Posts by Thornfang

Bestgrandpa has logged on

Bestgrandpa: Good for you I guess...
Bestgrandpa: Will you still be able to do everyday activities?

[size=9pt]thornfang would probably disapprove of the entire thing and think that the couple, the wedding, everything was stupid - but feel awkward not attending[/size]

[size=9pt]both thornfang and mistheart are open to plots and threads. thornfang might be a bit sceptical about ivy, but I can actually see mistheart and ivy getting along well.[/size]

[size=9pt]Thornfang spotted Venompaw, and wondered whether he should approach. What was the point? He had just gone through the lowest point of his life, where he had attempted to commit suicide, and was still recovering. Then again, he saw nothing wrong with her yet. That would probably change, and he would regret approaching her. It would be just another thing to add to his 'guilty' list. The dark elder made his way over. "Hello, Venompaw - how's it going?"he also spotted Snakehiss, one of his favoured cats in the Clan. "Hello, Snakehiss."[/size]

[size=9pt]//welcome back!

Cloudypaw? Thornfang didn't know her, and he wondered if she knew Thornfang. She had probably heard of him somehow, and was probably already against him. The tom did disapprove of the apprentice playing some childish game with a kit. "This is probably all good for the child,"he wrinkled his nose as he faced Minkkit. Ugh. Another outsider. Was that even such a bad thing anymore? The old tom was uncertain. He faced Cloudypaw again, "But don't you have duties? Training? Patrols? Looking after the elders?"The elder forced a smile at the last suggestion, but it quickly became a frown. What was the point in faking happiness?[/size]

[size=9pt]Butterflysong. Ugh. Now there was a cat he had no regrets in hating. She had been nothing but a whiny foxheart. Then again, had he really been any better than her? And after all, Thornfang had been the ring leader, the one who had probably made her more aggressive over time, right? In the end though, he had never encouraged the white she cat to go on a killing spree! "What are you doing here?"[/size]

[size=9pt]Thornfang was confused. He was a fairly clever cat, but not much had been making sense recently. What was StarClan? Who were his allies, who were his enemies? Did he have any friends? He'd started feeling strangely back when he had ripped a life away from Raggedstar, and had changed a bit more after being defeated by her. And then the cherry on the top had been a dream from StarClan, explaining that his neglectful mother, who apparently had still cared for him a little deep down, wasn't even his real mother, and that he was partially not ShadowClan blood. Thornfang's own birth went against what he believed in. He had been comforted by some of his Clanmates, including some outsiders. But in the end, he had still attempted to kill himself, making his way onto the thunderpath. Snakehiss, Softstep and Softlight had saved him. Had that been the right thing to do?

Right now, the old tom was lying down in the entrance to the elders' den, his head poking out, watching the Clan go about their daily business. Were any of them aware how baffled Thornfang was? The regret he was feeling? He wondered if Butterflysong, exiled from ShadowClan, felt the same emotions that he did.[/size]

[size=9pt]"Well, if you can't, tell me all about yesterday, then,"Thornfang replied, also faking a smile. He saw Venompaw narrow her eyes, and after a few moments realised that she probably had a dislike for Snakehiss. Most of the Clan seemed to be okay with him, but the dark tom could understand why others weren't. Thornfang had been sceptical at first, but soon realised that Snakehiss was actually a very good cat. "And not really. Hello Hickorykit, hello Boulderstrike."[/size]

[size=9pt]"Strange. Someone should have given you work to do, then."He glanced at Raggedstar's den, and then narrowed his eyes a little. Raggedstar and Moonflower were most likely to blame for that. Thornfang thought back to when he was an apprentice. He had already been a little bitter by then, neglected by the cat he had once believed to be his mother, witnessing the deaths of his siblings, being the only survivor. But at least back then his father had been around.[/size]

[size=9pt]"Hello, Cloudypaw. Not great, honestly."Was this kid related to Badgerclaw? They seemed awfully similar in appearance. Ugh. It was hard not to immediately have something against Cloudypaw with that in mind. Badgerclaw was a foxhearted traitor - even if the elderly tom understood why the tuxedo had done what he had done now. Either way, Badgerclaw was now dead, and Thornfang felt as though it was for the best. The old brown tom had even been the one who had retrieved Badgerclaw's dead body, and brought it back to the camp - no one else had shown up at any point.[/size]

[size=9pt]"Oh, well, the majority of the Clan hates me, and I found out that my own birth goes against everything I believe in."Was Thornfang asking for sympathy? He wasn't sure, because he didn't even know what he wanted anymore. But he did feel guilt - he wasn't sure how much, but he did feel it. He had broken the code so many times whilst trying to get what he wanted, yet he had still insisted that he was fighting for it.[/size]

[size=9pt]"I'd like to point out that's it's your fault that you got hurt and your fault your apprentice ceremony will be delayed. I don't like cats being apprenticed late, but it isn't my decision, so you're going to have to live with it. If you didn't want to get into this situation, you should have followed the rules."The old tom wasn't sure how to feel about any of this, but it didn't help that Briarkit was being very rude. To Panther? Oh, Thornfang wouldn't stop her. He was still a little sceptical about outsiders despite feeling guilty about what he had done. The elder gave both Snakehiss and Stonebreeze something that looked like a smile. In a way, he was happy to see these two.[/size]

[size=9pt]"Why were you out of the camp in the first place? You brought this upon yourselves."Ha, well at least these cats had been punished for breaking the code, huh? Would Minkkit live? That was the question. Was Thornfang being foxhearted if he hoped that Minkkit lived, and Silkpaw was badly punished, too? Or was that just him being nasty? StarClan knew, the old tom was so confused.[/size]

[size=9pt]Thornfang was, as horrible as it may be, on the NPCS' side. He still wasn't sure what to feel about Minkkit. "Look, she shouldn't have left the camp. It was a crazy idea, but sometimes - some cats have crazy ideas. We can't change who we are, and if she left the camp again, well, in the end, it's her decision,"honestly, what the old tom meant by that was that she should leave the camp again, and never come back. He didn't know if he wanted the kid dead, but he would probably feel just a little calmer with one less outsider in ShadowClan. Addressing the NPCS, he spoke, "I understand what you're doing, and I'm not going to hold it against you. I'm assuming you lot were good enough to stay in the camp, and have never seen a fox before. I hope so." [/size]

[size=9pt]"Exactly,"Thornfang gave Snakehiss an approving nod as he came over, and addressed the ever rude figure of Goldenlight. Back when they had first met, the old tom had believed that the two of them might get along, but he was disrespectful, to say the least. "She's only just started her training, but if you really believe that it's bad, maybe discuss it with both her and her mentor present? Emberpaw still has plenty of time to learn, and I'm sure that with the Clan supporting her, she'll be the best warrior she can be."[/size]

[size=9pt]"I shouldn't need to stop you. You shouldn't have been mousebrained enough to leave the camp - and you can't rely on other cats to always tell you right from wrong,"it was true that she was just a kid, but still, it was her fault for leaving the camp. And with a response as rude as that, the old tom wasn't sure what to think. But he was scared. What if Thornfang's... old self came back? He didn't know if he wanted to hurt or fight anyone anymore. "Nobody is completely useless. Everybody has a purpose in this world, even the cats you hate. Plus, haven't you heard of respecting your elders?"The brown tom doubted that he deserved the respect of anybody in the Clan after what he had done though.

//ok![/size]

[size=9pt]"Greetings, Firefur,"ugh, with his guilt, with his regrets, did Thornfang need to be 'friends' with cats now? The same worries still floated about the old tom's mind which had been present back when he had been leader, but now, he had no reputation to uphold, no Clan to earn the respect of. All he needed was to stay in ShadowClan, and try and work out what his life had become, and separate right from wrong. "Hello, Emberpaw."[/size]

[size=9pt]"Served the Clan for many, many moons would be a good start. Sure I've made mistakes,"he glanced awkwardly at Snakehiss and Stonebreeze. The two of them, especially Snakehiss, knew a lot about Thornfang's situation, but he wasn't sure how much Panther knew. "Been fair with you, not whacked you in the face - I don't do that, because that's a very bad thing to do. Don't tempt me, but either way, I won't fall for it."[/size]

[size=9pt]Thornfang listened. Did he forgive Butterflysong? Well, not exactly, but had her intentions really been any worse than his? Both of them had believed that they were following the code and StarClan's wishes by doing what they had done, only to find out after the damage that had been done that they had made mistakes. In the end, maybe he and the she cat he despised were more alike than he would have originally thought. He didn't like the idea, but at least Thornfang wouldn't be the only cat suffering from guilt and a bad reputation. "If you really did believe you were doing the right thing, and have now realised your mistakes, StarClan may just be showing you that they want you to take a different path, and that you have a different destiny. I haven't figured out mine, and I doubt you've figured out yours. I suppose it's none of my business whether the other Clans forgive you or not, as you made some huge mistakes. I hated you. Sure we were allies to an extent, but I knew that a cat like you would never become a medicine cat. I knew it. I disguised my hatred,"he then added to Briarkit, "What are you doing out of camp? Do you want to get hurt again? It's against the code to leave the camp as a kit."[/size]

[size=9pt]"You left the camp against the code again, didn't you? Tell me all that happened."Thornfang never would have dreamt of sneaking out of the camp as a kit - it was a bad thing to do, or so he had been told. His mind focused back on his father briefly, thinking about the cat he had admired. If things had been different, if he hadn't been half Clan, he probably would have been treated like an ordinary kid. In the long run, it would have been a better option than the life he lived now. Confused and guilty.[/size]