*:・゚✦ The problem with Fright Seraphim was that he was trying to forget something that was engraved in his memories. It was finger-painted on the backs of his eyelids with wonder-stricken hands that had since become bloody and each morning that his eyes opened, they became harder and harder and harder.
He had hope that he would come back, just as he had, but this hope was in shreds, slowly disintegrating with each day and night that passed. They’d been apart plenty of times before. He never liked it. He can remember a time when being alone was comfortable, it was his status qou, an absolute he could rely on being a truth day after day, and it meant relying on nobody but himself, no one could hold him back, no one could hold him down. It had been the most liberating and loneliest time of his life but an angel with blue-gold eyes and broken wings had taken that from him. He never had someone who accepted him for being a bastard with broken promises and empty words…but it was more than that. He had met someone who not only accepted his imperfections, but found a likeness in them, searched deep into his blackened heart and found something good. It had been a gift…and it was something he didn’t believe he deserved.
The static telepathic words struck him like a whip. It was like the past was creeping up like a tide, determined to carry him out to sea. He didn’t remember walking—or rather running—to the Glitterati border. His eyes were blinded and he nearly took out Tinylights in the process of arriving. The boy’s breath came in delicate heaves and the perfectly pale skin beneath his paper-thin fur burned and felt cold simultaneously. He was on fire and frozen and dying and living in a single moment.
Frightfur was staring at his first friend. Lucien was before him and he didn’t even know how. He didn’t know who or what to thank, or maybe to curse. His friend didn’t look the same as his memory served. Things had changed. There was no cape, no silly ears…this new Lucien was bigger than he was. The snow leopard was also the same in some ways—he smelled the same and his eyes were as gorgeous as Fright had recalled many times, again and again, in his dreams. Long ago he had told himself that Lucien was his own knight in shining armor, a hero who’d saved him from the depths of desolation (and sometimes, he wondered if he hadn’t played a similar role for Lucien, too). But this knight carried no sword and his armor was cracked, falling away.
Personal space was broken for the two of them. Fright took each clicking step with a shiver and a smile that grew with every inch between them that was erased. A trembling, sensationless forepaw reached as if to touch Lucien’s face. ”Luci—I can’t believe it. Lucien, it’s you. You’re…here,” his drawl cracked and he told himself not to cry. He hadn’t cried while Lucien had been gone but the feeling now was overwhelming, much too strong.
A sparkling tear dripped from a fierce green eye. It would have been the first shower that brought on a storm, but something tore his focus out. Suddenly, the serval’s eyes widened even more, and he started in a shock that stopped his sobbing in its miserable tracks. On Lucien’s shoulder was a… ”Ack! Eww..a bird?” Fright muttered in confusion and distress. He leaned, fell back in uncertain fear to land on his ass at Lucien’s feet. He didn’t wipe at his soaked, blurry eyes. Did he ever get a chance to mention how much he hated, even feared, birds?