Posts by GUZMA

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[spoiler=I'M THE UNDISPUTED KING OF THE BACK-ALLEYS | 9TH JAN]

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[size=8]GENERAL INFO / THREAD HUB / PINTEREST BOARD
✩ GUZMA / PREV. AUGUSTINE / OCCASIONALLY GOES BY "ROACH"
✩ Undisclosed sexuality / Kinda polygamous; not looking / DFAB ♂
✩ Unknown age; adult / Unknown birthday / Undecided ageing rate
✩ BlizzardClan trainee [SHP] / RC warrior / Ex Boss of Team Skull

[color=#212341]RELATIONSHIPS / ROMANCE NOTES / ½ ⅓ ¼ ⅕ ⅛
[color=#212341]✩ Single / Not really looking / One current "maybe" crush/old flame.
[color=#212341]✩ NPC x NPC; orphaned and disowned by his father / Generation one.
[color=#212341]✩ No apprentice [not looking] / Bond with his [abbr='arthropod'; cockroach, millipede, gorilla, crab, ant, mole, dragon][color=white]Golisopod; 2½m tall.
[color=#212341]✩ Puts on a tough front; inferiority complex. Makes friends, doesn't trust.
[color=#212341]✩ ⅓ PokeGayz™ [OT3: Kukui & Grunt A] | ½ Guznu [???: Nanu]
[color=#212341]✩ Part of the Pokésquad | Honorary/Lifelong member of Team Skull.

[color=#212341]APPEARANCE / [color=#f6f6f6]REFERENCE. / [color=#212341]STATUS / GOOD [95%]
[color=#212341]✩ Tall, but not lean or muscular. Unimpressive; kinda unfit and scrawny.
[color=#212341]✩ Black and white patterned fur; white tuft on head; grey gradient limbs.
[color=#212341]✩ Pale yellow eyes; white rings/streaks of fur beneath. Bitten-short tail.
[color=#212341]✩ Always wears a pair of crooked yellow sunglasses on his head. [color=white][CLICK]
[color=#212341]✩ Also always wears a golden chain with the Team Skull logo. [color=white][CLICK]
[color=#212341]✩ Black belt around waist with six pockets for "Pokéballs". One taken.
[color=#fff]— [color=#212341]INJURIES/ILLNESSES: Weak due to unfit lifestyle.

[color=#212341]BEHAVIOUR / [color=#fff]BEWARE THE SILLY ONES / [color=#fff]A. / [color=#fff]B. / [color=#fff]C. / [color=#fff]D.
[color=#212341]✩ Inspired by a somewhat AU version of Guzma from Pokémon SuMo.
[color=#212341]✩ Both hot-tempered and incredibly laid back. A bit of a fast food junkie.
[color=#212341]✩ Seemingly fearless. Likely either insane, bluffing, or both. Street smart.
[color=#212341]✩ A s[color=transparent][size=1px]xhit-talking guy with an inferiority complex. Falsely brash + confident.
[color=#212341]✩ Ego is seemingly through the roof, but he's a nice guy. Extremely loyal.
[color=#212341]✩ Hates being beaten; always needs to prove himself. Meets trials equally.
[color=#212341]✩ Destruction personified. King of underdogs. Supports conflict/rebellion.
[color=#fff]— [color=#212341]DISORDERS: None that are diagnosed; hears voices, likely has depression and/or anxiety. High functioning.

[color=#212341]INTERACTION / [color=#fff]WEAPON OF CHOICE / [color=#fff]AUTHORITY = ASSKICKING
[color=#212341]✩ Easy-ish physical difficulty | Medium mental difficulty | Stupidly durable.
[color=#212341]✩ Golisopod: Extreme physical difficulty | Impenetrable mental barriers.
[color=#212341]✩ Roach uses the Golisopod in battle; a Pokémon and trainer relationship.
[color=#212341]✩ All nonviolent, friendly and/or peaceful actions can be powerplayed.
[color=#212341]✩ To engage in combat, use [color=white]bold white, [color=black]black or [u]bold underlined.

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Because his canonical age is unknown, this'll be related to his human AU ages.

Guzma's mother died when he was 14 years old. His relationship with her had been rocky at best; she'd not been too accepting of him, but in comparison to his father, she was practically liberal. Despite this, she was also very, very domineering. She wanted to control every aspect of Guzma's life, from what he wore to what he eat to what he did. She wasn't pleased with him participating in the island challenge in the first place, and certainly wasn't pleased with him being trained personally by Hala, because she didn't think he was going to amount to anything — and more importantly, she didn't want him to amount to anything. She wanted him at home, doing whatever she wanted, and that made him miserable. The island challenge was what made him happy; he didn't feel relief, per se, when she died, but there was a weight off his shoulders, in a way. Still, he preferred her to his father.

Guzma's father died when he was 18 years old. Somehow managing to make the control-freak that was his mother gentle, this was a largely abusive man. Conservative to the point of plain cruelty, he straight-up refused to refer to Guzma as his son, repeatedly challenging him and essentially encouraging that low self-esteem of his. It's Guzma's father's fault that he can't stand properly, either, always slouching in order to find maximum comfort; when he was 15 years old, his father smashed him at the base of his neck/spine with a golf club during a drunken fit of rage, leading to injuries that have since caused this awful posture. It's also his father that drove him to the island challenge, not because his father wanted it, but because Guzma wanted to prove the old man wrong. Like his mother, Guzma's father believed he'd amount to nothing, and that's why he took on the challenge and then created Team Skull, despite his father being dead by that point. Alongside bitterness, rage has been a motivator, and it's his father's fault. He felt only sick joy when he found out the man was dead, and still feels nothing for him but hate.

In terms of other relatives, his aunt is the one that still holds some control over him. She's a watered down version of his mother, and his uncle, her husband, is a sober, semi-more-accepting, less-abusive version of his father. White-washed carbon copies, if you asked him, but at least they used to let him do what he wants — so long as they considered him productive. They didn't consider Team Skull to be unproductive, remarkably, so allowed him to remain on Ula'ula so long as he didn't become stagnant. He did his best to appear mobile, therefore, even if he did spend a lot of time lounging. Even to this day, he's terrified of them dragging him home by the ear.

[BONUS NOTE] As a child, his best friend was Kukui. Nowadays, his interactions with the man are filled with tension and flashbacks to an awkward teenage crush that has recently been revived.

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— It takes a lot of courage to swallow your pride. He doesn't seem to have enough.

— When he was younger, he dreamed of long beaches and hidden nooks and glory in the stars. Now, at seventeen, he's suffering a crisis akin to those people are meant to suffer in their forties.

— The one person he'd believed in had stopped believing in him. He didn't know what to do.

— There's blood on his hands and on his face and on his ratty shirt, and when he stands, he does it too quickly, his vision and stomach lurching like the sea. He doesn't care; he's had enough. He's tired of being the daughter.

— Isn't it funny how someone can take you apart and put you back together, lift you up and destroy you, without ever laying a hand on you?

— He's never going to be able to stand straight again. Hands in his pockets, expression gloomy, slouched as though the world's burdens are on his shoulders, he looks every bit the delinquent they think he is. Thanks, "Dad".

— He passes a hand over his face and stares at himself in the grubby mirror. He can't remember the last time he washed. He can't remember the last time he ate.

— On your third birthday, your father set you on his lap, adjusted the hem of your skirt and looked at the darkening sky. "If you get too close to the fire," he told you, "You'll burn."
Now, it's your eighteenth birthday, and you've changed. Bleached white hair, dark circles beneath your eyes, baggy trousers and a penchant for violence. Your father can't look away. He's enraged. There will be no more bows and frilly pink things. You are the fire. Burn him.

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 1.3;]You are not what they want you to be, and now, you think, your original goals would seem desirable to them in comparison, were they alive to witness your current state. It's been a downhill spiral for years, though, created and set in motion by them; of course you tried to resist it, clinging to a single anchor, but what are you meant to do when that anchor turns against you? Matches strike dry wood and send them up in flames; butterfly wings make hurricanes. It's always the small things that create the biggest craters— and god, you feel tiny.

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 1.3;]SUBJECT OF STUDY: GUZMA
AIMLESS ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ AMBITIOUS
ALOOF ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ FRIENDLY
WEAK-WILLED ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● DISCIPLINED
OBLIVIOUS ● ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ PERCEPTIVE [DEPENDS]
DULL ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● CREATIVE
SHAMEFUL ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ SHAMELESS [DEPENDS]
LAZY ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ HARDWORKING
ILLITERATE ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ INTELLECTUAL
MODEST ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ARROGANT [DEPENDS]
SINNER ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ SAINT
SOLEMN ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ JOKESTER [DEPENDS]
CONSISTENT ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ERRATIC
VENGEFUL ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ FORGIVING [DEPENDS]
COLD ● ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ AFFECTIONATE [DEPENDS]
PASSIVE ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ ○ AGGRESSIVE
INTROVERT ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ ○ EXTROVERT
CHASTE ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ FLIRTY [DEPENDS]
INDEPENDENT ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ CLINGY
SUBMISSIVE ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ DOMINANT [A MESS]
MESSY ● ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ORDERLY
TRADITIONAL ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ OPEN-MINDED
LOGICAL ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ EMOTIONAL
WARY ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ TRUSTFUL
CLUMSY ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ ELEGANT
AWKWARD ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ SUAVE
SELF-PRESERVING ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ SELF-SACRIFICING
PESSIMISTIC ● ● ● ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ OPTIMISTIC
TIMID ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ○ BOLD
CAUTIOUS ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● ● RASH

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[size=8]headshot by teeth!

[size=8]alt. headshot by iomedae!

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 1.3;]★ [color=white]Original battle theme [extended]
★ [color=white]Remixed battle theme [Kamex]
★ [color=white]Remixed battle theme [RetroSpecter]
★ [color=white]"We Are Number One" remix [SharaX]

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[spoiler=lyrics]I was alone, falling free
Trying my best not to forget
What happened to us, what happened to me
What happened as I let it slip

I was confused by the powers that be
Forgetting names and faces
Passers by, were looking at me
As if they could erase it

Baby...did you forget to take your meds?
Baby...did you forget to take your meds?

I was alone, staring over the ledge
Trying my best not to forget
All manner of joy, all manner of glee
And our one heroic pledge

How it mattered to us, how it mattered to me
And the consequences
I was confused, by the birds and the bees
Forgetting if I meant it

Baby..did you forget to take your meds?
Baby..did you forget to take your meds?
Baby..did you forget to take your meds?
Baby..did you forget to take your meds?

And the sex and the drugs, and the complications
And the sex and the drugs, and the complications
And the sex and the drugs, and the complications
And the sex and the drugs, and the complications

Baby..did you forget to take your meds?
Baby..did you forget to take your meds?
Baby..did you forget to take your meds?
Baby..did you forget to take your meds?
Baby..did you forget to take your meds?
Baby..did you forget to take your meds?

I was alone, falling free, trying my best not to forget

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 1.3;]★ [color=white]Every You Every Me / Placebo
[spoiler=lyrics]Sucker love is heaven sent
You pucker up, our passion's spent
My heart's a tart, your body's rent
My body's broken, yours is bent

Carve your name into my arm
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed
Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you

Sucker love, a box I choose
No other box I choose to use
Another love I would abuse
No circumstances could excuse

In the shape of things to come
Too much poison come undone
Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
Every me...

Sucker love is known to swing
Prone to cling and waste these things
Pucker up for heavens sake
There's never been so much at stake

I serve my head up on a plate
It's only comfort, calling late
Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
Every me...
Every me and every you
Every me...

Like the naked leads the blind
I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind
Sucker love I always find
Someone to bruise and leave behind

All alone in space and time
There's nothing here but what here's mine
Something borrowed, something blue
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
Every me...
Every me and every you
Every me...
Every me and every you
Every me...
Every me and every you
Every me...
Every me and every you
Every me...
Every me and every you
Every me...

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 1.3;]After battles in-game, Guzma slips into third person and repeatedly berates himself as though he's living through an outside source. Maybe he's unwittingly channeling his father whenever he fails?? The whole "Guzma! What is wrong with you?" could be a thing he's heard countless times, and he subconsciously mimics the disapproval of his parental figure because of his complex.

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 1.3;]For a moment, he's still, acquiescing in his defeat with a strange, reluctant elegance. The flipping of the switch is entirely unnecessary, but it's expected all the same, expression shifting, fingers carding through his hair, making fists, pulling until it burns. "Guzma! What is wrong with you?" His voice is a snap, but that's not him playing the game anymore, talking to himself as though mocking his failure. The temperate climate of outdoor Alola is replaced by the flowery-dim corridors of a house that's both too small and too large to contain him; the breeze's place is taken by the sick swish-and-slide of an already-crooked golf club. It's not Guzma being snarled, but something else, something that he's not, but the sentiment is the same. True, it's no longer about his ability to battle, but are his apparent abilities and worth as a person not clearly able to amount to the same null value? What is wrong with you? He doesn't know. He doesn't know anymore. He's tired.

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 1.3;]★ [color=white]Cheer Up London / Slaves
[spoiler=lyrics]Put another 0 in your paycheck
Are you done digging your grave yet?
Put another 0 in your paycheck
Are you done digging your grave?
Put another 0 in your paycheck
Are you done digging your grave yet?
Put another 0 in your paycheck
Are you done?

You're dead, already, dead, dead, already-ready
Dead, already, dead, dead, already-ready
Dead, already, dead, dead, already-ready
Dead, already, dead

Put another 0 in your paycheck
Are you done digging your grave yet?
Put another 0 in your paycheck
Are you done digging your grave? What!
Put another 0 in your paycheck
Are you done digging your grave yet?
Put another 0 in your paycheck
Are you quite done?

You're dead, already, dead, dead, already-ready
Dead, already, dead, dead, already-ready
Dead, already, dead, dead, already-ready
Dead, already, dead

Cheer up, London
It's not that bad
Cheer up, London
You're already dead and it's not that bad
Cheer up, London
It's not that bad
Cheer up, London
It's really really not that bad, is it?
How can it be
So bad
When you're already dead?

You're dead, already, dead, dead, already-ready
Dead, already, dead, dead, already-ready
Dead, already, dead, dead, already-ready
Dead, already, dead

Cheer up London
Mind The Gap
Thank you
Good night, see ya

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 1.3;]After the capture, he turns back to alcohol. Gets his paws on the stuff and starts to abuse it. Self-neglect becomes a norm for him once more; he's always had a complex relationship with substances, so returning to alcohol is like greeting an old friend. The bottom of the bottle becomes a bittersweet comfort. Still able to function whilst intoxicated, black-out drunkenness is rare unless he's alone, but when he is alone, he's self-destructive.

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 1.3;]It's true; the Boss of Team Skull has never felt fear. But what about the small boy who didn't fit in the clothes his mother bought him, trembling under the wrath of fierce hands and sharp tongues and harmless items fashioned into objects of war? What about the bright-eyed child who coaxed cowardly Pokémon closer with the promise of companionship, smiling lopsidedly at the only person he could call a friend, hands clenched into fists and shaking whenever he was kicked down? What about that small shard of him that encourages his fingers to card through his own hair, gripping and pulling whilst he berates himself in his father's voice? Fear, it seems, has plagued him since the moment he was able to think. But the Boss of Team Skull has never heard of it.

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8.4pt; line-height: 1.4;]He's shaking. He's shaking and he's slightly drunk and he sort of hates it, because it's not the alcohol causing this, it's the daytime hallucinations. He can't remember the last time he properly slept, and it's catching up to him, finally. He's got the tremors, those unstoppable shudders that won't relent regardless of what he does, a nervous sort of power that comes from a lack of the energy he seems to possess. Deep down, he knows he ought to stop, calm down, take a breath. Maybe stop drinking booze and start on the water, chug it down until his throat aches with the chill, then curl up beneath a blanket and lay there until he sleeps. But he can't. He can't.

"Guzma! What is wrong with you?" His voice is a wild screech. Gone is the ever-changing but caring voice of his conscience (once Kukui, now most recently Plumeria) — now, his father roars in his ears, and he moves with the actions of the phantom figure, digging his talons into his temples, eyes wide and manic. His heart thuds madly, clawing and snarling at the calcium cage of his ribs, but then the moment passes. His features calm — or so it seems, irritation caught up and buried beneath a single layer of control. "Wake the fuck up!" He swings at his bottle, doesn't care that when it smashes, the shards dig into his paws.

His father was right. His mother was right. Hell, Kukui was right — "You're weak, cousin. Just give up. You aren't ever going to make it, you know?" and then "See, cousin? It's nothin' personal. You're just not good enough." — and it burns. It still burns, eating him up from the inside out. His eyes sting when he looks up, and he realises he's not blinked in a while. Blood still oozes from glass-sliced cuts, but he doesn't really notice it. Instead, there's a dull pressure at the base of his neck, right where that golf club found its mark (well, where the worst one did. The others leave phantom bruises everywhere). He feels sick.

"Stop it." He's speaking to himself, low and harsh and angry, and Guzma jerks away from himself. He's isolated and unstable, and he really, really needs to sleep. He also needs to tug the glass from his flesh and clean the wounds, but they're the least of his concerns now. "Fuckin' stop. You ain't the boss of me, old man. Fuck off."
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[color=#212341]✩ GUZMA / PREV. AUGUSTINE / OCCASIONALLY GOES BY "ROACH"
[color=#212341]✩ Undisclosed sexuality / Kinda polygamous; not looking / DFAB ♂
[color=#212341]✩ Unknown age; adult / Unknown birthday / Undecided ageing rate
[color=#212341]✩ BlizzardClan trainee [SHP] / RC warrior / Ex Boss of Team Skull

[color=#212341]RELATIONSHIPS / ROMANCE NOTES / ½ ⅓ ¼ ⅕ ⅛
[color=#212341]✩ Single / Not really looking / One current "maybe" crush/old flame.
[color=#212341]✩ NPC x NPC; orphaned and disowned by his father / Generation one.
[color=#212341]✩ No apprentice [not looking] / Bond with his [abbr='arthropod'; cockroach, millipede, gorilla, crab, ant, mole, dragon][color=white]Golisopod; 2½m tall.
[color=#212341]✩ Puts on a tough front; inferiority complex. Makes friends, doesn't trust.
[color=#212341]✩ ⅓ PokeGayz™ [OT3: Kukui & Grunt A] | ½ Guznu [???: Nanu]
[color=#212341]✩ Part of the Pokésquad | Honorary/Lifelong member of Team Skull.

[color=#212341]APPEARANCE / [color=#f6f6f6]REFERENCE. / [color=#212341]STATUS / GOOD [95%]
[color=#212341]✩ Tall, but not lean or muscular. Unimpressive; kinda unfit and scrawny.
[color=#212341]✩ Black and white patterned fur; white tuft on head; grey gradient limbs.
[color=#212341]✩ Pale yellow eyes; white rings/streaks of fur beneath. Bitten-short tail.
[color=#212341]✩ Always wears a pair of crooked yellow sunglasses on his head. [color=white][CLICK]
[color=#212341]✩ Also always wears a golden chain with the Team Skull logo. [color=white][CLICK]
[color=#212341]✩ Black belt around waist with six pockets for "Pokéballs". One taken.
[color=#fff]— [color=#212341]INJURIES/ILLNESSES: Weak due to unfit lifestyle.

[color=#212341]BEHAVIOUR / [color=#fff]BEWARE THE SILLY ONES / [color=#fff]A. / [color=#fff]B. / [color=#fff]C. / [color=#fff]D.
[color=#212341]✩ Inspired by a somewhat AU version of Guzma from Pokémon SuMo.
[color=#212341]✩ Both hot-tempered and incredibly laid back. A bit of a fast food junkie.
[color=#212341]✩ Seemingly fearless. Likely either insane, bluffing, or both. Street smart.
[color=#212341]✩ A s[color=transparent][size=1px]xhit-talking guy with an inferiority complex. Falsely brash + confident.
[color=#212341]✩ Ego is seemingly through the roof, but he's a nice guy. Extremely loyal.
[color=#212341]✩ Hates being beaten; always needs to prove himself. Meets trials equally.
[color=#212341]✩ Destruction personified. King of underdogs. Supports conflict/rebellion.
[color=#fff]— [color=#212341]DISORDERS: None that are diagnosed; hears voices, likely has depression and/or anxiety. High functioning.

[color=#212341]INTERACTION / [color=#fff]WEAPON OF CHOICE / [color=#fff]AUTHORITY = ASSKICKING
[color=#212341]✩ Easy-ish physical difficulty | Medium mental difficulty | Stupidly durable.
[color=#212341]✩ Golisopod: Extreme physical difficulty | Impenetrable mental barriers.
[color=#212341]✩ Roach uses the Golisopod in battle; a Pokémon and trainer relationship.
[color=#212341]✩ All nonviolent, friendly and/or peaceful actions can be powerplayed.
[color=#212341]✩ To engage in combat, use [color=white]bold white, [color=black]black or [u]bold underlined.

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8.4pt; line-height: 1.4;]/ mobile + again, dw about the muse! i forgot how much i had for brooding guzma

He's always had an inkling, though, hasn't he? A large portion of their late-teenage life had been narrated by Kukui's concern, and Guzma can still hear those suggestions of counselling. The man had always had a hunch, always guessed that something wasn't right upstairs; of course, after the incident circling their final battle and the words spoken to him by someone he'd thought was a friend, Guzma had been unable to actually confide in Kukui, and after that, it had only gotten worse. He hadn't even told the now-Professor about his father. 'Course, it wasn't hard to see that Guzma and his dad had never gotten along, but Kukui didn't know about that last incident, the one that had fucked up his spine forever. So yes, the canine was an idiot, but so was Guzma. After all, the former Boss was the one who hadn't confided in his only friend, but then again, Kukui was the one that had trampled all over the rarely-given trust handed to him by the bug enthusiast.

"You'll forget about all this eventually." Guzma scoffs, staring at a fixed point, chin slightly raised. "You're just trying to be different." His lower lip trembles, and he sets his jaw, pressing his mouth into a thin line. "I don't know why that friend of yours even bothers." He looks on with wide eyes, stretching to stupid sizes. In his head, his father sneers at him, expression one of disgust. Paws slam themselves down on his shoulders. He half-flinches, but recovers long enough to stare impassively. Somehow, his gaze shifts to Kukui, but it's not Kukui he sees. "Snap out of it, dammit!" His mouth's dry. That doesn't sound like his old man, but that is who he's looking at. Grip too-tight, but at least he's discarded his weapon. Weapon. It's a goddamn golf club, but hey, it hurts more than a flesh attack.

Seemingly transported to a point in time before he properly stood up to his father once and for all, Guzma waits with a silent resignation for the blow. If he can deal with this with some semblance of dignity, perhaps he'll be able to get out with a shred of pride. It's understandable, therefore, that he's somewhat shocked when the low doesn't come. A second passes, then another, and he doesn't move until the rapidly-changing shape of his father (no, not his father. A.. friend? Someone who isn't out to beat him, anyway) speaks again. "Let me see your paws." Blunt, uncaring when it comes to the tone, but the words themselves mean too much for his old man. Blinking rapidly, Guzma shifts and glances down — shards from his father's bottle, or shards from his own? He looks to the side, zeroes in on the remains of the beer, then peers back up at— not his father, no. His father isn't here. His father isn't [i]alive.

Suck on that, old man.

"Pssh." Guzma can't recall the way his face is meant to move to smile in front of other people, not really. It's something he appears to have forgotten — he's been stamped on one too many times. He holds out his bloodied paws for Kukui's inspection in silence, regardless of the strange flutter of his heart, expression weirdly neutral. "You ain't meant to see this sort of thing." This is for the darkness alone. Back in Alola, Plumeria used to help him ride it out, but nowadays, he makes do alone. Maybe he should've told Kukui when they were still friends, but he'd not really known how friendship had worked, and he'd not wanted to drive the other away. Pfft. That worked out well. "Well, Prof? It ain't that bad, is it?"
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[spoiler=I'M THE UNDISPUTED KING OF THE BACK-ALLEYS | 9TH JAN]

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[size=8]GENERAL INFO / THREAD HUB / PINTEREST BOARD
✩ GUZMA / PREV. AUGUSTINE / OCCASIONALLY GOES BY "ROACH"
[color=#212341]✩ Undisclosed sexuality / Kinda polygamous; not looking / DFAB ♂
[color=#212341]✩ Unknown age; adult / Unknown birthday / Undecided ageing rate
[color=#212341]✩ BlizzardClan trainee [SHP] / RC warrior / Ex Boss of Team Skull

[color=#212341]RELATIONSHIPS / ROMANCE NOTES / ½ ⅓ ¼ ⅕ ⅛
[color=#212341]✩ Single / Not really looking / One current "maybe" crush/old flame.
[color=#212341]✩ NPC x NPC; orphaned and disowned by his father / Generation one.
[color=#212341]✩ No apprentice [not looking] / Bond with his [abbr='arthropod'; cockroach, millipede, gorilla, crab, ant, mole, dragon][color=white]Golisopod; 2½m tall.
[color=#212341]✩ Puts on a tough front; inferiority complex. Makes friends, doesn't trust.
[color=#212341]✩ ⅓ PokeGayz™ [OT3: Kukui & Grunt A] | ½ Guznu [???: Nanu]
[color=#212341]✩ Part of the Pokésquad | Honorary/Lifelong member of Team Skull.

[color=#212341]APPEARANCE / [color=#f6f6f6]REFERENCE. / [color=#212341]STATUS / GOOD [95%]
[color=#212341]✩ Tall, but not lean or muscular. Unimpressive; kinda unfit and scrawny.
[color=#212341]✩ Black and white patterned fur; white tuft on head; grey gradient limbs.
[color=#212341]✩ Pale yellow eyes; white rings/streaks of fur beneath. Bitten-short tail.
[color=#212341]✩ Always wears a pair of crooked yellow sunglasses on his head. [color=white][CLICK]
[color=#212341]✩ Also always wears a golden chain with the Team Skull logo. [color=white][CLICK]
[color=#212341]✩ Black belt around waist with six pockets for "Pokéballs". One taken.
[color=#fff]— [color=#212341]INJURIES/ILLNESSES: Weak due to unfit lifestyle.

[color=#212341]BEHAVIOUR / [color=#fff]BEWARE THE SILLY ONES / [color=#fff]A. / [color=#fff]B. / [color=#fff]C. / [color=#fff]D.
[color=#212341]✩ Inspired by a somewhat AU version of Guzma from Pokémon SuMo.
[color=#212341]✩ Both hot-tempered and incredibly laid back. A bit of a fast food junkie.
[color=#212341]✩ Seemingly fearless. Likely either insane, bluffing, or both. Street smart.
[color=#212341]✩ A s[color=transparent][size=1px]xhit-talking guy with an inferiority complex. Falsely brash + confident.
[color=#212341]✩ Ego is seemingly through the roof, but he's a nice guy. Extremely loyal.
[color=#212341]✩ Hates being beaten; always needs to prove himself. Meets trials equally.
[color=#212341]✩ Destruction personified. King of underdogs. Supports conflict/rebellion.
[color=#fff]— [color=#212341]DISORDERS: None that are diagnosed; hears voices, likely has depression and/or anxiety. High functioning.

[color=#212341]INTERACTION / [color=#fff]WEAPON OF CHOICE / [color=#fff]AUTHORITY = ASSKICKING
[color=#212341]✩ Easy-ish physical difficulty | Medium mental difficulty | Stupidly durable.
[color=#212341]✩ Golisopod: Extreme physical difficulty | Impenetrable mental barriers.
[color=#212341]✩ Roach uses the Golisopod in battle; a Pokémon and trainer relationship.
[color=#212341]✩ All nonviolent, friendly and/or peaceful actions can be powerplayed.
[color=#212341]✩ To engage in combat, use [color=white]bold white, [color=black]black or [u]bold underlined.

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8.4pt; line-height: 1.4;]@lulumac ah, thanks! he's lame as heck don't believe anything he says but!! hmm, he could definitely try and convince her to go out there and kick life's butt or something. give her an angry, guzma-esque pep talk or smth. want them to have a thread and interact so they can get a feel for one another's personalities?

@hat oh, thank you!! i figured we needed a Good Alternate Explanation for guzma being. guzma. so!! yes, this au is now a Thing. but thank you!! you're sorta a writing idol, so that means a lot BUT. in terms of their problems, cordus and guzma are actually pretty similar! anxiety, depression and (auditory, mainly, but also visual if it gets bad) hallucinations are things he suffers from, as well as something akin to insomnia + also a massive inferiority complex. so yeah, these two should meet! and maybe cordus can get something out of it. it takes a while for guzma to open up he's only ever spoken to. one person in his entire ooc history, but they can definitely connect in a weird way! want a thread?

trailhead. hello! sure; do you have anything in mind, or d'you wanna brainstorm? are there any things you'd like neptune to do/experience that guzma could help with?

COTTONTUFT [s]he's taking him under his wing ok
[hr]
[spoiler=I'M THE UNDISPUTED KING OF THE BACK-ALLEYS | 9TH JAN]

[hr]
[size=8]GENERAL INFO / THREAD HUB / PINTEREST BOARD
✩ GUZMA / PREV. AUGUSTINE / OCCASIONALLY GOES BY "ROACH"
✩ Undisclosed sexuality / Kinda polygamous; not looking / DFAB ♂
✩ Unknown age; adult / Unknown birthday / Undecided ageing rate
✩ BlizzardClan trainee [SHP] / RC warrior / Ex Boss of Team Skull

[color=#212341]RELATIONSHIPS / ROMANCE NOTES / ½ ⅓ ¼ ⅕ ⅛
[color=#212341]✩ Single / Not really looking / One current "maybe" crush/old flame.
[color=#212341]✩ NPC x NPC; orphaned and disowned by his father / Generation one.
[color=#212341]✩ No apprentice [not looking] / Bond with his [abbr='arthropod'; cockroach, millipede, gorilla, crab, ant, mole, dragon][color=white]Golisopod; 2½m tall.
[color=#212341]✩ Puts on a tough front; inferiority complex. Makes friends, doesn't trust.
[color=#212341]✩ ⅓ PokeGayz™ [OT3: Kukui & Grunt A] | ½ Guznu [???: Nanu]
[color=#212341]✩ Part of the Pokésquad | Honorary/Lifelong member of Team Skull.

[color=#212341]APPEARANCE / [color=#f6f6f6]REFERENCE. / [color=#212341]STATUS / GOOD [95%]
[color=#212341]✩ Tall, but not lean or muscular. Unimpressive; kinda unfit and scrawny.
[color=#212341]✩ Black and white patterned fur; white tuft on head; grey gradient limbs.
[color=#212341]✩ Pale yellow eyes; white rings/streaks of fur beneath. Bitten-short tail.
[color=#212341]✩ Always wears a pair of crooked yellow sunglasses on his head. [color=white][CLICK]
[color=#212341]✩ Also always wears a golden chain with the Team Skull logo. [color=white][CLICK]
[color=#212341]✩ Black belt around waist with six pockets for "Pokéballs". One taken.
[color=#fff]— [color=#212341]INJURIES/ILLNESSES: Weak due to unfit lifestyle.

[color=#212341]BEHAVIOUR / [color=#fff]BEWARE THE SILLY ONES / [color=#fff]A. / [color=#fff]B. / [color=#fff]C. / [color=#fff]D.
[color=#212341]✩ Inspired by a somewhat AU version of Guzma from Pokémon SuMo.
[color=#212341]✩ Both hot-tempered and incredibly laid back. A bit of a fast food junkie.
[color=#212341]✩ Seemingly fearless. Likely either insane, bluffing, or both. Street smart.
[color=#212341]✩ A s[color=transparent][size=1px]xhit-talking guy with an inferiority complex. Falsely brash + confident.
[color=#212341]✩ Ego is seemingly through the roof, but he's a nice guy. Extremely loyal.
[color=#212341]✩ Hates being beaten; always needs to prove himself. Meets trials equally.
[color=#212341]✩ Destruction personified. King of underdogs. Supports conflict/rebellion.
[color=#fff]— [color=#212341]DISORDERS: None that are diagnosed; hears voices, likely has depression and/or anxiety. High functioning.

[color=#212341]INTERACTION / [color=#fff]WEAPON OF CHOICE / [color=#fff]AUTHORITY = ASSKICKING
[color=#212341]✩ Easy-ish physical difficulty | Medium mental difficulty | Stupidly durable.
[color=#212341]✩ Golisopod: Extreme physical difficulty | Impenetrable mental barriers.
[color=#212341]✩ Roach uses the Golisopod in battle; a Pokémon and trainer relationship.
[color=#212341]✩ All nonviolent, friendly and/or peaceful actions can be powerplayed.
[color=#212341]✩ To engage in combat, use [color=white]bold white, [color=black]black or [u]bold underlined.

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8.4pt; line-height: 1.4;]woah, you changed your name! i say, having changed my user about 900 times
/pats everyone
[hr]
[spoiler=I'M THE UNDISPUTED KING OF THE BACK-ALLEYS | 9TH JAN]

[hr]
[size=8]GENERAL INFO / THREAD HUB / PINTEREST BOARD
✩ GUZMA / PREV. AUGUSTINE / OCCASIONALLY GOES BY "ROACH"
✩ Undisclosed sexuality / Kinda polygamous; not looking / DFAB ♂
✩ Unknown age; adult / Unknown birthday / Undecided ageing rate
✩ BlizzardClan trainee [SHP] / RC warrior / Ex Boss of Team Skull

[color=#212341]RELATIONSHIPS / ROMANCE NOTES / ½ ⅓ ¼ ⅕ ⅛
[color=#212341]✩ Single / Not really looking / One current "maybe" crush/old flame.
[color=#212341]✩ NPC x NPC; orphaned and disowned by his father / Generation one.
[color=#212341]✩ No apprentice [not looking] / Bond with his [abbr='arthropod'; cockroach, millipede, gorilla, crab, ant, mole, dragon][color=white]Golisopod; 2½m tall.
[color=#212341]✩ Puts on a tough front; inferiority complex. Makes friends, doesn't trust.
[color=#212341]✩ ⅓ PokeGayz™ [OT3: Kukui & Grunt A] | ½ Guznu [???: Nanu]
[color=#212341]✩ Part of the Pokésquad | Honorary/Lifelong member of Team Skull.

[color=#212341]APPEARANCE / [color=#f6f6f6]REFERENCE. / [color=#212341]STATUS / GOOD [95%]
[color=#212341]✩ Tall, but not lean or muscular. Unimpressive; kinda unfit and scrawny.
[color=#212341]✩ Black and white patterned fur; white tuft on head; grey gradient limbs.
[color=#212341]✩ Pale yellow eyes; white rings/streaks of fur beneath. Bitten-short tail.
[color=#212341]✩ Always wears a pair of crooked yellow sunglasses on his head. [color=white][CLICK]
[color=#212341]✩ Also always wears a golden chain with the Team Skull logo. [color=white][CLICK]
[color=#212341]✩ Black belt around waist with six pockets for "Pokéballs". One taken.
[color=#fff]— [color=#212341]INJURIES/ILLNESSES: Weak due to unfit lifestyle.

[color=#212341]BEHAVIOUR / [color=#fff]BEWARE THE SILLY ONES / [color=#fff]A. / [color=#fff]B. / [color=#fff]C. / [color=#fff]D.
[color=#212341]✩ Inspired by a somewhat AU version of Guzma from Pokémon SuMo.
[color=#212341]✩ Both hot-tempered and incredibly laid back. A bit of a fast food junkie.
[color=#212341]✩ Seemingly fearless. Likely either insane, bluffing, or both. Street smart.
[color=#212341]✩ A s[color=transparent][size=1px]xhit-talking guy with an inferiority complex. Falsely brash + confident.
[color=#212341]✩ Ego is seemingly through the roof, but he's a nice guy. Extremely loyal.
[color=#212341]✩ Hates being beaten; always needs to prove himself. Meets trials equally.
[color=#212341]✩ Destruction personified. King of underdogs. Supports conflict/rebellion.
[color=#fff]— [color=#212341]DISORDERS: None that are diagnosed; hears voices, likely has depression and/or anxiety. High functioning.

[color=#212341]INTERACTION / [color=#fff]WEAPON OF CHOICE / [color=#fff]AUTHORITY = ASSKICKING
[color=#212341]✩ Easy-ish physical difficulty | Medium mental difficulty | Stupidly durable.
[color=#212341]✩ Golisopod: Extreme physical difficulty | Impenetrable mental barriers.
[color=#212341]✩ Roach uses the Golisopod in battle; a Pokémon and trainer relationship.
[color=#212341]✩ All nonviolent, friendly and/or peaceful actions can be powerplayed.
[color=#212341]✩ To engage in combat, use [color=white]bold white, [color=black]black or [u]bold underlined.

[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 465px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 8.4pt; line-height: 1.4;]/ ah, either works for me too! if you do want a thread, though, i can make it.

Of course something feels off; he's being pushed around by a voice in his head, and one that isn't even connected to a spirit of sorts. It's nothing more than a ringing of the ears, an auditory hallucination, one that sounds like it's all about him. Still, he's grateful that Sylmae doesn't question his somewhat-odd behaviour, shrugging his too-scrawny shoulders. "Ready when you are." Let's go now. There's no need for him to wait around; if people really need to speak to him, a newcomer, then they can stumble across him on the way, or seek him out in a forced-meet and greet, or something along those lines.
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[spoiler=I'M THE UNDISPUTED KING OF THE BACK-ALLEYS | 9TH JAN]

[hr]
[size=8]GENERAL INFO / THREAD HUB / PINTEREST BOARD
✩ GUZMA / PREV. AUGUSTINE / OCCASIONALLY GOES BY "ROACH"
✩ Undisclosed sexuality / Kinda polygamous; not looking / DFAB ♂
✩ Unknown age; adult / Unknown birthday / Undecided ageing rate
[color=#212341]✩ BlizzardClan trainee [SHP] / RC warrior / Ex Boss of Team Skull

[color=#212341]RELATIONSHIPS / ROMANCE NOTES / ½ ⅓ ¼ ⅕ ⅛
[color=#212341]✩ Single / Not really looking / One current "maybe" crush/old flame.
[color=#212341]✩ NPC x NPC; orphaned and disowned by his father / Generation one.
[color=#212341]✩ No apprentice [not looking] / Bond with his [abbr='arthropod'; cockroach, millipede, gorilla, crab, ant, mole, dragon][color=white]Golisopod; 2½m tall.
[color=#212341]✩ Puts on a tough front; inferiority complex. Makes friends, doesn't trust.
[color=#212341]✩ ⅓ PokeGayz™ [OT3: Kukui & Grunt A] | ½ Guznu [???: Nanu]
[color=#212341]✩ Part of the Pokésquad | Honorary/Lifelong member of Team Skull.

[color=#212341]APPEARANCE / [color=#f6f6f6]REFERENCE. / [color=#212341]STATUS / GOOD [95%]
[color=#212341]✩ Tall, but not lean or muscular. Unimpressive; kinda unfit and scrawny.
[color=#212341]✩ Black and white patterned fur; white tuft on head; grey gradient limbs.
[color=#212341]✩ Pale yellow eyes; white rings/streaks of fur beneath. Bitten-short tail.
[color=#212341]✩ Always wears a pair of crooked yellow sunglasses on his head. [color=white][CLICK]
[color=#212341]✩ Also always wears a golden chain with the Team Skull logo. [color=white][CLICK]
[color=#212341]✩ Black belt around waist with six pockets for "Pokéballs". One taken.
[color=#fff]— [color=#212341]INJURIES/ILLNESSES: Weak due to unfit lifestyle.

[color=#212341]BEHAVIOUR / [color=#fff]BEWARE THE SILLY ONES / [color=#fff]A. / [color=#fff]B. / [color=#fff]C. / [color=#fff]D.
[color=#212341]✩ Inspired by a somewhat AU version of Guzma from Pokémon SuMo.
[color=#212341]✩ Both hot-tempered and incredibly laid back. A bit of a fast food junkie.
[color=#212341]✩ Seemingly fearless. Likely either insane, bluffing, or both. Street smart.
[color=#212341]✩ A s[color=transparent][size=1px]xhit-talking guy with an inferiority complex. Falsely brash + confident.
[color=#212341]✩ Ego is seemingly through the roof, but he's a nice guy. Extremely loyal.
[color=#212341]✩ Hates being beaten; always needs to prove himself. Meets trials equally.
[color=#212341]✩ Destruction personified. King of underdogs. Supports conflict/rebellion.
[color=#fff]— [color=#212341]DISORDERS: None that are diagnosed; hears voices, likely has depression and/or anxiety. High functioning.

[color=#212341]INTERACTION / [color=#fff]WEAPON OF CHOICE / [color=#fff]AUTHORITY = ASSKICKING
[color=#212341]✩ Easy-ish physical difficulty | Medium mental difficulty | Stupidly durable.
[color=#212341]✩ Golisopod: Extreme physical difficulty | Impenetrable mental barriers.
[color=#212341]✩ Roach uses the Golisopod in battle; a Pokémon and trainer relationship.
[color=#212341]✩ All nonviolent, friendly and/or peaceful actions can be powerplayed.
[color=#212341]✩ To engage in combat, use [color=white]bold white, [color=black]black or [u]bold underlined.