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here's the hp tryouts~

THE SANCTUM HP TRYOUTS

A place for all of Deadboy's current and future plots for those curious to see them. While some of them will be closed until I decide to have others get involved, if anyone wants to join in on the plot then feel free to ask. Otherwise there will be links where I ask for help to move his plots onwards.

As an important and major note: PLEASE DO NOT POST HERE.

ALSO TRIGGER WARNING FOR TOPICS SUCH AS: SCHIZOPHRENIA, CANNIBALISM, FAMILY ISSUES/PARENT ABANDONMENT, AND OTHER DIFFICULT/DARK TOPICS. DO NOT CONTINUE TO READY ON IT ANY OF THE THINGS STATED BEFORE MAKE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE.

CURRENT PLOTS IN PROCESS:

⋆ schizophrenia (first)
⋆ facing cannibalism (second)

FUTURE PLOTS:

the phobias
⋆ pyrophobia (fear of fire)
⋆ philophobia (fear of love or falling in love)
⋆ dementophobia (fear of being insane)*
⋆ agateophobia (fear of insanity or becoming insane)
⋆ maniaphobia (fear of becoming insane or of seeing others who are mentally ill)*

childhood
⋆ abandonment issues
⋆ confronting inner (and literal) demons

PAST/FINISHED PLOTS:

⋆ none


*dementophobia and maniaphobia are related to agateophobia

schizophrenia

/skitsəˈfrēnēə,ˌskitsəˈfrenēə/

noun

a long-term mental disorder of a type involving a breakdown in the relation between thought, emotion, and behavior, leading to faulty perception, inappropriate actions and feelings, withdrawal from reality and personal relationships into fantasy and delusion, and a sense of mental fragmentation.

this is a serious topic and should be taken seriously. after committing suicide on may 15, 2017, he hasn't been the same since he return to the mortal realm. going back to hell affects him deeply since he relives the day he burns alive and what may be a week for someone is years for him. endless torture from the one to cause him to die the first time: asmodeus. the prince of hell along with the corpse eating spirit, eurynomos, both are intertwined with his own "mortal" soul, causing corruption in it and making him become a demon– an immortal demon. no matter how many times someone kills deadboy he always comes back, unless they have a weapon to truly kill a demon, but nobody has yet to surface or announce of having such weapon. (had there been such a thing then he would have begged the individual to kill him to end his misery.)

asmodeus enjoys toying with deadboy since he knows deadboy is a passive creature. from this he's able to cause delusions and hallucinations, and it's easier from the recent death and low mental strength. schizophrenia is a type of disorder where it can happen to anyone and can be [possibly] passed down from parents. while it's unknown if his parents have this, schizophrenia is beginning to affect him. it's slow right now, but it'll increase as he continues to live on.

he's already had a few hallucinations of asmodeus and, despite what some may think, the higher up demon did not cause this. asmodeus will occasionally do things like that, but aims for making him doubt his actions and thoughts. now, deadboy will start to withdraw from the sanctum as it goes further in. hallucinations of hell and gory scenes of people who are living to be dying in horrid ways in front of him. it'll get to a point where he won't be able to tell if anyone is real or his imagination since his mental health is bad in the beginning. he'll spiral down into depression and become apathetic to others feelings because he won't be able to tell if anyone's real anymore.

in this plot when it reaches the critical point of him breaking down and give up on life completely there will be someone to help him out. at first they'll think of them to be a figment of his imagination and ignore them for some time. but, he'll slowly to begin to acknowledge their presence and learn that this individual is, in fact, real. this doesn't mean he won't be wary of others, of course. though, with the help of this individual, they'll show him what's not real and what's fake, making attempts to do therapy of sorts and let him know that he's okay. that some of the things aren't real and whatever is out to get him is all in his head. will this lead to romance? probably not. the reason being is that if he becomes romantically involved and the relationships sours at any point it'll send into a panicked frenzy, becoming delirious and screaming that this was a lie the whole entire time, and he knew this is just a wishful fantasy a child would live in. it would push the plot farther than needed and potentially end in the other plots to never start as schizophrenia will take over deadboy's life, leaving no room to grow as a character and face other fears/problems preventing him from finding some happiness in life.

-subject to change or fitted to company another [character's] plot

oml please tell me this sweet child will live and not die because it'll wreck db's feelings

lmao hey! how are you?

1. tired (like always)
2. hungry
3. pissed at my sister and her friends
4. salty as fuck

i just want to come home one day without any drama or my sisters friends being annoying/inconsiderate of EVERYONE ELSE living in our house. otherwise i'm super hungry and want to scream. it's nice that you're doing well, though!

well it's afternoon for me, so i'll just say good afternoon because i'm lazy

which clan does hanzo live in?

ahh, well, aside from the sacrifice for herthe i think i scared everyone away with the cannibalism c': BUT IT'S IN THEIR TRADITION/WHATEVER AND I WILL NOT APOLOGIZE, i was thinking having some tea parties (with all of the allies or do some bonding with specific allies), rituals because we need to, more sacrifices (but it can be a monthly think like at the beginning or end of the month?), and any ideas people throw at me. are there some event ideas you would like to share, dear deer?

wheezes

i know how you feel. deadboy has most of my attention, but i took over a clan a character lead because the person who did a takeover, despite me telling them i was having problems posting a little ways back (a lot of people were having the same problem), has been inactive for over a week, along with the deputy. but that's okay because i'm changing it into something new and hopefully unique in territory, stand in politics, and such.

it's hot out and my brown skinned self can't stay out for more than 15 minutes. c': that's why i hate mowing the lawn because if it rained in the past day that shit gROWS and if it's too early in the morning the grass is still wet, but if it's done in the afternoon then it's death, and the evening is muggy or there's a lot of bugs/mosquitoes attacking or running into you. not to mention we've had shooting in our neighborhood and?? the people where i live in will fuck you up if they're having a bad day, or don't move out of their way if you're not walking fast enough for them.

ahh, hawkclan's famine is over since we helped, that's all i know and seem to be doing good. yes, come to the sanctum. where everyone is lowkey a mess but friendly

i hope so too, but for my sister and her friends it's summer break so. shrugs i don't want to snap, but i will if i have to and i'm prepared to.

mm, a ceremony or ritual or sorts would be interesting. something related to herthe and what she stands for perhaps? i keep thinking about the garden and the stuff they did. imma go see if i can find the old guide and see if there's anything they have that we could try to do.

i need this unstickied please ♥
THE SANCTUM 2017 SUMMER CHOICE AWARDS

punts deadboy in

why not give it a shot, amiright?

i'm sure you've already seen that deadboy himself isn't doing too hot either with current plots going on. c': but he would understand hanzo's mental breakdowns since he nearly has them all the time. of course, db isn't the type to be interested in the one-night stand, but he's starting to seek affection/attention and will do just about anything to get it. of course, he'll quickly realize that this isn't for sex and try his best to help the other sad boy™ because it's in his personality. mind you, if they become friends he'll begin to be... clingy but not? mmm, ah, i remember! db will run to hanzo if things start to get too stressful in his life and rely on getting comforted he's a big baby, okay, or receive reassurance. i would suggest looking at his current plots here since any future friendships will take longer than usual to develop.

DAMMIT I MEANT TO POST ON MY MAIN

@/cha: you don't have to post because i stated if you feel uncomfortable then you don't have to post uvu

FUNHAUS wrote:

maybe there could also be a thing where, one or twice a month, a character tells legends or stories related to herthe. they could be true stories or ones they just make up but still make the goddess look good. they could have a little feast going on while the typical storyteller/someone who volunteers to do it is in the middle and retells it .idk i'm not clever at this stuff

&& if i get enough muse soon for local dad, i'll try to reply to the human au!!

ooh, i like that sound of that. i need to go make a suggestion/what would you like to see thread so everyone can spew out their ideas.

hi, vaud! nice to see you again. seeing you reminds me that i need to post with wolfgang more.

i missed ado draw, dammit

yells
HELLO! WELCOME TO THE SANCTUM, HOW MAY I TAKE YOUR ORDER? oh yes, there are cannibals here, though a lot of them seemed to have disappeared and left deadboy all alone rip

micha and deadboy can totally have a thread!db would be curious because he's never seen something like micha before and might ask some questions. db is lonely af and interaction with others has been lacking

Breathe. Breathe. It's a beautiful day out isn't it? With the day beginning summer (Yesterday? Life is a blur for him at times) and soon to be fall within the next few months. The seasons different seasons are nice, are they not? Winter, spring, summer and fall. (Autumn as some would say. Take your pick.) At least it wasn't scorching hot with everyone sweating to death in the heat, but the demon knows it'll come as the days progress further into summer. Fiery orange eyes stare at a daffodil in front of the mansion, tail swinging from side to side. Then eyes squeezed shut as he mutters to himself, a way to keep any of the negative emotions at bay and not see the horrors. God, the horrors he sometimes believed to be real made him itch. It was uncomfortable and felt like something was trying to crawl under his skin and make life worse than it already was.

Ears perk up at the sound of a new voice, causing the dark serval to gaze up and look at–.... What is it? An oddity to never rest his eyes upon and stands there, staring. No, Deadboy doesn't judge on appearance or if you're not a normal being. (Maria. She believed him to be weird for not wanting "chaos and destruction" like a normal demon. He isn't normal, that's the thing. He has morals. He has feelings. He has fears. I'm not a mindless monster. Some individuals didn't know him well enough to find out the truth.) The scrawny feline blinks a few times before he pads over to the iron gates that lead into their home. Whiskers fan out and quiver as nostrils flared to take in the scent of this newcomer. Timid. Not at all hostile in any way. (Or is it a ploy? To fake the innocence like Bethany had with the desire to annoy and upset others. No... He would know by now.) A tired smile graces his features and tilts his head to the side.

"Yes, there will be someone here, or I would hope." Comes the comment, stated in a slow, exhausted manner. "Can I help you with something?" While he could have said name and business, it felt wrong. Like the one saying it didn't care and wanted to get things over with. It doesn't apply to everyone, but some individuals simply didn't seem to care. Did he care? Unfortunately, he did. (A little too much.)

Funny how people you once trusted turn into monsters. Once having a friendship only to be tainted with fury, anguish, and betray with someone getting hurt, or worse– dying. It's a terrible feeling to watch those you've once held high in respect revert into a... Primal state. Perhaps even becoming delirious and believing that the friendship was never real. (Friendships are temporary and nothing lasts forever.) A hard lesson learned from the past years and while time still moves it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt any less. Maybe it's the reason why he has no friends despite desperately wanting them to fill the cold emptiness inside. To no longer feel alone yet keep them at a distance to not get hurt; but it still happens.

The demon can empathize with multiple individuals if he gave it some thought. While tops related to family was hard – with abandonment and all – he would say he understands. To know what it feels like to be useless– to feel like a body taking up space in the world and contributing with nothing. Life is hard and it'll never change. Things happen to people, whether you believe it to be a path you're meant to down as a part of your destiny, or believe it to be bullshit and life is being a because it can. He always questioned why he was in the situation he was in now. What sins he had committed to live a life such as this. Some found it strange and others were repulsed when Deadboy talked about what kept him sane most of the time. Praying to God. All that matters is his belief in Him and the fact of never being a demon at the start.

Aching paws carried the thin form of the Crown, orange eyes flickered from side to side as he trotted outside to get some fresh air. The feeling seems vaguely familiar in a way, as if he's been in this spot before. What ever it is, he brushed it off when tired eyes rested upon a figure at the gate. The Sanctum was lowly gaining new members, not a lot, but at least the fresh blood will help keep the place going for a bit. Deadboy pads in the direction of the odd looking creature, mind flashing back to Micha and their appearance. From the looks of it the newcomer wasn't doing so well. In fact, the individual's form was akin to his, except Deadboy's body was – more or less – 'healthy', but craving to eat something (A cat preferably since his stomach will only digest the same species he had. Hell, he can ingest frogs due to their own significance in his life, but they don't like in a place filled with the amphibians, now do they? He can wait. He can brave it out.) if given the chance.

Had he known about the relationship between him and Funhaus then the feline would have gone searching through the manor. But, he hasn't seen the canine in awhile and has no clue if he's still lingering about or left without a word. Finally arriving at the iron gates, the ebony hued serval offers Haiiro a smile despite plainly seeing the other to be blind. Hopefully he's giving off some welcoming or friendly vibes to ensure their home is a safe location to be in. "Would you like something to eat?" No name and business. The demon doesn't do that, or tries, and if he did the question could wait. Someone's health is more important then asking a seemingly bland phrase.

squints at title
is it from fob's new song champion?

i'm in a lot of places and vanish because i'm a loser like that
i think i have a fancypost style similar to others?? but they still add some other stuff to theirs. idk
but it's nice to see you again! i replied to haiiro's joining thread at long last

im shook

be indoctrinated to cannibalism
since i believe db is the only cannibal left he might be wiling c':
though he'd ask if micha could find him some dead felines to eat because he's super hungry
even a small frog will help

"donate a frog today and keep deadboy alive another day"

oh shit snargo rekt'd finch and i missed that shit. i need to get back there. make them accept wolfgang again and watch the angst unfold.

rip lirim
i feel them

doUBLE POST

but a new meeting should be up later in the evening or tomorrow
will also post in the sanctum sub with threads need tending to and anything else that's important or near it

Few have ever commented on his health condition. Maybe they didn't care or thought it would be rude to ask the question. Either way, he didn't mind and would rather avoid the subject all together, though if someone mentioned it and was kin about it then you can bet he'd burst into tears. (You're such a mess. Get your shit together.) Besides, it's not like he had a normal diet or stomach to ingest things as if he were an ordinary person. What he needed had gone beyond the norm and most found it to be found and right down disgusting. Cannibalism. It's not his fault. He didn't ask for this, but life happens and you can roll with it or complain. He choose to roll with it for as long as he can.

Upon closer inspection it was clear they weren't a type of species hiding around in the world. Kistunes, witch, werewolves, banshees, shapeshifters, spirits of all types... This? New and it bring out the old spark of curiosity within him. Figure akin to his own yet more healthy. It sort of looked like the upper half of a squid was covering their head with two black horns protruding out on either side. There were no eyes and he can't wonder why. The most shocking part of this creature's appearance is that they look human. For a moment it scares him. No clear explanation why, but it does. Perhaps it's due to having flashbacks to being a regular human before things turned to his. Orange eyes focus on the sky for a moment as he takes in a short breath, quickly composing himself. The last thing anyone wants to catch a sense of is his fear.

An air of silence surrounds Deadboy as he listens patiently and can't help the small smile creeping upon on his maw. [color-steelblue]"Hello Micha and please, don't call me sir."[/color] Such a title never sat well with him. "Name's Deadboy. You can shorten it to DB if you want to." There had been a time where he stated his full name proudly with the addition of nicknames he went by. Now? Some already look at him weird for his name, especially since he was Youngmenace once before switching it back to Deadboy. It.. It held some significance and important memories despite wanting to forget it all. Deadboy blinks and allows a long exhale float into the air. "Yes, you can stay here for as long as you need and as long as you'd like." If there was no violence and mayhem happening in the Sanctum then all will be fine. "Don't worry about being a burden. We all have our part to play." We all have our part to play. Oh, the words ring in his ears and gives his head a shake. Now isn't the time to fall into a state of lifelessness.

quiet stalking