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eunjae let out a little sigh of relief when ewen confirmed that he was willing to try it. it felt like a huge relief knowing that he wasn’t essentially forcing ewen into anything. it was also really nice that ewen was saying the same thing as him, if one of them didn’t want to do something then they didn’t have to do it. both of them had to be consenting for anything to even be enjoyable.

when ewen said that this was all payback for last night, he felt his cheeks heat up again. just after they had went back to their normal color and he thought he was done being embarrassed, ewen had to bring up the whole sex conversation again. “shut up!” he laughed, trying to look anywhere but at ewen. “that’s different and you know it! when you’re embarrassed you at least look cute, like a little tiny cherry tomato, when i’m embarrassed it’s the total opposite!” ewen being embarrassed wasn’t enjoyable for him or anything, he actually felt really bad whenever he was embarrassed, but eunjae being eunjae, he just had to argue about how him being embarrassed over a kiss and ewen being embarrassed over sex were different. in reality, ewen was probably much more embarrassed, but eunjae was too stubborn to ever admit that.

“unless, are you hinting at the fact that when you brought up sex last night, that it was something that you want to try?” he nudged him softly as he teased him, a soft laugh leaving his lips. “you’re really into moving fast in relationships, huh? we just had our first kiss and you’re already ready to have sex? man, and here i thought you were innocent.” once he felt that he was done teasing ewen for the same thing yet again, he placed a gentle kiss on his cheek. “it’s okay, it was cute. how fast your mind went from innocently thinking about a kiss to that, I thought it was cute.” eunjae thought everything about ewen and everything he did was cute, but he hoped ewen wouldn’t call him out on that. not so soon anyways.

he knew that he had spent enough time avoiding the topic at hand, and that they were running out of the time they had alone, so he just decided to get on with it. “if this is horrible, i never want to mention it again, okay? if this turns out really bad and you ever bring it up, i can’t promise that i won’t kill you, okay?” the idea of having a bad kiss with ewen was already terrifying enough, but the idea of ewen teasing him about it was probably the most embarrassing thing that he could think of.

without wasting any more time, he tightened his grip on ewen’s hips, pulling him closer again. he wanted to tell him that he was pretty, but he knew if he took another second or tried to talk, all his confidence and will to try it right now would be lost. he carefully pressed his lips against ewen’s, hoping as much as one possibly could, that things would go okay. that it would be enjoyable and ewen would want to try something like this again. it started off like a normal kiss, and it was supposed to, right? at least from what he heard his friends talking about. he really wasn’t lying when he said he didn’t know how to kiss someone like that, most of his learning about romantic relationships came from his friends, and seeing how long their relationships lasted made him take all of their words with a grain of salt. before he knew it or could think too much into the things his friends said, his tongue was added in the equation, he never wanted to open his eyes so badly, he just wanted to see if ewen was enjoying it.

(( they get halfway through their books and they turn into that spider-man meme like how did you have the exact same idea as me ))

daniel happily took the book from augustus, he thought the idea of augustus giving him an innocent romance novel while he gave him some dirty erotica was rather amusing. “and i want you to read this one tonight.” he handed him the seemingly, but not so innocent book with an innocent smile on his face. “i’m sure i’ll like what you picked out for me, but i have a feeling that the one i just gave you is the best they had. you’ll really enjoy it, i’m sure about that.”

he looked down at the book that augustus gave him, smiling a bit. the title seemed a big suggestive, but there was no way that augustus would give him something like that and not tell him. there wasn’t any way that they had the same exact idea. “one quick thing!” he looked up at augustus before either of them could open their books and start reading. “we can’t talk to eachother about the books until we’re both finished, okay?”

he sat down and opened the book, starting to read it. yeah, it was innocent. maybe the title was supposed to be suggestive just to catch someone’s eye. as he thought earlier, there was no way the two of them had the same idea. as he continued reading, he was sure to peek over at augustus to see his reaction. he could only hope augustus was as surprised by some of the things in the book as he was when he first saw it.

eunjae felt more confident in himself as he actually did it, a smile on his face when him and ewen parted away from one another. ewen’s words were a huge confidence boost. “i’m glad you enjoyed it.” was that weird to say after a kiss? even if it was, neither of them probably wouldn’t know. they were each other’s firsts, they would slowly learn what was normal and what they were good at, for now they had all the time to learn and try whatever they needed and wanted to.

he let himself fall back onto the bed, still keeping a firm grip on ewen’s hips so he wouldn’t fall or anything. as he laid on ewen’s bed, he looked up and him and decided that the best thing to do after their little moment was to tease him about something he saw earlier. “earlier you said i look like pikachu whenever i get embarrassed.” he glanced behind ewen for a second, taking a purposefully long look at the bookshelf. “is that manga that i’m seeing right now?” he looked back at ewen, raising his eyebrows. “i can’t believe it, my boyfriend is a nerd.”

he flipped the two of them over so ewen was the one laying on the bed and eunjae was above him, he took both his wrists into one hand and pinned them above his head, using his other hands to tickle his sides. “and remember when you quoted shakespeare before?” he stopped tickling him, letting his wrists go and pressing a gentle kiss to the tip of his nose. “you’re so cute, even if you are a huge nerd.”

he took another look behind him at the shelf before turning to look at ewen again. he didn’t recognize any of the titles as anything popular enough for him to have heard of before, so he decided to go further with his teasing. “what kind do you have over there, hmm? is it those ones that are made for teenage girls, about two boys? i’ve heard those ones are rather dirty.” he laughed lightly, rolling off of ewen and landing on the bed, quickly pulling the smaller male into his arms and towards his chest. “bet it’s about two boys, one is popular and the other isn’t and the popular one falls for the other one.”

he slipped his hands under ewen’s shirt, gently rubbing his back. “this is like your dream come true, isn’t it? you’ve fantasized about the things that happen in those stories happening to you.” he stopped moving his hands, settling for resting them gently on his bare waist. “maybe that’s why you were thinking about sex, you wanted to convince me to try some of the dirty things from your managa, right?”

eunjae’s eyes widened as ewen spoke, realizing that he was right. his words were only meant as a joke to tease ewen, but in his sudden burst trying to defend himself, he had admitted that eunjae hit the nail right on its head with his guess. “oh my god.” he muttered, placing his hands on either side of ewen’s face. “i just meant all of that as a joke, but oh my god, you really...” he trailed off and shook his head. if eunjae wasn’t looking at him to see that he was as red as a person could possibly be, he would have felt it. his hands felt like they were on fire from how hot ewen’s cheeks were.

“it’s okay, i’m sure there’s like tons of other gay boys who read them. i mean, tons of things are enjoyed by people outside of their targeted audience. how could anyone expect a story about gay boys to not be enjoyed by gay boys?” he spoke quickly, trying to make ewen feel better. he really hadn’t meant to make ewen so embarrassed, if he would have known the truth behind his playful assumption, he wouldn’t have said anything. “and like you said they’re not all dirty! I see little girls reading them all the time, they can’t be giving people under the age of sixteen such dirty things to look at, right?”

he dropped his hands away from ewen’s face, wrapping his arms around him in a hug. “some of them probably are really cute. and the characters probably do have ideal relationships i mean,” he glanced over at the bookshelf, hoping his next idea would help ewen feel less uncomfortable and more as ease with his interests. “you can even show me one that you really like, like one that you’d want us to be like. i mean, i really want to be the best boyfriend you could ever have and what better way for me to learn what you like than you showing me?”

he pressed a kiss to his forehead, hoping that he felt better. he didn’t ever want to make ewen get embarrassed, especially over something that he actually liked. “and you know what? i’ll tell you about something that i like that i’m too embarrassed to tell anyone about, just to make it up to you. not even my parents know about this, that’s how much i hide it.” he sucked in a deep breath, already half regretting his own words. admitting something that embarrassed him was never fun, but he’d do it for ewen.

he sat up so he was sitting cross legged on the bed, facing ewen. he was silent for a minute, placing his hands in his lap and playing with his fingers. he really couldn’t believe he was going to tell ewen something he kept hidden from everyone else for so long. “so this never gets told to anyone else, okay? this is just between us. i keep your manga interests a secret and you keep what i’m about to tell you a secret.” he looked up from his lap and at ewen, feeling his cheeks heat up before he even started speaking. “okay, so like, i don’t really know what kind of music you imagine me listening to? maybe rap or something, that’s what all my friends listen to and it’s like stereotypical, yeah? but that’s not true, i actually listen to like, and ewen i swear if anyone else ever finds this out i’ll kill you, girls’ generation and stuff. actually no, not and stuff, just them really. and to make it even more embarrassing for myself, all my friends got drunk once and were talking about how they’d go gay for this one pro football player, and i was thinking to myself who would i go straight for, you know? and it’s sooyoung from girls’ generation, hands down. if she came to me right now, i’d actually have to think really hard to choose between you and her.” he lifted his hands out of his lap, covering his now bright red face.

“get all your laughter out now.” a few moments later he let his hands fall back into his lap again, nodding towards the bookshelf. “now go pick out the manga with the cutest couple, i wanna see what you’re into.”

eunjae jumped a bit as ewen hit him, not out of pain because it wasn’t a hard hit, but out of surprise. he wanted to quickly spit out a reason about why it was a problem and embarrassing, but he was quickly cut off before he could even start. he winced as ewen slammed a book down onto his lap, seriously where did ewen’s strength come from all of a sudden, and listened as he yelled about what was in the book. he winced every time ewen mentioned that there was just kissing and no dirty scenes and that there was way more to it than a story for women who fetishized them.

he didn’t even look at ewen, instead just staring at the book in his lap. he felt ewen sit down on the bed, but he didn’t even look at him. he doubted that ewen was looking at him anyways. he let out a shaky sigh, opening the book and silently flipping through the pages. he wanted to comment about how ewen was right, how the characters were cute, and how he never even meant anything that he said in the first place, but he couldn’t really bring himself to say anything.

he closed the book and managed to make himself look over at ewen, feeling even worse when he saw how he was practically sulking. “i didn’t mean it.” he mumbled, turning back to look at the book in his lap. he played with the edge of the pages, trying to think of what he could say to make things better, less tense. “i just thought i was teasing you about something so i could get you to blush, all so i had an excuse to call you cute. and then things would go back to normal, that’s what i thought.” he got up and walked over to the shelf, finding where the book belonged and slid it back into its home, walking back over to the bed and sitting down. “obviously i wasnt thinking enough because i didn’t take into consideration that you might actually like that stuff and i was actually embarrassing you.”

he let out another sigh, looking back over at ewen. “and you’re right, my thing that i’m embarrassed about really isn’t anything to be embarrassed about or to be afraid of to admit to anyone. i don’t know why i thought telling you would make you feel better.” he shrugged, slowly scooching a bit closer to ewen. he stopped once he was about an arms length away. “i’m sorry, i really am ewen. you know i’d never actually intentionally hurt or embarrass you like that, right?” he held out his arms, a soft smile coming to his face. “if you give me a hug i can hold you and i’m sure that will make you feel a tiny bit better. and you can ask me any possible embarrassing question that comes to mind and i’ll answer all of them, in fact i really want you to ask me questions like that, okay?” he let his arms drop a little, his smile becoming a tad bit weaker. “unless you want me to go home, i can do that too. and i’ll go home and think about how to be a lot better towards you because you really do deserve a lot better than someone who just embarrasss you all the time.”

(( that’s the one!! i was just too lazy to look for it and link it lmao ))

daniel’s plans of sneaking looks at augustus soon crumbled, because he found himself unable to look away from what he was reading. he was right about the title being purposefully suggestive to get people’s attention, it was just that the book was aimed at a certain type of people. the same type of people that would read the book he gave augustus, and he really couldn’t believe that they thought of the same thing, but he couldn’t focus on that when he was reading something that was so detailed and filthy.

he knew his eyes were blown wide and his whole face was red, every sentence just seemed to get worse and worse and he didn’t even want to know what augustus’ plans were; if it was just to get him embarrassed or if it was because he wanted to try what was in the book. but he knew that if it was the second option, he was going to have a rather long and interesting night. the combination of what was happening in the book he was reading and the book augustus was reading? he was going to be a whole new man in the morning. he would probably even have to take off again.

once he was finished, he closed the book and just sat there for a moment, staring at the wall. he shifted uncomfortably in his seat, unable to give a name to what he was feeling. he knew he was shocked from what he just read, shocked that augustus would have the same idea as him at the same time. he knew he was turned on, more than he had ever been, both from just knowing how augustus was reading something bad filthy as he had and thinking about him and augustus trying some of the things in the book. but there was something else... impatience. that was it. he couldn’t wait until augustus finished his book so he could yell at him for putting such dirty thoughts in his mind, that was as pure as a babies compared to what he had read.

once he saw augustus close his book, he hopped up from his seat and marched over to him, face bright red. “augustus, every damn time i look at you now all i can imagine is... i can’t even say it! that book was the filthiest thing i have ever seen!” he lightly smacked augustus’ chest. “was it part of your plan to get me so turned on like this, hmm? was the only reason you wanted to get books, was so you could give me this one and try out some of your fantasies?” he grabbed the fabric of augustus’ shirt, pulling him towards him. “because it worked. it worked a little too well.”

(( someone call the police i can’t find my shy and innocent boyfriends who were giggling over a first kiss ))

ewen knew how to get eunjae blushing like nobody else did. he was expecting ewen to ask about weird interest he had or something like that, but he had jumped right to a sex question. one that directly related to him and eunjae felt like his skin was going to melt off from how hot his cheeks were.

“yeah.” he nodded, trying to keep his voice from shaking. the question had caught him a bit off guard and he didn’t have time to mentally prepare for it. “when you said that you’re a dancer, the first thing that came to mind was how easily dancers move and how they’re flexible. it’s hot, you’re hot if i’m being completely honest.” he cleared his throat, trying to buy time for himself. maybe the longer he waited to answer the quicker he would feel less embarrassed about the situation. but then again, he didn’t want it to seem like he was trying to come up with a believable lie, he wanted to tell ewen the truth. so he began speaking again, “and when you were wearing my jersey, i mean you in my regular clothes like the hoodie i gave you this morning is truly a sight, but there’s something about you wearing something with my name on it that really does something. it’s like proof that you’re all mine.” he shrugged and leaned back, holding himself up with his hands.

“but when i had you in that position earlier it really wasn’t for anything except to keep you from pushing me away when i was tickling you. but i mean, now that you brought up about it being sexual, yeah, now i’m thinking about it.” he pushed ewen’s hands off of his knees, leaning all the way back and pulling ewen on top of him. “would you be honest with me and tell me if you ever had dirty thoughts about me? you must have at some point right? how often?” he placed his hands on ewen’s thighs, staring up at him with a huge smile on his face. “if i’m being completely honest like you want me to be, sometimes you’re hotter than you are cute. and you look really hot like this.”

(( omg have you ever seen those videos of that guy and a girl named elizabeth every time i see them I think of augustus ))

daniel let out a nervous laugh as augustus got closer to him. the man really was too hot for his own good, for daniel’s own good. he subconsciously licked his lips as he listened to the older man speak, shivering as he felt his hands on his bare skin.

“shouldn’t i be saying the same thing to you? you’re the one in charge here, were you really so afraid of telling me the kind of stuff that turns you on? all the filthy things you want to do to me?” he rolled his eyes, patting augustus’ chest lightly. “i tell you that i like begging, and what have you told me so far? absolutely nothing, it’s kind of pathetic if you still think you’re the one in charge here. especially after how i made you beg this morning, if i were you i’d lose the idea that i’m submissive to you straight away, you hear me?” he poked his chest and then pushed him away.

he started heading out of the kitchen and up the stairs, glancing behind him. “i’ll give you five minutes to get up to the room with me and spill all your dirtiest desires to me, maybe, maybe, i’ll take back what i just said and never talk back like that again. but it has to be good, make me feel like even that book couldn’t have made me feel? you can do that, right? after all, you just have to say what you’d like to do to me, what you’d like me to do to you.” he turned back, continuing up the stairs and heading into augustus’ bedroom. “five minutes augustus!”

(( honestly they are, they’re just never the same one at the same time thank god

well, until prom night anyways ))

eunjae let out a laugh as ewen fell off of him. even if the situation turned on him, he still managed to come out on top. “it’s too bad your mom is going to be here soon then. i’d honestly love to put you in that position and give you exactly what you wished for but, oh well. maybe another time.” he turned so he was facing ewen, pulling him close.

he kept one arm wrapped around him and used the other to slowly peel the hoodie away from his face. “cute.” he mumbled, quickly pressing a kiss to the tip of his nose. “you’re such a cutie.” he pulled him towards his chest, resting his chin on the top of his head. “hey, are you free this weekend by any chance?”

he knew it was a complete conversation change, but he didn’t want to embarrass ewen any more, he knew what would happen, and even if ewen wouldn’t have yelled earlier, he still felt bad for making him that embarrassed. “if you’re not could i take you out for the whole weekend? your moms not going to think it’s weird or anything right? i kinda wanna take you to the beach, my parents have a house there that we can stay in for the weekend. we’ll be alone for two whole days.” he moved his head back so he could look at ewen. “it’s supposed to be really nice and sunny, and i’ve always dreamed of spending a day at the beach with my boyfriend since i found out i was gay. and now i have you, my boyfriend, so why not?”

(( we somehow relate memes and vines to our characters and i think that’s beautiful ))

daniel knew that augustus was going to listen to him, that it wouldn’t take him longer than the time given to join him in the bedroom and start spilling out all his desires. being dominate just meant way too much for augustus to risk letting it go.

once five minutes had passed, augustus came into the room and a smile spread across his face; he had gotten what he wanted yet again. he listened carefully, trying his best to keep a face that looked like he couldn’t care less if he tried, nodding along with what augustus was saying.

“well, you have my permission to tie me up then.” he nodded, meeting augustus’ eyes. “i guess it’s only fair to tell you something else i like besides being made to beg then, that way we both know two things about one another.” he patted the bed with his hand, hoping augustus would join him on it. “i’ve always wanted to know what it was like to be choked.”

eunjae was a bit confused when ewen frantically ran over to his closet, but quickly understood once he realized that his mom would probably be the first person to know that ewen was wearing someone else’s clothes. and someone finding out about them all because of a hoodie seemed rather dumb, so he was glad ewen reacted as fast as he did. when ewen told him not to look, he nodded, not only looking in the other direction but also covering his eyes for extra protection.

once he felt ewen grab his hand, he knew he was dressed and before he could realize they were heading downstairs, he was stood in front of a woman he never saw before, his hand most definitely not holding ewen’s. if he had any less self control, he would’ve pouted about it right there on the spot. “hi.” he smiled, replying to ewen’s mom. it was interesting, meeting one of the parents of his boyfriend, even if no one knew they were boyfriends yet. before he could have any more of a conversation with his mom, ewen was pushing him right back up the stairs.

when ewen closed the door behind him, he collapsed on the bed and looked up at the ceiling. “i’m tall boy.” he laughed, sitting up a second later. “i’m not that tall, right?” he knew he was taller than average and that ewen probablt only called him tall because he was so short, but was he tall enough for it to be his defining trait? he was usually used to being called hot, although now that he really thought about it that would be weird if ewen’s mom called him hot.

he sat back up, looking at ewen. “it’s your house, we can do whatever you want.” he shrugged, looking at ewen’s bedroom door. “we could always go talk to your mom, she seemed happy to see you.” he looked back at ewen. “or you could put my hoodie back on for the time being and not make me look away this time?” he playfully winked at him before looking around again. “i don’t know, like i said, your house, your call on what to do.” if they were in his room he would’ve forced ewen to play video games with him, or let him meet his cat: cloud, or even showed ewen that his girls’ generation obsession was embarrassing, just from the size of his collection of their stuff. but it wasn’t his house, it was ewen’s.

eunjae watched as ewen got his laptop, making himself more comfortable as ewen came back to the bed. “let’s watch it follows.” while he was usually a huge fan of cute movies with gay boys for him to temporarily fall in love with, the idea of ewen possibly being scared sounded much more tempting. if ewen got scared, then of course he would have to protect him, and the idea of a guy protecting his boyfriend because he was scared was probably in one of the cute gay movies, so it was like getting a two in one.

“you want me to hold you or do you not get scared from these kinds of things?” eunjae didn’t really know how easy of a scare ewen was, there was a large chance that he only offered to watch something scary because he didn’t actually get scared, but still. offering to hold him was always nice, besides even if neither of them got scared, they would probably end up cuddling anyways. it was comfortable and they were dating, no other excuse was needed for constantly cuddling.

“i’m surprised you don’t want to watch scream, I would love to hear all the things you have to say about skeet ulrich.” he nudged ewen gently, a fond smile on his face as he watched him. “you’d be able to hear what i have to say about him too. we should watch scream next time, promise that we will?”

(( if it’s not daniel it’s one of us making fun of his age rip augustus

and it’s okay !! ))

when augustus smacked his thigh, daniel smacked his chest in reply. “shut up, i totally change my mind. you should be the one being choked so i don’t have to ever hear you say that again.” he didn’t mind augustus saying it at all, just the fact that he was the one being called kinky made him a tad bit embarrassed, though he would never admit that.

“i’m fine with trying anything tonight.” he spoke softly in reply to augustus’ question, watching the hand on his thigh. “whatever you want, we can do. remember i got what i wanted earlier, it’s your turn now.” he leaned towards augustus and placed a gentle kiss on his lips. “if you’re feeling up to it i’m sure we could just try both. tying me up and choking me, that’s like, extra kinky right? so you should totally be into it.”

he gently pushed augustus’ hand further up on his thigh, innocently smiling up at him. “and there’s more you want to try out with me, right? i’m sure of it. tying someone up can’t be the only desire you’ve had in your many years of life. i’m willing to try anything augustus, just say the word and i’m all yours.”

(( will augustus ever catch a break? no

lmao

augustus: call me master

daniel: how about grandpa ))

daniel would never admit it to augustus, but the way he made him feel was something he thought he would never experience, and calling him something other than ‘augustus’ or ‘mr.noe’ was hands down the hottest thing in the world to him.

he woke up in augustus’ arms, the older man holding him tightly. over the time that they had officially become a couple, this had become normal for them. and honestly, daniel loved it. starting out his day wrapped up in augustus’ arms was probably the best way to start and end a day.

he looked over at augustus, noticing how he was still sleeping. he would have to tease augustus later about how he was always the last to fall asleep and the last to wake up, maybe sleeping longer was just part of being old. after a few seconds of just watching him sleep, he decided that he had slept for long enough and that it was time to get up and pay attention to him.

“augustus.” he whined, slowly wriggling out of his grasp in hopes that the sudden loss of his warmth would wake him up. “wake up and pay attention to me.” he threw one leg over his sleeping form and began straddling him, leaning down to his ear to whisper to him. “hey master.” he laughed softly before continuing, “don’t you want to wake up and see me? i’m getting pretty lonely just sitting her alone, waiting for you.”

as the movie started, eunjae wrapped an arm around ewen, wanting to hold him close. whether or not he got scared from the movie wasn’t on his mind, he really just wanted ewen to be close to him. it felt nice. holding his boyfriend felt really nice.

the movie was just as he expected at first, it wasn’t much different from any other horror movie. it started out not scary at all but giving a little idea of what was to come later on in the movie. it didn’t take too long for a scene to come on that surprised him, a more suggestive scene. his eyes were blown wide for the first few seconds, not for any other reason than he just wasn’t expecting it. soon he settled back down again, occasionally glancing at ewen, and after one glance, their eyes met.

he let out a soft laugh, not wanting to be louder than the movie. he was interested in it and didn’t want to miss hearing anything important. “you were right about this being a horror movie.” he mumbled, eyes turning back to the screen. “watching straight people do their thing is honestly the scariest thing i have ever witnessed.” he gave ewen a gentle squeeze before shutting up again, going back to focusing on the movie.

it wasn’t until the movie actually started showing some things that could potentially scare someone that he looked back at ewen, noticing that he looked a little scared. he didn’t want to ask, what if he embarrassed him or what if ewen thought it was annoying when he talked during movies? he silently pulled ewen closer to his chest and wrapped both his arms around him. “it’s not that scary.”

he whispered and pressed a kiss to the top of his head. “i mean it couldn’t happen to us, right? they’re all straight and we’re gay, nothings going to come after us.”