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Posts by Omen H.
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the basketball hoop is like that on purpose it gets windy and gets blown over so we set it down LMAO but yes..... it is snow why is it snow
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The sky was a beautiful grey. Before Seafoam's death the grey sky had always reminded Reiji of ash, but now it felt almost comforting to watch the sky become a thick and clotted ashen color. All semblance of light was swallowed by the clouds that rolled in, and the sounds of screams that echoed in his head were finally silenced by the low growling of thunder and the crash that followed each strike of lightning. The burning itching of his skin beneath the bandages was soothed as he tore away the bloody, mottled wrap and let the rain pour down on the deep slashes that were now scanned and hideous. Don't call me beautiful, he thought with a meek smile, watching as the rain mixed with the deep red marks and washed away the scabs with freezing cold water, until it bled freely again. He didn't feel anything but the rain, he didn't see anything but the grey, he heard nothing but thunder. The smell of fire was drowned out by the smell of blood and wet grass.
But the rain did not stay. Soon the thunder receded with the rain and the blood continued to trickle down his wrists until it finally staunched as well. He held a shaking cream paw to the reopened wounds and let out a shuddering breath as the temporary calm disappeared. Once again did the sounds of screaming reach his ears: he could hear their voices. He could hear them screaming out as they were ripped apart like paper, begging for mercy, begging for him to take their children and hide them, begging for him to stop the murderer. "He's a monster!" Their screams were like a broken record in his head and his weak smile faded into a grim frown, haunted eyes lowering to the pools of blood and water beneath his extended wrists. "Please! Save my family!" Why did they scream to him? What could he possibly do for them? He was weak. He was pitiful and small, he could do virtually nothing for them. But perhaps desperation was enough to make them cry to anyone. It was that desperation that made people yearn for these false gods, wasn't it? "God, help us, please!" Murmured prayers between clenched teeth, crosses that were etched into the ground. Begging for forgiveness.
He heard their voices every day: the voices of the dying Sunclanners all around him.
On the day of the mass murder it had rained blood. The earth bled through every crack and crevice and the sky released it until the rivers ran red as well. Blood manifested itself wherever it could sink its claws. He saw nothing but red. Red, the color of flames. On the day of Seafoam's death, it had consumed him. He remembered reaching out to the burning light, to the figures hidden among it. His mother, he swore he had seen his mother's eyes in the fire, but they had not been kind. They stared at him with a mixture of horror and disgust. He felt the memories rip through his skin with each swipe of his claw- he always did this when the voices and the smells and the sights came back. Each unsteady swipe of the claws reopened his skin and through it all the pain was released until he was numb. But today he felt even more numb, because today marked the exact day where his home in the barn had been burned down. He had seen her.
Standing in the rain, except it didn't rain water but ash. She did not cry, she did not smile, she did not scream out to him. Not a word left her mouth for the longest time. Reiji had a notion of being carried but it was beyond him; all he could see, all he could smell, all he could hear was her as she stood outside the burning barn with a lighter clasped between her paws still opened with a small flame singing her paws. She stared right at him and yet through him at the same time with a face completely devoid of expression. She was dead silent as Reiji was carried away, coughing and choking on smoke and his skin burning from the fire. He remembered watching her frail body grow smaller and smaller as Takumi dragged him away. He remembered watching her finally drop the burning lighter which went out with a whoosh. Her mouth moved, and while he could not hear her, he knew exactly what came out of her mouth. She had sung him this song plenty of times when he could not sleep, him and Takumi both. Her voice was soft and gentle. The song had always been sweet on her tongue. But the lime coming out of her mouth was one she had not sung before.
War bellows blazing in scarlet battalions. Generals order their soldiers to kill, and to fight for a cause they have long ago forgotten.
Elaine had always battled in a war she had forgotten the cause of long ago. She had forgotten the cause before Reiji had ever been born. A war for love, for acceptance, for family. That was all his mother ever wanted was to be loved, and he was the same way. Elaine's love had been stepped on and crushed and she had finally found it with Reiji and Takumi- only to have crushed it on her own. She had finally won the war, but she had been fighting for such a long time, they she had forgotten what she had even been fighting for. All she could remember was the battle. And just like the soldiers in the battle of Scarborough Fair's tale, there was no such thing as a life without war. At that point, they were already gone.
"Are you going to Scarborough Fair?" Reiji's voice was soft and broken as he stared at the puddle of blood mixed with rain. Ash fell from the sky from his own imagination and stirred within it, staining it all a thick grey. "Parsley, sage, rosemary, and thyme..." Four herbs. Parsley to soothe the broken heart, sage to give strength, rosemary to hide the smell of death, thyme to ease the pain. The herbs were meant to erase grieving. "Remember me to one who still lives there," Reiji whispered, his silver eyes beginning to release a few tears which rolled down his face like small crystal balls and splattered his wounds, the salty liquid stinging his skin. "She once was a true love of mine." He took a shaking breath and closed his eyes.
"On the side of a hill in the sprinkling of leaves, washes the grave with silvery tears."
He opened his paws which were clenched around the thorny bottoms of roses, whose red and white codominant petals were now soaked and dripping silvery droplets of rain- tears. Paws shaking, he set them down on the upturned earth, his eyes opening and lifting to the headstone placed in front of the churned earth. It's silvery stone seemed greyer than ever today as he arranged the crumpled and wet roses whose stems were soaked with his blood from clutching the thorns too tightly. He gave a weak smile.
"A soldier cleans a polishes a gun, she'll be a true love of mine."
Elaine Mortem. Died March 28, 2016. There were no other words on the haphazardly made headstone. There was little that was spectacular about her grave. The earth hadn't even bothered the grow anything from her death. Instead it simply let her rot without even giving so much as a weed in her wake. However, just at the base of the headstone were dozens of flowers, roses and daisies and marigold. All of the, were somewhat ruined and covered in blood and most had begun to wilt. They seemed to die with Elaine. Reiji's silver eyes lifted to her headstone which now bore a slightly worn rope strewn across a corner. He reached out and grabbed it with a paw, feeling the rough rope on his bleeding paws, his blood mixing with the stains of her own that her burier had been too lazy to clean. He slowly pulled off the rope from her headstone.
And placed it around his own neck. Tightened it to the point of being uncomfortable, but not suffocating. It scratched against his throat and was heavy and itchy and smelled of Elaine. He took a deep breath and dropped his paws, letting the noose slide down as if it were a necklace even though he had tightened it more than he should have- tightened like that it would inevitably wound his throat but he didn't care. He gave a sad smile and pressed a bloody paw to her headstone. "Reiji Mortem-Smythe," he whispered. "Reiji misses you, momma."
TL;DR: Reiji goes to Elaine's grave where there are a lot of old wilting flowers that he's put there the last days since her death and stands out there as it rains and the rain reopens his self-harm wounds as he takes the bandages off. He remembers the mass murder and the burning of the mansion and his old home where his mother sang a line of Scarborough fair, and his schizophrenia causes him to hear the voices of those killed begging him to save them and praying to God. He cries as he puts down red and white roses on her grave and takes the noose off of the grave that she used to hang herself and puts it on his neck: it's too tight but won't suffocate him. This is essentially where he officially takes on Seafoam's last name. :^)
Please don't feel pressured to reply anywhere near word count! This was more for the sake of development and FEEL CRUSHING >))) but yes I would love if you read it, I want to know if it actually made you guys sad to read. I feel so bad for my baby. :^(
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https://feralfront.com/index.php?topic=2343979.0 BREATHES HEAVILY..... IM NOT CRYING
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[fancypost bgcolor=; border: none; height: inherit; width: 405px; padding: 0px; margin-left: -23px; border-radius: 50px 50px 0px 0px; min-height: 129px;]With Reiji and Whitedove as Phantom's bonded spirits, it was understandable that things were going to be wild from the start. To begin with there was Phantom who seemed to have no emotions and yet all of them at the same time, a concoction that was painfully conflicting and of course the deputy was having problems figuring himself out without the aid of the troublesome two at his side. Following up was Whitedove who had only just recently gotten destroyed by something Reiji wasn't certain of, all he knew is that she was constantly surrounded by blood. Unfortunately the character bond did not extend his emotions to hers or vice versa so Whitedove's wellbeing had little to do with him. But with Whitedove's injuries and Reiji's tendency to abuse his own self harm wounds, Phantom couldn't have been having any easy life.And yes, Reiji. What was going on with Reiji, exactly? It could be best described as nothing and everything all at once. He had been scarcely seen ever since the last meeting, but it was easy to understand why if you were him. And eventually Phantom would realize it, but for now Reiji was struggling to desperately block the view from his mind. A lost cause, really. Things would be seeming to go very smoothly and then suddenly cascade down hill as an image of a beautiful white femme hanging by her broken neck in her cabin came back to haunt him. The images were so brief and bright that it was hard to make sense. Everything Reiji thing was blindingly bright yet also totally colorless- it was hard to make out details because the extent of his brokenness made it so that the flashing images in his head were almost indiscernible. Reiji, to put it bluntly, was having something of a week-long breakdown. And every day when he went to visit Elaine's grave it was like he completely severed the bond between him and Phantom and his mind went totally blank.
However today he had already been to her grave and had resorted to idly playing with Teddy, the stuffed one-eyed bear splayed in front of him as Reiji played nurse, wrapping Teddy's arms with his old bandages and admiring how they looked. They were blood soaked since he had reopened his wounds recently but otherwise were nearly brand new. He frowned before taking the bandages off of the bear and lifting his head at a sudden rush of grief and pain from an existence that was not his own. His connection with Phantom came in bursts rather than constantly feeling his emotions simply because most of the time Reiji was completely blanked out, removing himself from his head and becoming totally emotionless for prolonged periods of time. But Phantom's grief soon turned to something like defeat and pain and that was finally when he abandoned his game and grabbed Teddy by the paw, dragging the stuffed animal with him as he slowly went to investigate what was bothering Phantom, finding the deputy in no time at all and watching sleepily as the scene unfolded.
Love was just like god. It was invented by desperate people to heal the pain caused by loss of hope and rationality. When people grew desperate enough they would believe anything: like an all-mighty omniscient creature who could solve all your problems and the idea that somebody could ever completely devote themselves to you and never hurt you. Just like god, love was nothing but a false truth meant to make the wounded feel better. But in reality, love was laughable. Reiji did not love, he had never been loved. When he had been younger he had once loved all of these people but he realized now to the extent he had been deluding himself. A smile curled on his maw as his silver eyes darted between Phantom and Immy, watching as the woman darted away to wherever she decided to go. There was no happiness behind the smile, it was simply a mask, and it was almost as if it had been carved into his jowls.
"Balance," echoed the feminine cat in a hushed voice, his gaze drifting towards Phantom as the smile disappeared and was replaced by a face lacking expression. The deputy had been obsessing over that word for a long time in his head, and Reiji finally understood now. Balance. Was it like love and God, was it just another figment of a child's play? He shook the thought off and padded over to sit down beside Phantom and looked down at Teddy, fiddling with the bear before hugging it close to him and flicking his fluffy ears back against his cranium. Balance, balance, balance. Did any of them have any kind of balance after all? He sighed quietly and closed his eyes. Tell her to make me a cambric shirt without no seams or needlework, then she'll be a true love of mine. [/fancypost]
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[fancypost bgcolor=; border: none; height: inherit; width: 405px; padding: 0px; margin-left: -23px; border-radius: 50px 50px 0px 0px; min-height: 129px;]Phantom's appearance caused the boy to freeze and drop his bloodied paw, whipping his head around like he was about to be scolded. Of course, he didn't recognize Phantom at first, and he instead mistook him for somebody else entirely: Nightshade. His relationship with Nightshade was flawed and in all ways, broken. It had started with a simple capture and then it followed by a rape but then the Exiler had grown attached to the submissive and broken toy, and as a result here he lay now in this crazed state with his teddy bear soaked with blood and his wrists bleeding (true, he had cut them before but Nightshade had called them beautiful which made him hate them.) Nightshade took on several for,s so he could never tell, and he was so blinded by fear and petrifying terror that he immediately hid his face in his bloodied arms and started mumbling a choked out, "I'm so so sorry it was an accident it won't happen again I was just thinking and I couldn't control myself please don't... please...."At this point Reiji had morphed from the desperate begging child fearing scolds to just a whimpering mess as images flashed in his mind that Phantom would be unfortunately be subjected to seeing as well with this new bond: images of Nightshade doing awful things without his consent and murmuring sickening praises in his ears, the feeling of being slimy and disgusting and tainted afterwards, the fact that he could not simply scrub the other male off of his flawed skin. Everything about him was dirty but most of all were the placed Nightshade had kissed and he wanted to simply rip the skin off. It seemed all semblance of rational though flew out of the window as he simply quivered and begged at Phantom's feet until suddenlt the presence of other thoughts within his head caused him to slowly stop sobbing messily and lift his head to stare at the greyhound with painfully hopeful eyes, because this was not Nightshade, this was somebody he could trust.
He didn't even bother with saying anything and instead darted forward and reached out to Phantom, trying to cling to the other's legs completely forgetting that the contact would have caused Phan to bristle as he usually did, instead seeking something comforting and warm that would not make him feel disgusting. His skinny body shook like a leaf as he squeezed his eyes shut to hide the tears that were forming in his eyes as he whispered hoarsely, "Reiji is sorry, he didn't mean to hurt Phantom." It seemed he had returned to his usual third-person way of speaking of himself like he was not truly in his own body and he sniffed quietly, trying to understand these odd new feelings Phantom had but being to distracted to care.
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oh my god no stop u guys are too sweet im gonna WEEP ALL OVER U!!!!! i might offer to draw people version of characters if im motivated ooo
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[fancypost bgcolor=; border: none; height: inherit; width: 405px; padding: 0px; margin-left: -23px; border-radius: 50px 50px 0px 0px; min-height: 129px;]"Reiji is gonna have nieces and nephews~" the boy crooned eagerly. It seemed whatever darkness had possessed him the other day was all but gone, replaced with the same scary emptiness that was more commonly seen in him. The cream tabby was strange like that, he was always shifting moods and they were all equally creepy. Of course in this case, it was almost childish in the way he spoke, completely ignoring Shatteredhope and his words as he slipped to Phantom's side and tilted his head at the slightly swollen stomach she bore, he almost wanted to poke it but refrained since he knew he Phan didn't like being touched.The prospect of a family was a little concerning but he didn't care because he was excited to meet these new children no matter who sired them. He would not love them because love was foolish and illusionary, but he was willing to play with them! He hardly acted like more than a child himself so it would be strange to watch. He sat down and hugged his bear to his stomach, his thoughts turning worried as he considered the new children perhaps not accepting him or liking him. The thought plagued him and his cheery smile faded to one of distress as he bit down on his tongue and drew blood, hugging the bear close. He didn't want to think about that, not when he was supposed to be happy.[/fancypost]
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[fancypost bgcolor=; border: none; height: inherit; width: 405px; padding: 0px; margin-left: -23px; border-radius: 50px 50px 0px 0px; min-height: 129px;]Reiji, at this point, was familiar with the sensation of being abandoned. Too many times had he been on the receiving end of abandonment- from Elaine, from Seafoam, from Takumi, and now even Steve even though he had hardly known the leader aside from side conversation. It seemed though, that it still hurt when a beloved family member walked away. After all, he had been the one to say from his own mouth that this clan was a family, so did that mean he did not consider himself a part of it? Or would he remain a family member even when he left them behind? The skinny boy's form trembled a little bit as he overheard from where he was crouched rocking back and forth clasping the teddy tightly in his paws, watching with transfixed silver eyes.Reiji had always been a firm believer- ever since Seafoam's death at least- that love was nothing but an illusion. That it was nothing but an excuse of humanity, a desperate attempt for morals or some attempt to understand one another. There had been a time where the sunguard had truly believed that he could love anybody regardless of who they were and that much was obviously true given that he had managed to love of all people. Seafoam Harbringer-Smythe. In the end hadn't he been the one to embrace the for,her leader's laws while he stared with jaws agape at what he had done, yet was truly expressionless? Reiji had always possessed an ability to see through masks and façades and yet when he had finally reached the breaking point, he had collapsed. He had gone blind.
Therefor he was unable to detect how Steve felt. Instead he only saw what the others saw, another leader leaving Sunclan to its own treacherous devices. Half of them seemed to not even know who he was which was sad on its own. He spoke words that were plagued with false sympathies and reassurances and it was those that Rei could is easily see through. The "it's not your fault" and the "you deserve more"... it all tasted so fake. And yet Reiji simply pressed the most bittersweet of smiles on his face as he skittered over and wrapped himself around the legs of his adopted brother, as if he were looking right through Steve, completely impassive.
For it was always safest to ignore the things that would cause you pain.
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[fancypost bgcolor=; border: none; height: inherit; width: 405px; padding: 0px; margin-left: -23px; border-radius: 50px 50px 0px 0px; min-height: 129px;]Reiji was one of the more antisocial creatures of Sunclan, but perhaps if you had known him before Seafoam's fall (where everything had, essentially, gone wrong) you would have laughed at such a notion because of all people he was the least likely to be the more resigned faces. Because the Reiji they had known was called Misao, who was sweet and charismatic, and had people at the tip of her claws begging to be her friends, envying her just like Alstromeria. Reiji didn't blame them, because he envied Misal too. They were not the same."Graham," the transgender boy echoed softly under his breath as he slinked over with his teddy bear clutched to his chest, wide silver eyes boring into the canine as if evaluating him. And he was in a sense, his eyes lighting up hopefully. He had a kind soul something the sunguard could tell immediately, and the kind ones always gave him candy if he asked for it as long as he pleasured them right. He had to make sure he made a good impression so later on he could slink over and knock on the male's doorstep begging for sweets and a arm bed to share simply for the false feeling of being love that had been drilled into him by Nightshade. "Reiji is very glad to meet the mister! What is his favorite candy?" Out-of-the-blue questions like that with no prologue were commonplace for somebody like him.[/fancypost]
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[fancypost bgcolor=; border: none; height: inherit; width: 405px; padding: 0px; margin-left: -23px; border-radius: 50px 50px 0px 0px; min-height: 129px;]@ CAT YES YES YES YES YES YES OMG!!!! he will totally do that like freak out and then start apologizing until cat feels bad for his pitiful self xD thread??@ WAFT YESSSSSS OH MY GOOOOD HE WOULD TOTALLY DO IT IF NOT JUST TO GET A CANDY REWARD and lose his mind when Seafoam says no and feel unloved and bs and then they can fix things and be all cute and cuddly omg[/fancypost]
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[fancypost bgcolor=; border: none; height: inherit; width: 405px; padding: 0px; margin-left: -23px; border-radius: 50px 50px 0px 0px; min-height: 129px;]OMG TAKW UR TIME my muse is suffering hard for this poor boy damnAND YESS OMG!!!! HE WILL TOTALLY GO CRAWLING TO PHAN PHAM or phan will find him in such a. State and be like "ok well this isn't good" omg[/fancypost]
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[fancypost borderwidth=0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt]my muse for poor reiji is just flatlining at the moment but i have big plans i will kick off as soon as i have time i promise, im so sorry i didn't put this up earlier!!! activity will improve over the next few days cross my heart
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[fancypost borderwidth=0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt]LMAO probably B^3 but dont worry poor reiji actually manages to catch a break because somebody special is coming back!!!! happiness is in store, eventually ;^) and don't worry about it take your time!!!
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[fancypost borderwidth=0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt]He had been abandoned. He had been left behind by the one person who he cared about more than anyone else, and he refused to accept it. He didn't want to think that Seafoam, his beloved father, had left him all alone in Sunclan without a good reason. It was his fault, wasn't it? It was all his fault for not being around enough for him. Panic began to settle in his chest like a dead weight as he finally stumbled to Windclan's territory, not bothering to stop at the border in fear that if he stopped he would no longer be able to lift his paws to move anymore. After hiding in his room for the past few weeks just walking was painful and he continuously reopened the wounds under his granges around his wrists which were still deep and glaringly obvious. Angry red painted the white fabric around his legs now but Reiji didn't care because he was here for one reason and that was not to tend to his stupid arms again and again and again.
"P-Papa," called out the frighteningly skinny transgender as he picked his way through the tangled woods, leaving smears of blood on the branches as if deliberately trying to get killed by a hungry predator. But the blonde feline could not care less, he simply wanted to see Seafoam. He wanted to be near Seafoam and to feel his eyes on him and nobody else, he wanted to hear Seafoam telling him everything was alright and that he didn't have to worry because daddy would chase all the bad guys away for him. He wanted Seafoam to promise that he would never leave him again. He didn't want to be left just like Nightshade had left him. He wanted to be loved. It was a sick obsession, to feel affection even if it was fake. It was why he always begged for candy in exchange for sex, it made him feel wanted. And that was all he needed.
/excuse this shitty as fuck 2 am headache post