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    An anon on this Tumblr blog wrote:

    Completely random but I was watching Markiplier's 2016 bloopers and I put the subtitles on (not the random generated crap ones) and I noticed that from 15:05 - 15:11. When Mark was expressing how his arm was the spoon, in the background Amy says my spoony (obviously to Mark). But as the subtitles come up and she finished that remark Tyler starts to talk. In the subtitles he is put down as (My spoony Tyler) which clearly Ethan had to manually put in himself. I could be overthinking it though.


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    I want to, , cr y,,,,,, this is so fucking ga y??
    I don't know if Ethan was the one who actually did the caption, but just,,

    [fancypost borderwidth=0; width: 450px; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%]But dude,,,, extremely jealous!Valerius @ Rhys
    Whenever Rhys talks to Richard, he always be sure to keep an eye on Richard because even if he's a Mortal, just,,, who the fucK knows what would he do to his blue angel. Richard be all like, "?? ?? ??" and then Val is like — "stfu," and Richard doesn't even say anything, but sheesh, calm down Val lmfao

    [fancypost borderwidth=0; width: 450px; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%]Today, in the morning, I'll be getting myself registered at my school once again after I've been away for the whole first semester, and earlier, I've been extremely bothered ( and still am ) by thinking about how much my view towards life in general has changed so much since last year, only to the worse, unfortunately, because for the past few months to now, I've been going through some personal problems that has negatively affected my trusting trait and bits of my confidence I was able to muster out, so at the thought of going back to my classes and be with my friends again after so long, I can't stop, but,,, to think how my friends would hate me and end up abandoning me??
    I've been honestly having this vibe inside of me now that even people here on FF just hates me and finds me utterly annoying, and, I don't know. I am certain one of my close friends who I look up to here surely hates me when I have this feeling that they have been avoiding me. Overall, I just... I feel so lost upon myself.


    I just want this part of who I am, of being anxious through paranoia, to simply leave me the fuck alone.

    [center][fancypost=bgcolor;text-align:justify;width:450px;line-height:95%;][size=8]This thread is where I store most of my notes ( when the rest are not safe for work materials and that's clearly never allowed here ) that focuses on my original characters, especially the main ones, who's from a personal story, I'm currently working on, Komorebi — just in general information, character analysis/studies, and fun to angst facts. If I want to make plans on whatever and semi plotlines for the future chapters, and design characters, and also post edits/avatars ( which feel free to use them, though I would appreciate if you ask me first ) or writings that is most likely to be a part of whatever future chapters, this will be the right thread for me, but really, anything Komorebi related will be found here, such as there will be information about powers, original species and locations that takes place in the story. Meanwhile there will be posts that are pretty off topic, mainly on whoever the characters are inspired of, because I can. You are feel to track on this, but please, don't make it into a huge party here, if you get what I mean, so I wouldn't loose my notes easily if I need them for whatever reasons. Thank you, and enjoy my content! c:

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    [size=8]Okay, I just realized I had a dream two days ago of just me watching Mark playing a game that has the art style similar to Markiplier's Adventure 2, and he had black hair?? and?? yesterday, when I have wifi again, I checked the said named video because, I absolutely love to watch let's play videos of fan-made games, and,,, holy fucking shit, Mark actually,,, did dye parts of his hair back to black again while I didn't had wifi for the past few weeks.


    What the absolute fuck.


    So I need to find out when did Mark dye his hair back to his original colour, since the time Caleb arrived to Earth ( or so called Eanmerthas in a more fantasy term to call Earth because this Earth is exactly not like ours ), he arrived on December 12th, 2016. I was thinking how Caleb seeing himself with red hair is just, bad, and tries to avoid looking at his hair because he associates red with a lot of bad things that brings up bad memories, and until he can dye them back to black, probably when he feels more comfortable in Eanmerthas, and decides, along with Valerius, they would stay for the time being ( considering they can both just make as much money as they want with their element conjuring powers, lmfao ).
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    Edit ( 1/09/17 ): December 30th, last year, is when Mark dyed his hair back to black, according to this tweet and FaceBook post, which seems pretty realistic to give some enough timing for Caleb and Valerius to decide either they would reside in Eanmerthas or not.


    Going off of topic, as I said before in the past, it's so weird seeing him in just black hair again, but at the same time, it's so refreshing as I really enjoyed the red and the other colours he dyed his hair in while it lasted. Though I like how he decided to do it just before the new year. Can't wait to stain myself in nostalgia at the meantime. cx


    2017, more like 2013 on my book with Markimoo.


    ( Still can I not fucking believe I had that dream, so damm surreal... )

    [center][fancypost=bgcolor;text-align:justify;width:450px;line-height:95%;][size=8]I made at least 200 icons of Mark fucking Fischbach while I had no wifi from December 29, last year, to yesterday.


    It's fine though as I'm so thankful I saved a lot of photos and fanarts of him ( there's Jack too, but the icons I made so far are overall Mark ) in the past, so I can kill time, making icons out of them, when I had no wifi.


    Otherwise,,, rip me,,,, c':


    I'll post the icons of him I made eventually. They're all saved in my computer, but I feel more comfortable posting with them on iPad,, for some reason??


    ( Perhaps I'm just so used to using my iPad rather than my computer. )

    [center][fancypost=bgcolor;text-align:justify;width:450px;line-height:95%;][size=8]Also, while I didn't have wifi, I designed a Tiny Box Tim, mixed with Luigi from the Mario universe, inspired character as I revamped my Eevee character idea I made on FeralFront.


    I fucking love my son, Timothy, so much...


    I will post current notes of him eventually, I'm still working on some parts that I want to do before I do post them.

    [center][fancypost=bgcolor;text-align:justify;width:450px;line-height:95%;][size=8]Connecting to the previous post, meanwhile, I decided to think of some designs of the characters who's inspired by the Seven Deadly Sins ( or I suppose, the seven Homunculus from Full Metal Alchemist, since there's few aspects I thought of are somewhat similar to theirs, apparently, when I read details about them after I was playing with the idea concepts of my own Seven Sins — even though I've actually never watched it before ), especially Lust and Greed ( or Envy?? I haven't decided yet, but the current set personality and motivations I came up with clashes in a tie with both of them ), because so far, those two got my attention the most on wanting to work on them first before the other Sins.


    It's really interesting and pretty damn cool that the creator of the anime series came up with some ideas of the seven Homunculus is how I would view towards the Seven Deadly Sins, if they were to be based off of the real ones. Especially with the fact that the seven Homunculi were truly bitter and broken, as to why they were... who they were and committed the crime and sins. Also to see that they were "made," rather than to be "born," said Edward, that fact really got me as I like to believe that my Seven Deadly Sins were created, through force, to make a life balance between the vices and virtues, and if any of them gets killed without any given replacements of the new chosen one by the creator ( which I will eventually post details about it, just information of my Seven Deadly Sins in general ), there will be chaos across the world through societies and people, due to how one set of trait falls back from another and would create series of events based on the trait that's now more clear than the fallen one, and even only virtues in the world makes it a bad one, just as having vices only.


    It's even more strange and scarier when I can see the creator of the Seven Deadly Sins being addressed as "Father," ( because he does create them ) while they're his "children," with the Sins considering and viewing each other as siblings, and apparently, the anime series had that idea too??.....


    It's making me honestly anxious, over to an average point, because I seriously don't want people to think I'm copying off of an anime series, but just?? I swear, I never thought there would be something else happening out there that would hold the concept ideas and aspects similar to my own ideas and views. This reminds me a lot of how I view towards Death itself, and parts of my view are "taken," by a roleplayer on FeralFront whose one of their muses are based off of Death.... Plus, even, I would like to make dream/nightmare realms to exist in Eanmerthas, as considering I always had this idea playing in my head of Dark/Eidottwani being the king of the nightmare realm, until I discovered one of my wonderful friends also had the same idea as me and... it was a very awkward moment for me, and I kept my own idea of a dream/nightmare realm down, because... you know.


    Don't even make me talk in details over about how much I also wanted to create a specie based off of a void itself, until I discovered a character on this site who is one... I really do want to make a character inspired by Death and the void itself, also making my dream/nightmare realms exist in the story, but my anxiety won't let me, because again, I don't want anyone to think I'm copying other people's ideas...


    So... Yeah.....
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    Edit ( 1/09/17 ): Gross, I somewhat made that into a rant post in the end there, and I want to avoid that in a thread like this, but it's been bothering me a lot lately, now that I thought about it more after planning to design my own Seven Deadly Sins, and I want to think as long as the ideas are completely original and no one else other than the creator have ever thought of it score, it can't be really seen as me copying other people's work if there's already an actual inspiration base to it. Obviously, it would be copying if my ideas are exactly same in most areas to the others, if not all.


    But if anyone asks me if my general work are inspired of what's already been done, more or less prominent, really, that I'm aware of, I wouldn't hesitate to say yes, because, well, an inspiration is what makes a person want to create by another's work and effort. Also applying if people asks if my characters are inspired by this said existing character or an actual real life person I know of, of course, because it's like I'm giving credits/shoutout to that person and/or their work, and it's a kind gesture to do that.


    Again, I'm trying to avoid making posts like this when it's not relevant to the purposes of a thread like this, but I want people to know, with this post overall, that most of my works, recent and past, are inspired by many people, themselves, or their own works, otherwise I wouldn't be actually creating stuff now, even working on my own personal story, and instead, do... God knows what, considering writing and creating with words and imaginations has always been a part of who I am, and I'm never going to let it go of me, no matter how difficult it is to share them to the world's eyes without being overly anxious and paranoid over the possible resulted scenarios.

    [fancypost borderwidth=0; width: 450px; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%]Ah, I see. Either you need it or not, I wish to send my deepest apology to you see two are having a similar experience I'm going through. Thank you Burnie and Kismet for taking your time to read and reply to this, as I will keep your words in mind. I wish you two the best luck on handling your paranoia.


    Indeed it is, but of course I do not mind, dear Burnie; even if you're not on my FF's friend list, you always hold a special place to my heart. Also I'm happy to know that you consider me wonder, I... I appreciate it a lot. Thank you. <3

    [center][fancypost=bgcolor;text-align:justify;width:450px;line-height:95%;][size=8]Honestly, if I don't think Lust ( also known as Dixon and Richard on my book — though I'm going to address him as Richard, since indeed, he'll be called that in the end, honhonhon,,, ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡° ) )'s faceclaim should be Christophe Giacometti, from Yuri On Ice, there would certainly be something wrong with me because how can I seriously not see Chris as an embodiment of deadly sin, lust??



    Envy, the deadly sin I finally decided it over Greed for this character set that was playing in mind, made me think of his faceclaim would be Konoira's Antisepticeye?? His outfit is drawn similar to the FMA!Envy's, so I guess that's why, but... anyway, Antisepticeye in general is already taken by Eidottwani, so hm, I'll have to think about it.

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    I want to make Komorebi characters loosely based off of my friends here, especially my dear Hat, as I love them so much and they deserve so much more appreciative and love from me, so if any of my friends doesn't see this post, and I would actually plan to do it in the end, I'll ask them, because I don't want to use actual people for my characters unless given approval for the sake of their comfort ( which is such an irony of me to say, with me when I use youtubers and celebrates in general as an inspiration base for my characters,, but,,, honestly, when would they ever see my inspired characters, let alone realize one of them would be inspired off of them? There's a difference between what's based of and inspired by on through. ).


    I'm most likely going to ask Cole as well, who's from a catholic high school I go to, because I fucking adore them and they's the damn best emo trash I have ever met in my life, and they know how much I love to talk nonstop about my characters, mainly Caleb, considering they is only aware of the fact that I have him only to roleplay with until I decided to write Komorebi. c:

    [center][fancypost=bgcolor;text-align:justify;width:450px;line-height:95%;][size=8]I still can't fucking believe I gave a Mortal name for Richard to cover his true identify of being a Deadly Sin, Dixon Cidem,,, asdfasdfasdfasdf


    ( But if anyone gets the reference of that "name," even if the cidem part was a bit altered, I love you. )

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    [size=8]I already thought of plenty notes of a Shia Labeouf inspired character in the past before I wanted to shove him to Komorebi at some point, but I think it would be nice if I would start with a general information about him before I share the notes.
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    BEOWULF is a Christian, thirty years old Human who lives in California of America. He is quite well known across the state for having a great pleasure in engineering ( both mechanics and robotics ) and healing, as he is an expect at them and they're his lifetime hobbies, and uses his advanced skill and knowledge on the goods, such as willing to donate his own creations to children, with friendly robots, and those who have disabilities with implants and prosthetics to help guide them through life. He is one of the reasons why Caleb and his friends' organization, Catching Fallen Stars, would exist eventually in the far future chapters because Caleb needs someone who can teach him and few others on doing mechanic engineer, at the very least, and Beowulf would be more than willing to share his knowledge to them.


    Despite his outgoing and quirky attitude everyone loves, not many people knows his past — there would a bit of a mystery to the atmosphere where he goes. When asked anything relating to his personal life, he would casually slip past the question and continued on with whatever he was doing, as if it didn't happen. Rumours spreads over how his name, Beowulf, isn't real, from being Christian, he would've have a Hebrew name instead, and his father was a hardworking mechanical engineer, thus how he was professional at being them, by his father given him the knowledge he had, while he can be a little mule. While no one ever knows if he actually have any siblings or any known relatives, his mother, on the other hand, there's nothing that one would really ponder over about, but how she must be a pleasant and kind individual, coming from Beowulf's behavior. Although, even in America on a fantasy world that's resembled to our Earth, the stereotypical gender roles of traits and occupations giving towards woman and man are rather common.


    But little do they know, his mother was an excellent actress, and like mother and son, so is Beowulf.

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    BEOWULF
    "your embarrassing dad, best robotic engineer, & just, what a fucking nerd."
    [size=8]- Beowulf is what he's addressed of, some might even call him Baby Wolf or BB Wolf, not that he wouldn't mind, but him deeply flustering says otherwise. It is currently unknown if Beowulf really is his name, while his surname is hidden.
    - Cis male
    - Heterosexual bisexual, he's extremely questioning himself though, as he's just lost, and?? Would his God still love him and accept him if he turns out to be homosexual?
    - Inspired by Shia Labeouf, and a character one of my great friends on FeralFront, Josh, roleplayed, Boyd "Gunner" Swan — I love you Dog Dad ).
    - Some given traits and mannerism are based on the movies Shia does in his acting career.
    - He's actually a huge fan of sea creatures and especially penguins as he holds a deep passion towards them, and just thinking of any big water surfaces just makes him giggles, like always. His favourite animal is penguins and in a human au, he would do anything to get one as a pet.
    - Mention anything just above, he will not shut the fuck up and talk about them the whole day. Again, he extremely loves them and holds deep fascination of hem, he will honestly cry if you ruin his moment and yet, he just tries to convince you to see how amazing they are.
    - Also yes, he have watched the Happy Feet movie over nine thousand times and just, "omggggg !!!!! look at Mumble !!!!!! so cute,,,,,, aaaaaa,,,,,,,,," and he actually doesn't pay much attention to the plot line or anything, even if he did watch them so many times, but just the appearance of cartoon-looking penguins that he just wants to cuddle them all, especially Mumble.
    - He's a fantastic motivational! He would say anything that's supportive and loving to those who needs them the most, and sometimes, he can be pretty shy to say them in front of their face because he doesn't want to bother them, so instead he would make a letter of motivational words with cute drawing of them in the back before putting somewhere where the person could stumble across it.
    - The type of person who would always use emojis in text conversations, especially those Japanese ones because, "omggggggggg look at me, I look so cute yaaaaassss!!! (≧▽≦)"
    - And that guy who texts like thissssssss and omggggggg and yaaaassssss fammmmmmmmmm, it just shows that he's extremely enthusiastic, please don't mind him. Also he would slur his word, when again, he's very excited over something and just, it's easy for him to form a heavy feeling inside his chest as he experiences that emotion that would make him have trouble know what he's actually trying when being distracted.
    - He repeat sentences or words such as "I'm doing fine, I'm doing fine," either when he's anxious or sad (which that's one of the signs of him being sad), or getting distracted, those what's mentioned mainly, but it's rather uncommon when he does that when experiencing any other emotions extremely.
    - The bees loves him and so does he, put him in room full of them and he wouldn't get a single sting from them. I can imagine how amazing he smells that they would always follow him around, which he wouldn't mind at all. They could even play tag if he thinks the bees are bored of him just following him around over the smell and needs more fun in their time with him. If he wouldn't end up harming them. But they're overall adorable and he would be that president who would make their first rule priority of the country to not harm and even kill bees. Protect the bees, man.
    - He's wonderful at acting and having to express his feelings openly and everytime in a truthful manner, like his emotions is so pure and genuine, even him about to cry or have a painful smile on his face would seriously stab someone's chest. But it's hard for them to cover them because he doesn't like being a "faker," and he should always show who he is, not a something, not a someone but him.
    - It would take him at least an hour to realize what's going on behind a joke or pun and if someone told one to him and they're somewhere else by the time he understands, he would honestly barge into where they are (their house for an example, but he'll try to open the door with force), and "Y O I ACTUALLY GET IT NOW CANYOUTELLMEMOREOFTHEMCANYOUTELLMEMOREOFTHEMPLSPLSPLS-" Then it takes another few hours for him to get it all. This is why no one should tell him a single pun or joke, never ever.
    - He can actually do parkour and stunts, even the crazy ones, like, holy shit.
    - He have an interest in making robots and enjoys studying mechanics and making prosthetics, anything that could give support to those with disabilities.