Posts by soyee

(( hey i just want to say sorry for only replying once yesterday !! i was super busy and tired like i said, but i should be good now, i’m slowly regaining my muse again !! ))

eunjae had a huge smile on his face as ewen dragged him to a booth, expecting a scolding for choosing somewhere so inexpensive, but not expecting ewen to actually be too upset about anything. so when he was pushed into a seat at a booth and heard what ewen was saying, his smile quickly faded. he had been so focused on not wanting ewen to pay a lot for their dinner, that he hadn’t even taken what ewen would want to eat or where he could possibly want to go into consideration. now he just felt bad.

he watched as ewen sat back and crossed his arms, looking out he window and just looking really frustrated. eunjae was looking for the right moment to reach over and grab ewen’s hand and just apologize, offer to take him out for some more froyo, since he came to learn that ewen loved it enough to claim he would want to eat it every day during the summer. but before he could make a move to save his ass, ewen was coming closer to him. he looked pissed, something that eunjae really hadn’t wanted to happen at all, so he was ready to pour out hundreds of apologies if that’s what ewen would be looking for. eunjae felt his breath catch in his throat as ewen started talking, he shrunk back in his seat and shrugged, suddenly feeling so small.

there was one thing for sure, he didn’t know exactly what ewen wanted to hear and that was a bit terrifying. ewen could do a lot of things, be mad at him, tease him, just get up and leave; and eunjae didn’t really want any of those things to happen. he just wanted to make things right, but not knowing what the exact words were that ewen wanted to come out of his mouth just made it look like achieving a satisfied ewen was impossible. “i...” he trailed off, looking over ewen’s shoulder to make sure no one was watching or listening in on them. it would be embarrasing if someone saw someone as tiny as ewen having such dominance over a guy as big as him. “i don’t know.” he shrugged, looking back at ewen.

“we could get the pizza and just save it for later, maybe we’ll get hungry tonight or something. we can go somewhere fancy if you want, you can choose, i’ll just drive.” eunjae spoke quickly, finally reaching over and gently wrapping his fingers around ewen’s wrist. “that’s what you want right? to be somewhere fancier? we can go.” he frantically nodded, not sure why he was so nervous. maybe it was obvious that ewen wasn’t actually upset, he was just so nervous about upsetting him again that he didn’t want to risk this not being ewen just messing with him. and besides, like he said before, seeing ewen jealous and even a little pissed, just dominant over him was really hot, so in a weird way, he was kind of enjoying this. “tell me what you want me to do baby, i’ll do whatever it is, just tell me what you want.”

(( oof, a way for us to hurt our characters? let’s do it !

hmm i’m thinking if i want eunjae to be fully aware and be able to help ewen eventually or if he does decide just to get high or smth and is just like... too zoned out to do anything which is really why anything happens to ewen at all ))

eunjae let out a soft sigh of relief as ewen said it was fine, that pizza was good. the addition of the petname baby had put a huge smile on his face too, it sounded so natural coming from ewen, if he hadn’t been waiting for something like that for so long then he probably wouldn’t have even realized it was the first time that ewen called him by something other than his name. while he always thought he would be the dominant one and saw baby as a more submissive name, he actually loved the idea of ewen calling him baby more. for some reason it made his heart skip a beat, like it was the one thing he wanted ewen to call him for the rest of their days together.

he was pulled out of his giggly mindset though as ewen started talking. he nodded slowly at the mention of a party. eunjae enjoyed parties to an extent, they could be fun, maybe he didn’t have as much fun as everyone who was drunk and dancing and hooking up with people, but he still had fun. listening to music and laughing at people who were just the furthest thing from sober was fun, and now he had ewen to do things with if he for some reason got too needy at a party. he liked parties and if ewen wanted to go, then he would have no problem going. he was just a little afraid, the last time they went to a party they ended up getting into a fight, he ended up getting kissed by someone he didn’t want to be kissed by, it was just a shitty experience. but maybe this time would be different? he really couldn’t let one bad time ruin every other party for him and ewen, and if ewen thought it would be fine to go, then what was he so worried about?

“yeah, that sounds fun.” he nodded, feeling himself start to smile widely as ewen took his hands and smiled at him. eunjae’s smile faded for a second though as ewen went on to tell him everything that would be there. he wasn’t upset about the things that would be there, how the hell could he ever be upset over food being at a party? it was ewen’s comment about him staying away from drugs that had made him frown so quickly. it wasn’t like he was mad or upset, he was just joking, just like how ewen had been when he added the comment so quickly. “you’re going to kill the fun with a mindset like that.” eunjae tolled his eyes and reached over, gently poking ewen’s forehead. “but I already told you, i’m not going to try anything. you don’t want me to and i’m fine with that, i’m going to stay as far away from all drugs as i possibly can at such a huge party.”

eunjae sat back and let out a soft hum, a new wonder coming to mind. “what about you though? are you going to try anything at the party? you said that i’ll be staying away from drugs, but you never said anything about you.” he hoped that him pointing this out didn’t upset ewen, he wasn’t doing it to be an ass, he was just asking out of curiousity. if ewen wanted to smoke weed or something at the party, eunjae wouldn’t get mad about it. ewen was a teenage boy at a party, it was probably one of the most obvious things that he would probably do. he just wanted to know so he could keep a close eye on ewen, make sure that he was okay and didn’t end up doing something dumb or didn’t get drugged because someone laced it with something. eunjae would let his boyfriend smoke, but he wouldn’t let him get hurt. especially not because of some assholes at a party. “you can do it, i’m just curious if you actually plan on trying anything new or just sticking to the stuff you already tried.”

another thought came to mind and eunjae’s smile only grew wider, he gently nudged ewen’s arm and a soft giggle took over the silence that he kept for a second. “so where is the party anyways? some rich kids house? there better be an open room for us, because like, what if we start drinking again and you really want hickeys like you did on the beach? or what if the sight of you smoking is way too hot and i just want a few minutes alone with you? we’ll need some privacy.” he laughed as he reached over to gently tap the tip of ewen’s nose, before sitting back again and becoming just a bit more serious. “and also like, if you get sick or something i want to make sure you have somewhere more comfortable to rest for a little than my car.”

(( eunjae’s in some corner getting high and ewen is off somewhere having the worst time ever, what a great time! ))

eunjae listened to what ewen was saying, nodding along with his words. he wasn’t upset that ewen was going to be doing stuff while he wasn’t ‘allowed to’. even if ewen didn’t care if eunjae wanted to try stuff, he wouldn’t touch anything if ewen was. one of them had to always be looking out for he other, so it was probably best that they never got high or drunk or anything like that at the same time. maybe in a safer place with people they could trust more, but certainly not at some strangers house with people from school surrounding them. they both had people that would take advantage of their unsober state, so one of them would have to stay sober to make sure the other didn’t get hurt or taken advantage of or just didn’t do something completely wreckless and dumb.

hearing that a lot of people from their school were going to be there wasn’t surprising to eunjae. he knew lots of people from school that absolutely lived for parties, and if this kids house was as nice as ewen was making it out to be, then it wouldn’t be a surprise if the house was filled with people from their school. it wouldn’t surprise him if all his friends were there too, they loved parties almost as much as they loved girls, which was a whole lot. “they’ll probably be there. if there’s a place with lots of girls, they’re there.” eunjae shrugged, not really worried about seeing them there. the house would probably be packed and the chances of his friends seeing him and ewen together were low. it wasn’t like he was afraid of being seen with ewen at a party, if he needed to he could just use some excuse like, he was only so close to ewen because the place was packed or he was only talking to ewen because he knew youngmin and youngmin knew the kid who lived at the house. but he was sure there wouldn’t be a need for an excuse, like he said, being seen had a low chance of it happening, and even if they were seen together, his friends would probably be too drunk or high or looking for a girl to hook up with to even care.

“they probably told me about it already, i just haven’t really been listening to anything they’ve been saying.” eunjae shrugged again, moving his hands so he could play with ewen’s fingers. “but we’ll have lots of fun together, and i promise this party will actually be enjoyable. we can walk in together and everything this time.” he glanced up as the pizza arrived at their booth, thanking the waitress with a smile as she walked off, taking a slice for himself before continuing with what he was saying. “we can hang out with youngmin too, i know he gives you your weed and he’ll probably be able to take us to the alcohol straight away, i already know it’s going to be lots of fun.” he started to eat his pizza, and then let out a soft laugh. “and if there really is a pool there then it’s going to be tons of fun for me, you know how much i love swimming. i’m just going to have to make sure you don’t end up falling in and drowning when you’re all fucked up. or maybe i can just stay in the more shallow area and hold on to you for a bit if you really end up wanting to get in.” eunjae shrugged, not really knowing what to expect when it came to ewen getting high. would he just be the kind of person that laughs at everything? would he be the type to just want to go to sleep? was he the kind of guy that ended up eating everything in sight? did he get super horny when he was high? would he want to do crazy things, like go swimming while he was clearly not in the right mindset to do it? no matter what the outcome was, eunjae would be sure to take care of ewen and look out for him.

“hey, if we end up leaving early or you don’t end up passing out there do you wanna just sleep at my house? i can sneak you in, my parents’ are hard to wake up, so i could get you into my room without my parents realizing we were out, just as long as you’re not like, screaming then we should be fine.” it was good to have a plan of what to do. plus if they ended up going back to his house, he would have his room clean to make sure neither of them tripped over everything and would make sure he had clothes laying out for ewen in case he wanted or needed to change before going to bed. “maybe we could go to youngmin’s house? he likes me, right? i mean i’m sure he would have no problem letting you stay over, you’re like his best friend. but what about me? i can’t tell if he actually likes me or if he only puts up with me because i’m your boyfriend.”

(( eunjae’s just going to think they’re some really fucking good brownies and everyone watching him is gonna be like uh calm down dude that’s the third one in under five minutes

but oof if youngmin is the one that ends up leading ewen to trouble it’s not going to take eunjae much longer to do the math and realize that youngmin is just bad news, like the whole cheating thing happened when ewen was around, and then the terrible stuff at the party, it’s going to be take one more strike for eunjae to be like hmm maybe and as soon as something else bad happens he’ll just be like ‘hey ewen i know he’s your best friend but youngmin might just be the worst best friend ever’

also rip i’m crying but tell me why my mind went to something else happening to ewen and eunjae at some sort of party that was meant for ewen that eunjae organized like maybe it’s ewen’s birthday or ewen just did something and eunjae just wants to celebrate and being the dumbass he is he forgets parties are bad luck and then he’s gonna feel so bad when something bad happens why do i wanna hurt our characters so bad ))

eunjae rolled his eyes at ewen’s comment. “you’re going to be high, jumping into a pool full of strangers might just be the best idea ever to you then.” he gently reminded him, letting out a soft laugh afterwards. it would be funny to see how ewen acted when he was high, he already realized he was a bit more flirty and straightforward and even a little careless when he was drunk, so seeing him high was something that eunjae was excited to see.

he was happy to see that ewen was all up for going to youngmin’s house after the party too. in a way, eunjae felt like he was keeping ewen away from his friends since he constantly wanted to spend time with him. he didn’t want to be greedy or anything, but he really did love ewen and spending as much time with him as he could. but ewen spending time with his friends was just as important as him spending time with his boyfriend, so to hear that ewen would want to stay at his friends house was great. and getting to actually spend time with ewen’s friends would probably help their relationship too, knowing your boyfriends friends and getting along with them was important. at least that was what something he read on the internet once said.

hearing that youngmin liked him kept the happy feeling flowing through his veins. eunjae knee that sunhee liked him, she used to have a crush on him and everything according to ewen, but like he said, it was hard for him to tell if youngmin actually liked him. “good.” he nodded with a wide smile spread across his face. “we should spend some more time with him, that’d be nice, right? maybe one weekend he can even come to the beach with us? he can stay in my parents’ room at the beach house or something so we still have privacy, but i think it’d be nice for you to have one of your friends with us there. plus maybe he can help me in convincing you to going in further than last time.”

he was in the middle of taking a bite from his slice of pizza when ewen had asked if he was going to tell anyone about the two of them. he slowly chewed and swallowed his food, then gave an even slower nod. “yeah, of course. i really want to be more open about our relationship, like walking around and holding your hand and letting you wear my jerseys to school and stuff. and like you said, you told your friends so it’s only fair that i tell mine, right?” he took another bite of pizza, letting his mind drift off for a second. he knew his friends wouldn’t really accept the fact that he was gay and in a relationship with a boy, and they would really hate that he was in a relationship with ewen since they always seemed to have a distaste for him, all because of his diary. but still, he would eventually tell them, it wasn’t like he had to be friends with them for the rest of his life, so if they thought it was gross, then no big deal. eunjae never really planned on staying in touch with them after graduation anyways.

“and obviously i’m going to tell my parents. i wanna tell them before i tell my friends though, I think coming out to them is the most important. just not... just not now though, okay? soon though, like, within the next two or three weeks. i just have to slowly warm them up to the idea, it’d be nice just to sit down one day and tell them, but that’s just going to make matters worse for me if that’s how i present it.” truthfully, eunjae was more afraid of coming out to his parents than he was his friends. his friends could mock him and call him all sorts of homophobic slurs and maybe even physically attack him, but he could handle that. it was the fact that there was a huge chance of his parents disowning him that he was so scared of. they made it clear on multiple occasions that they hated anyone that wasn’t straight, and he really was their pride and joy. they bragged about him to everyone, how he was such a beautiful and smart boy who was going to grow up and be a doctor. and marrying a beautiful woman and having an even more beautiful family was something that they loved to include too. if they took their bragging rights away and messed up the perfect image they had of him, he knew it wouldn’t end well for him. still, he wanted to tell them. he felt bad for keeping it a secret, he just wanted to be himself, and he really didn’t want ewen to think he was ashamed of being with him or anything. he had to tell at least one person in his life that he was dating ewen and he was never happier in his entire life, that it was the best desicion he ever made in his life when he asked him out.

“who knows? maybe they’ll be perfectly fine with it. my mom really seemed to like you, i told her some more about you when you weren’t there. like about how smart you are and how you’re not a complete troublemaker like my other friends, which i now know is a lie, but she doesn’t need to know.” eunjae let out a soft laugh, trying to make the idea of coming out just a little more positive. “they might be happy that we’re going out, maybe they’ll be overjoyed when i tell them that being with you has made me the happiest i’ve ever been. maybe they’ll want me to introduce you to the rest of my family right away, they’ll probably force us to go with them to like family picnics and whatever. you’ll get to meet all my rich aunts and uncles and my younger cousins will probably tease the hell out of you because they’re probably taller than you. my grandparents will love you though, they’ll be able to see how wonderful you are and how much you mean to me without me even saying anything, they’ll probably ask when the wedding is or something like that.” he let out another laugh as he finished his slice of pizza, reaching for another one. “they know i’m gay, I told them when I first realized that i was. it was nice actually, i cried about it and they held me which was probably a weird sight because i was a huge fourteen year old and they’re so tiny and frail, but they told me that it was okay and that they still loved me, stuff like that. they kept it a secret from my parents too, not only because i asked them to but because they know how my parents are.”

eunjae paused for a moment, chewing the food that he currently had in his mouth, thinking about how he could change the subject. it wasn’t like he didn’t want to talk about it or anything, it was just that thinking about coming out to his parents was scary, his heart was racing just from thinking about it. “anyways, yeah, i’m going to tell people soon. i promise.” he finished his food, deciding that he was now full, and sat back, waiting patiently for ewen to finish. “hey, not to sound like a total fuckboy, but i still have to pay you back for the blowjob and make up for teasing you before school. so what do you want me to do? give you another handjob? maybe if we waited until it gets darker and we keep all the lights in your room off, you’d be comfortable with letting me give you a blowjob? it feels really good, and it’s not like i can’t guess what you look like by the way you felt, so if i accidentally see something it’s not like... like i didn’t already think about and imagine what you look like in my head.” he felt his face turn bright red instantly, his hands going up to cover his face, only moving his fingers to the sides of his face so his eyes were uncovered. “just tell me what you want.”

(( rip i was thinking about them going to college earlier like are they going to go to the same place, will they go to schools that are close to eachother, will they end up going to places across the country from eachother? am i evil enough towards them to want long distance or would them being on the same campus and experiencing the college life together and suffering be good enough?

that’s a good idea! like bad it’s going to happen, but a good idea. i could see like it happening and the guys who are forcing ewen into it end up not doing anything else because they’re afraid they’ll get caught and arrested or something so they stop, and eunjae still doesn’t know? like he’s just in the kitchen, high as hell, and ewen just escapes whatever room he was in to find eunjae and youngmin so they could go back to youngmin’s place and he just doesn’t tell anyone for the night like he just acts normal

and then the next day when they’re back at ewen’s house or something eunjae goes to touch him and wants to do something sexual because “you looked so hot last night” and that’s when ewen just cracks?

we’re such terrible people to our characters omg ))

eunjae was beyond relieved that ewen noticed how he didn’t want to stay on the topic of coming out for too long and was glad when ewen moved on without any complaints. hearing that ewen was fine with just a handjob was a tiny bit surprising, since eunjae imagined that anyone would jump at the chance to get a blowjob, but he had to keep in mind that ewen had been nervous to take his shirt off just weeks ago, he was probably nowhere near ready to show any other parts of himself, even if the lights were off and there was no chance of anyone seeing. it was a mental thing too, eunjae had to remember that when bringing things up.

what really surprised him though, was when ewen requested that he was mean to him, tease and humiliate him. he learned long ago that the vision he previously had of ewen just wasn’t true, but for some reason whenever ewen said things like this, it always surprised him. he had expected ewen to be the kind of person that was super into praise and soft touches, never once did eunjae look at him and expect him to be a guy who likes humiliation; even after he said he liked being embarrassed. it wasn’t like eunjae could say much about the things that ewen liked though, he essentially had a pain kink with as much as he loved having his hair pulled and being all scratched up by ewen, so if ewen had some type of humiliation kink, then he would simply just humiliate him. he wasn’t here to judge his boyfriend, he was here to make him feel good.

before he could ask what ewen had meant exactly by it, since eunjae could think of a hundred different ways to be mean, ewen was getting out of the booth and heading to the car. eunjae quickly followed behind him, just eager to get back to ewen’s house. he’d just ask when they got there, he didn’t want to waste any time now. he was excited to make ewen feel good and hear all the noises he would make because of it. luckily, the drive home didn’t take too long, and as soon as the car was parked, eunjae grabbed ewen’s wrist and pulled him all the way up to his bedroom.

eunjae made sure to stay silent for a moment and listen to see if they were still home alone, not wanting to risk ewen’s mom coming home early and catching her son with his dick in his boyfriend’s hand. once he was sure they were still alone, he closed the door and pushed ewen down onto the bed, straddling him. he pinned ewen’s arms down next to his head, getting as close as he possibly could, and leaving a gentle trail of kisses down his neck and around his ear. he could tease ewen, they were both pretty good at teasing. but he supposed now was the best time to ask exaclty what ewen wanted to do to him when he said he wanted him to be mean.

“baby,” eunjae whispered, gently nipping at the skin under ewen’s ear between words. “i need you to tell me exactly what you want so i do this right. i want you to feel amazing, but i don’t know exactly what to do to make that happen.” he pulled back and sat up slowly, still keeping a firm enough pressure on ewen’s arms to keep them pinned against the bed. “give me some examples of what you meant by being mean, because i can think of so many things. i can tease you, i know exactly what you like. but tell me how to humiliate you, tell me some things you know will work as soon as i say or do them.”

(( omfg i’m just imagining ewen telling him and eunjae getting so mad at everyone who was involved and just wanting to hold ewen but he’s too scared to because he doesn’t know if ewen would be okay with even that kind of touch

poor ewen, i’m gonna punch the friends i’ve given to eunjae right out of existence soon ))

as ewen specified what he wanted, eunjae let out a soft hum as he thought what he could say. he knew a few things that ewen was definitely insecure about, but eunjae wasn’t quite comfortable using all that information against ewen. even if ewen wanted it and was asking for it, he knew there was a line that had to be drawn somewhere. so he decided to only tease ewen about the things he was insecure about, that ewen knew that he actually loved about him, was the best direction to go. ewen hated how much smaller he was, but eunjae was always telling him how much he actually loved their size difference; he could tease ewen for it and not accidentally make him actually feel like shit or give him a complex or anything, because ewen would remember how he actually loved those things about him and wasn’t actually meaning what he was saying. truthfully, everything that ewen was insecure about was something that eunjae loved, but he didn’t get to tell ewen how much he loved it all the time, so those were off-limits, and there were things that he wouldn’t ever be able to tease ewen about even if ewen begged, like his weight or his dad or things like that. eunjae knew that even mentioning those things went way beyond crossing the line.

he was snapped away from his thoughts of what he was going to say though, when ewen started talking again. once again, he was using the name ‘baby’ and eunjae felt like he could melt right then and there. it was just a petname, something that if it were said to him by anyone else would probably make him cringe, but when ewen said it, it sounded like the most perfect sound ever. he let out a soft whimper at the way the use of the name made him feel, giving ewen a soft, quick nod in response. “i can do it.” he spoke just above a whisper, then pressed his lips back against ewen’s skin. he quickly nipped at every single inch of skin that he could, fully intent on leaving marks on ewen. he was a bit possessive over him, and while ewen wearing his clothes helped show that he was his, leaving hickeys on him was a clear sign that ewen was taken, that nobody should even bother trying to flirt with him.

eunjae decided that after a minute or two of just leaving small hickeys on ewen’s neck, that it was finally time to give him what he wanted. he sat up with a soft frown, tilting his head as he looked down at ewen. “actually i don’t know if i can give you what you want.” he spoke softly, trying to sound as upset as he possibly could. “i don’t know if i’ll ever be able to give you more than a handjob, you’re so tiny that i think i might hurt you. you giving me a blowjob was enough to hurt you, what is actually having sex going to do to you?” he shook his head back and forth slowly, like he was disappointed. “you’re too tiny for stuff like this, you’re too tiny for me. how unfortunate.” he let out a heavy sigh, finally letting go of ewen’s arms, instead wrapping his hands up in the fabric of ewen’s shirt. “and this... i would ask you to take it off but maybe you’re too scared to again, hmm? you were so scared to take it off before, like a little baby.”

once again, he started leaving gentle kisses on any bit of ewen’s skin that was exposed, deciding to grind down against him. he decided to go painfully slow, barely apply any pressure so it was as if he was barely touching ewen, just ghosting right above where he knew ewen would be begging him to touch soon. “how did you even find out that you liked stuff like this? was it in one of those mangas you like? or maybe you saw it in porn once?” he let out a soft laugh, one that wasn’t full of joy like usual, but instead it was mocking. “did you really enjoy it that much that you wanted me to do it to you? did you write about it in your diary? how much stuff do you have written in there about me?” he sat up and looked away from ewen, slowly looking around the room, still barely grinding down against ewen. “maybe i should make you stay here and go look for it, i bet it would be fun to read all the things you said about me, all the filthy things you want me to do to you. maybe they’ll be as weird as this, who likes being teased like this? does it really turn you on for me to be mean to you?” he let out another laugh, deciding to suddenly grind down against ewen, hard. no warning, just suddenly, a huge smile on his face as he started straight down at ewen.

“moan for me baby. you can at least do that, right?” eunjae kept his voice low, speaking slowly to ewen. “i want to hear you moan for me, they’re always so high pitched and fun to listen to, your voice fits how tiny you are.” he wrapped his hands around ewen’s wrists again, pushing his arms down against the bed and attaching his lips to his neck just like they had been moments ago. he nipped harshly at his neck, hoping to hear some sort of response from ewen that would show him that he was enjoying this. if ewen wasn’t enjoying this, then he would stop without even thinking about it. this was meant to make ewen feel good, and if it didn’t, then he was more than willing to try something else. “c’mon baby, you said you wanted this, tell me how much you like it.”

(( if they don’t go to college and find the best lifelong friends and put an end to the angst in their relationship then i’m going to cry ))

to be quite honest, knowing how good he could make ewen feel felt better than anything else in the world. to eunjae, no amount of sex or no matter how good of a blowjob ewen gave him, nothing could ever too knowing that he could make ewen feel good, that simple things like this made him happy. eunjae couldn’t help but smile as ewen confirmed that he did like it and listened to his request, finally starting to moan loud enough to be heard. “you can be louder, i know you can.” he mumbled softly, gently reaching up to ewen’s face to push some of his hair away from his eyes. he knew it would ruin the moment if he said it, but he really felt the urge to call ewen beautiful again. hopefully the chance to say it would come soon, he didn’t know how much longer he could hold it in.

he kept grinding against him for a few seconds, deciding if he should just keep teasing him verbally and keep grinding against him, or if he would fulfill ewen’s other request and just tease him. he flipped the two of them over so he was now the one laying on the bed, quickly going back to the rhythmic motion of his hips against ewen’s. “do you deserve more though?” he asked softly, gripping ewen’s hips. “i don’t think you do, but maybe if you beg for it i could change my mind.” he let one hand leave ewen’s hip, letting it creep up the front of his shirt, rubbing up and down his chest and stomach. “only maybe though, if you don’t beg enough i might just make you wait even longer until i think you deserve what you want.”

eunjae knew that teasing ewen and making him wait and beg would only come back to haunt him later on, ewen would probably do the same to him, but it was worth it. if he was able to turn ewen into a whiny, begging mess now, then it was worth ewen doing the same to him later. “tell me what you like most about the manga you like, i want to be able to make all that stuff happen to you. and the porn you watch, what makes it so enjoyable? what do you always imagine me doing to you?” he let his hips fall still, letting the hand that was under ewen’s shirt fall down and hover over his crotch, just as he had done in the car the other morning. “don’t make me wait baby, tell me everything. i want to hear you say it, it’s always so amusing to hear such dirty things being said with such a cute voice.” with his free hand, he started to gently tug at ewen’s shirt, signifying that he wanted it off. “everything about you is so cute, you say you hate being called cute but i think you act cute on purpose. the way you talk, the way you beg for things, the way you eat, everything is so cute. even your body is cute.” eunjae let out a soft hum, looking up at ewen with a huge smile. this was way too enjoyable. “you actually really like being called cute, don’t you baby? you lied to me when you said you didn’t like it, right? that’s okay, i forgive you baby. just tell me everything i asked you to tell me, then i’ll give you what you want.”

(( ewen needs some friends who love and protect him and eunjae needs friends who don’t let him eat every single pot brownie tbh, there’s really no help for eunjae so he just needs some basic care to get through life i love his stupid ass self

feel free to timeskip then !! ))

eunjae chuckled softly as ewen said he deserved it and shook his head. “i don’t think you do.” he teased lightly, enjoying how vastly different this ewen was to the one that made him beg and whimper his name. the roles were completely reversed and eunjae was loving it. except there was one little thing that nearly had him slipping into submission. the use of the petname baby, eunjae had figured that they both loved it and they both shared it as a weakness, so it would definitely be interesting to see how they used it on one another.

thankfully though, he was able to keep his composure and stay in control. when ewen began telling him what he wanted, eunjae felt his breath catch in his throat and he knew he probably looked like a tomato from how much he was blushing. the words that ewen were saying were certainly hot, he could only lay there and imagine just how hot it would be to have that done to him or do it to ewen. and hearing ewen say those words with his cute little voice, whimpering and begging to be touched, it nearly made him pass out from pleasure right then and there. hearing ewen say such things just felt so good. it was crazy how much affect ewen had on him.

“hey, hey, hey, shh...” eunjae cooed, putting both of his hands on ewen’s face, pulling him down to give him a soft, gentle kiss. “you’ve earned it baby, you deserve it. i’ll give you what you want, no more begging, okay? i just want you hear you moan now, okay? let me know how good i make you feel.” he took his hands away from ewen’s face, slowly messing around with the button of his pants, deciding to tease him just a little more with how slow he was. “you’ve earned it baby, you did so good.” he reminded him softly, before giving in and giving ewen what he wanted.

(( IT’S OKAY I PROMISE

ily and you can take as long as you need to reply and it never matters how long or short your replies are because they’re always so good !!

please, one of our characters needs some positivity in their life because as of lately we’ve just been cracking down on giving them the worst days of their lives

augustus realizes that maybe daniel actually is a child when he starts crying over not getting the happy meal toy he wanted but their son did and their son didn’t want to trade

also oof please let there be some point soon where daniel interacts with a kid and augustus realizes then and there how bad he wants kids with daniel but then when they actually have their own he’s gonna he like ?? bitch where did that daniel go, this one is literally hiding under the bed because he doesn’t want to give our son a bath

oh my god daniel is just going to open the door one day and be like who in the hell is this fine man, i didn’t know augustus was into the idea of having someone join us but come on in

but omg i can just imagine augustus’ dad being like i know these women are his type so what’s the problem? and then he remembers that his son is very much with a man so it’s like some lightbulb moment where he’s like oh! lmao gotta send the twinks to my sons house, i’m a good dad ))

anything he wanted? that was a big decision for daniel to make, and surprisingly it was a hard one. there were millions of things he wanted to do, especially with augustus, but now that he actually had the chance to say what he wanted to do, it was like he couldn’t remember any of them. he shrugged his shoulders, looking up at augustus with a soft smile. “you said anything i want.” he reminded softly, then went back to thinking about what they could do.

they could go shopping, they could go out to some fancy restaurant, they could go into the city and just walk around. there were a lot of things that they could do. “i want to... oh! could we go to the park? we could walk around and look at all the pretty flowers there and there’s gotta be a swingset that’ll hold us up, maybe you can even push me on the swings.” it had been a while since they had done something simple and fun, and augustus seemed to be in the best mood that daniel had ever seen him in, so he figured that going to the park was an amazing idea.

“sometimes there’s really cute dogs too! the owners always let me pet them, and sometimes the ice cream truck stops by, you can buy me some then if that happens. but back to the dogs, they’re all so cute, there was this one that i used to see all the time, she was a bulldog and her name was daisy and she was so cute, her legs were so short and she got excited whenever she saw me.” daniel sat up, ready for augustus to confirm that they could go so he could get up and get ready, so they could actually get on their way and enjoy the day that he had planned for them. “there’s some nice cafes nearby too that we can get some lunch at if you get hungry.”

(( poor augustus, nothing ever turns out the way he thinks they will

lmao augustus really never wins with anything, he is not living his best life ))

daniel was more than happy to hear that they would be going to the park. he thought they would have lots of fun there, which was really the reason he brought it up in the first place. it would be nice for them just to walk around and talk, and hopefully see some cute dogs there. they could even just sit and watch everything around them if that’s what augustus wanted to do. really, there were quite a few different things they could do at the park.

as soon as augustus got up, daniel quickly followed and started to get ready. he was in the middle of pulling one of augustus’ shirts over his head when he was asked if he wanted to tag along to go see augustus’ new apartment. “of course i want to go with you!” he answered as he finally got the shirt on, quickly nodding his head to show how eager he was. he figured that just like this house, he’d be spending most of his time at the apartment. he spent more time with augustus wherever he lived than he spent at his own house, so daniel figured it made sense to go see where he would be spending such a large portion of his time.

as he finished getting ready, he hoped it was okay that he was wearing augustus’ clothes yet again. it wasn’t like it was unusual for them to share clothes like this anymore, and daniel didn’t have any of his own clothes at the house, so he figured it was okay just to borrow without asking, but he hoped that augustus was okay with it too. once he was finished getting ready, augustus took his hand and led him all the way outside to the car.

it didn’t take too long for them to get to the park, it was actually a decent distance away from the house. he smiled as augustus helped him out of the car, quick to take his hand again as they started walking. “let’s walk around for a little bit.” daniel replied, hoping that augustus didn’t mind. he did just get up only a few minutes ago, so he was full of energy and ready to use it, and would probably be too hyper just to sit down and talk with augustus for the time being. for now, walking around and having a conversation with augustus seemed like the best thing to do.

“thank you for taking me here.” daniel wasn’t sure why, but he felt the need to thank augustus for little things like this. he felt himself blush a bit as he realized that augustus would probably say something about him not needing to thank him, so now he just felt even weirder for saying it. changing the subject suddenly seemed like a great idea. “anyways, tell me some more about your new apartment. all i know about it is that it’s big and fancy and probably costs more than i could ever imagine. is any of that right?”

in eunjae’s opinion, going to the party sounded like the best idea that they ever had. he felt so sure that they would have tons of fun, not only at the party, but at youngmin’s house afterwards too. he also had a weird feeling that the party would relieve all of their stress from the week, make them feel like they hadn’t cried and yelled and hurt eachother quite a bit the past few weeks. it felt like the party would be the start of them being okay again. so he was more than excited, for the rest of the week up until the party, he could barely wait and he would constantly just be thinking about the party. like what he would wear and how ewen would act when he was high and what kinds of stuff they could do at youngmin’s house.

the only thing that put a little damper on his mood was the fact that youngmin would be taking ewen, since he originally planned to just take ewen himself. he knew how not showing up to a party with ewen went last time, so he was nervous, but he tried his best to keep a positive mindset. he couldn’t let one bad party ruin every other party for him. still, he made sure he moved a bit faster as he got ready, not wanting ewen and youngmin to be waiting for him for too long. and thankfully he was able to get to the house in a pretty decent amount of time, the directions were pretty clear and he isn’t get lost like last time; so his positive attitude towards the party was back on. the party was going to make things good between him and ewen again.

as soon as he walked into the house, eunjae realized that nearly everyone in sight was drunk. if he wouldn’t have been able to tell by the way they were acting, the smell definitely would’ve given them away. he smelled something else too, he just couldn’t quite put his finger on what it was. alcohol had a pretty unique scent, so even if he hadn’t drank before, he was sure he would’ve been able to tell there was alcohol. but this scent? it was different, he hadn’t smelt it before, or at least not enough to have recognized it. after taking a quick glance around and seeing some people smoking, he realized it was weed. it definitely wasn’t the best smell in the world so he wasn’t looking forward to ewen smelling like that, but if ewen wanted to smoke and it made him feel better, then he would just put up with it.

speaking of ewen, eunjae was more than happy when he finally spotted him and youngmin not too far away. he headed over to them, a huge smile on his face that only grew when ewen started walking towards him with open arms. he tilted his head to the side as he finally realized what ewen had asked, and let out a soft chuckle. “i’m your boyfriend.” eunjae nodded, wrapping his arms around his boyfriend tightly, pressing a gentle kiss on the top of his head. everyone around them was either drunk or high or too distracted to notice what he did, so he didn’t mind giving ewen subtle kisses like that when he knew his friends were around here somewhere.

“oh my god, you’re high aren’t you?” eunjae couldn’t help but laugh a bit, not at ewen, but just at how cute it was to see how amazed he was with even the simplest things when he was high. it was nice to know that even when ewen had done some drugs, he still thought he was attractive. “you’re so fucking cute.” he cooed, playfully mocking the words that ewen had used just a second ago. suddenly, eunjae remembered that youngmin was here too, and he glanced up to offer the other boy a smile. “hi, thank you for driving him here.” and with that he turned his attention back to ewen, it wasn’t like he didn’t want to talk to youngmin or anything, he just wanted to pay more attention to his boyfriend first, especially now that he was nearly in tears over the fact they were actually dating.

“we should go sit somewhere.” he mumbled softly, taking a quick glance around to try and find somewhere with enough space for the three of them. even if ewen had to sit in his lap, that would be fine. “you wanna go play a game or something?” eunjae looked back down at ewen, playing with his hair as he spoke softly to him. he was sure there were plenty of groups of people playing beer pong or spin the bottle or some other game that fucked up teenagers played at parties. “there’s some people smoking too if you wanna sit with them, i’m sure they’d share with you, baby.” honestly, eunjae was down for whatever ewen wanted to do, tonight really was all about making sure ewen had fun and stayed safe.

eunjae decided that he absolutely loved this side of ewen. he was just so cute; he was so giggly and fascinated by everything, even the fact they were dating seemed to have amazed him. he watched as ewen’s face lit up at the mention of a jacuzzi, following behind him just a second later. though he didn’t really have a choice, seeing how ewen was pulling on his shirt, but even if he wasn’t, eunjae would’ve been quick to follow him anyways.

as he continued to follow ewen, he heard youngmin mention how he could smoke too, and just before he could turn around and shake his head to let youngmin know that ewen definitely wasn’t going to let that happen, ewen beat him to it. just as he heard ewen call him ‘boyfriend’ again, he looked back at him, cheeks burning a bright red as he listened to all the compliments he had for him. eunjae was so used to being called hot and complimented on his body, being called cute and hearing ewen talk about his nose and cheeks and say such cute things was a little unusual, but he would be lying if he said he wasn’t absolutely loving everything he was hearing.

when ewen grabbed his hand, he happily allowed him to, glad that they could actually properly hold on to one another instead of being dragged around by the fabric of his shirt. he continued to follow ewen, a pout forming on his face when youngmin just had to remind ewen that he did have a name and wasn’t called ‘boyfriend’. eunjae really didn’t mind being called boyfriend, it was cute actually, but in a way he was thankful for youngmin reminding ewen, because with the way ewen’s face lit up again and he repeated his name like it was the greatest discovery on earth, he realized that ewen was probably only calling him boyfriend because he forgot his actual name. in any other situation he would be upset, but he had to keep in mind that ewen was high.

the only thing that eunjae really didn’t like about ewen suddenly realizing that his name was eunjae, was that ewen had to say it was a name someone would give a puppy. “a kitten actually, but okay.” he whispered softly, pouting again when he realized that ewen actually had shed some tears. even if they weren’t necessarily tears that came from being upset, eunjae hated it when ewen cried. ewen wasn’t allowed to cry, he was just supposed to be happy and smile and laugh all the time. at least in a perfect world that’s how things would be.

before eunjae knew it, he was being dragged along again, but this time they finally reached their destination of the jacuzzi. it amazed him how easily the other guys just shared the joint with youngmin and ewen, but maybe youngmin was right, maybe his popularity did help out a little with convincing them to share. eunjae watched as ewen took a hit, eyes blown wide as he realized just how hot it was. normally, ewen was a cute guy, he was adorable no matter how hard he tried not to be. but now? he was hot. he looked so cool and relaxed and the way he just took a hit without choking up or coughing like eunjae had expected was hot too. he was just about to whisper that information to ewen, but youngmin started talking before he even had a chance to say anything.

he really wanted to ask why he couldn’t tag along to meet whoever youngmin wanted to introduce ewen to, but he figured it was best not to potentially start a fight. this was supposed to be fun for ewen, and his best friend and boyfriend arguing would surely ruin his night. so he just kept his mouth shut, nodding to show that he understood, then waved back at ewen with a huge smile. just a second. ewen wouldn’t be gone too long. and he was with youngmin, his best friend, he’d be okay. there was nothing to worry about.

after a second or two of just standing there, staring at the doors while he waited for ewen’s return, he started to feel hungry. ewen had said earlier in the week that there would be plenty of food at the party, and where was the harm in slipping away for a second to go to the kitchen and grab something to eat? besides, by the time he went back outside, ewen would probably be back, so he figured he had enough time. so, eunjae went back inside and headed into the kitchen, glancing around to try and find the first thing that wasn’t alcohol. he didn’t care what kind of food it was at this point, all he knew was that he was hungry.

suddenly, his eyes landed on a plate of brownies and eunjae's face lit up. what kind of coincidence was this? he loved brownies, he was hungry, and here was a huge plate of brownies. perfect. he grabbed one for himself and took a bite, instantly deciding that these were the best brownies he had ever tasted in his life. really, whoever made them should go to cooking school or something, because these tasted so good. they made him feel like he was floating, that’s how good it was. before he knew it, the brownie was gone, so he decided to take another. even if he wasn’t exaclty hungry anymore, these brownies were beyond fucking good, and he wasn’t going to have just one of something so delicious.

(( augustus: “i finally met someone who makes me happy, i’m moving into a place i can decorate how i like, and i think i’m ready to start a family soon”

daniel: causes stress, will most definitely somehow ruin all of augustus’ plans, and is more of a child than any children they could possibly have ))

daniel had been looking around and taking the scenery in when augustus confirmed his theories about the apartment. “a jacuzzi? that is fancy.” he commented with a quick nod. growing up, daniel was never able to afford one of those cheap plastic pools to put in his yard, and here augustus was, able to move into a place that had a jacuzzi. he was almost jealous of him, but as soon as he remembered how often he would be staying with augustus and how they would probably end up in the jacuzzi a lot, he didn’t feel as jealous anymore.

a smile stayed on his face as he kept nodding his head, listening to augustus describe the apartment. he was really happy for augustus, he was able to afford something nice for himself and finally able to make the place he lived in look how he wanted it to look. that was probably what augustus was most looking forward to, daniel knew that if he was finally able to decorate his own place, he would be excited.

he had been so lost in thought that he nearly missed augustus’ question, but as soon as he heard what he said, his eyes widened and his head snapped over to look at the older male. “wait, what?” daniel knew that augustus loved him, he could feel augustus’ love constantly and augustus was always sure to verbally remind him that he loved him, he just didn’t think augustus loved him this much. moving in with someone was a big deal, and adopting a dog together was an even bigger deal, at least in daniel’s opinion anyways.

for a moment he just stayed in that position, frozen and looking at augustus with wide eyes. once he was finally able to process the fact that augustus was serious about this, he finally moved, wrapping his arms tightly around augustus and burying his face in his chest. he felt like he could cry from how happy he felt at the moment. “i’d love to move in with you.” he replied, voice muffled against augustus’ chest. he pulled away just a little, tilting his head back to look up at augustus. “what kind of dog? please tell me it’s a super cute one, and we both have to go see it before we make it officially ours, we have to make sure it loves both of us equally, i don’t want to be jealous because our dog loves you more than me.”

(( my name is soyee and i really want to kick youngmin’s ass right about now

i’m fine with reading it but thank you for warning me !! it means a lot ))

eunjae had been about three brownies in when he began to feel... good. it was a different type of feeling than he ever felt before, and he was just about to turn to his side and tell ewen about how amazing he felt, but then he suddenly remembered that youngmin has taken ewen away from him for a minute. he let out a heavy sigh, deciding just to stay in the kitchen, believing that ewen would go to the kitchen the second he realized he wasn’t outside anymore. being the oh so great boyfriend that he is, he decided that since he was staying in the kitchen, he could get ewen something to drink, and that’s exactly what he did. he didn’t really bother to read the label to see what he was pouring into a cup for ewen, but he figured based on the way he just downed a bottle of whatever at the last party they were at, the taste didn’t matter to ewen once he was already slightly fucked up. and considering that ewen had been high enough to forget his name, eunjae figured he was high enough to not care about how whatever was given to him tasted.

he was just about done pouring the liquid into a cup when he heard his name being called, and it only took a few seconds for him to recognize the voice as ewen’s. his face lit up with a huge smile when he heard ewen call him baby, sitting the bottle down and ready to turn to ewen to greet him and give him the cup he had poured for him. the second he turned around though, his smile faded. ewen didn’t look happy. and the longer he looked at him, it looked like ewen had been crying. maybe that was just from earlier still? yeah. youngmin wouldn’t upset ewen enough to cry, besides youngmin had only taken him to go introduce him to some people, what was there to cry about?

his smile returned and he gently pushed the cup he had in his hand towards ewen, hoping he realized that eunjae had made the drink just for him. “hi baby.” he giggled, taking a quick glance around to try and find youngmin. he shouldn’t be too far from ewen, right? as eunjae glanced around the room, he realized something. everything looked nicer than usual. everything was brighter and the people looked like they were having so much more fun and the song thay was blaring just sounded so good. he felt great. suddenly, he remembered that he wanted to tell ewen all about how fantastic he felt.

“oh my god, ewen, i feel amazing!” eunjae breathed out, suddenly feeling antsy just standing there. he wanted to do something. thinking of what to do, he remembered that there was a pool outside somewhere. and eunjae loved swimming. “ewen, ewen, we gotta go...” he breathed out again with a giggle, wrapping his fingers around ewen’s wrist and dragging him towards the back door, wanting nothing more than to just dive into the pool and swim for hours. but then he remembered something else he wanted, he wanted to tell ewen about the brownies, it wouldn’t be fair if he kept something so good away from ewen.

so he turned back around, dragging ewen back to the spot near the counter they were just at a few seconds ago. “holy shit, baby, you have to try these brownies, they’re so fucking good.” eunjae glanced around again, wanting to tell youngmin about it too. it wouldn’t be fair to youngmin if him and ewen had all these amazing brownies while he got none. “where’s youngmin? he needs to try some too!” he looked back at ewen, eyes lighting up as he suddenly remembered where ewen had been just a few minutes ago. “oh! how did everything go? were youngmin’s friends nice to you? do you think i can meet them too?”

(( augustus is gonna go try and save the dog and he’s gonna be like that’s not our dog how did- HOLY FUCK why is there ten dogs out here

also we keep dragging daniel with their kids and stuff but i can imagine daniel being sick one day so augustus has to take care of the kids and he has to keep asking daniel for help because he really doesn’t know what he’s doing and turns out the kids secretly have a favorite dad aka the fun dad aka daniel ))

daniel felt like he was on cloud nine. everything just felt so nice and it felt like all was well in the world. he loved augustus so much and he hadn’t expected augustus to ask him such a big question so soon, but he had. and it was a super big deal, one that daniel would probably never get over and never stop being happy about. he was really going to move in with augustus and they were going to start their own little family of dogs; it was a dream come true honestly. really, all there was left to make daniel’s ideal love life to be real was marriage. augustus really was his dream man, they were taking two big steps in their relationship by moving in together and getting a dog, all that was left on daniel’s little relationship checklist; and at this rate he didn’t know if he expected it to happen soon or much later in the future. augustus had caught him off guard with how soon he had asked him to move in, but he wasn’t going to complain.

“let’s get a small dog then.” he nodded upon hearing that augustus liked small dogs. honestly, daniel loved all dogs and wouldn’t care if they got a tiny chihuahua or a huge great dane, he would love their dog no matter what. but if augustus preferred small dogs, then of course they could get a small dog. he felt himself blush as augustus kissed his hands, looking down at his feet for a moment to try and not let augustus see his pink cheeks. “l-let’s get a japanese spitz then, they’re really cute.” daniel looked back up at him and let out a nervous laugh, almost wanting to yell at augustus for always making his heart flutter and making him blush all the time. “you should name it though, i’m bad at naming things. besides, we’ll all be living in your apartment, so it’s only fair that you get to name our dog.” he didn’t really know the logic behind it, so he just shrugged his shoulders and hoped it made sense to augustus.

“c’mon, let’s go find the swings, i still want you to push me.” daniel made sure that his hand was secure in augustus’, then started dragging him along in the direction that he knew all the playground equipment was. if they weren’t two large, adult men, he would suggest maybe playing on the slide or the monkey bars; but the more he thought about it, it didn’t seem fun. there was a chance that the slide would just collapse under their weight and they would just have their feet touch the ground if they tried to go across the monkey bars, and where was the fun in that? besides, the swings were good enough and they seemed like the only thing that two grown adults could play on without children of their own without looking like total freaks. “hey, i love you.” he glanced back at augustus for a minute with a huge smile on his face, just wanting to remind the older man that he did really love him. he loved him more than anything.

(( alright !! i’ll make sure we go through all that before i ask to skip or anything !!

eunjae’s just dumb ewen leave him alone lmao ))

eunjae realized the second that he mentioned the brownies, ewen’s mood seemed to instantly change. did he try the brownies earlier and just not like them? he didn’t see a problem with them, maybe ewen was just a picky eater? he was just about to ask if that was it, if he just didn’t like the brownies, but the answer as to why ewen looked so upset came when ewen told him they were pot brownies. he turned towards the plate of them to look at them for a second, letting out a soft giggle, turning back to ewen to tell him that they didn’t look like pot brownies. but then again, had he ever seen pot brownies before? he didn’t know what they were supposed to look like. but before he could tell ewen about this rather idiotic observation of his, ewen threw the drink that he made him onto the ground, causing eunaje’s smile to instantly turn into a frown. “hey! what the fuck, i got that just for you!” he couldn’t even hear what ewen was saying to him next over how upset he was that ewen just threw a perfectly good cup of alcohol away, especially when eunjae had made it just for him.

he was about to turn back around and make pour another cup when ewen started pulling him away. in response eunjae just stumbled behind him, letting out a soft sigh as he realized they were leaving the party. there goes their plans of having fun all night. why the hell was ewen so upset? eunjae really couldn’t figure it out. so what he had some pot brownies? it wasn’t like he did it on purpose, why couldn’t ewen see that? thankfully the events that came after he was drug outside humored him a little; the way that ewen yelled at youngmin and youngmin’s reponse had him laughing a little, but he wasn’t sure why. was anything they said even funny? he couldn’t actually tell.

as things fell silent as they started to drive, eunjae let out a soft sigh and rested his head against the window, just looking and watching everything that they passed. he let out a heavier sigh as ewen started to mumble on about him eating pot brownies again, simply rolling his eyes and feeling glad that ewen couldn’t see how annoyed he was starting to get. he ate pot brownies and here ewen was, acting as if he fucking murdered someone. what was the big deal anyways when ewen had jumped at the chance to smoke? ewen was allowed to get high, but he wasn’t? it was bullshit. when youngmin finally spoke up again and asked him if he ate the pot brownies, eunjae let out a laugh and nodded. “yeah, they were really good.”

when youngmin went on to offer to introduce him to mushrooms, eunjae let out another laugh, but it was quickly cut off by how fast ewen was to reply. eunjae sat back even farther against his seat, rolling his eyes again as ewen started talking to him again. “i’m fucking sorry ewen, i didn’t know. it’s not like they were labeled, we were at a party not a fucking bake sale. i didn’t eat them with intent to get high.” he knew ewen had a good point, did he ever really believe that normal brownies would be at such a big party? still, he couldn’t just admit that ewen was right and that he was sorry.

“and why the fuck are you so worried about me getting high? you’re allowed to get high but i’m not? you’re not my fucking dad ewen, i can do whatever i want.” eunjae shifted around in his seat, unable to get comfortable. he was so used to his own car, so used to being the one to drive himself, so used to holding ewen’s hand in the car. even though he was pissed at ewen, he was half tempted to ask him to come into the backseat with him and hold his hand. “you’ve tried drugs before too, why am i not allowed to try anything? does this perfect image you have of me matter so much to you? are you really going to like me less if i’m like every other fucking guy our age? you’re ridiculous ewen, honestly.”

eunjae sat up, deciding it was far too uncomfortable just to sit back and try to enjoy the ride. so he put one hand on the back of youngmin’s seat and the other on the back of ewen’s, leaning forward to his head was between the space between the two front seats. “hey youngmin, can you put on some music? preferably something ewen likes, maybe that’ll put him in a better mood since he’s acting like a real asshole right now.” he turned to look at ewen, carefully lifting the hand that was on the back of his seat and ruffling the hair on the top of ewen’s head. “i’m not an idiot.” he mumbled, suddenly realizing how much ewen had insulted him in the past few minutes. “or a moron, and i don’t have a thick fucking head, you’re just mean.” he pulled his hand away from ewen’s hair, letting out a soft sigh. “i still love you though.” he turned to youngmin, not wanting him to feel left out. “and you too, i love you too.”

(( akdbskdhu i’m praying for augustus

daniel somehow still doesn’t know how to take care of them though but the kids like him purely because they can always laugh at his struggles and how stressed augustus gets when he comes home and realizes the house is a bigger mess than when he left for work ))

“augustus, we can get whatever kind of dog you want, i’m just happy to finally be able to have a dog.” daniel replied, finding it absolutely adorable how augustus talked about yorkies, and he was right. a yorkie would be super cute, plus he always saw pictures on instagram of people dressing their yorkie and giving it different hairstyles, and that was something that daniel would be more than down to do if augustus allowed him to.

as they neared the swings, daniel was glad to see that one was still open. he was sure all the parents that were pushing their kids would look at him and augustus like they were the weirdest set of people ever, but he couldn’t bring himself to care. he was going to have fun and there was nothing anyone could do to ruin his good mood. “kids are cute.” he mumbled to augustus with a soft laugh as he sat down on the swing, looking at all the kids that were running around. no matter what kids did, they always managed to make it cute, and it was something that daniel had always loved. he would often coo over babies in the grocery store while he stood in the checkout line or often nearly pass out from happiness whenever his family members let him hold one of their babies or let one of their kids play with them; he was practically a huge kid himself, so it only made sense that he loved kids and got along with them so well.

when augustus started pushing him, he nodded at what he was saying. “that’s cute. we should try and get a girl, especially if we get a yorkie. do you know how many outfits they make for yorkies that say princess? she’ll think the outfits are custom made for her!” it took a minute for daniel to think about what he said, then he realized how silly he probably sounded. “not that she can read or anything, but we can tell her and i can believe that she’ll understand what we’re saying.” he carefully turned back to look at augustus. “but even if we name our dog something really unusual, you’re rich enough to afford all kinds of stuff for her. because we’re definetly getting a girl.”

eunjae thought that his words would have made ewen realize how unfair he was being. he knew he wasn’t exactly in his right mind at the moment, but he could at least recognize how unfair it was for ewen to ask him not to get high when he got high himself and while they were at a party packed with people getting high. but he was wrong, and his words only seemed to piss ewen off even more. he just sat still, listening to everything ewen was saying. he recognized the fact that ewen was just upset and would most likely apologize for what he was saying later, so he knew it was best just to sit there and not make matters worse before either of them said or did something they would really regret. and that’s what he planned to do, but as soon as ewen had mentioned him thinking the world revolves around him, he couldn’t stay silent for much longer.

“oh fuck you ewen, you know that’s not true! i make one fucking mistake and you act like the world is ending, you’re the one that needs to get of their high horse. i got high, boohoo, get over it ewen. it’s not that big of a deal.” he sat back and crossed his arms, looking out the window in hopes that the scenery would take his mind off of ewen. but ewen really had to keep talking. he listened to what he was saying, not that he had a choice because it was the only noise that there was to be heard. he felt himself choke up and tears start to build up when ewen claimed yet again that he didn’t actually love him. he didn’t want to cry, he wasn’t a crybaby, and he really didn’t want youngmin to see him cry. but the one thing that he really couldn’t handle was ewen telling him that he didn’t actually love him.

still, he tried his best to just bite back the tears, but the more that ewen kept talking, the harder it got to not just burst into tears and start sobbing like a baby. as soon as ewen seemed to be finished, eunjae felt all the tears rush out at once. he pulled his knees up to his chest to try and muffle the sounds of him crying, but he knew he couldn’t just let it go. “if anyone is using anyone, you’re the one using me. you’re the one who writes about the things you want to do with me in your diary, i’m just some fucking fantasy for you, what’s going to happen when we do all the stuff you write about, huh? you’re going to find the next guy and write about him?” he hated how his voice cracked and he hated how obvious that it now was that he was crying. “but if you really think that i’m using you and if you’re fucking dumb enough to believe that i don’t love you then fine. you don’t have to worry about it anymore, i don’t want to be with you anymore anyways. you’re a fucking dickhead ewen, fuck you.”

eunjae buried his face in his knees, silently letting the tears spill from his eyes and occasionally sniffling, listening to ewen move onto youngmin. what was his problem tonight? whag had youngmin done to deserve getting yelled at? ewen was mad at him, not youngmin. he felt himself stop crying for a moment when he realized what ewen was saying, when he realized that it made sense. it only made him more pissed at ewen though. he knew this whole time and didn’t say anything? he still wanted to hang out with youngmin after that? didn’t ewen understand how gross he felt after that girl touched him? and he still wanted to hang out with the guy that made it happen? ewen really was an asshole.

the tears started up again, and eunjae just shook his head softly as ewen seemed to finally finish up what he was saying. “don’t fucking talk to me, i hate you.” he mumbled, not caring if his words hurt ewen, not caring that he would regret everything he was saying soon. he was just so emotional over everything. over ewen getting mad over something so small, about ewen telling him that he didn’t actually love him, over ewen knowing the person behind all the bad things that happened at the party and not telling him. he was just so pissed and upset that he didn’t care about anything. he just wanted to get to youngmin’s house so he could get enough rest and leave in the morning. he didn’t ever want to see either of them again. not for a long while anyways.

daniel smiled as it seemed like they had just planned one perfect part of their future. honestly, he had been looking forward to taking big steps like this in their relationship, and now that augustus was ready to do it, he felt beyond happy. nothing could ruin his good mood from here on out. when augustus asked what he had planned for them, he shyly shrugged. he had quite a few things planned, but he was too embarrassed to admit some of them to augustus.

“well, moving in together and getting a dog is pretty big right? the only big thing i can see happening not too long after that is getting married. i mean, we already act like we’re married, so it’s not too crazy to say that i already imagined us getting married, right?” he spoke softly, hoping that if augustus didn’t want to be married again or something like that, he would realize that this meant a lot to him and if he was going to reject him, he would do it gently. if augustus didn’t want to marry, that’s fine, he didn’t want him to be rude about it though.

“and i want you to meet my mom one day soon too. like before we actually get a dog or get married and everything, maybe once we’re settled into the new apartment we could go visit her?” he glanced back at him again, a soft smile still on his lips. “you’ll be able to see my old room too. maybe we can even stay over for the night, i bet my mom would like that. i bet she misses me tons, but she’s going to be more focused on you than me when we see her.” he laughed as he turned back around. “what about you? do you have anything else planned for us? or is a dog and moving in together it for now?”

(( someone call the police there’s two emotional teenage boys arguing and it’s not good ))

when eunjae said that he didn’t want ewen to talk to him anymore, he had meant it. but it really seemed like ewen didn’t understand that. eunjae just looked up at him as he kept talking, silently letting tears fall, having no plans to actually reply to anything ewen was saying. he was high, he didn’t mean anything that he was saying. at least eunjae sincerely hoped he didn’t mean some of the things he was saying, because if he did mean them then eunjae really was done with ewen. he really loved him more than anything and would do absolutely anything in the world to make him happy, but he couldn’t be with someone who thought so lowly of him, he just couldn’t.

by the time he managed to make himself stop crying, they were at youngmin’s house. eunjae had sincerely hoped by the time they got there that ewen would have been in a better mood, but as he watched him climb out of the car as youngmin headed inside, he realized that wasn’t going to happen. at least not right at that second anyways. he got out after ewen, grabbing his wrist before he could actually get anywhere. ewen could be pissed at him all he wanted, but there was no way in hell that eunjae was going to let him walk all the way home alone at this time of night. eunjae was mad at him, but he never wanted to see anything bad actually happen to him.

“hey, i’m sorry, okay? i fucked up and i’m really sorry that i couldn’t listen to you, you’re right about what you said. i am a huge fucking idiot, what did i expect when i ate the brownies? i’m sorry that i’m so dumb, but i promise that i wouldn’t have eaten any if i knew that they weren’t just normal brownies.” he slowly started attempting to pull ewen closer to him, just wanting to hug him and apologize for everything that he had ever done to hurt ewen. “and i didn’t mean it when i called you an asshole, i didn’t mean any of the stuff i said. except for when i told you that i love you, because i really do love you ewen. so fucking much, and i’m sorry that i’m such a shitty boyfriend, you really do deserve better than me.”

he let out a shaky sigh and looked towards youngmin’s house, hoping he could convince ewen to go inside. “and i’m really sorry if you think i’m using you for sex because i’m not. having sex doesn’t matter to me, we could never have sex and i would still love you and want to be with you. plus what you said about me going to fuck those girls, you know that’s never going to happen.” he laughed softly, wincing a bit at how miserable it sounded. “i’m gay, remember?”

eunjae tugged on ewen’s wrist. “let’s go inside. you’re emotional and tired, you need some sleep. and you’re dumb if you think i’ll let you walk home alone at this time at night, i’m not going to let you get hurt because we’re fighting again. let’s just go inside, okay? you can even borrow my hoodie if you want, plus i really want to kiss you because i missed you when youngmin took you away at the party.” he let out another soft laugh, trying to pull ewen towards youngmin’s house. “please. i know i’m terrible and don’t listen to you but can you please just sleep here tonight? you can stay mad at me and whatever, just please stay here so i know you’re safe.”