current name: sheepcloud
name meaning: sheep is for his curly fur that resembles wool; cloud is for his calm, meditative nature.
past names: sheeppaw + sheep
age: twenty-five moons
gender: trans male
rank: flame-watcher
desired rank: content
short appearance description (one sentence): a chubby, curly-furred torbie with olive eyes and a x-shaped scar on his left shoulder.
personality: laidback | pacifistic | mellow | kindhearted | patient | lazy | hesitant | insecure | mealy-mouthed | private
↳ in-depth description is a wip
history:
TW: abuse, mentions of gender dysphoria
sheepcloud originated from a cruel rogue group who had misogynistic views, treating the she-cats of the groups as nothing more than slaves and kit-bearers. sheep, himself, had been born into a female's body, and when he was deemed old enough by the males of the group, he was forced into the harsh lifestyle of a slave. as a reminder of his place in the group, he was given the x-shaped scar that now rests upon his shoulder by the leader of the group. it was a mark that all she-cats received once they were six months of age. as time went on, sheep discovered that he felt very conflicted about being seen as a girl. and it wasn't just because of the role he had been put into; something felt off, like he wasn't meant to be a she-cat, but he was stuck in the body of one anyways. he, of course, kept these feelings to himself. the only cat he opened up to about it was his sister (named juniper), his most trusted friend, who accepted him without hesitation and vowed to keep it a secret.
by the time he and juniper were twelve moons, they had made a plan to run away from the group. they'd had enough, and after sheep received a particularly harsh beating for sleeping in one morning, juniper convinced sheep to escape with her so that they could be free. so one night, when the moon was high in the sky, they managed to sneak away from the group and the guards and fled.
they traveled for nearly half a moon before collapsing in flintclan's territory, starving and sickly. they were found by a border patrol that afternoon, and rushed back to camp, where the flame-watchers looked after them until they were strong and healthy. during the time spent in the flame-watchers den, sheep had learnt a few things about herbs, and had become instantly intrigued by the life of a healer. one of the flame-watchers caught on to this interest, and asked sheep one night if he would like to become their pupil. sheep was hesitant at first to join another group so soon after escaping from the previous abusive one, telling the flame-watcher that he'd think about it. but as he spent more time in flintclan, he came to realize that this group of cats were nothing like the rogues were. they were all caring and supportive of one another, from the tiniest kit to the most ancient elder, and the she-cats here were treated as equals. after a while, sheep accepted the flame-watcher's offer, and he joined flintclan alongside juniper.
but things weren't quite right just yet. even though sheep, now named sheeppaw, and juniperpaw had found a perfect home within flintclan, he was still seen as a female by everyone except juniperpaw. it took a long time for sheeppaw to open up about his identity. by the time he finally confessed this secret to his clanmates, he had already completed his training and received his full name. but with his sister's encouragement and support, and his growing trust of the clan, he was able to come out. and to his relief, most, if not all were accepting and supportive of him.
since then, he's lived a content life as a flame-watcher of flintclan.
love interest: n/a
kits: n/a
other kin: holly [mother]
bear [father]
juniperbreeze [sister, adoptable]
best friend(s): juniperbreeze, open
friends: open
enemies: open for plotting
other:
