Posts by OLEANDERPAW

i have no idea? to be honest whoops

ANYWAY

i have a lot of muse for ollie and??
no outlet for it lmao,, i'm just responding
to ollie and night's thread and i might??
do something else but i'm not sure what to
do lmao

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she is simply missing c:

@Dizzy dude, we should totally have a thread between
ollie, mostly because i really enjoy their fighting but also
because their personalities are really similar and they could
be either really good friends who argue like crazy or those
two idiots who are never not arguing!

...ALL MY FRIENDS ARE LEAVING ME
how dare they, i mean not dare they
i am sad what

that leaves us down a lot of ranks shoot
but this also means we could likely have more
plots open with other clans because of our lack of
a med cat/apprentice right? likely visits from other
meds and the apprentice would likely have to be trained
by an ally cat,, eh, i'm trying to make the best of a bad
situation but i'm not sure i'm doing it right. :/

that signature pictures still gets me every damn time

well, let's not think of it as dying but,,, just getting more
interesting i suppose - now we have to figure out
what exactly what we're going to do

shit fam

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tenn played oakpaw and piz played blackpaw and Losteye but piz should be back soon enough and it's probably best if we didn't talk about it anymore? Just in case.

Also, that sounds really, really good because Shade and Ollie have a lot in common - mostly their blunt/aggressive nature and probably horrible people skills that leaves them outcastes from the group and just perpetually angry at the world. Honestly I would love for them to have a friendship like that?? Like, they pick on each other but they really only like the other person bc "wyd other people gawd" I can make the thread where they get in trouble if you'd like? Maybe they fall through the earth and into a small animal trap and have to get out? Or they fall into a cave system and have to rely on the other?

Hi tigerteeth! It's claws right? I saw you on the adoption thread lmao, welcome to shadowclan!

I'm also responding to nights and Ollie's thread now because why does it take me forever to do that my god.

I also might? Make Ollie a heartchart soon lmao, and I have to respond to the meeting and make his thread where he has an episode and so much to do tick tock

i mean it's worth a shot?? i can start it's plot a little
early and maybe that will help but like,, i gotta
figure out how their freaking addiction would
start lmao,, but imma try again

who would want a private thread with me
to maybe help me pick up some muse

and now that twostar is gone, i may need
to figure out a new mentor for the asshole

i've already talked to them about the addiction because it's not?
about getting him high but making him feel better, it'd be an
addiction to a particular herb that he associates with feeling
good, maybe something that helped him when he was sick
and then to achieve that feeling of being okay,, he eats it
and then it sort of becomes his only source of peace and happiness
he physically needs that herb to be okay,, so far?? i think it might be mint?
but i'm still deciding which herb it would be

also,,, ollie is coming back more angry than ever
and no one can stop me, he will fight all of you aLL OF YOU

hey piz, do you need any help? i've had some experience lately
and i could help you out if you needed anything?? and i would love
for lost to be ollie's mentor! god,, he's salty right? they can be
salty together i m

i can totally do it fam! is there a list of litters anywhere?
i can make a template for it too if you would like?

also,,, you sneaky sneaky snek

also that's what i was think jay! i read it once and because
i know that animals can, in fact, get addicted i was so hyped
and i even talked to a mod and they were like "go ahead!"
and i'm ready to ruin ollie

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there is no such thing as "too many" you have
to fight thEM ALL golly gosh,, but i gotta have
ollie fight someone and go into an episode that's
not pretty so like,,, if anyone wants to hit me up
winkwonk my body is ready jk i'm sorry

ollie is just,, biologically and emotionally angry
at literally everything because no one loved him
as a baby so he's got a twisted idea of the world
and his ied doesn't,,, really help - he's got anger
issues on steroids to be honest

also?? you might be seeing double? i just edited some
stuff so that may be the case? also! i am on it babe
i got this watch me z o o m

ollie would fight himself if he could :/
he just,,, hates so much

DUDE bat could maybe be someone ollie could like
his crosseyes make it hard to see sometimes
and maybe they could relate??

i'm on it piz!

also, i think the biggest motivation for ollie is that
he genuinely cannot find happiness? he hates himself
he hates the world, his mom, his dad, everyone. as a
child his mom sort of ditched him and left him with a
father that liked to, uh, smack him around and ollie
grew up watching these happy families and never
being able to experience that himself so he came to
the conclusion that love=fake, anyone who cares is
only pretending, everyone only wants to save themselves
the world is dominated by fakes, by pretenders who care
only about themselves and no one loves, we're all fueled
by a biological need and any attachments you have to another
person aren't,,, well, your own, it's fake, all of it and he's told
himself that over and over and over and now he honest to god
believes that no one actually cares about him and gets aggressive
when anyone even shows him that. but he's not?? terrible, he has
emotions but he just tries to suppress them because they only cause
issues.

bat is going to be? a lucky bug if he befriends ollie because ollie
fucking hates people and it'll be a sucky onesided friendship
but ollie will try lmao

oh, ollie is so going to disagree with locust on that
oleander doesn't believe in starclan or the darkforest
and thinks it's pretty much a bunch of bullshit used
to make them feel safer about where they live, he's like?
"when we die, that's it, lights out, there's nothing else out there."

ollie,,, might like lost but i'm not sure; he doesn't care about
coldness and is sort of used to that and enjoys it more than
when people are nice to him, if people are cold,,, then at
least they're being honest or something along those lines
"a public beat down sounds more educational then your mentoring skills."

piz if you do it imma send you a picture of jackson i stg

but i'm like ready for everyone to know exactly? how bad
ollie's anger issues run, he always talks about the boiling
and about the red and i am so hyped to write him,, spilling
over and exploding.

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GENERAL:
► oleanderpaw | leanie, ollie.
► past: oleanderkit.
► future: oleanderflower/poison.
► pangender | dfab | any or he/it/they.
► greypansexual | aromantic | monogamous.
► 10 moons physically | 13 moons mentally.
► born: june 15 | ages real time | 10 moons.
► apprentice of shadowclan | [un]official hellraiser.
► human au | voice reference | changes with faceclaim.

RELATIONSHIPS:
► single | no past relationships | no planned relationships.
► no romantic feelings | little romantic interest.
► ½ fightme | ½ leavemethefuckalone.
► TATTEREDSTAR x WHITENOSE | Gen 2 | no mentor [open].
► ollie currently has no living family, that it knows of.
► current family tree, updated and first version.
► will only have a queerplatonic relationship, if any.
► they really just don't do relationships, my aro baby.
► will call their partners a datemate or a zucchini.

IMPORTANT FACTS:
► ollie is pangender which means that they believe they are all genders and so when it comes to pronouns they generally do not care what anyone chooses to use for them, however, if anyone specifically asks they usually say to simply use masculine pronouns as they often prefer those but, again, they don't identify as only male and honestly they just generally do not care about gender and will take anything that's given to them. some often use feminine pronouns as their biological sex is female and, again, they just don't give a fuck. also, i would like to say that when writing i will switch between a lot of pronouns so do not be confused if i'm switching between many pronouns.
► ollie has intermittent explosive disorder, which is almost like anger issues on steroids - it's an explosive kind of rage that usually results in violent outbursts and impulsive behavior that one cannot control or predict. it's a psychological disorder that is usually treated with therapy or medication and when it goes unnoticed it can cause serious damage to the person mentally and socially.
► as a kit ollie was ruthlessly beaten by his father after his mother left and while he usually only talks about the minor accounts they were times when he believed that his father would have killed him given the chance.
► ollie is aromantic which means that they do not experience romantic relationships or emotions like everyone else, in fact, they do not experience romantic feelings at all. however, that does not mean they are incapable of loving and caring about people it just means that they can't function and do not want a romantic relationship in the way that everyone else sees it. when they date they would prefer to have something along the lines of a queerplatonic relationship; that simply means that while they have an intimate relationship it is not treated like a romantic relationship and more of a super close friendship, or well, more than a friendship i suppose. they don't want a boyfriend or a girlfriend they just want... a friend, a mate, a datemate or just someone who doesn't seek out that super sappy relationship because ollie just can't give that to them.
► ollie was born in shadowclan.

PHYSICAL: [reference]
► MAINE COON | health: 100%
— oleander is, in a way, a very attractive young feline with pristine white fur, a slim build, and beautiful eyes - now, before you start going off on how they kind of seem a little... uh, perfect? understand that they may be pretty in terms of appearance but their personality more than drags their looks down and can even make them ugly by the way they behave. they may have a slim build with the right amount of muscle to where they do not appear overly bulky but don't look boney and week, their fur is well kept and long in a bright snowy white color and they just generally look good. however, they do stand a little bit on the shorter side and aren't nearly as big as they could be but that is not something that can be considered very important in the long run. their eyes are extremely bright, strangely so, along with being heterochromic with the right being a bright blue and the left a bright green; now, if you didn't think his eyes could get any more different well, my friend, it gets even better when i say that ollie carries the crosseyed gene and that it's eyes are permanently crosseyed. it doesn't affect their vision as much as one may think as they really only have to deal with a little bit of a depth confusion but outside of that their eyesight seems completely unaffected by the crosseyed gene.
— major injuries: none.
— minor injuries: none.

PERSONALITY:
► estj | the executive.
► mental stability: 100%
► disorders: intermittent explosive disorder.
— now let's get one thing straight, ollie, by no means, is someone who you would actually want to be around for extended periods of time. they aren't a very good person, not really, they are rude, blunt - to the extent of being cruel - and they really don't seem to have a filter at all and usually say exactly what they are thinking in that minute and most of it... probably shouldn't ever be said. they don't really understand why they are so negative but it almost seems like they don't know how to be positive and would rather complain and point out all the bad in a situation rather than to try and have some kind of hope about something working out. they've simply always been like this, cold and closed off and constantly insulting and belittling those around it because it doesn't feel like they know how to do anything else - they can't make friends even if they were to try so they have all but given up and prefer to push everyone away on its own terms. they are outwardly aggressive, immensely so, and will lash out and have explosive episodes of complete and total rage that they cannot explain and cannot control; these episodes are often brutal and end in violence of some sort whether they get into a fight with someone else or hurt themselves in their uncontrollable rage. they have a short fuse and are quick to anger which doesn't really help keep them from having their explosive episodes but they don't really have the patience to try and focus on not getting annoyed or pissed off. along with being short tempered they are impulsive, rash, and often don't think things through before deciding "fuck it" and probably doing something that they shouldn't exactly be doing because what the hell is wrong with you. they are somewhat intelligent, they can't tell you everything or start listing how to do this and that but they do pick things up rather quick and have a sharp and vicious tongue when it needs to be but outside of that... yeah not really they can't help you out. in all they are just an incredibly angry person who is down to fight 24/7 if you even look at them wrong because they simply just can't help it.

INTERACTION:
► moderate physically | still training.
► will start fights | will finish fights.
► will not kill but will maim if possible.
► attack in bold #DBBA85.
► ask for capture or injury - pm this account.
► can powerplay peaceful or nonviolent actions.
► does not allow contact from anyone.

I AM ON IT

have pre-debut dancing jackson
and cute af jackson and his bandanna

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