[align=left][color=white][size=16pt][font=georgia]Tonight I'm gonna be as free as birds are
[align=right][color=black][size=16pt][font=georgia]Fly away no matter where or how far
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[font=georgia][color=black]❝ The consequence of this is that I'm always finding humans at their best and worst.
I see their ugly and their beauty, and I wonder how the same thing can be both ! ❞
[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:350px][hr][hr][justify][sub][color=black]NAME → Rowan Jessamine Sykes
NICKNAME(S) → Ro or Jess
GENDER → female
AGE → seventeen
HEIGHT/WEIGHT → 5' 6"/114 lbs
BODY MODIFICATIONS → Along with acne scars, there are small scars from her dog and cat. While she doesn't have any tattoos, she does have multiple ear piercings, two nose piercings, and her belly button is also pierced. Her piercings include: multiple ear piercings, her septum, a regular nose piercing, and her belly button.
CHARACTER ROLE → The Loner
DISEASE → Dysthymia which caused Borderline Personality Disorder
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[align=left][color=white][size=16pt][font=georgia]Tonight I'm gonna switch up the way things are
[align=right][color=black][size=16pt][font=georgia]Tear down these walls and break away
[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:350px][hr][hr][justify][color=black][sub]DEFINING TRAITS → Grateful, Straightforward, Non-judgmental, open-minded, Genuine, having depth in thought, and Risk taker, Swayed more by emotion, acting before thinking, Doesn’t express many emotions, Manipulative, Doesn't care for self, and Not able to prioritize, procrastinator
PERSONALITY → Rowan hasn't expressed much of anything since her brother's death. Besides hiding her feelings, she almost always seems to act on them, she is also very straightforward. Due to the depression she neglects her health needs and tends to procrastinate more that not. She did grow up with Ronan and her talking late at night about everything possible so she happens to think deeply about even the smallest of things. A more surprising aspect is that she is manipulative of others around her.
HISTORY → Up until Rowan and Ronan's fifteenth birthday, everything was normal. That year, Ronan was abused by his partner and it led to him committing suicide. Losing her best friend and twin brother was too much and she fell into her own depression, although she had always been the less emotional twin. Her parents ended up taking her to a psychiatrist who diagnosed her originally with Dysthymia, a low mood occurring for at least two years, along with at least two other symptoms of depression, then later being diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, where she suffers from problems regulating her emotions and thoughts, impulsive and sometimes reckless behavior, and unstable relationships. While being treated for both disorders, she dragged herself through a year of pills, pain, and failed relationships before they shipped her off to the hospital.
FLAWS → Depression, procrastinator, puppets, and panic-attacks
STRENGTHS → Deep-thinker, open-minded, and is not afraid to take a risk.
THEME SONGS → Fireflies - Owl City
Psycho - Rozzi Crane
Papercut - Zedd ft. Troye Sivan
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[align=left][color=white][size=16pt][font=georgia]Maybe I'm psycho, maybe I'm a little out of touch
[align=right][color=black][size=16pt][font=georgia]Maybe I'm delusional, or a shot glass away from insane
[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:350px][hr][hr][justify][color=black][sub]SEXUALITY → Asexual/Demiromantic
TURN ONS → She barely has any, just trusting and loyal.
TURN OFFS → Once again, she barely has any, just untrustworthy and players.
LOVE INTEREST → not any at the moment/may possibly develop
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[align=left][color=white][size=16pt][font=georgia]Maybe I'm foolish, maybe I'm disconnected from all of reality
[align=right][color=black][size=16pt][font=georgia]But that's fine with me, cause I'm happy here
[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:350px][hr][hr][justify][color=black][sub]YOUR NICKNAME(S) → Missy or Dezi
MUSE LEVEL → 6/10
ACTIVITY LEVEL → 8/10 (this will go down between the next three weeks)
OTHER → nah man
ROLE PLAY SAMPLE →
Gryphon laid back against the provided pillows. The thing about infirmaries was that they always were white. The same was for hospitals, doctors, and dentists. All of them shared a common theme: and that was all of the walls, ceilings, floors, and beds, were white, or at least close to it. White was his least favorite colour. It was pristine, clean, and pure. Everything he was not. That's what he noticed over his years of not having many friends, colours reflected words on how they looked.
He felt he was more like red or black. Red because he was at times violent and angry, he also felt like he stained everything he touched. Black because of everything else, his seclusion, hiding away from others, putting fear in some, the depression he had went through, and everything in between. He always felt like he wasn't worthy enough to be white, he felt that he had too much darkness inside him to ever be clean.
Across the room the nurse had moved over to the girl he had seen earlier. From what he could tell they were the only two in the room. Well other than Madame Foster that is. He could hear everything she was saying, but he could make out a few words. "...anxiety attack..anything to eat?" From what he could hear he was able to tell she was probably here since before breakfast or maybe during it, he didn't know if she was like him and didn't eat or not.
She might have had an anxiety attack, Gryphon got those a lot. They were an affect from the BPD, when he wasn't able to process his thoughts or emotions but he knew that they were there, it would cause him to panic except he wouldn't notice it. Several times people would be trying to help him and in his mind he wasn't able to understand what they were trying to help with. It wasn't until the nurse told him that he had a anxiety/panic attack that he would realize.
"Hey. What are you in here for?" the feminine voice called over to him. Gryphon looked up in surprise, he hadn't expected the girl to talk very much for a little bit, especially not after just finding out she had a anxiety attack. He went to reply but she cut him off, "I mean, ah, you don't have to tell me. Obviously. I'm sorry, I'm... I'm Ari." He appreciated her honesty, but replied to her anyway.
"It is fine Mademoiselle Ari. I'm Gryphon and I'm here for psychotherapy. Don't worry about not asking, ça ne fait rien - that doesn't matter, it's not like it's a secret I'm trying to hide." The dark haired Slytherin gave a slight smile to reassure her. He was in control for now, everything was under control. The boy who was of French heritage lived with his grandparents in France.
Originally he was with his parents and older brother in England but once Austin had left school they moved to the United States while Gryphon went to his mother's parents. He didn't want to go to Beauxbatons mostly because he had already made a few friends at Hogwarts and didn't want to leave them. His family raised the two siblings using both the English and French languages so they could speak to their grandparents with ease.
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[align=left][color=white][size=16pt][font=georgia]Try it out, try it out, try it out, hey
[align=right][color=black][size=16pt][font=georgia]Try it out, try it out, try it out, hey
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[size=6pt]★ trek
