Posts by blu.bby

hello everyone!! c: <3

The black feline watched as Harleen wiped her paw on her white fur. As someone that preferred things to be neat and tidy she felt herself inwardly cringe. But that wasn't the big issue at hand, no, Blu knew that the task she should be focusing on was finding out who this was and what they were doing on the territory. As the albino simply ignored her question, she could feel herself getting a tad annoyed, but she could deal. A slight annoyance certainly wouldn't cause the feline to snap.
"Yes, I suppose so, dearie." Blu meowed, giving another gentle smile. "However, I still need to know your name and your business on BlizzardClan territory."

// sorry for the lateish reply!

Oh no, oh this was not good. How was she supposed to know the kid was an amnesiac? A look of surprise flashed across her face as she contemplated whether or not she should play it off or just tell the truth.
"Oh, dearie, I'm so sorry." Blu meowed, biting her lip slightly as she decided that telling the truth would be the best route to go. If she ever got in a dispute with someone, she didn't want her argument to be discredited because of past lies, no matter now small. She'd learned that the hard way, although that was a story for another time. "I'm Blu, dear. I'm sorry, I didn't know that you lost your memory and I was trying to poke harmless fun. I do apologize greatly."

Ooh I like that idea!! I'm totally down for it - especially since I love the enemies to best friends idea <33
Shall we have a thread for them? c:

lyddie wrote:

rest in peace
ive been playing fates

i feel this omg. i played like four or five levels of conquest last night and i'm hoping to finish the game today lmao
if i do finish it i'm gonna start up a birthright file woo

oh that could definitely work!! blu rlly cares about her image so being humiliated in front of others will definitely make her enemies with maxine!

Blu padded over, taking a seat by Midori, and listening to the announcements. She would definitely try to do her part and help rebuild, or at the very least host some activities to raise morale back up. After all, if everyone was dreary and upset then it would make the work a lot harder to pull through. A few ideas ran through the black feline's mind as she continued to listen to Tama, calling out a small congratulations once the leader had finished.

Okay, this was getting out of hand. First the albino was a bit annoying, but that was alright, but now she was refusing to cooperate and even making vague threats towards Blu. A look of severity crossed Blu's face and she narrowed her eyes.
"No, darling, that's not how it's going to work." The feline meowed, deciding that she had to put her foot down. Otherwise she might not get answers, and the panther seemed awfully suspicious in Blu's opinion. "You're going to tell me your name and business on BlizzardClan territory or you're going to face consequences, okay?" Big talk coming from the smaller feline, but it was all she could do as of now. The duo seemed to be alone, and if Blu ran she'd not only be considered a coward in her own mind, but she was positive that the panther would be able to catch her.

tracking <3

Blu had been out and about, chatting with a few npcs and getting some miscellaneous tasks done in her time away from her home. Upon returning, she noticed the note.
An hour after sundown? Oh, shoot, that's soon! The black feline thought to herself, quickly bringing the note inside her house before beginning to head towards the island. She knew the task of putting away the note would most likely cause her to be a little late, but she was sure Suiteheart wouldn't mind, and Blu herself loved to keep things that could remind her of good memories in the future.

Finally making it to the island, Blu was somewhat surprised to see that it wasn't her sister there, but a lioness.
"Oh, hello dear!" She greeted, smiling warmly before glancing down at the note. So Suite had arranged a date, huh? Well, that was nice, but Blu couldn't help but worry about how Azura felt on the matter. "Ah, I'm sorry if this is making you uncomfortable. I think it'd be nice if we have a meal together, at least to get to know each other, but if you'd prefer not then I respect your decision." If Suite was trying to set her up with the lioness then there must have been a reason for it; or at least, Blu hoped there was. "I'm Blu, I don't believe I've seen you around before, but that's probably because I'm pretty new around here."

"There's been a large influx of joiners, it's been good for the clan." Blu meowed happily, reaching towards the pile of prey that Suiteheart and set up and delicately grabbing a piece. "How have you been as of late? I hope you're settling in well." Blu had been fortunate enough to have her sister there to help her get comfortable with her new home, and if Azura was in need of someone to do the same then Blu was more than willing to help her out. Of course, that would only be if Azura wanted her help, as the black feline would refuse to force it upon her.

The normally warm feline looked rather down compared to her normal mood. Her uneasy expression was enough to show that something was up, but her worried glances around the area was also an indication to her mood. It was bound to happen eventually - not everyone could be happy forever, but it seemed that Blu opted to isolate herself with her emotions rather than handling them in a healthier way.

Shuffling her paws nervously, the feline finally stood up, shaking her fur out and sighing before looking around once more. A part of her wanted nothing more than to go for a walk and calm her nerves, but another part of her felt that not only would the walk not truly solve the issue she was facing, but being away from her clanmates (despite the fact that she wasn't even interacting with any of them at the moment) wouldn't be good for her either.

Sighing once more, Blu bit her lip, deciding to go for the walk anyway. But since that she didn't want to be alone at the moment, she figured it couldn't hurt to invite those in the camp to come along with her.
"Uh, um..." The black feline paused, hating how she stumbling on her words. "Would anyone like to accompany me on a walk?"

"All are welcome to come along for the walk." Blu meowed, seeming to have gained some composure from the positive reactions of her clanmates. It was calming in a way, as she knew that despite the fact that she was obviously rather riled up, these people wouldn't push her for information but instead help her whenever she reached out to them.

As she was offered the flower crown, she smiled warmly. "I'd love a flower crown, if you don't mind." Blu wanted to be absolutely sure that Marlow was okay with parting with the item. "Thank you, dear." It was very sweet that a child so young was already acting in such a caring way. Ah, if only she had been like that when she was young. Maybe then there wouldn't have been so many bumps in the road. Oh well, life was life and she had to deal with whatever was thrown at her.

Walking over to the group, Blu took a seat, excited to receive a task. When she first joined she strayed away from the weekly tasks, wanting to settle in first before she took on bigger responsibilities. But now that she was rather comfortable in the clan she would definitely be accepting a task.
"One task, please." The black feline called out, smiling.

Blu had messed up. Bad.
Normally her plans were well thought out, well executed and nothing short of completely convincing. She could've sworn that she checked every detail and made sure that everything was set. Her plan should've worked perfectly, her plan should've been clean cut and nothing more. Honestly, her latest one had almost been just that.
That's where things went wrong.

She had the wrong person. That was the issue in all of this. Somehow, along the path of life she mixed up a name or two, grabbed a false fact from the whispers of somebody else's lips and ran with it. This big whole mess had happened because she got one wrong name, and now she was exactly where she didn't belong. She could practically feel the deep pain in her chest that screamed because everything would've been perfect if she had only managed to not screw up one name! She had worked so hard to make this work right, hell, she threw her heart and soul into this! It was a plan that was great in theory but poor in execution, and it would be hard when it all came crashing down.

It wasn't meant to be this way. This was supposed to be perfect, she was supposed to be perfect. She was Blu Folie - she couldn't be anything short of that. Blu Folie didn't make mistakes as dumb as this. Blu Folie didn't lose her composition over something so small, but then again Blu Folie wouldn't have let this happen in the first place. Blu Folie was loved, and respected and warm and caring but yet here she was and she felt like she was absolutely none of that.

She had to leave.
She had no other choice.
She had to cut all ties and leave.

But that was so much easier said than done. She'd formed ties with people here, she didn't expect to care this much! She never wanted this! This was supposed to be easy, this was supposed to be quick. Nothing in the world could've prepared her for the storm of emotions that would absolutely consume her, no plans, no experience, no nothing. This shouldn't have happened the way it did, and she was the only one she could blame.

Pacing nervously around the camp, it would be a wonder if others didn't realize something was up. Nervous huffs released from the feline every once in a while. Then she felt tears budding at her eyes and before she could run out of the camp to handle this by herself, she burst into hysterics.
"I-I'm so sorry... I'm so sorry..." Blu murmured to herself, shaking her head as she sobbed. "I'm not a good person... I'm so sorry..."

Yeah, she had really messed up.

// btw this is supposed to be super duper vague haha.

Nodding gently as Lostboy made her inquiry, Blu found herself at a lack for the vice-leader's name. Being new was definitely refreshing, as it was good to have a comfortable home, but learning the names of all her new clanmates had definitely proved to be a challenge.
"I'm sorry dear, I don't believe I know your name." Blu said, feeling quite bad about this lack of information. "I'm Blu, I'm still rather new here, my apologies."

hello hello

i rlly want to play fire emblem fates rn but i cant because i have homework and i have to be responsible
i just found out i have four pages of a packet due on thursday and idk if i'm gonna do it today or wait until last minute as per usual

anyways now that im done complaining about homework, how are you all? <33

No! No, it wasn't okay! None of this was okay! This was bigger than any issue she's ever had before and they had the audacity to tel her that it was okay? They knew nothing about this, how did they expect simple words to console her when she was in hysterics in the middle of camp? They couldn't help her, no, nobody could. Nobody could help her until she revealed exactly what her issue was, and if she did just that then nobody would even want to help her anymore.

"It's not okay, nothing's okay!" Blu sobbed, her normal soft-spoken, polite attitude fading as she sobbed. The female tried to calm her breaths, but found no luck. She felt like everything and everyone was too close to her, and perhaps the fact that she had been subconsciously tensing her body hadn't exactly helped. "G-Get away from m-me..." The black feline said, trying to move herself away from the suffocating touches of the two caring females. She had been more rude than she intended, but hopefully that would work to convey the message of how little she wanted to be touched as of now.

She didn't deserve these kind words of comfort. She didn't deserve any of it. Not her, no, definitely not her. In a way, it lit a fire in Blu, curiosity was the spark and rage mixed with sorrow set her ablaze.
"Why are you being so nice to me?" Her bitter words sounded more like a desperate, choked sob than the angry yelling that she envisioned. "I told you that I'm not a good person, it doesn't make any sense..." They knew now, she couldn't have been any clearer with her words. They knew now, they knew she was a terrible person, so why were they still being so nice to her? She didn't deserve this.

This was it. Her decision was made and now there was no going back.
It wouldn't be easy, oh absolutely not. This would be one of the hardest things she had to do, but she had no other choice. This would be the easiest way to solve this issue once and for all. This would hurt everyone the least, well, everyone but her. But she started this mess - she didn't deserve anything but the weight of her sins.

Blu had asked Margaery to meet her on one of the islands, as she had something important to discuss. It would be tough, no doubt, but this was something she had to do. In her time here she grew incredibly attached to Suiteheart and simply couldn't make her final decision before absolutely assuring that the deputy was in the best of care. She knew Suiteheart cared about her too, and that's what made this hurt so much more.

Blu never deserved any of the love she received while she was here. No, it wasn't her's to take. It wasn't her's to steal. She deserved the worst - she deserved pelts matted with mud and blood, and the smell of wet moss and wood rot. She deserved dark nights filled with sounds of the unknown that was just begging to tear her apart. And she'd let them. Oh boy, she would let them tear into her and leave her a mangled mess of blood and waste and she wouldn't try to save herself. She didn't deserve salvation.

It was nearing sundown, the time that she'd asked Margaery to meet with her, and she was already waiting on the island. Normally she'd be sitting up straight, a warm smile on her face as she awaited the female's arrival, but not now. She was slumped down slightly, a tired look in her amber eyes. It was clear that Blu wasn't in a good state at all, it was clear that she wasn't here to bring good news.

This was pointless, absolutely pointless. Blu knew she was a terrible person, and soon the others would understand too. They would understand exactly why she hated herself so much and they'd hate her too. But she couldn't say anything now, no, it was too early. It wasn't like she was planning on hurting them either, she was planning on ending her internal conflict in the cleanest way possible. Despite this, some hearts would still ache in the wake of her actions.
She hated that.

"Just stop this, please." Blu meowed, seeming to grow slightly more agitated. Neither side could be convinced that they were wrong, and although the females were providing words on encouragement it only felt like they were smothering her. There were more of them than there were of her, but they didn't understand what was going on. They didn't understand because she didn't tell them - she couldn't tell them.

Blu was selfish, she wanted to be loved, and she knew if she explained what was going on they would hate her. She would fix this problem on her own and avoid the aftermath. No venom filled words would be spat at her and there would be no screaming, no lying, no ugliness to the situation. She created this storm and it was only natural for it to have the right to tear her apart.
"Just - I'm fine, okay? I'm fine. Leave me alone, I don't want to talk about this anymore." Blu said, trying to use anger to push them away. A part of her knew that she deserved to be yelled at, she didn't deserve the looks of pity or concern that her odd behavior would cause. But another part of her was grateful that these people were better than her, and they would most likely continue to try and help her, try and support her. She in no way deserved it, but she guiltily accepted the love she was being given, and it was doing nothing more then tearing her to pieces.
That was why she was going to end this once and for all.