Posts by blu.bby

"I need you to do me a favor." Blu meowed, casting her gaze towards the ground. She was disgusting - disgusting and selfish. She shouldn't have allowed herself the right to ask favors. She should've just come clean and accepted that Suiteheart, Margaery, everyone would hate her. She should've accepted that she messed up and face the consequences, but this was bigger than her now. Now she was only left with the impossible wish that she had never come here in the first place, never started this mess.

"I'm leaving. In a few days." The black feline stated, sighing. Her eyes shifted upwards as she forced herself to make some semblance of eye contact with the head paladin. "I can't tell Suiteheart though, it's... it's complicated, I'm sorry. I just... I need you to make sure that she's okay after I leave." If Suiteheart knew the truth about the black feline her leaving would be so much easier to cope with. Why couldn't she bring herself to do what was best for someone else for once? Why did she have to be such a selfish, manipulative bitch? "I know I shouldn't have the right to say that, and I'm sorry. I need you to deliver a message to Suiteheart after I leave." This message would tell Suiteheart the truth without revealing herself to Margaery. Blu applauded herself for that idea, and loathed herself for practically everything else.

"I need you to tell Suiteheart that she... she can go home once I leave. If she would like to." Blu's heart raced, hoping and praying that Margaery didn't push for details, or worse - if Margaery knew what Blu had told Suiteheart about her parents then this whole situation could get messy. The black feline knew that if she did ask for more information on the situation that she had an easy out via guilt-tripping or lying, but she also felt that she had already caused enough damage here and would prefer to avoid any more if possible. "I'm sorry, I truly am..."

// don't worry about it at all!! <333

Nonononono this wasn't working at all. Blu bit her lip, sighing as she attempted to figure out just how to convince Margaery to follow her instructions.
"I know she doesn't deserve this, I know it'll hurt her but this is the best option - it benefits her the most." Blu said, her voice laced with desperation. "If you tell her now I know she'll try and convince me to stay or she'll try and figure out where I'm going or something and if she does that she'll be put in danger." Margaery loved Suiteheart more than anything, Blu knew that, and she was hoping to use that to her advantage. "This isn't easy for me - and I know it's hard to keep this from her but please... I don't want to see her hurt because of my past mistakes. Please don't do this to me, please don't do this to her."

As Margaery pressed more for information, Blu flatted her ears against her head. She wanted to use her body language to convey fear and weakness in hopes that Margaery would lighten up out of pity.
"Our brother is there, and I know she loves him dearly..." It wasn't a lie, it just wasn't completely the truth. "When I first arrived we agreed to not return home, but now that I have to leave I no longer want to limit her. I was weighing her down, and if I stay here I'm inadvertently putting her in danger. I can't do that to her, she's happy here and I refuse to ruin that for her." Blu sighed, somewhat regretting not just up and leaving, but she had to make sure that Suiteheart would be okay. After all the damage she caused she refused to leave others to suffer while she was perfectly okay. Well, maybe not perfectly okay, but in a better state nonetheless.

hello all <3

i do streaks of color (usually teal, pink or purple) in my hair and i've always wanted to dye all of my hair pink but i'm always worried that i will wind up not liking it so i usually just stay with streaks haha

oh wow i didn't even know that was a thing that people could do!! i'm absolutely going to look into it now omg <33

i do a few clubs but nothing that would restrict me from dyeing my hair. i'm in my school's literary magazine, our gsa and the art club so they're all p chill.
my sister can't do anything to her hair bc she's in drama and she has a bigger role rn so the director told everyone that if they wanted to do something to their hair they have to clear it with him first lmao

i straighten my hair bc it's hecka frizzy all the time but i've been putting it in pigtails a lot as of late and i love it bc i feel so cute and i'm just like "nice"

The abandonment comment stung, it made the black feline's blood boil and she wanted nothing more then to lash out - to scream. How dare Margaery act as if she didn't know that she'd be hurting Suite with this? Of course she knew, she wasn't dumb!
"Margaery, I know what it's like to be abandoned. I don't want to do this, I don't want to do this at all. But I have to - I have to because the world is a messed up place. I'm going to leave no matter what, your words will not sway me. I refuse to put Suiteheart in danger." Blu was getting tired of this, tired of it all. She just needed Margaery to cooperate, why did this all have to be so difficult?

"I'm trying so hard to make this good for everyone, safe for everyone. I'm not giving details for a reason, Margaery. Gods, why is it that every time I try to fix something I make it worse?" She mumbled the last part, but she was sure Margaery could hear it nonetheless. Tears pricked at her eyes and she shook her head. "If you had to leave to keep Suiteheart safe, you'd do it, no? You'd do it because although it would hurt her, it would hurt her less. That's all I'm trying to do, Margaery. I'm not trying to abandon her for no good reason or walk out on her, nothing like that. Honestly if everything works out okay I'll be able to come back, but only when I know that I won't put Suiteheart in danger anymore. Then I can explain everything, I promise."

Blu hoped that Margaery was at least considering doing her this favor. This was all she needed, then she could leave and not feel like she ruined Suite. She could go and mend her mistakes and it'll all be okay. She just needed Margaery to cooperate with her.
"Just... please, help me out here. I know I sound like the worst person ever right now, but I promise that this argument isn't some sort of black and white good versus evil thing, it's just need against need. We both have desires for the outcome of this situation, and I believe that they're shockingly similar, just with different paths to get there." Blu said, trying to blink away her tears. "Do you think you could put your faith in me, just this once?"

// ah okay!! thank you!! c: <3
sorry if there are any spelling/grammar errors, i typed this on mobile!!

It was true that Blu had been somewhat uncomfortable at the wedding, but she had tried to conceal it because she didn't want to ruin the day for Suiteheart. After all, Blu did care deeply about Suite despite the fact that she had plans to leave in just a short amount of time. After attempting to involve herself in the festivities she stepped away for a moment, taking some time to relax and compose herself. She was breathing in some fresh air when she heard her sister's voice. Jumping slightly, Blu let out a laugh when she realized it was only Suite. She could do this, yeah, she could absolutely do this.
"Hey there, Suite." The black feline meowed, smiling at her newly-wedded sister. "I'm okay. Parties and other events with big crowds and lots of noise tend to get to me a bit. I figured I'd step to the side and relax for some time, then rejoin in the festivities." Crowds did rile up the black feline, but that wasn't the primary reason that she was so upset. After her conversation with Margaery she had a reality check, because now she couldn't avoid the fact that she could and would upset Suiteheart when she did leave. Ignoring that fact, Blu decided to steer the conversation in a different direction. "How are you doing, dear? I'm sure tonight's been amazing for you, no?"

Relief washed over Blu, her eyes widening in surprise and happiness.
"Ah, thank you so much. Thank you, thank you, thank you." Blu meowed, extremely glad that everything would work out well now. "As soon as I leave you can tell Suite as much about this conversation as you'd like, it's all your choice. I can't thank you enough for this." The black feline felt incredibly bad as she knew this favor was something Margaery most likely didn't want to do, but it was all for the benefit of Suiteheart, and honestly Blu would do anything for her, especially right now. "Thank you so much, I really appreciate this Margaery."

// sorry that this is so short!!

This was it. Time to go. No time to waste, lest she be caught by someone.
It was terrible of her to do, she knew that. One mistake had lead to quite the downfall for her, huh?
Blu wouldn't have made these mistakes, no, she wouldn't have. Not normally, at least.
But yet here she was, imperfect as always. Her time here would leave scars, none physical but still real. Oh yes they were very, very real. She couldn't imagine how badly this would hurt Suiteheart. It would hurt less than the truth, though. If not, she had to hold onto that belief at least. Just until this was over, when she was gone and long forgotten.

She didn't have many belongings to begin with, arriving in the clan with nothing and accumulating only a note and a flower crown. She decided to leave those behind. They weren't given to her, not the real her. Therefore they weren't meant for her, and she would leave them in hopes that somehow they'd get to their true owner.

Padding through the night, a small drizzle had begun roughly an hour ago and had now become a full on downpour. It would help to conceal her scent, yes, but it was cold and annoying otherwise. Better in the long run, maybe, but extremely annoying at the present. But she would deal. She had to deal. This whole situation was her fault, so she would deal with the consequences that life would throw at her in return.

Trying to keep as quiet as possible, thanking whatever gods she claimed to believe in for her black fur, she slipped through the territory. She didn't quite know where she was going to go once she departed from the clan, but she hoped that wherever she went, nobody would follow. The wind picked up, a rather nasty storm having blown over the territory. It was inconvenient beyond all means, but she had to push forward. Hopefully nobody would be out seeing as the weather was absolutely terrible and she could slip away before anybody noticed. That would certainly be ideal.

Blu froze as her name was called. Oh god. Oh god no. That was Suiteheart, that was without a doubt Suiteheart. Shit, shit, shit. This was bad, so very very bad. She had to go, tonight was the night. She needed to leave now.
"Uhm, uh, you can head back, okay? I just need to go do something for a while, alright dear?" The black feline meowed, shaking due to fear of being caught and the fact that she was soaking wet and the wind showed no signs of lightening. "I-I'll be back soon, I promise. I'm sorry." Although the first half was a blatant lie, the second half was not. The black feline held no thoughts of ever returning here, but she was deeply sorry for everything she'd done. Guilt filled her heart and made her stomach twist. If she wasn't focused on heading out and leaving she definitely get a feeling akin to that of someone who desperately needed to lie down and relax.

Tears began to flood her eyes and the black feline realized that she needed to go, and quickly. Hopefully it was too dark to see the tears on her face, or perhaps the rain had been concealing it, but Suiteheart wasn't stupid and a flash of lightning could be exactly what was needed to reveal the truth to the deputy, and she couldn't have that. She couldn't have that at all.
"Go home, Suite. Be with Margaery, okay? I'll be back later, and then we can hang out, alright?" Blu knew that Suiteheart was persistent and honestly doubted that her words would convince her to go home. Maybe on a normal night, but the weather conditions that she was once relatively okay with had immediately turned on her. She doubted Suiteheart would let her stay out here by herself, let alone at all.
I'm so sorry, Suiteheart... Soon you'll understand what I meant when I said I wasn't a good person... The black feline thought to herself, holding back from expressing these thoughts out loud. If she were to do that it'd only make the situation worse, it'd only make Suiteheart more suspicious. And honestly, that was the last thing she needed right now.

Suite noticed. She noticed. Nononono.
This was all going wrong, and she was so close!
"Suiteheart, I need you to listen to me. I need you to turn around, and leave. Right. Now." Blu meowed, trying to sound strict but instead having her words come out as desperate pleas. "You won't regret this later, I promise, I swear even." As soon as Margaery delivered the message Suite would understand, and Suite wouldn't feel bad for leaving anymore. It could work out, it could work out alright, she just needed Suiteheart to listen. "Suite, this is so much bigger than both of us. I'm going to make things right, but until then, I need you to just listen, okay?"

As Suite stepped forward the ebony feline took a step back, shaking her head.
"I'm leaving, Suite. I'm leaving, okay?" Blu hoped her words would spark anger in the deputy. Maybe if she could get her to storm off then she could go. Margaery would get the message to Suite and it would all be okay. "I'm leaving for a while, I don't know if I'm coming back. I hope I can return one day." Lies. All lies. She didn't know what made her feel worse, the fact that she didn't feel bad about lying to Suiteheart or the fact that there was a chance that Suiteheart wouldn't even be mad at all. "I'm... I'm going home, back to mom and dad, okay?" As the words tumbled out of her mouth, Blu's head shot up, eyes widening. That was wrong. Another slip up. Another mistake. A flash of lightning made her expression clear.
She didn't think she'd be able to recover from this one.

Suiteheart was mad. Suiteheart hated her.
There was no going back now.
"Stop calling me that! Stop calling me Blu!" The ebony feline screamed, shaking wildly and backing away from the deputy. Everything was bad. Everything was so, so bad. "I'm sorry, okay! I got the wrong person, and this whole thing spiraled so far out of control! I'm not Blu, your parents aren't dead, and this has all just been a huge lie! I realized that I got the wrong person and I tried to back out, but I messed up. I fucked up really badly, alright? I get it. So just let me leave this place, I doubt you care about my wellbeing anymore so just..." The feline trailed off, beginning to breath heavily. Why did she have to care about Suiteheart? So she lied about everything, she wasn't Blu and she wasn't Suiteheart's sister and none of it was real - how come she still managed to care about the feline as if she was actually related to her?

"I'm nothing but a street-rat, hired by some random nobody to fuck with a specific person they had a vendetta against. Normally I just get close to them, manipulate them, attack them and leave. But I realized quickly that I got the wrong person and I would never hurt someone unless I was hired to. So I planned to back out, to leave and let you forget about me. I set up ways for you to figure out the truth, it would've been fine, if you just hadn't cared so damn much." The female desperately wanted to apologize, but she was positive that Suiteheart wouldn't accept it at this point. No, she was already fuming and the black cat was sure that Suiteheart hated her with a burning passion. She quickly decided she would anyways. "It was a mistake, I... I fucked up, I fucked up so badly. I'm sorry that I did this to you." She meant every word she said, but she had a feeling that the deputy wouldn't believe her at this point.

It quickly dawned on her that she didn't have anywhere to go now, but honestly staying in BlizzardClan wasn't an option. Even though Suiteheart couldn't exile her for lying (well, at least she didn't think Suiteheart could) she'd be hated by everyone. She wouldn't be kicked out, but she had a strong feeling that she wouldn't be welcome either. A part of her wanted to turn and run off now, leave before Suiteheart could properly yell at her. Leave before the whole clan noticed the screaming felines and gathered around, realizing that she was nothing more than a liar, a piece of scum that would do anything to live another day.

She felt herself getting numb, although she wasn't sure if it was because of the storm or because of the fight she was having with the person she'd grown to genuinely care about. Either way, she was sure Suiteheart was at the very least cold, and the deputy didn't deserve to get sick because she was some fuck up who tried to run away from her problems and dragged both of them into a storm.
"Go home, Suiteheart. Go back to Margaery. Live your life, forget about me, okay? I'm not worth getting sick over, I promise." She mildly wondered if Suiteheart would think that was the first genuine thing she's said since she arrived. "Be good, won't you?"

She listened to Suiteheart scream, taking all of it without fighting back. This was, after all, entirely her fault. She didn't deserve to fight back, no, she didn't deserve anything but the rampage that was being unleashed on her. She stayed silent throughout it all, amber gaze pointed downwards as she held back tears. She was not going to allow herself to cry. She started this and now she would have to pay the price. She wished that she could show Suite how much she genuinely did care, and maybe one day she would be able to, but Suiteheart was hurting right now. She had done some dumb things for sure, but she wouldn't be dumb enough to try and argue with the very person that she caused to suffer. No, it wasn't the time. She doubted that it would ever be the time. Perhaps one day Suiteheart would realize how much she cared, but she also doubted that too.

After Suiteheart lashed out on her, she nodded her head in silent agreement before getting up. A part of her thought to apologize, but she knew it would do nothing more than infuriate the deputy further.
Dear gods, you can hurt me all you want, but please... don't touch her. The ebony feline thought, sighing before turning and leaving. She no longer served a purpose here, and as much as it hurt her to leave a hurting Suite behind like that, she was very much aware that she was the source of this anguish and perhaps if she removed herself from the situation it would begin get better.
She had to hold onto that belief.

Blu, or whoever she really was, was indeed gone.

i'm really tired so if there's any spelling mistakes i'm sorry!!

so yea basically my character blu/not-blu is a blizzardclanner who's run away from the clan to avoid her problems, so i was hoping that she could accidentally wander into exiles territory and get attacked and/or captured for a short period of time! she can be tortured both physically and mentally but she can't be killed or anything of that sort.
as far as physical wounds go i'm willing to have wounds that will scar and a broken bone inflicted on her, and if you have any ideas feel free to suggest it! keep in mind that i may turn it down, though!
she has no powers and she's in a domestic cat body. she's been running away from a lot of problems as of late so she probably won't fight back until she realizes that she's in serious danger, but she can still be captured and whatnot.

i think that's all the information i need to include? although i am rlly tired so i could be forgetting something haha.
if you need anymore information feel free to ask!! <3

Okay, sweet!! How would you like to do the threads? We could have one for the capture and one for the attacking-in-camp (i have no idea how to word that lmao) or we could just have one thread for the attacking-in-camp and have the capture be backwritten<3
or if you have any other ideas you'd prefer let me know and we could totally do that too!! <33

omg i know blu/not-blu isn't technically in the clan rn but if you could add her anyways that'd be 10/10

How long had it been since she had left? Ah, she didn't quite know herself. Honestly she had no intentions of returning to this clan, but after getting attacked by an npc she had found herself weary and quite slashed up and definitely in search of some place to rest. She was running on auto-pilot at this point, and when she found herself at BlizzardClan borders she shook her head, angry with herself.
It could've been anywhere and you found yourself her, Pol? Really? The black cat thought to herself, using a nickname that she knew she hated, but felt she deserved anyways. It was only a shortened version of her true name, but her true name happened to be something she despised nonetheless.

Turning to leave the territory, she gasped as the area around her began to spin. There was no crisis going on, no natural disaster, but simply an injured, exhausted, and severely dehydrated feline finding herself about to faint.
Keep going, Pol, keep going. She had no other choice, if she didn't go now then she risked someone finding her, and although she knew she wouldn't be attacked or anything of that sort, it would hurt Suiteheart further and that was something she couldn't do. As she closed her eyes and tried to move forward, she found that she was only getting dizzier. Falling to the ground, the feline began to breath heavily as she opened her eyes. Black dots, which soon became blotches, were beginning to cloud her vision.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck!" The feline cursed, incredibly out of character for Blu. But she wasn't Blu, no, she was someone else entirely.
Get up, Pol! Get the fuck up! She thought to herself, lifting her head up before she ultimately fainted.
This would not end well.

/ As far as injuries go she has a few gashes on her flank, and she's v exhausted/dehydrated.

hello everyone i haven't been on this thread in 5ever
my lying childe is making a return here too

how are you all? c:

Due to her fainting mostly being caused by dehydration and exhaustion, rather than the actual wounds, it was only a few minutes until not-Blu regained conciousness.
"Huh...? Wha - what's going on?" She meowed, trying to move her head to look around at those around her. Her vision was still a bit hazy and she was very, very confused, but within just a short few moments she was able to gather that both Suite and Margaery were here, along with someone else she couldn't see as they were currently carrying her. "Fuck, no, no, no, let me go, I'm sorry." The black cat meowed, knowing that receiving medical attention would probably be in her best interest, but having Marg and Suite find her had hurt them enough. "I'm sorry, I'll leave, I'm sorry." Her words were rapid and frantic, and it was quite obvious that she was convinced that all of them wanted her to be gone. Surely everyone here hated her by now, no? She'd caused so much damage, how could anyone even like her at this point? "I know I was wrong - I know I am wrong, and I'll go, I swear! I just - I'm sorry, I didn't plan this, I'm sorry." Her words were incredibly repetitive, but perhaps if she apologized enough they wouldn't yell at her before she left.

okay so i know not a super large amount of people were in on the blu plot so just as a quick summary of it blu came in and was like "i'm ur sister suiteheart" but she was lying about like everything and then she ran away bc she couldn't face her problems and now she's back because i love this place too much to leave fully and yeah she just basically wants suite to forgive her but she also knows that she was 100% in the wrong
so anyways on the note of that run on sentence,,
i've created this: