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I was drained. This was getting to me. The games... The people, the killing.I left my dinner and the boy in my district who was just a boy who was just as confused as I and I go up to the roof, and I sit down. Im just wearing leggings and a sweatshirt and my blonde hair is thrown up into a messy ponytail. I sit, towards the end of the roof, looking at the empty streets and lights and I just felt drained.

I wanted to go home, but even then, home wasn't home. My father beat me, we were all starving and unhappy and If I came out of this alive, I would be a murderer who was unhappy. I was lost.

I listen to him and I felt my heart beating in my ears. Something that happens when I become to brave for my mind. Where my brain shys away and my heart moves my body. My hand took his and I pull him back to me so he was sitting down again. thump thump thump, My heart was beating out of my chest and at this point my brain was hiding behind my heart, so my heart could control me. I move so my knee was on the other side oh him; sitting on his lap and I could tell he was a little shocked. " I trust you" I say, my voice shy and weak. thump thump thump. My eyes look at his and I could feel my emotions drip into my words. " Distract me, Distract me" I say, looking at him and my hands went to the sides of his neck, my fingertips brushing his hair line behind his ear. thump thump thump. I Kiss him. thump thump thump thump. I kissed him.

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I look at her with a goofy smile. I pull away and I slowly pull her underwear down. Kissing her thigh and leg as I did so; ever so softly. I slowly spread her legs " My baby" I whisper-

( lol imma not continue, im okay with sex talk but I know this site is not lmao)

I lay next to her, smiling. We didn't have sex, cause I honestly didn't think I was ready and that's so stupid. I was Abnegation born and I guess intimate stuff still heavily impacts me. But I did go down on her and I made it my misson for her to feel good, and I did. I smile as I see her chest heaving and her forehead gleaming from some sweat from the pleasure my mouth and well fingers had given her. " How'd you like that?" I say with a big goofy grin. Feeling accomplished that I made her feel so good. I loved her.So dam much, and maybe I just, I don't even know. I just wanted to do everything in my power to make her feel good. I was nervous to have sex, as One Ive never done it, two I was scared I wouldn't do it right and three I knew the first time hurt the girl and that made me even more nervous

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I wipe my tears as I see the boy sit far away from me. " Yeah" I say and my voice cracks and I sigh and I just stare off to the distance. I wipe the rest of my tears and I take a deep breath in order to stop them. My hands rested on my cheeks to warm them and then they went back in my hoodie.

I felt like a little girl who was lost, and I feel like I couldnt even survive in the arena if I tried. The chance I would get knives, the one thing I knew how to fight with was very, very slim. If i headed towards the middle I would die. If I go out I could get found or even worse, starve.

He kisses me back and I feel so much better. I could tell in the way he touched me that he was afraid. He mumbles the words and I pull away. " I am afraid of anyone touching me, who isn't you. Make intimate stuff something I want instead of fearful of" I say and my fingers run through his hair. " Im not fragile with you, Im not scared with you" I say, looking at him , my brows furrowed as I wanted him to know. " Treat me like you would without worrying I will break because with you" I say and my thumb traces his bottom lip. " I feel safe" I say. My eyes looking at his and I needed him. I needed him to kiss me and grab me like he meant it. The more people treated me as fragile, the more fragile I will become and Alex... Alex was the only one who I was okay around...More than okay

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I smile as she says that. I smile like a dam fool and I loved it. " Okay, I promise" I say and I grabb her butt and I pull her leg so they were over my waist as I held her close to me. I kiss her forehead and then her nose, both her cheeks and then her lips. " I love you" I whisper and I kiss her neck and her shoulder and every body part I could reach " You don't have to say it immediately, say it when you mean it" I say and smile at her as my thumb rubbs her cheek softly. " I dont ever. Ever want to loose you" I say and smile. " How about tomoroow you come visit me in my room? Its not as cozy but it has a nice, big shower" I say and chuckle at the thought, " And a big bathtub"

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I feel him kiss me. actually kiss me and actually hold me and I felt. I felt normal, which was something I have never felt. It was nice not being fragile, it was nice that with him I felt normal. I feel him deepening the kiss and I just melted in his hands. I began needy for him and as he touched me and kissed me I just felt right. My hands ran through his hair, pulling on it a little and I could feel the kiss deepen and I could tell her liked it. I lightly pull at his hair as our bodies became close, as I felt him. I felt more than a girl. I felt like I was... I was his girl. Which was stupid, as being someones girl wasn't a big deal, especially as we havn't talked about how we felt about each other yet, but it didn't mean the feelings weren't there. I pull away , my lips swollen from our heavy kisses and I look at him and smile, I lean down and kiss his neck, all the way back to his lips; the ones I was craving.

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I smile at her and i hold her in my arms. " They already are" I say and chuckle, " one of my subordinates whose older but dumber tried to question me. Im her boss, the minute her IQ is higher than mine is when she can question me" I say and chuckle. " God im so glad I was a book nerd" I say and I kiss her forehead. " My place isnt cozy, but I have a feeling having you there will do a lot" I say and smile. " Its apartment, 3rd highest, so almost a penthouse... Beautiful view, nice and quiet... sometimes" I say and smile. " A huge round bed also... One I have not slept in" I say and chuckle. " So I cant tell you if it'll be comfortable" I say and I look at her. She was such a beauty and I just couldn't handle it. I was so god dam lucky

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I feel him kiss harder and I can feel my hips lean into his, his lips mesmerizing me. I feel his lips linger to my jaw and my neck, my arm getting shivers as he nibbled and kissed my jaw and neck " mmm" I say almost a moan but not quite here as he kissed my neck. I bite my lower lip and my hands pull and go through his hair " Alex" I say breathlessly " Kiss me" I say, wanting his lips on mine once more. I feel his lips on mine once more, kissing me hard and I melted into him once more. Our lips needy. I was needy. I leave his lips and I make him taste his own medicine as I kiss his jaw, and his neck, sucking occsionaly. Focusing on his neck as I sucked lightly and kissed

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I smile " Ill be okay I promise" I say and smile and I hold her tightly. " I love that you like it here. You are a good little nurse" I say and smile. I hold her tightly as I rested my head on the pillow as we laid together. I felt so whole. In a matter of weeks she has become my everything. My love. My girl. My family. She was there when I was weak or strong or just clueless on what would happen to me. I couldnt help but think how grateful I was for fate. If the Erudite section hadnt been so crowded I would have never sat in the Amity section and I would have never been able to meet her. FAte was on my side and I was so happy. I couldnt even think what would happen if she hadnt sat next to me.

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I smile at his groan, feeling accomplished and happy. I smirk a little against his lips as I continue, but this time I suck a little harder, my hands on his chest. My lips traveling down to his shirt collar and then going back up. I move back up and I kiss his lips again. I lean to him more and he ends up falling back on his back, sending me forward on him. " I giggle as we fall back on the bed smiling. "Someone feeling weak now?" I tease as I kiss his cheek " The Alex?" I say as I tease him as I lean into him and I kiss him. Feeling lost and happy. Felling lost in the sense of of where I fell lost in him.In our kisses, in our everything and it felt so nice. I move to his neck again, leaving some small marks from my sucking and I hear him say my name again. "Someones enjoyin" I tease again softely with a smile against his neck

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I look at her, I frown. " hey hey whats going on gorgeous?" I ask as I sit up, making her sit up as well. I hold her face and look into her eyes. Why was she stressing out? Why was she worried? It made me worry Like I did something wrong. Maybe I shoukdnt have gone down on her... Maybe I shouldn't have said I love you, maybe she wasn't ready. The thought made me feel so uneasy. I let out a breath that I didn't know I was keeping in from all the stress. " Baby you can talk to me" I say and look at her eyes with mine and i hold her soft and gentle face. I couldn't handle knowing I did something to her, the thought made my heart ache as I would never want to do that to her first hand. Her stressing out about something that wasn't me made me stressed still, as If she was worried or stressed then I was to. She deserved to be happy all the time.

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This is where being small comes to my advantage as he could easily flip me over. I gasp as he does , my legs wrapping around his waist as he hovers over me " Oh" I say simply, my voice breathy and high. I smile as he calls me princess, I liked it. I feel him kiss my neck and suck my neck hard. " Alex" I moan as he does so " This isn't fair " I whine breathlessly as he does so. I bite my bottom lip as he kisses and sucks on my neck. He was too good at this. I let my legs wrap around his waist tighter and I continually bite my bottom lip, holding back more moans, but small sounds escaped my lips as he does so.

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I chuckle "Baby doll" I say and shake my head. " Nothing will happen to me, or to you or to us. I have the power to make sure" I say and I kiss her forehead " common lets go to bed, we gotta work tomorrow" I say and I pull her down to me to lay in bed. I hold her and I bury my face in her neck " Oh baby it'll be okay I pinky swear" I say " Hey if you get caught coming to Erudite I can just say you traveled her to help me with my health, as Amity is the only one with nurses" I say and smile against her skin " Ill just lave out the part where your my naughty nurse" I tease

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I listen to him as he whispers in my ear, my breath heavy. I could tell he knew why I was so quiet, and his whisper brought me chills. He kisses to my lips and then he says that line and I blush. The princess thing was driving me wild and his little comments just... just got me. I stop biting my lip just as he kisses me and immediately I let out a small moan against his lips from the feeling of his lips on mine. My hands go around his neck, playing with the hair at the back of his head as he kisses me and I just melt. He made me worry less, he made me happy and giggle and intimate without being scared. I was enjoying every second. I lightly moan against his lips as he kisses me in such a way. I loved it.

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I wake up and I smile. I slowly got out of bed and I make sure to tuck her into the sheets. I even took a cute little Polaroid of her sleeping and then of me kissing her forehead and I left the pictures next to her. I head out quietly to get back to my job, and well change. I change into my normal suit, with a blue tie that complimented my eyes and my black suit. I get to my job and I look at my intern " coffee now" I say as I walk to my office " where are the experiment updates? I need the papers now" I command and I shut up door and sit down, looking at the people, scrambling under my authority and commands. It was funny how young I was and just me being assertive made them follow me. The human species were funny,

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( I love it)

I sigh and look at him, thinking about what I was going to say. I mean I felt like he had a point and he just, My shyness made me wanna back down and agree to him . But then it made me angry, I shouldn't be so shy where I forget what I want. I shouldn't be shy anymore, this is college, this is what ive been dreaming of.

" no" I say and look at him. My heart thumping in my ears and I try to mentally shake off my nerves. " No im going to a party, and Im going to drink, and Im going to have fun" I say assertively or a tleast as much as I could. Me being assertive wasn't really a thing but I really did try.

" I will find someone then, who knows where a party is, ill meet people there" I say and smile and I cut into my waffle and take a bite with a smile.Wondering what he would say

I giggle at his remark and I close my eyes as he was about to kiss me but doesn't. I whine " Alexxx", my beath heavy as he kisses my neck and collarbone again. I let out soft moans that could no longer be masked by my biting of my lip. I look at him as he hovered inches from my lips. " You are such a tease " I groan looking at him as I pout my lip at him. I look at him and my smile breaks my pout as just looking at him made me smile. I lifted my head up to peck his lips which made me giggle. " You think your in charge?" I say , raising a brow at him as my face was plastered with this huge smile. My hands trace his chest, then down o his abbs, slowly tracing them. They went to the hem of his sweats but I took a turn and moved to his sides and I pinched, tickling him. Giggling as I did so.

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I sigh as I sat in my office as they brought me my cup of joe and the reports. I stand up as I sipped my coffee with the report in my other hand. I read them as I walked to the lab " no no no" I grumble as I went to the lab room. " the measurements of this syrum is wrong!-'

After the day, I go back to my room, smiling as I cleaned up my room for my girl. Excited she could be in the building , the Faction that made me feel so happy. I dim the lights as without them dim, they were too bright, as if you were in a doctors office and that wasn't the coziest. I sat on my bed, waiting for her to come up anxiously, excited to tell about my day, and learn how her day went.

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I frown as my tickling attempt didn't work but I was melted by his lips and that was something I was happy for. I kiss him back and I feel his lips again, " What no" I whine and I feel him kiss me again on my neck and I softly moan. " Alex please" I moan as my whole body felt flustered , wanting more of him. I felt my breath get heavy as he kissed and suck. My chest going up and own with my breaths. " Fine if you want to play that way" I say , my voice breathy as my hands traveled back to its tracing, tracing his abbs and then to his sweatpants line, playing with the hem of his sweats as my soft moans escaped my lips " Alex" I ay again in a breathy moan as he kisses my neck.

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I smile as I hear her call out 'baby'. I go and open it and I feel her hug and I hug her body back. " Ill run us a nice hot shower... or bath?" I ask her as I bring her inside and I close and locked the door behind me. We walked into the modern marble bathroom and I smile. The shower was huge and marble as well, and next to it was the hot tub type bathtub, with a huge window next to it that let you see the lights of the city. I take off my tie and my jacket, and then my shirt, " How was your day my love?" I asked as I stripped myself of my pants and walked around in my grey boxers ; grey like my home. I always liked having something grey on me, it was something that reminded me of home.

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I hear him talking and then stop when my fingers playing with the hem of his sweats. Smiling as he called me a 'dam vixen' i giggle. Im just returning the favor Alex" I whisper in his ear with a smirk. I start kissing his neck , sucking occasionally as my hands slowly slipped in his waistband, but stayed on the outside of his underwear, and with that, I played with that waistband. Smiling as I knew my actions were driving him crazy based on his breaths

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I chuckle and I shake my head. " I guess we are just cold hearted here, the temperature matches us" I say and chuckle. I smile at her " Thank you baby" as I say she compliments me about the grey. I smile as she stripps and get in the warm bath. " wait" I say and I go into my room and I pull out two glasses of whine and a bottle. " I knew some people, and I was able to get this for us" I say and I pour us two glasses and I set them on the small part of the side of the bathtub that was flat . I takeoff my boxers and I get in. " A special night" I say, and look at the glowing city that was our view. I take a sip of wine and I smile at her

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I sigh as I listen to them talk, not really careing at the moment but aware of the Wolves they were speaking of. I look down and I hear my sister make a noise. " She waking up" I say, to no one in particular

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OOC;;

Im feel pain, I remember racing away and then seeing people and that was when my body gave out on me. I open my eyes and I see the dark sky, and my brother? I grumble some words as I sit up which quickly made me realize it was a bad choice as the pain hit me in my head and ribs. " Where am I?"

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I fee him touch my sides that were bare, as I had no bra on so he was able to touch more of my ribs. He began kissing my neck and I let out a soft moan " f.ck" I say breathily and he starts kissing my collarbone and my hands left his pants, feeling weak. But as my hands left , my legs around his waist pulled his waist so it was up against mine, knowing that would drive him crazy. My eyes fluttered closed as I feel his big hands on me and his kisses on my neck and collarbone, He was just too good at this

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I chuckle as she turns on the jets. " no no, nothing exciting. Just labs and bossing people around, some people are so slowww" I whine and chuckle. " I have my own office, I make people grab me coffee and reports. Not going to lie, totally on a power trip" I say and smile and I take another sip of the wine as we looked out at the view. SO pretty. Another thing I was greatful for. Like I was grateful for my girl being able to sit with me in this tub and look at that view.

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( lol bitch XD I llove the way he thinks)

I gave a simple nodd, " Well if you must" is all I say, I could tell he was unhappy but I did not care. If he felt the need to go with me then so be it, I wasn't forcing him so I had to tell myself, there was no need to feel bad.

The party began at 10, so we headed over at eleven. I was just wearing some Levi shorts and a tank top that barely showed my stomach. I was a little insecure but as I got my makeup on which consisted of Mascara and a pinky nude lip, I felt a little better. I was never one for a cake face, as I thought natural looked better.

We arrive to a smaller fraternity that was known to be pretty calm. But by the looks of Oliver's face, it was a lot more wild then it was talked about. I step inside, and I smile nervously as people were dancing and talking and hyping up. Some smoking and a lot dancing. I went and grabbed myself a drink as Oliver ran into his friends. I was leaning on the kitchen counter, sipping my strong drink that got me giggly as a boy who was tall, blonde hair and had the ego of a mountain which his pals. My guess football team but I wasn't quite sure. " Hey pretty thing, I havn't seen a cutie like you before" he says and I just giggled. Rolling off his pretty talk

I giggle as our breaths were heavy as we became closer. We both wanted each other and I think we both knew that, but we both knew that would happen in the future, just not right now. We began to simmer down and I push him off to me and onto his side with a giggle. I lay on my side so I could face him, his hand around my waist that felt so natural; as my hip her pushed against is. " I gotta admit, your good at what you do" I say and smile at him, our lips swollen from kissing and our necks bruises with hickies and love kisses. " Have fun explaining those marks tomorrow" I say and I remember it was an off day as it was parent day and I blush. " Ill have fun explaining to my parents, if they come" I say and giggle as I bury my head in his neck. I felt safe, I felt content. But even more than that, I felt happy.

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I smile at her " Thank you" I say and look at her. " I am surprised as well, I mean Im new and Im one of he main people. Not a leader by any means, but a boss in a small section is still huge... I feel like I just pretended to have that confidence to lead them. I guess they trusted it and actually wanted me to lead, because I had ideas and plans and they all just... agreed" I say and smile. " Which is still so shocking to me but I will roll with it" I say with a shrug.

We grow quiet as we looked at the view, our wine glasses slowly becoming more empty. " Sometimes... I wonder whats outside of here. I know they say we are the only ones left, but how do we know for sure?"

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I giggle into his neck" I think Im going to have to agree" I murmur into his neck. I yawn and i feel my yes get heavy " and yes, your THE Alex" I say in mid yawn, making my words drawn out and messy. I get closer to him, if that was even possible and I close my eyes. Not wanting this moment to end. I felt so... happy, and I missed this feeling. I didnt know I was living without it for such a long time until now.

I wake to still have him holding me. His grip was nice and soft but close. I see the day light pearing in from his big windows and I smile. I stretch myself against him and I pull away. I pull away and move myself so I was sitting on his lap as he was still sleeping on his back. " Wakey wakey" I say in my tired voice as I kissed his cheek.

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"Yeah" I say and smile." but curiosity kills the cat" I say simply. Things went silent again. It wasnt awkward or weird silence. It was peaceful. I yawn and smile at her. " Im so glad you are here" I say as I go to her, my hands on either side of he as I hovered over her bare body. " God you are so beautiful" I say and I kiss her forehead. " You know, I could always do another round like last night, make you feel good, make all the problems vanish away from today" I say, but this time im close, and whispering; my voice raspy. She made me so happy, just the thought of making her feel good made me happy. I loved making her feel good, I loved making he say my name, I loved making her giggle and smile and just... be happy. I couldnt get enough of it

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// sorry on mobile

I smile as he wakes up, " I think so" I say and smile and I kiss his cheek and I get up. I smiled at him " come on let's grab breakfast and the postings for this session of training will be posted. I'm going to see my parents and that means tomorrow, no fighting, it's all that mental stuff which thank god for no more physical stuff" I say and smile. I put on my leggings and I threw my hair up in its standard high ponytail ,I put my bra on under his sweater that I decided I would just wear. " come on let's eat Alex" I say and I see him get up and I give him a kiss on his lips. A peck at first but my body leaned in for more so one peck turned into many long kisses. I giggle and pull away " your kisses could keep me for hours" I say and smile. We walk down to the cafeteria and I stay close to him as we eat. I wasn't exactly nervous or scared, I just felt safer with him. Away from him and I could feel my heart start racing in the bad way. I grabbed some juice and an apple and look at him. " sleep good?" I ask, my fingers tracing the marks on his neck that I left that made me giggle.

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I looked at her as she called me too nice " well duh anything for my baby" I say and I see her lean into me and tell me it's my turn. " oh yeah baby?" I ask, amused and curious and I mean also aroused but that wasn't beside the point. I was curious on what she had in store and such. As I was kinda nervous about my uh size. I wasn't small by any means, it's just no one has really seen it and felt it. But if anyone had to, it would be her because I trusted her so freaking deeply. This was just a new level of trust , as we dove into more sexually advanced stuff and I understood that it would be anxious at first. After all it was foreign territory for the both of us but I was glad we were conquering this foreign land together.

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