lands most of her life, and she never had much contact with humans. Maybe the large metal beasts they ride, but that was about it. There was no other contact with them. She didn't know of their powers to destroy and cause physical harm. The harm she grew up knowing was MUCH more different.

Growing up she dealt with it on an emotional level. She understood the way it felt to feel worthless, unwanted, and used because of it. Her family were the reason behind the current feelings she had actually. When she was born she had two siblings, but was treated as a slave more then a child. Early on she learned how to care for others and herself since her siblings grew incapable of it. Her family had her do everything for the whether it be caring for their medical needs at times, hunting, or whatever else they felt they needed. Not only that, but they threw insults and hurtful words at her on many occasions. Her mother did it the most as she strove for her to be what she called, 'the perfect daughter'. In reality though it was the perfect slave. The young kit grew up thinking she had to do these things, and never really complained much about it due to fear of being rejected, hurt, or worse.

This pain shaped her entire personality as well. She grew up afraid of others. Afraid that they would do what her family did. She also grew up believing she wasn't worthy of anything. Not love, not friendship, not anything. She felt she was meant for nothing. She ended up becoming what others would call 'shy', but in her mind she was just being cautious. She didn't know who or what she could actually trust.

The only reason she ended up making it through those times was her self-proclaimed purpose of helping others. She felt she had to help as many people as she could so they wouldn't feel the way she did. After all, who wanted to hurt so badly? This caring nature wasn't limited to just other animals either. It also was geared towards flowers and various plant life. The only things she knew she could raise and save.

You see, she had an ability not many had. Some called it 'flower prints' as she created flowers and various other flora at will. It was never a defensive or offensive power, but to her that didn't matter. It helped when she needed a specific remedy for an ailment her family had. The only limitation was that she had to know the plant or she couldn't create it. Otherwise she could pretty much create nearly anything from a tree to a flower.

Speaking of which, there was a small patch of flowers that currently caught Ella's attention. Walking through the BlizzardClan's forest island, she noticed a small patch of what probably was lavender. Some may find it hard to tell though as the scent had withered away a bit due to its current state. It was shriveled a little, but still surprisingly alive. It was likely it hadn't gotten water in quite some time. Knowing she could bring it back to life, the flower crowned feline went over to the patch of lavender and sat down carefully next to it.

Placing a paw gently on the top of it, she let her small amount of power flow through it reaching to the plant itself. She watched with her green hues as the plant soon began to strengthen and bloom once more. A soft smile placed itself on her features as the plant soon reached its full glory. Though this was quite smile, she saw this as something significant to her. This was probably going to be the highlight of her entire day actually as she didn't do much at the moment except work on her home and help others in her clan. This though...this was a small memory she would definitely treasure.

//Wow, hello muse

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — *throws Ella in here cause Lierre got dropped* I MISSED CANNON SO MUCH AHHHH!!!! So, here is my new flower child. She may try to actually help him through his paranoia with her sweet and caring self. She basically is like a shyer version of Lierre and all. That and MUCH lower self-esteem. Whoops

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — Ella had been walking through the forest once more looking for some things for the home she had found for herself. Though it wasn't in camp she still was quite fond of it. It was a small cottage a little ways from camp. It was in need of some work, and she was grabbing supplies so she could make the roof a little sturdier and reinforce everything.

Until she caught the scent of blood.

Immediately the feline dropped everything she was carrying and ran to the source. She really hoped whoever was injured was okay. Maybe she should have brought the herbs and various other things she was carrying so she could heal whoever was hurt properly. Well, to late to go back now. As she came closer she heard the faint voices of Canoris and Tavi. The worst of scenarios played through her mind as she made her way over.

Seeing the dead bobcat, the feline slowed down feeling a little fear reach her. The way the other was torn in the throat....something wasn't right. She just couldn't quite place what exactly was wrong though. So, she kept her feelings and thoughts quiet as she tried to regain herself while looking away from the dead corpse. Instead she looked over at Canoris who seemed to have some minor bite marks around the chest area.

"I smelt blood. Is everyone okay?" Ella asked not bothering to asked what happened. In all honesty, she didn't really want to know. Judging from the scent coming off the body it seemed as though he wasn't from BlizzardClan. No, he was likely a loner so that was good. She wouldn't end up exiled for killing an intruder. Hopefully.

Keeping her green hues on them, she ignored the corpse entirely not wanting to end up having an internal breakdown.

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — Ella was next to arrive despite not ever having been to a picnic. Being the sheltered girl she had been, she never really did things that were 'fun' like parties, picnics, and things of that sort. She just worked until she felt she couldn't work anymore. Even then she still tried her best to please her family even when it was nearly impossible.

"A picnic? Sounds fun," the flower crowned feline said with a soft smile on her face. She wasn't entirely sure what the etiquette was for a picnic so she didn't eat yet. Instead she sat down a little ways from both of them waiting patiently for some sort of cue. Hopefully one would come soon because she was a bit hungry after working on her small cottage home for a while.

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — The flower crowned feline had been getting supplies in the forest nearby for her cottage when she heard some voices coming from elsewhere. One of them was unfamiliar to her, but the other two definitely were. Tavi and Canoris. Though she wouldn't consider them true friends, she still was a bit more relaxed knowing people she knew were around. The stranger though was the only one that made her truly uneasy. After all, there was a chance this stranger could be hostile.

As the feline came closer with her woven basket of small supplies, she realized this newcomer was a joiner. When he spoke though he seemed to hesitate when speaking his purpose. Was he really a joiner? He seemed to be more excited then most joiners are, and much more relaxed. Maybe there was something different going on. She didn't speak of this though as she sat down a little ways from everyone and set her basket down.

"Hello, Wildyounder. My name is Ella," Ella said introducing herself to the other male. She still hadn't forgotten about when she first joined. How could someone forget to introduce themselves to the people they would end up clanmates with? Well, somehow she had managed to initially. She still tried to redeem herself for that mistake.

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — She couldn't deny, the only reason she knew there was a tea party was because of the smell and chatter. She could recognize the smell of good tea from practically a mile away. She had used it many times for her siblings when they had ailments or sore throats. Usually she would also add herbs with it.

And that was when she got a brilliant idea.

Deciding to liven up the tea party, Ella quickly had gathered some herbs and honey from her personal storage and brought it over. There were all sorts of things like chamomile, mint, and other various things people liked to stew in tea. Her personal favorite thing was letting a mint leaf stay in black tea to give it a good, fresh mint taste. It was a refreshing way to awaken the senses honestly.

With a small smile on her face, the flower crowned feline set down the basket of herbs and jars of honey on the corner of the blanket. She really hoped Tavi wouldn't have minded her bringing such things. She just wanted to attract more people with the herbal smells. In her opinion, people should see what Tavi had done for them instead of past mistakes. Maybe this could be a first step.

"I brought some honey and herbs for the tea if that's okay," Ella said with her soft smile still on her face. It was clear though she was a bit nervous about what Tavi would think of her action. Then again, everything made her quite nervous. The thing that made her have the most anxiety though was the thought of crossing someone's boundary lines. That or the moment she realizes she hurt someone more then helped them. Either way it wasn't good.

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — The flower crowned feline felt a little bad for not being more useful with information. This wasn't her fault though as she had only joined as of recently. That wouldn't stop her though from wishing she could provide the other female with what she wanted.

Upon hearing the next sentence her face lit up a bit. She was quite happy that there was a starting point to their search. Hopefully the home she had would lead them to her name. It may not be immediate as memories can be hard to track, but it would still be something. Something was better then nothing. With that said, Ella smiled slightly as she looked at Jetta. It was clear from her expression and the look in her eyes that she was much more relaxed. When she was helping someone that was usually how she was. Determined, excited, and ready to help. It made sense since she had to be that way for her family.

"Do you mind leading the way then?" Ella asked in a polite manner. It was quite interesting how polite and well-mannered she was. Despite being emotionally and verbally abused she still helped others and did so in the most sensitive and polite way possible. It may just be in her nature, but to think that someone so hurt and broken could care so much for someone actually could be quite amazing.

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — The feline listened as she said she had to please him. Honestly, she felt a little bit of sympathy. Being her mother had been the most emotionally abusive of her family, she felt she had to please her the most. This was usually to keep her happy, or to keep her from yelling at her. She felt she had to earn her way into her mother's heart which was honestly wrong. Even now though she felt like she failed her family by leaving even if it was for the best.

"Pleasing him won't get your position back, Ella said, once again, being completely honest. If he had already given away the position then it was unlikely she was getting it back. This was especially true if Kady ended up being what Aleksei would consider a better deputy. "You don't need that position in order to help the clan either. You can help the clan in other ways then just managing most of it," she continued before a very soft smile came upon her face."You have the ability to raise the morale of the entire clan on your own. Why not host some events, suggest ideas, help out other clanmates, and actually try doing something for yourself sometimes too? It isn't just about rank. It is about what you do with your own self," she finished as she looked at her.

She really hoped she would understand her feelings and thoughts. Being how she grew up, she didn't care much for rank or titles. She just cared about being there for her family. Now that she was in BlizzardClan she hadn't changed in that aspect. She still cared only about helping others, and doing what she could for her clan. She didn't care about the name. She cared about making her small mark on people in her own way with that way being kindness, compassion, and loyalty. Even with her emotionally abusive past she still found a place in her heart from pretty much everyone.

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — Could you possibly draw Ella? There is a reference drawing below her tags in a spoiler, but if you want me to put it here let me know!

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — Ella gave a small nod as she listened to the ebony wolf. It was good that she had done it in self-defense. Otherwise she probably would have had to take some sort of action against her. Something that she didn't want to really do at all.

The next thing she looked at though were the wounds. Being she had helped her family when they got into scuffles or accidents she knew of basic healing techniques. Since the wounds weren't super deep she figured some marigold or horsetail poultice would do the trick. Better to be safe when it came to infections then sorry.

"Do you mind if I look at your wounds? I could probably do a little bit to help the bleeding and prevent it from getting infected," the feline said making sure to prove her medical knowledge. Honestly, some people wouldn't accept help unless they were aware of the person's experience with what they needed. To some people though it was a bit of a bother to say the extra words. Hopefully she was the first scenario and not the second.

With that said, she focused some of her energy into the ground to at least plant some marigold and horsetail seeds in the ground. She didn't quite make them sprout just in case she didn't want to be taken care of.

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ —The flower crowned feline couldn't help but feel a little bit embarrassed and nervous when she said to not be shy. Was she really being that shy? Then again, she wasn't really one to approach things confidently. Being she had been so sheltered it would take her a while to get used to all the customs the clan had.

"Alright, I'll try," Ella said with a soft smile on her face before grabbing a rabbit. For once she actually let out a small bit of laughter as she and Surge spoke. It was quite amusing how the two talked to each other. It was clear they were quite close. She kind of wished she could actually feel close to someone. To trust someone enough with her thoughts and emotions, and to feel secure around them. Sadly she felt she never would. Besides, in her mind she didn't deserve to feel happy.

"Is that why you chose rabbit for today? To get revenge?" The female questioned with a small, amused smile. If one cared to notice she didn't really smile as big as other people. Usually her smiles were sweet and tiny. Some may even call them fake. The only time she had a larger smile was when she was given her weekly task. Something she would have to get working on soon.

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — Listening as he spoke, she noted how he confirmed Canoris's words. So, he was blind? She never really could imagine what it was like not to see. She could only remember the times she had the ability of sight. Naturally at a young age she couldn't see, but she was too young then to remember it now. She made a mental note to make sure to help him out if the need ever arose.

"Would you like anything to eat or drink? Maybe a tour?" Ella asked though she had a feeling he already knew the territory. It still didn't harm her to ask since it could have been quite some time since he had been there. Not only that, but she wanted to make sure he wasn't hungry or thirsty. If he was maybe she could find a way to make some herbal tea for him. She had the herbs already with her so why not?

The feline waited patiently for his answer to her questions. Then another thought arose. Did he need a place to stay? Her cottage wasn't really in the best shape at the moment, but if he needed a temporary place she could offer up hers. It was quite spacious, and probably had room for a few different animals. That was why it was taking her so long to finish it up.

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — It was about time Ella got to work on her task this week. Osiris had given her the task to begin creating a clan garden. When she heard this she couldn't help but get REALLY excited. Herbs, flowers, tress, and any plant in general were her area of expertise. It made sense with her power being related to them, and her flower child appearance helped add on to it. With that said, these past couple of days had been spent planning a layout for the garden. She spent so long on it because she wanted to make it big enough to enjoy and be useful, but small enough so it wouldn't take up a huge spot in the camp. After making the plans though came the actual creation of it.

Choosing a spot near the right edge of the camp, the feline had places several small trees. Most of them were deciduous, but there were a couple weeping willows as those were her personal favorite. Beside the pots of trees were also some smaller pots with flowers, herbs, and various other plants. The plants and flora were even grouped for color schemes, and put in the spots they were meant to go in. She had already laid out some rocks to mark the borders of each plot of land they would use for planting. If one cared to notice, the plots actually were made so there were walkways and spaces for the other to rest.

Smiling larger then normal and in a proud manner, she looked at each plant with excited green hues. She was completely ready to begin her task. Something she would even try to finish on her own if she had to.

"Would anyone like to help with the clan garden?" Ella called using a louder voice so people could hear her. It was a bit nerve-raking to be using her 'outside voice'. Most of the time her voice was softer and more calming. This time though she knew she had to speak up in order to get this accomplished. Hopefully though some people would hear and come join her.

Before anyone even came over though, the female began checking everything over making sure everything was in the correct place.

//This is so exciting!!!! I love this task so much!!

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ —//Alright, sounds good!

Ella gave a small nod as she motioned towards camp. She couldn't help but softly smile though as a more playful, carefree part of her began to come out. It was always amusing to watch someone act in such a manner. Being who she was, she never really was the type to joke and play around. Then again, she never really did those things growing up. She had been the one to care for the family so playing wasn't an option for her. Joking wasn't either as she would have been harshly scolded for it.

Soon following the clouded feline, the female continued to smile a little bit as they made their way towards camp. Something told her though that this wasn't the brightest idea. Letting a stranger into the heart of their territory? Where other BlizzardClanner's would be around? Probably not her smartest move.

"Is your home deep in the camp, or on the outskirts?" The flower crowned feline questioned as she continued to follow her. It was better to be safe then sorry. If her home was on the outskirts then they might be okay. Otherwise they probably would have to find a way around the other members who would likely have her exiled for helping this stranger regain her memories.

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — Upon hearing Kady's voice, the feline turned her head and smiled kindly to her back. Her question though probably had an obvious answer, but might as well answer anyway.

"I do! I actually grew some of these plants myself," Ella said referencing to her power of flower prints. It was pretty much the one thing she liked about herself honestly. Otherwise she pretty much thought she was just a waste of space. It was sad, but the truth.

When she heard her offer her assistance her eyes grew a little wider with excitement. If it wasn't for her shy and nervous personality she would have been jumping around in glee. "Thank you! We have quite a bit to do," The flower crowned feline said with a bright, genuine smile on her face. She made a mental note not to work her too hard though since it was obvious the dragoness was dead tired.

"I put all the plants into groups. Each group is sitting next to a small spot surrounded by rocks. If you can I would like to keep all the plants of that group inside the rock border so there will be pathways to get in, out, and around the garden," Ella started as she motioned to the different things with her paw. She wanted to make sure the directions were clear, but she knew some people still sometimes had problems understanding. With that said, the female smiled as she looked back at the dragoness. "I also made a space for a herb garden that the medic may find useful. There are also some trees that need planted in the center of some areas. Those will have smaller rock circles which they will be beside. Now, if you have any questions let me know," she finished before handing Kady some gardening supplies. She really hoped she didn't throw too much on her. She just wanted to make sure the garden was as functional and organized as possible for the clan's sake as well as her own

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — The feline gave a small nod and smiled softly as she listened to the deputy. It was nice to have someone appreciate her efforts to help. Most of the time her family told her that her help wasn't good enough. So, for them she always strove to go above and beyond. It wasn't like that changed with anyone else, but at least she knew her effort was enough for her. It was a pleasant feeling to have.

Smiling softly, the flower crowned warrior listened as she asked her question. To be honest, this would be the first time she would have talked about her true reasoning for joining. It was quite nerve-raking. This was especially true since she might know Ada, and might have something to say about her past situation.

"Ada actually invited me here," Ella answered deciding that honesty was the best policy. Why lie about her reasoning when it wasn't of ill intentions? "We met in the loner lands while I was hunting for my family. We ended up talking for a bit, and she asked if I would go with her when she rejoined. At first I didn't go since I had to take care of my family. After a couple days though I decided to finally come here," she continued recalling the conversation and how kind Ada had been despite the struggles she probably had. It was refreshing after being emotionally and verbally abused for so long.

"It's funny really. I haven't seen her at all after that," she added with a more playful tone hoping to clear the air of dread starting to come over her. It was hard though since she really did miss her family. For so many moons they had been her everything. She did as much as she could for them even at the cost of her own health sometimes. After she left she couldn't stop thinking about them. It hurt knowing they could be suffering because she had decided to leave. She knew though it was for the best even if it was hard to accept.

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — Bumping the thread~!

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — Bump~

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — Ella's smile broadened a bit wider as she noticed Tavi approaching the two. Though she knew the two had a little bit of tension she would continue with her project and weekly task. Just because there might be a potential problem didn't mean she was just going to let the garden die.

"Great! Did you hear my instructions or no?" the feline asked remaining as polite as possible to her. She really wasn't trying to be rude in asking such a question. As said before, she just wanted to make sure everything was right. She had a plan, and she was going to make sure it was done correctly. As she waited for Tavi's reply though she began getting the gardening supplies for her to use. Smiling from ear to ear, she picked out the best tools for her since she had a variety of sizes for each tool.

TAGS ✦ ✧ ✦ — The feline felt a little disheartened as her tone changed. Maybe she should have just kept quiet? Well, it was too late to go back on it. It was obvious though from each word she said that she didn't understand what the practical flower child was saying. Respect didn't come with rank, she knew that. It came with action, words, and effort. It seemed as though Tavi didn't know what respect even meant with what she told her.

"Tavi, respect may take time to earn or get. About the 'not respecting a little old paladin' thing, I find that to be absurd. I'm a warrior, a lower rank then you, and people show me respect. From what I can see, and I could be wrong, you respect me too," Ella said getting a little worried for her. If she wouldn't listen to her then who would she listen to? The female was doing her absolute best to prove to Tavi that respect can be earned without rank. It was like she didn't want to hear it though. It made her extremely concerned because she could see the signs of self-destruction. Something she knew all to well.

With a soft frown, her hopes of trying to help her began to dwindle a little as she sat there. Would she even try to understand her words? Was she to stubborn and self-destructive to see that she also respected her? Even though they didn't know each other well, she knew she deserved basic respect and care. How others seemed to abandon that reality she had no real idea. It was actually quite sad.

Ella waited patiently for Tavi's next response. She just hoped it wouldn't end up in a fight.