[align=center][fancypost bgcolor=none; bordercolor=transparent; borderwidth=0px; width: 370px;font-size:8pt;line-height: 130%;][justify]As the sound of her soft teasing trickled out from behind him, the male's aureate oculars widened, and he'd jump in slight surprise. However, as his gaze whirled around, and he happened to spot San's familiar features, alongside a subtle glimmer of amusement traversing her jade oculars, he was able to sigh in relief. He had been pretty nervous.. But, somehow, her teasing had put him at ease, and he was able to resound with some light laughter. "Gee, you scared me there." He'd respond. "A true ninja at heart." He'd add, a brightened smile traversing his maw.
However, quickly, he remembered what he had been looking for her, for.. Why he had been.. Why he had been wanting to speak to her. His cheeks burned beneath his fur, as he came to the realisation that she was.. here. That he had found her and that he had to.. Yeah - oh gosh.. There was slight panic running through him - not because of San, not at all.. But, because he was very sure that he was going to mess this up, someway or another. He was the type to blunder, or to stammer, or to struggle to say things right before getting something wrong or messing up somehow. He didn't really know how he was going to make a blunder out of this, but it was bound to happen. There was a very, very slim chance of this going the way he, uh, wanted it to go. The way he wanted to say it..
But, at last, he couldn't sit there forever. It seemed as if she were worried too, after all. "H-Huh? Oh yeah, yeah everything's fine don't worry! Nothing's wrong!" He'd assure her, trying to silence the whir of thoughts in his head, and the quickening pace of his heart, as it hammered against his ribcage.
The collie actually paused for a moment. He could have backed out.. There could have been an 'oh, I was just wanting to check up on you', or 'how are you doing', that he could have mentioned, to make his way out of the situation.. But the truth was that.. he didn't want to lie to San. She deserved more than to be lied to, or to be played around with, just because he was a nervous wreck and a complete dork at doing things like these. He.. wasn't going to back out. Well at least, not until he got a rejection or something. That was also fairly worrying, but he knew that.. it was better to mention it, than to wait too long, and regret it, when it was too late.
"Um, actually.. I, uh.." Cherviltea paused, biting down on his tongue - canary-hued oculars skirting the ground, before lifting to meet her own. "San, I uh.. I just wanted to u-uh, let you know that.." 'Let you know'..? Who the hell says that? "I-I really like you San, I uh.. I don't know how to explain it, really.." It would have been better if he didn't stumble around with his words, and attempt to describe why she made him feel that way, but oh no.. Chervil's mind wasn't really.. working, at the moment. "I really like it when you're around, and when you smile, and when you laugh.. Even when you tease me, or jump at me because I'm too dumb to make my presence clear before saying hello. You're also, uh, way stronger than I am.. There's no doubt about that actually.. And I really respect you for that. But, uh, I don't know, whenever you're around, and whenever you're happy.. My chest m-makes this weird.. feeling.." Makes this weird feeling..? What.. What was he saying? He didn't know, actually. He could barely hear himself above the frantic beating of his heart, as if it were thudding in his skull, and making it difficult to actually hear a single thing. "But like.. Like, it isn't bad. It's like.. It's a feeling of warmth, that I've uh, never really felt before. It took me a while to um, decide on what it was actually.. I wanted to think it through but then.." Then, Bloodclan had taken San. "Then I realised that I was taking too long, just thinking about it and.. "
Oh no.. Did.. Did people even talk this goddamn long during confessions? He didn't know.. He really didn't know a thing, actually - he was just.. nervous, and the thudding of his chest in his heart - no, his heart in his chest, way beginning to make it even more difficult to think through what was coming out of his mouth.
"S-So here I am, probably messing everything up but, I um.." Chervil paused for a moment, before opting to reveal a.. stick, of sorts. Okay, yeah, probably didn't look too great when you saw it from afar. But, coiled around it was a necklace - a crystal dagger tied with crimson string. "I know you prefer flowers when they're actually in the ground, so I didn't get you flowers but.. I've had this necklace for a while and.. Actually, don't ask me why I wrapped it around a stick, I don't know why I did that either but uh.. Because flowers are normally in a bouquet and stuff I just thought that-" The canine had been so nervous, that as he brought forward the necklace, he had.. accidentally managed to drop it. His aureate oculars widened, heart skipping a few crucial beats in his chest. And that's how his confession came tumbling down - if it hadn't already crashed and burned. As soon as he could, really, he'd quickly tug himself downwards, to pick it up, cheeks burning beneath his fur, the world spinning around him, even if the only person he really could pay attention to at the moment, was San.
/ dUDE DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT I'M THE SAME,,
"yesterday, today"
cherviltea xerses | windclan guardian (shp) | male | crush on sanctifiedpaw | sexuality unconfirmed
"and the day before yesterday"
telepathy
"i had a dream"
medium physical | easy mental | attack in #76B07A
"that this wide world"
black and white border collie | yellow eyes | eyes will flicker red when under extreme mental stress
"was easily crumbled"
holds no memory of parents | bad memories of drowning | feels the guilt of having let an old, childhood friend die, by trading his life for his own in the heat haze
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