Posts by [Creampaw]

Cream's ears flattened as another tom made his way over. Nervously flicking his tail tiredly for a moment as he weakly noticed his ebony friend escape form their clans camp. He was confused and more then a little worry, though his thoughts could not linger for more the moments. ``A-AH Car-caraway!`` His shimmering blue optics shined with a bubbling growth of concern that had come and taken control of his thoughts, numbing his pain.

The small child perked up raising a paw. ``Thyme! It's used for anxiety and shock!`` He chirped excitedly as his bright blue eyes glittered with excitement.

//Fox is an npc everyone can use, full freedom. and yeah that's perfect pumpkin!

Fear tainted his once bright eyes. The world around him became dazed and slightly faded in nature. His eyes glazed over a faded cloud as panic filled his deepest thoughts. He heard the voices of the cats around him as they attacked upon the sight of his bleeding form. He felt a comforting voice drag his mind from his thoughts as he nodded to the snow white feline. Peachpaw, no Peachmoon, right? He felt so blurry. Whining for a moment he let his eyes drift close. Blankness filled over the void of the empty thoughts as the small cream colored tom slipped into a deep unnatural slumber.

//I have no muse but here ya go.

What the heck? Moving his eyes to Jagged he flicked an ear with a concerned glance. Raising to his paws he curled his tail behind him as he moved over.``Jagged? What's the matter? He asked with a careful look in his eyes.

Cream flicked his tail nodding to Jagged. His soft blue eyes glittered with curiosity as he moved his head onto his paws laying down beside the black tom, motioning the other to do the same. Recently, creamkit had been quite distant, this wasn't any different. ``Of course Jaggie,`` He stated calmly. A small kind smile moved upon his lips as he flicked an ear.

Cream took a moment to process the information, flicking an ear silently he moved his eyes upward upon the sky with a bitter glare. Before moving his head to look back upon Jagged with a simple curl of his tail around his paws. ``Is that all? Jagged you're not the only half clan cat, you were born for a reason.`` He carefully sat up as he let a small sigh exit his lips. Regretting the actions that had led them to this state, now Jagged laid broken hearted before him over the fate that starclan unjustly put upon him.

So much had seemed to change, as if even the thoughts of the clan had faded into entire new grouping. Leaving the newly remembered creambounce into the dust. He didn't truly understand how badly the clan had been hurt until now, how greatly changes had come and gone. It was strange.

Cream glanced at the tom with pure concern. With a small sigh he pressed his muzzle into Jagged's shoulder. ``You're nothing like them Jagged. You'd never hurt Heatherheart, you're kind and loyal. Don't let your genetics decide who you are. That doesn't define you Jagged. You're amazing.`` He smiled as his wise voice bubbled out of him with a bright look in his blue eyes.

Daydreaming away, the small child hadn't been expecting his mothers nuzzle. He looked around confused before his eyes had fallen upon the orange and white feline. Her burns made him shiver for a moment before he looked down upon her quickly nodding nervously. His fearful shuffle seemed out of character as he looked over to Lightning in silence.

He had remembered earlier the life he had lived before. His memories had become clumped and strained, he grew distant and unhappy. It had seemed cream has just lost all feeling within the clan. But this did not change his need to adventure, he was still prone to leaving camp to gather herbs and bring them to his aunt PEACHMOON ! . At points he had seemed to grow closet to her in his time of regret. As her mentor originally. He always shared a connection to the feline. But nothing could stop his connection to another flame point feline Lightningspirit ! . His sister, and one of his greatest supporters, or..was. Everything still became so difficult to hide. Parts of him prayed for starclan to take the memories away once more, but part of him was grateful to remember each connection that had made him into his original self.

Now though, the child sat within the nursery tending to wounds of an npc child who had fallen. he had not realized when someone called out for a healer at their rouged up pads, they had meant for Peachpaw- no no Peachmoon. Jumping up the young tom quickly made his way over to the area and over to the injured apprentice quite loudly stating. ``Creambounce reporting for duty!`` fuck, freezing as he in a state of panic used his past life's name instead of his own. His eyes widen as he darted is head around hoping no one had seen him do as such. Though the apprentice was now staring at him confused, unsure of what to truly say or do.

He instantly jumped up at the voice darting his head behind him to look at ForestStar. A familiar shy smile moved upon his lips as he nervously began to try to explain himself. ``YEP- EVERYTHING IS FINE.`` The npc apprentice cut him off before he could finish. ``He called himself Creambouce...Why did you call yourself-`` . ``SO HELP ME STARCLAN I WILL LITTEARLLY GIVE YOU FOXGLOVE.`` The tom harshly snapped clearly annoyed by the apprentice's actions. His little fluffy tail whipping behind him as he quickly got the apprentice's thorn out and wrapped it up with cobwebs and some fresh golden rod. ``J-Just decided to help peachy.. `` The child quickly explained with anxiety dripping from his every motion. He had no clue what to do now, he was stuck.

Creamkit sighed as the leader decided he needed to be dealt with. He truly did not want someone telling him to respect his elders or something at the moment, Flicking his tail behind him he finished the apprentice's healing and turned back to the leader with a defeated look. ``I know, I know. I shouldn't of snapped at him like that and should of been more polite. Sorry...- Oh um, just healing and such,,`` He answered quickly to Applegaze carefully, curling his tail behind him once last time.

Cream took a moment to stare at everyone before flicking his tail slightly annoyed at lightning's statement. Sighing softly he allowed himself to stay calm. ``We really need to deal with your anger issues..`` He muttered out as his niece, no aunt? It was confusing, came inside. His tail fluffed up as he realized his mistake quickly muttering to himself how stupid he was for forgetting something that simple. After his quick bout of frustration he flicked an ear to Peach sighing a bit.

``May I stay behind to speak with Peachp-Moon, alone?`` He quickly asked foreststar. His gaze moved down to his paws worriedly, perhaps tell the truth to someone will help.

Cream had sat in the back ground for a while. His mind was still wrapping around both memories which collided with each other in a truly painful fashion. But at least, he was still there. He had done his duties, but had grown cold and absent. But he was still around. Forcing himself to go outside to listen to his mother speak. It was strange to see her be a deputy, never mind the leader of the clan. Cream wasn't sure if he should be proud of her, or at his past self for deciding to save her. Both had done well at this point in time, apparently.

Cream was curled up in the apprentice den. Coldly staring at the empty void in front of his face. His mind was lost within the pondering thoughts of how both lives connected and end up destroying both of their lives. His deep blue eyes cold and sullen as his tail slowly twitched at the memory of someone like his beloved sister. One that he regrets most of all was paining his lover. His sorrowful mind made him believe that the elder male hated him. He would never love cream again after all. He wasn't really Jagged any more. This was clear. Cream needed someone to help him soon. As he began skipping meals and refused to starve himself. His loneliness never left him. It bubbled up and simmered with each breath he breathed. This was useless, it was truly useless. Wasn't it.

His ears perked at the sound of footsteps moving towards him. Soft cold eyes moved to Jagged staring down the blind tom. It had taken him to a moment to realize that Jagged had left a mouse for him. A small, faint ghost of a grin crossed his muzzle as he sighed for a moment. ``jagged wait!`` He knew he deserved to be left alone. But something about the sadden air around his love had made him choose to try and soothe it. ``Maybe, we could share it. My stomachs been betraying me and I doubt I can eat it alone. `` that wasn't true. Cream knew his hunger very well. But he felt guilty over the fact his break downs are beginning to affect jagged. It was best to just finally get it out there instead of hiding it in his brain like he tried to.

Cream watched the discomfort of the black tom, horrified at the though. You could almost hear to softest sound of tears rolling down the smaller males cheek. What had drove him away from Jagged wasn't the tom's fault. Cream had broken his back leg, and he had gained the memories of his past life. Both events hurt his friend drastically as he decided it was time to explain. He choked back a sob before beginning to speak up once more. ``Something happened after my leg injury..I remembered something that I know happened. But it didn't happen to exactly me. And it's just been, eating me up to think about. I got extremely guilty over the actions I remembered and ended up shutting you out because of it. I hope you can forgive me for that. `` His voice was shaky as he spoke. But was honest as it could be. He truly felt pained for having to hurt him, and everyone. So much.