Posts by Byebyefornow

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]would you believe me when i say that was literally a shower thought? because it was and it is kind of getting worse, i wanted to figure out ways to make it worse off if it was someone who was captured and i have it stuck in my head the floor would be made from metal, not all that thick, likely bronze or a substance that can withstand head, and beneath would be a flame a few would feed and maintain to heat the bottom, making it so any unwilling to fight would be unable to simply stand there and, if enclosed, would need to fight or else run the risk of being roasted alive, similar to the brazen bull

this is why someone like me should not be permitted to study torture techniques, i turn them into something so much worse and yet i am one who hates fighting and can't hurt anyone unless i am pissed off to the extreme

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]going off what they did to my dear son no, get the mega out and leave my poor gengar alone, he is perfect as he is but i think it is going to be unlikely with the alola forms being introduced, though i am kind of excited to see the next new pokemon, i already love the stuffing out of the fire/poison lizard child

& hey guys, really should be posting here but i kinda got swept up in the cartel and planning out valentio's history

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]sassy meowth is best meowth, but i do agree new pokemon would be better, the designs are actually getting better, especially when it comes down to the fact they made a literal pile of trash one last time, though the constant psychic legendaries piss me off since son lion is weak to itself, why keep to this when you can make it different and actually make it a different type and give it actual attacks that would work with it, not against

ah thank ya, just kind of got way too into rewriting val's story again and also sheep, i am at the point i have fought with my phone just to make the lock and background the sheep because i am getting sucked into catherine again and fat, fluffy ass sin sheep are yes

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]i did, i wanna do the fight club so badly right now but i might wait, refine it a bit and see what losty thinks before i get everyone's opinion cause i want to make sure a good number is on board before anything goes through

& have i gone too far when i need to put a trigger warning on val's history because i am kind of scaring myself now, i love yet hate the shit i am slowly piecing together yet feel it is time for someone to throw up the stop sign but nothing can stop the hat, nothing but the rating of the site, give me an r and all that nice, free room and i would go into so much worse, already i am making suckerpunch a base for inspiration, at least parts of it, i am not afraid to bring saw into it as well

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]you make me curious but please, tell me of his history cause i want to know

i can tell you val has not had a good history, he was born within a similar place as suckerpunch and was raised to be an erotic dancer/entertained which begun rather young, around eight or so, and continued further on into forced prostitution, a gas lighting, abuse centric 'relationship' with one of his regulars and lead to his ultimate kidnapping, which left him with a year of being left within a drug hazy state, made into a personal toy, broken beyond repair and left a shell, all just a child still. not to mention his work as a smuggler afterwards and that he continued his work as a prostitute beyond that because it was all he knew though it killed him a little more each time, to be so intimate with someone and forced to relive those memories, only holding a single friend who get him out of that place, another left captive to that sickening man who held him prisoner. he is a product of years of abuse and hardship, all wrapped up within a nice little bow, which is only the outline for what i have set in mind, it will get worse the further into it i go, and likely end up with some other things he barely got around, even now the old fool is haunted by it all

if i bring in the gorey side it would grow worse, with the add on of going to level 26 area with saw mixed in for how gorey it would get, i have a dark mind, that is all i can say on that because i am not bringing that side in here

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]i haven't seen it in an age and i much prefer the overlying story compared to the actual movie itself, it reminds me of the twisted alice in wonderland game which i would still love to play, and is spawning a world similar to that for val, where his memories come together into a mess, a wonderland of torment and addiction, of pain and horror he can't escape because it is all in his head. i love messing with him already and i have only had him for a day, which probably shows how dedicated to fucking up his life i am right now because damn am i dedicated to going as far as i can

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]everyone must suffer and if i can somehow drag people in to help me ruin val i will welcome it, always, though most of it is for later on, when the memories start to get towards that year, which is likely to take a few months so i have time to plan a few things out, also need to figure out a few triggers as his captor would have used them regularly to keep him in hand

no, don't hurt the poor child, i can hurt my own characters so easily but i see someone else get hurt i will not allow it

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]i can promise you i am not kind, i am noting more than a paranoid mess of an adult who has wasted nearly nine years writing because i can, with a touch of need for the cute fluff every now and than, that is me & i would never, not one is allowed to get arrested, just gonna steal you away and try to make you change your ways because damn it, be nice to the dear children

not at all, my character pinetree is a way to work with my anxiety, constant panic attacks, adhd, trauma cause of abuse and a few others things, it is something that becomes almost natural for each character will hold a section of the creator, they are your children yet also a piece of yourself, even if you can't quite figure out which too easily

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]you say that i am just, please come here and let me just sit with you for a little, i am that high strung i adore just sitting with those who are mellow because i can't relax alone, i get too paranoid and need to move around, why i love being the way i am because most tend to make me a pillow and it is comforting just hugging someone while they use me as a pillow, it helps to calm me a lot

i am not all that good with angst but sometimes it comes through, realism does though, why so much of my stories and characters do end being rather dark as the world is not all that good a place, yet there are light areas when i can find a way to make it fit, though i do mostly look for the soft, cute little fluffy things since they are easy and make it easier to handle things sometimes

we have sucker punch and catherine, let us infest the cartel with the insane fight scenes and sheep, it must happen

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]that is the wonderful thing when it comes to any art, it becomes a source to express something that tends to be buried or else hidden, something we can’t quite explain or else just want out, i just wish it helped more sometimes

i’ve watched cry play it all too many times, some stuff within the movie segments freaked me as i don’t deal with knives or wounds from them well outside of writing, but i still love it and also sheep. i haven’t watched sucker punch in ages, i might have to tomorrow if i have the time, but i loved a good bit of the imagery within even if i would have loved to see what happened afterwards, it would have been interesting to see how they tackled it

i’ve never much gotten behind angst, i don’t feel anything when i read it or watch it, just devoid and bored most of the time, likely doesn’t help i grew up watching and reading most horror but fluff has the ability to make me melt still, even if i don’t much like it when it ties in romantic bases and more enjoy it being silly things & the old man is likely to end up doting on him, probably would end up seeing a tiny bit of himself in ezra here and there, though that would lead to so many bad things later on when the memories come back because he’d end up thinking he would be a bad influenced, possibly end up putting ezra into a similar position he was in, but he’s a stubborn ass and would work to get through to him and help when he can

i never really thought i would see the day when there was another that experienced so many things the way i did, not all at once, but i can understand a good deal of what you go through ghost, especially the thoughts though i’ve always been too scared to act on mine for what they contain terrifies me too much. and my horrible command of words once more stumps me, i know what i want to say but not how, but i’d love to read his history

likely i have one of the crappiest memories one can have, not even something from five minutes ago really registers and i can only really recall random facts and usually half way so many facts are lost, my mind is all too act to really form proper memories and all i can really remember are things i would rather forget, many times people have grown annoyed at me because i will need them to repeat what they said multiple times before it sticks and yet still need to constantly say it in my head to make sure i remember

my laptop is being an ass and i am getting tired in any case so i'll talk to you guys tomorrow, hope you sleep well or have a pleasant day

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]morning guys & both i and valentio will dot on ezra, i can't believe how quickly i have fallen for the characters here, they are all wonderful but than just, memes, i don't know what i expected to come out of this but it was not the memes

& i am gone again, need to play warframe even if i should be writing cause i have a good number of things i need to reply to

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]/lays on the ground
speaking of polylutions, i have reipeces for eeveelution inspired drinks, damn it i want alcohol now but i can't make the one i want cause no ice cream, but art went yesterday cause i hate mess and my cartel guy kind of happened

& would anyone be up for helping pinetree make a farm, they will literally drag a bunch of sheep and piglets up to the islands if they must but they want to have a farm and grow things even if they can barely look after themself let alone other lifeforms but they would cry if they ever somehow grew even just a tiny potato, which i kind of want to see happen, just holding the tiny potato crying because they made a tato

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]i feel like i really don't want to know what i missed

& pinetree is either going to infest the moors with farm animals or be making a potato garden, undecided on which but both are happening with one to blizzard and one for here because the tiny child needs something to keep them occupied

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]overall i am fine with it but i have to say be careful, i have gone through similar things and seeing it brought into writing does help sometimes, it makes coping a tad easier to know it is being acknowledge, but there are those who have used it to tease or screw with us, to push us into the inhuman category, as if this abuse makes us anything but a being worthy of being respected and recovering after what happened. if treated right i am fine with it, i actually do find it interesting to see how it is handled and the different coping methods that come from it

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]no one is allowed to touch the tatos but it would go so bad for cyanide if he did destroy it, even if just by accident he'd end up with pine following him around because he must fix it, bring back the tatos, though they'd likely end up making multiple gardens, one with just tatos everywhere, must have all the tatos, and others would be a mix of fruits and flowers because they can. actually, might do that, they'd set up within a primarily empty biome so none would get in the way or be annoyed when things start to grow and just having fun making a wonderland of flowers and growing tatos and strawberries with a little tato garden at their windclan cabin as well cause they are their favourite

/throws potato
here you go, wedding gift

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]tato garden is gonna happen

mm pokemon go, i want to play it again but my phone has no data so i can't outside of the house which is annoying since we have a permanent charizard nearby but i can at least steal my parents phone when we're out to play & are you sure he ran, he might have rolled away, that would be a sight to see though, just giant snorlax rolling down the street

i feel like i am one of the few not that big with sun and moon, i want to see the rest of the new generation but i already have a favourite in salandit and the damn sassy meowth, but i still pissed at their need for legendaries to be psychic, still, i'm kind of tempted to save up for a new ds and try to get back into it

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]i've only got a little bit of time left on the laptop for now but i can give you the ocean child to plan somethings out, i do really need to think things through for pine before valentino takes over in a few months, that is if you're alright with a bit of a wait, i have little writing time on the weekend cause of little sister taking most of my attention yet i say this as if i don't need to finalize the fight club for the cartel, reply to a bunch of things, make a few threads and start finalizing some gods for my world. i am extremely bad at keeping track of things, especially when it feels like i am missing a couple things from that list

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]just realized who you are, i really should learn who everyone is but names escape me so often i don't bother, i got a couple things i need to do but if i find some time i'll write down a couple ideas and we can figure something out, alcor does seem like an extremely interesting character, i'm actually kind of tempted to go back to pine's love of space but it has become a bit overthrown with that for the ocean and the range of life found within the depths because they have to become more like me it seems

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]thank you hon, i completely forgot about this thing and when the post came up i got anxious and kind of ignored it for a bit, it will be the first thing i reply to tonight, i will make sure of it

they're not the best when it comes to any sort of physical contact, they'd need at least a little bit of time to grow comfortable before they'd be really open to it being a possibility, along with they aren't the best with young ones, they grow very uncomfortable because they are all too similar and remind them of the bad things they want to forget. i am happy to try it out, though they are a tad more paranoid when within that sort of sleep deprived state that would permit them to nap, but you have me tempted to try it out

[fancypost borderwidth=0;font-size:8pt; text-align:justify; line-height: 140%; width:450px;]you should not let this happen because he will become a grandpa to the dear, but than he always wanted a family, though the chance never came up as he didn't care to bring another life into this world, let him dot and love on another and he will make you family

i have too much to reply to but i am stuck with asshole writing anxiety so anyone want a casual thread with valentio? i just really want something silly and cute to unwind with and the old man is the only thing i seem to have muse for right now, especially if it is an au, i wanna write the old man in a mafia or noir setting