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I forgot to clean my dishes and my mom started acting really passive aggressive so I went to my room because I was already feeling horrible but then she wouldn't stop talking really really loudly about how lazy and ungrateful I was
for some reason whenever she talks really loudly about me it like really really gets on my nerves like more than normal
so I started telling her to stop but she just continued and then I started crying and hyperventilating but she didn't stop then I started actually like throwing stuff because I'm really volatile unfortunately
instead of not talking or just going outside she instead continued as a flipped out
I'm feeling better now kinda
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Not to like bring even more negativity and personal shit but now she's telling someone in the phone that I'm gonna get her kicked out of the apartments and that I need to be committed and that I threatened to harm myself even though I didn't
I'm just really tired now even though before I was actually starting to write and like... damnit
And then my Dads been trying to serve her papers for court and she's accusing him of theft since he actually stole my phone
I haven't been to school on months and just
hdhdhhdhd

anyway... adele is like idk break up song genre??

just kidding
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thank you I really need some good vibes
I mean she just came in and threw everything on the floor around making an even bigger mess.. urgh

ya she has a beautiful voice and all her songs are super good but there's no real variety in her lyrics or topics which ya know stinks

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thank you for putting up with my drama
sigh

Well grot is really new so no romance for this guy
tbh imperia and him would be pretty cute from what I've seen but then again they've interacted exactly once pfft
I think a romance with groteske would be pretty interesting though
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well I don't think grot could ever be in a healthy relationship unfortunately but hey watcha gonna do?
I really need to post urglhburghl

also yes hello welcome even though I just joined yesterday
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Groteske turned the maimed side of his face away as two children stared. Despite trying his best to ignore them be couldn't help but fidget. He understood why the two were staring, in fact he was perfectly fine with their curiosity, it just made him feel bad. What if they had nightmares because of him, or felt uncomfortable because he looked like a monster? They were just kids after all. Sure there was nothing he could do except maybe hide in his hut forever, but if they were uneasy it was because of him. Which wasn't a very great feeling.

Maybe there was something he could do to make him less intimidating? It wasn't like the injuries were the only reasons people were freaked out by him. He was incredibly tall, muscular, and had this crazy deep voice. Hell, if Grot was a kid he'd probably be anxious around someone like him too. "Uh, uhm," he barely whispered before shutting up, blushing like a fool. What a weirdo, what a friggin doofus.

Hoping nobody noticed his failed attempt at getting attention Groteske peeked across the camp. Okay, so far it didn't seem like anyone noticed. Ever so slightly relieved he relaxed only to find some older woman glaring at him. She was looking at him as if he'd just said the most idiotic thing possible. Fortunately the woman turned to chat with a friend, only glancing his way once as she gossiped. Lord almighty he was totally destroying any chance at a good reputation. Stupid, stupid.
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I think the vial design is very pretty

I woke up like... ten minutes ago
I'm a friggin disgrace
but I also had a cool dream so
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throws my muse into volcano
burn virgin burn

if we speaking about emotional connections with characters lemme tell ya about bubblebreath
woof like he was so toxic and I was so emotionally invested role-playing him actually messed with my mental health

also anyone here read junji ito?
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euyyyy my guy my dude
The cat diary had me cackling for hours omigod
I still can't get over the facial expressions of that damn cat

right now im reading his Frankenstein adaption and just finished gyo which spooked me bad
AND TOMIE?? my person favorite even though I hate that ho
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grot could totally learn though he's an air head c:

I just jusst began Frankenstein but the original story already makes me sad sooo
TOMIE IS A CUTIE but I ain't messing with no voodoo ya know? Hot ass ain't worth my life
.. Or is it?
dun dun dunnnn
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This was kinda funny, a huge ass canine being bullied by some kids, his intense golden eyes flicking around nervously. When you looked at him the first thought wasn't really wussy. With his incredible height and toned muscles, solid features, deep voice, he was a tough looking dude. Yet there he was having little pebbles thrown at him by apprentices and even some youngsters. It was pretty pathetic, really.

It was like Groteske could fight back though, after all he was physically very strong. Besides he was an adult and his... bullies... well, they were just kids. Even if they weren't he could easily yell at the little nuisances, scare them with a old fashioned guard dog bark. He was the mix of two well known attack breeds. Making a little show of bad guy wouldn't be hard. Yet there he was flinching heavily whenever a pebble even passed his way. Guess it wasn't entirely his fault for being a coward, he'd been bullied for a long ass time. Not to mention the perverts who got off on his curse. Jeez, definitely not to mention those guys.

Chewing on his inner cheek he tried not to react too much when a pebble flicked off the side of his head.
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"No more than usual," he mumbled, embarrassed that he had to be saved. Trying to hide the maimed side of his face Groteske shuffled his paws. Awkwardly he watched the kids run off giggling. It had only been a game to them, kick the monster or something, so there was no reason to get angry. "I'm Groteske," slowly he looked back at Yuki-Onna, "I just joined recently so it's alright. Uh, I kinda got lost and then those kids..."

So humiliating, so friggin humiliating. Only on his part though. The kids didn't know better and he still let it happen, all his fault. "Thank you," Grot didn't want to admit he'd been dealing with bullies since first joining and even beyond then. It just seemed like something guys weren't supposed to do, you know? Had to act cool when obviously you were a huge pathetic dork. Taking a deep breath as if to ready himself he burst into a smile, "I'm all good so don't worry!" Yup, he had just completely spent all his social energy for the day.
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Groteske blushed as she described him as cute, head lowering even further. Of course she probably just meant he was stupid and therefore naive. Yeah, like that wasn't a reach. "They're just kids," he said in their defense, "And I'm totally fine, the pebbles didn't hurt at all." Which was true, but not the point. Even if they hadn't physically hurt him the canine really didn't need to be any more self conscious than he already was. Being laughed at and harassed didn't help him feel better. Learning to stand up for himself would probably be the best course of action. It'd probably help with confidence too, yet he had no desire to even attempt such a thing.

Turning to look at Imperia he couldn't help but feel better. Despite barely knowing her Grot appreciated Peri. She was kind, accepting, and even though a bit shy she also seemed strong, capable. "It's not your fault," he said quickly, for some reason feeling responsible for her depressed demeanor. Not brave enough to pat her back or make some sort of comforting gesture he instead sighed. He was so darn useless. "Your right, I'll try to talk more," if only he could muster up some confidence, "maybe you could, uhm, teach me?" What did that even mean, teach him what, how to act normal? Yeah, right.

"Oh no, they aren't... assholes," was all he could think to say. Even if they were brats he believed those kids didn't know better. He was ugly and monstrous looking, so it wasn't their fault. Even though it totally was a hundred percent their fault. "I think they're just a little close close minded."

okay so grot has like a semi-crush on imperia because she's nice to him and he's... a frigggin dork..
buuutttt I think a thread between them would be nice like maybe a beach au thread or just a regular one idk c:
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Oh I'm Anna and Grot is a fucking dork who's both angsty and oblivious to everything so

Grot is like.. I hate him so much?? But I love him?? He's anxious and hates himself and just is really fake but not really fake. On the other hand he's a sweetie and he's a soft buff kiddo who gets crushes easily and just wants to sing kumbaya with everyone.
agffhhhhhh
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points at Octavia Blake

I think I'd have a lot more muse for a beach au but there would be more meaningful interactions with a regular thread
I think a regular thread because i can just make a open au one right? And if you could make it that would be so so so awesome
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oof I get really bad headaches because I'm starting a new medication so I get it c:

I'm hungry but also don't want to eat for some reason which is beyond annoying but I haven't eaten anything all day so I'm gonna munch

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Speaking with others was generally not his speciality. With the whole being hideously cursed and severely low self esteem it just didn't click with Grot. Still, he had to at least try, if not to make friends then for him. "I uhm, hello," he mumbled, voice deceptively deep, perhaps giving off the illusion that he was tough. It was obvious he wasn't a confident fella just by his absurdly bad, bent over posture. Gold eyes trained themselves just below her eyes, paws shuffling nervously.
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talks about addiction
wasn't sure if it's controversial so yeah //

Groteske didn't like to admit that he'd been addicted to nicotine as a kid. It wasn't really something one bragged about for obvious reasons. Cigarettes were disgusting, unhealthy, and in the long run only made things worse. Still, he deserved a drag or two, right? He'd been working hard to be more social and had stifled his bad tempter, so yeah there was no harm in a little bit of indulgence. Just a quick puff and done, not enough to savor.

Grey smoke rose from his nostrils, with the sun filtering through it looked elegant. The taste, oh god the taste was amazing. That minty menthol taste mixed with the bitterness, it just wowed him. Maybe it was because of nostalgia, but he was content at the moment. A cool wind, warm sunshine, the music of summer. Grot sat back on his hunches with a pleased smile. Even the light feeling in his head, probably because he hadn't smoked in some time, felt pleasant.

The sight of him smoking didn't really seem right when considering his personality. Then again nobody knew him before the curse, which would explain a lot of what was going on. Eh, whatever.
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