Posts by Sasha A.

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★-- Sasha's ears fell to the side, uncertain as to whether or not she wanted help getting home. She needed it, but she was extremely proud and always had been. Help wasn't something she just asked for unless it was medical. It was different when others needed help, and when she was essentially the difference between life and death.

"Uh," The fae began, looking around to try to figure out if it was far enough to even bother. "Sure, that'd be nice. It's not too far, it's just to the left of the big oak over there."

She motioned to it with her wing, studying the shape that she managed to make out carefully. Hoping it was the correct cabin she was looking at, though the location she knew was correct, the fae would slowly begin to move forwards. However her interest was locked on the fact Soap didn't sleep well at night. Being the same ol' worrying feline she was when she was a medic, the fae couldn't help herself but ask about it.

"So, don't sleep well, huh?" Sasha began, ears laying back. "Any particular reason why?"

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★-- "If you know, why're you doing it?" Sasha asked, raising a brow.

The fae's eyes then darted up towards her antlers stuck in the roots. She wasn't entirely sure how people managed to get stuck so easily, but then again, she didn't have horns. It wasn't like she had experience, or really even had the right to say shit about it.

"I ought'a leave you there for a while so I can chew your ear out about your drinking. The medication you're taking, I get it, but the drinking." Her head shook in disapproval before letting out a sigh. "Not like I'm your mother though anyway, so let's just get you out before you further hurt yourself."

Now, Sasha hadn't used her powers in a long time. As far as she knew, her powers were completely out of whack and she could very easily twist one root wrong and snap the poor apprentice's neck. But, she was determined on not letting that happen.

"Alright, now hold still and everyone shut up so I can keep focus. Nikita, let me know when you're out."

Her eyes shut, touching the nearest root and focusing in on it's energy, then on the root's energy. She dug in herself pretty deep, before feeling the roots begin to move under her paw pads. Gulping, Sasha prayed that they'd keep quiet, and her eyes didn't open until she was sure that the roots had retreated far enough for Nikita to slip out.

o no it's gonna be mass chaos i'm sure

Penneziano
Get it?
Cuz Penne pasta

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★-- "PTSD?" Sasha inquired, head turning to look up at him a bit. "Used to struggle with that a bit myself, honestly. It's actually how I got the scars under my mane."

Her mane covered them for the most part, though when it was exposed, it was hard to miss. They were deep cuts, she had heavy scars from it, and by the angles, to the trained eye it was clear it was self-inflicted. But in her case, it wasn't on purpose. Hallucinations, sleep deprivation, then adding on living in the Exiles at the time, it was no surprise she suffered such a bad episode.

"I normally have remedies for things, but only physical." Sasha said, shrugging a bit. "I don't understand the mind, never studied therapy or anything like that other than... aroma therapy for a short time. But I only know how to help with sleep and stress, not actual mental issues like depression, or PTSD, or anything else like that. Anxiety can be helped with stress related remedies but... that's about it."

o no it begins

I don't agree with going back to the old ways, honestly. We have the traditional clans now, so Extended Thunderclan sticking to Starclan and previous traditions feels like a step back. I feel like we need to find something that makes us unique and pulls others to us, we have the freedom to become something more unique, and I just don't feel like sticking to the traditional Thunderclan would be good - there's already a Traditional Thunderclan, we need something that makes us unique other than allowing any type of character.

We were a dying clan sticking to the traditional ways, but when we implemented the new religion it, personally, at least added more flare and added new opportunities to take Sasha in ways that weren't available to me before. She hated Starclan, so using a new religion allowed me to let her re-invent herself. Now this is still a new religion and we haven't really been able to do much with it, but I feel if we use it more in a clan plot then it'll become more of a part of the clan.

I feel like we need to do something with the clan that isn't found on FeralFront's official clans. Sticking to tradition we're just the "other" Thunderclan, we need something to make this clan stand out or we'll die as a clan. I truly believe that, we've been going downhill for a long time, now is not the time to turn back, especially now that we're finally back on the front board and activity/population seems to be going up. Unique clans seem to do better, so I think we need to follow their lead.

I don't mind changing what we have now, but I do not think it's a good idea to go back to what we were doing, honestly, it just feels like a huge step back.

This is strictly opinion/observation based~

LMAO Porecelainsoap holy shit it almost sounds like a company name

Ah man I've been tired as shit these past couple days and it's driving me insane

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★-- "I'm not sure I can say I have." Sasha said, shrugging. "I still have it, very mildly though. Not much more than nightmares sometimes, and sometimes I smell or hear things that aren't there. But there was a man in my life who... agitated it greatly. I found out he had abused and... later killed my adoptive brother, but that was after my episode. I watched him abandon his children, mentally abuse his mate, and if anyone dared defy them, exile would be on the table. I couldn't do anything with the position I was in, he was the leader after all. So I left... ended up in a clan that wasn't good for me, and had the worse episode I ever had. The PTSD originally stemmed from wars, medical emergencies when I was way too young, watching those I loved die, and the man I loved he just... he vanished for a long time, and then he came back... and then he vanished again. All that, now on top of the horrors of the leader, I... I never did get over it. I guess it just got easier to tolerate."

The fae's eyes were now on the ground, focusing on the earth she was walking on. She was open about her past, but not about her PTSD before. Sasha had never met somebody, at least somebody she bothered to trust, with PTSD before. Exilers tended to suffer from it quite a bit, but none of them were trustworthy.

I'm not sure tbh, I've been sleeping quite a bit. Hopefully I'm not getting sick :0

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★-- Sasha nodded, before Germanicus decided to claim she was disrespectful, argumentative, and lower than him. Her head snapped up, rage building in her eyes. The fae didn't feel she had been disrespectful at all, or argumentative considering she only stated facts. Finally, she did not at all believe that he was higher than the others. She had told him this when they were talking, and for him still to bring it up pissed her off.

"I felt I gave you no disrespect, nor do I feel I was attempting to argue you. It was not my intention, I told you that. Twice, I believe, there was no reason to bring this up publicly. Personally, I thought it was settled after I stated it wasn't my intention, I don't know how much clearer I have to make myself on that. I feel we are all equals despite our ranks that no one of us is a superior being than another, that feeling will not change no matter how much you say it. I treat you like a leader but I treat nobody as a superior being. Next time, please contact me in private so we can discuss any issues you have with what I say instead of springing a completely unnecessary lecture on me in front of the clan." Sasha said, raising a brow.

The fae's wings were ruffled now, and she was extremely annoyed. There were only a couple Thunderclanners that were there, only a couple that know what happened. She didn't need people beginning to believe she was a total bitch again, she finally got to a point where people realized she wasn't the psycho broad they thought she was when she called Deutschland on his shit, when he publicly shamed her much like this.

"He reminds me far too much of Deutschland. Making me nervous." The far thought to herself, studying the feline. "Only he acted like this and pulled this bullshit on people. Gotta be high and mighty, gotta be the only good guy and anyone that dares disagree is suddenly argumentative and disrespectful. Pathetic."

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★-- Sasha sat on Thunderclan's border, looking out past their land as she enveloped herself in deep thought. Her eyes were full of worry and anger behind the cloudy gaze she had as she lost herself in her own mind. Primarily, her thoughts were on leaving Thunderclan. She thought about where she might go, and what live would be like there. Her mind drug her back to Thunderclan, thinking about life here and if she felt comfortable with a child so similar to the past abusive, murderous leader. Was she paranoid? Maybe. But she knew Deutschland was dead, and began to question if it was just mere coincidence.

Whether or not others saw it, she was unsure. It wasn't like she hadn't pointed out things he said or did that reminded her of Deutschland, after all. She wasn't sure she trusted Crow's judgement, and sighed as she realized it didn't matter what Crow thought. At the end of the day, once again, it wasn't her. Perhaps her years were being wasted here. History felt to be repeating itself and she wanted absolutely no part in it. She had told herself "never again" when Deutschland was finally overthrown. But here they were, with what she saw as a repeat of the dreaded canine. The question she was really asking herself was would she be of more help to the clan members of she stayed, or if she left?

She knew this wasn't a snap descision she got to make. Sasha knew Deutschland better than anyone here, she was sure of that. The far asked herself, would she be able to tolerate the kid long enough to find out if they were in any true danger? Probably not, unless she wanted to suffer in silence once again.

Then there was the matter of finding somebody to keep an eye on things if she left, somebody to report to her, somebody who had the same suspicions. But where the hell was she going to fund somebody like that? Nobody listened to her when she went wild on Deutschland, maybe two people remember his reign here, and even then, Deutschland twisted her image into some insane traitor at one point, who knows if people still thought that way of her. She didn't exactly have a advantage in this field.

Sighing, the far finally pulled herself out of such intense thought. She let herself lie on the earth, staring off into the forest still. All she knew was Thunderclan. It had been her home for so long she didn't realize there were other opportunities to have just waiting for her. But her loyalty stuck to Thunderclan, not those leading it. Could she really betray her loyalty to this ancient clan just because of a few paranoid fears?

Mm seriously debating on having Sasha leave Thunderclan. Thinking I might need a change of pace but I haven't decided yet.

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★-- Sasha nodded a thanks, looking back at Soap. Poor guy offered to bring her home and she was dumping all this onto him, as if he didn't have enough problems himself from the sounds of it. Ears flattening, her maw opened to speak again.

"I'm sorry for dumping this on you, it... Normally doesn't go into such detail." The far said with a shrug. "If I'm being totally honest, with the new leader he... Says things that makes me fear history may begin to repeat itself, so I'm much more... Well, probably paranoid, but much more fearful as well. I feel the need to over explain, because when I didn't... I was twisted into a traitorous bitch."

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★-- "My memories gone to shit too but that's a face I can't forget." Sasha said as she appeared, looking at Morningcloud. "At least I'm still alive and kicking, though."

The fae couldn't remember when she last saw Morningcloud, but she did remember that they had a extremely weird relationship. One of those friends but enemies type of thing for the most part. Morningcloud once claimed she'd love to see the day Sasha died, or vanished. Sure he had done that a few times, but here she was, still. She had her ways of coming back to home base.

Yeah I'd definitely be bringing her to a Ally clan so she can still be around since she has suggested intense roots here but if I were to leave I'd drag another character in here for sure. Just don't want to go through the same scenarios with Sasha all over again, since she already lived through a Deutschland reign and I think it'd be better for her development to head somewhere else for a while and explore, and learn how the world works more, without having to struggle with the same issues from the same people, if that makes sense.

Probably bring a quirky, naieve child in here to basically be the opposite of Sasha or something, haven't done one of them in ages!

I think I'll keep her around until we find out who the new allies are but I think that'll be the end of it here for her

oh no he's a GREAT character but I figured if he's gonna be back I should try experiencing his reign with a new type of character

Ya know

Instead of the brat lmao

And eyyyy welcome back!

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★-- "I agree." Sasha said, her head turning to look at Elsa. "That's the problem with kids ruling. Not all of them are as mature as they believe to be, or need to be."

Her head twisted back to look out past their borders, ears resting lightly against her head. She thought about his leadership, but only to compare it to other leaders before him. Sasha had always been a strong headed advisor, and for a reason she didn't understand, it always pulled her away from her goals.

"Would it be wrong to leave a place you no longer fit in? No longer feel welcome in? Despite the roots you've set over the years?" Sasha asked, looking back at Elsa with her blue gaze. "Would it be wrong to leave and start again?"

ah man I still miss Sasha x Volcanicstorm tbh

They tore each other apart but it was always interesting