Posts by divineblade

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_{marlux: i have made Divinepaw}

_{feralfront: you fucked up a perfectly good fire emblem faceclaim is what you did. look at it. it’s got anxiety}

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_{[sub]☀name
divinekit ☀ divinepaw ☀ divineblade
☀surnames
cantus xerses-matumaini
-she started the cantus family and is therefore the producer (head) of the group; she is an ex-heir to the matumaini family
☀past names
none
☀past surnames
nada
☀nicknames
div, divi}

_{☀inspiration
despite there being a metric ton of items in many games known as "divine blades", i actually came up with the name while thinking about the falchion from fire emblem. it is a sword forged from the pseudo-god of the divine dragons' - naga's - fang, forged when she died.
she is loosely based on my interpretation of a female morgan from fire emblem awakening.}

_{☀date of creation
december 18 2015 (started at 6 months for ease of roleplaying)
☀age
12 months; ages +1 month about every 100 posts (this simply happened because she was left abandoned for.. a while, so she obviously needed to age haha)}

_{☀pronouns
she/her}

_{☀gender
nb girl - not binary female. transfeminine; dmab.
☀sexual / romantic orientation
polyamorous lesbian (romantic + sexual) - she is pretty flexible, she just has no clue about that yet}

_{☀current alliances
blizzardclan
☀past alliances
hogwarts
☀rank
-blizzardclan apprentice (december 18 2015 - present)
☀past ranks
-kit (december 18 2015 - december 18 2015)
-paladin trainee [shp] (december 24 2015 [link for archival purposes] - january 1 2016)
-paladin [hp] (january 1 2016 [link for archival purposes] - january 16 2016)
-blizzardclan combatant [hp] (january 16 2016 [link for archival purposes] - january 29 2016)
-blizzardclan head combatant [hp] (january 29 2016 [link for archival purposes] - ??)
-hogwarts vintenar [hp] (january 22 2016 [link for archival purposes] - ??)
☀mentor(s) - in chronological order
"sousuke" youthfulflame}

_{☀powers she is aware of
-gold blood
-the sight
☀powers she is not aware of
-shapeshifting (dragon body)
☀power goals
-shapeshifting (dove body)}

_{☀mental stuff
avoidant personality disorder, dependant personality disorder}

_{☀species
domestic cat - blue spotted bengal
☀appearance
-light lavender bengal - visual
divinepaw, although small for her age, is often regarded as a very beautiful cat; her short, well-kept fur frames her body perfectly. no bones can be seen through her fur - she is slim, but not underweight.
her soft, light silver pelt is dappled with darker, leopard-like black spots that cover her face and body.
divinepaw's long, elegant tail is striped with silver, gaining intensity and becoming darker as they reach the tip. however, after an attack in the exiles by belial tathamet, a meteor struck her, and her tail was ripped, and burned off of her body.
her delicate legs and paws are lighter than the rest of her body, blending into an off-white color.
she is missing a nick on the outside of her left ear.
divinepaw's eyes are a radiant pale amber, the color of a sunrise.}

_{☀personality
divinepaw often seeks attention, taking on hard jobs that she is unknowingly (or knowingly, in some cases) too young or unprepared for, to impress others. her inner need for recognition overpowers her obvious lack of confidence, and she never openly talks about either. she often finds herself in risky situations and places that she feels she does not belong.}

_{divinepaw believes herself to the burden of the clan, and this leads her to cast others away in fear of being told that she advertises herself as much more important than she actually is. her low self esteem causes her to value others more than her, even though she desperately wants to be valued.}

_{her willingness to help does have a positive, as it also allows her to get the approval she works so hard for. she tries her absolute best to assist others, constantly anxious about the safety of her clanmates, and even her enemies.}

_{while she is not as good at fighting as the average apprentice, she has a wit to make up for it. she has many sarcastic and witty remarks stored within her intellect, but she rarely voices them due to her social anxiety.}

_{she likes the sensation of soft fur and will rub her face on things for the stimulation rather than to scent them. she dislikes loud noises.}

_{divinepaw is best described as the unseen person who makes everything happen, but is never seen or credited. she would rather describe herself as the useless, whiny child who gets nothing done.}

_{☀history
g1, npc x npc.
divinepaw was created as the first muse of my return to the site.}

_{becoming a paladin trainee (shp) in blizzardclan greatly improved her confidence.}

_{sousuke helped her question her perception of strength, what is was and where and how it could be used. while it was hard to deconstruct and change her thinking and inner morals, she tried her best to think critically about her preconceived thought patterns.}

_{after the attack in which she lost her tail, she gained an irrational fear of the exiles, and everything within. any person named an exiler, or even the group itself, and their ideals, scare divinepaw to the point of doing absolutely anything to escape. she harbors trauma of this event. it was during this attack that she first felt something for afterpaw.}

_{divinepaw gained a crush on afterpaw, finding her a very likeable, agreeable and kind person. she began to develop a dependency on afterpaw, but tried her very best to hide this, for fear of rejection and being abandoned yet again.}

_{her promotion to full paladin gave her another surge of confidence, and she decided that she would push herself to her limits to help her clan, even if it included fighting.}

_{when tama introduced the combatant position, and asked if any paladins would like to become one, divi was excited at the prospect. being able to act as a tactician meant that she would know she was helping her clan, without charging wildly head first into her fears of battle.}

_{after meeting makaburi, she became her adopted daughter, and the heir to the matumaini family.}

_{after manipulation and gaslighting from prescriptionpills, he became one of her favourite people - she gained a crush on him, and he became her depended.}

_{(this is a reminder 2 myself: write up the dragon thing)}
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_{☀divinepaw's eyes widened. what a large... creature, she thought. io was very tall and menacing to the small cat, towering above her greatly. with someone so big and important, she just couldn't screw up.
"i, my... i'm..." she stood there for a few seconds, attempting to get over the physical sensations of anxiety. taking a deep breath, she began again:
"my name is divinepaw! and, it's nice to see you!" having coughed that out in the sweetest, most innocent voice she could muster, she flinched at her own wording. she never met him before in her life; nice to see you? what kind of a greeting was that?
she wished she was better at detecting the flaws in her speech prior to opening her maw.}

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_{☀i need to start jumping in rps more often, since it's winter break now, so hey! divinepaw could be friends w/ animetrash? bonding over manga? she could try to persuade him to join blizzardclan maybe.}

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_{☀divinepaw nodded, acknowledging the leader's words. a prom? what exactly is a prom?
she looked around, noting her clanmates gathering around the harbringer.
perhaps she would go, given permission to do so by tama. i'm not trespassing, and it's not like i'm running away from any important duties, so...
divinepaw wondered if she could muster up the courage to go in the first place. there would be plenty of people that she didn't know, shadowclanners who would judge her and her alliance. the thought of people she did not know laughing at her and excluding her was a terrifying one.
having worked it out in her mind, divinepaw decided that she would not be going to the prom.}

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_{☀ hello! my name is marlux, and i've recently gotten back into feral front. i was active around 2012 and i got pulled back in thanks to the massive history of the site.}

_{i have a transfem, lavender bengal, blizzardclan apprentice named divinepaw, with the ability to see and commune with spirits. her bio is here! she has avpd and dpd, as well as attention seeking tendencies and a low self esteem, and i really want to further develop this.}

_{so! i need some threads and plots to get her more active around here.}

_{she needs a few things:
☀dependeds (someone that a person with dpd seeks approval and attention from)
☀harassers/bullies}

_{plots i'm open for:
☀friends (esp trans/neurodivergent buddies!!)
☀short-term relationships
☀forbidden relationships / relationships w/ someone from an enemy clan
☀one-night stands (consensual)
☀interactions
☀anything not listed under no!}

_{plots i'm not open for:
☀rape
☀being killed / killing
☀being maimed / maiming}

_{so, plot away! c:}

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<sub>☀divinepaw could be his friend-turned-sibling? i think she'd find companionship with lostkit over mental illness, and since he's younger by a month she won't be as scared as she is with most people. she's inclined to take care of people too, so she could try to steer him out of trouble, maybe?
+ they're both cinnamon rolls omg</sub>

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_{☀ divine could look up to him like a little sister due to his absolute fabulousness ability to be so outgoing? so, maybe an interaction thread? c:}

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_{☀ @BLUESROCK
thank you;;; and of course! she's going to collect every nd person and throw warm blankets on them
who should make the thread? div can go wherever ;}

_{@YOUTHFULFLAME
sounds good! who makes? : o}

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_{☀div could be bullied by everette, and then upon finding/figuring out that they're mentally ill, maybe frenemies or very distant friends?}

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_{☀ her journey down the staircase and through the water was a success.
divinepaw was surprised by how similar the rift was in comparison to her home in the clouds. regardless of the fact that both were situated on islands, this one was on the ground, sucked in by gravity.
the main difference was that this place was a massive fort. she never seen such structures in her previously sheltered life; the magic of this strange island seemed to stop the moment she walked through, into its walls. admittedly, she was impressed, and she wondered how (and if) they constructed the stone building.}

_{it was when she wondered how far she went and where she was that she stopped walking. she immediately turned around, frantic, surveying her surroundings. the bleak colors of this clan finally began to unsettle her; it was not bright, nor fresh, nor happy, and this only furthered her fear.}

_{wonderful. what if the people here recognize my scent and chase me out? what if they put up a fight? can i fight these people? what will my clan think? what will happen to me? beginning to panic, but still not totally bothered, she stepped forward. divinepaw started speaking on impulse, words rushed and voice polite and high pitched.}

_{"hey, hey, i'm lost, i, i," she took a quick breath. "help me, i don't know around this place, can you like, can you? is that okay? can you help me? please?"}

_{ooc. i swear i've done nothing today but listen to the hills}

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_{☀ @BLUES
np! clicky!}

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_{☀ div watched people slowly gather around the strange, new dog. she padded forward out of curiosity, comforted by the fact that there were many others around her, making it less likely for her to be singled out. she wondered what was happening, and stalked around everyone, craning her small neck to view the thunderclanner.}

_{she caught sight of the basket. gifts! she liked gifts. she wondered who the gifts were for; whoever it was, it must've been someone important, coming from the thunderclan leader.
"excuse me, but, do you know the name of who these are for? i can, um, maybe show you around... or find the person you're looking for..." she trailed off, feeling ridiculous. there were much more important people here that could do what she offered.}

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_{☀could you please? i don't mind what clan it's in, whatever you think is best !!}

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_{☀could you? i have muse for this but i just have no c lue how to start stuff ever so i'm like crying inside,}

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_{☀ using! <3}

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_{☀ divinepaw perked up, half-awake, tired from a nap she recently woke up from. the mention of murder brought her into full consciousness, and she stood up. quickly stretching, with a flick of her tail, she was on her paws, walking over to clovermoon.}

_{the threat of danger was not something to be overlooked, and she felt the need to be there for her clanmate. triumphing over her anxiety, div moved to stand next to retrograde.}

_{she considered asking what was happening, but decided against it, realizing that her comment would not be useful to the topic at hand.}

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_{☀some... good workout this is, div thought.}

_{"pass out at will? losers like you do this for a living?" she chuckled, taking a few steps forward. "some good skills you got. i wish i had half the talent of you." a smirk began to form on her face.
she generally wasn't like this, but, seeing as the paladin was joking, it was alright. as long as he was joking...}

_{...was he? and suddenly, all of her confidence drained out of her body, sapped into the earth below her paws. what if he takes that as a genuine insult? the sound of the rock being thrown snapped her out of her anxious disaster thinking.}

_{she turned her head to stare at ev, curious as to what exactly they were thinking injuring sans would do. after a few moments, she realized that if she was perhaps a bit braver or felt a bit more liked, she would have done the same thing.
her smile returned.}

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_{☀ track!}

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