[align=center][fancypost borderwidth=0; font-family: georgia; font-size: 22pt; letter-spacing: -3px; width: 300px; padding: 0px][color=#20ff00]merii[/fancypost][fancypost borderwidth=0; border-bottom: 2px #20ff00 solid; width: 400px; padding: 0px; padding-top: 5px][/fancypost][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 400px; height: auto; margin-top: -4px;][justify][sub]/ sorry this is so late i knew i would have a lot of muse so i needed to get a good time window
if merii had know she was pregnant, he would have...... you know what, he didn't even know. he probably would have been questioning it for years. decades. his whole life. when did she get pregnant? why didn't she tell him? it was weird that she wouldn't tell him.... even after he said he liked her. didn't he say that? or was it a dream? to be honest, he wouldn't have been surprised if it had been a dream. had he dreamed about her before? he didn't even remember at this point. everything that was happening clouded his mind, and fear clogged his throat. " i thought she was fat! "
[b]" nivata-chan? " he called out to the dragon. at first, she didn't respond. his breath quickened. " nivata-chan? " he said again, faster, and louder than the last time. " nivata! " he threw his honorific away for the time being, racing over to where she lay. his eyes darted between the kittens and her, back and fourth. he wasn't really sure what to do.
" i'm no father material. "
" will the kids like me? "
" is nivata okay? "
" what if everyone hates me now? "
was thinking negative even real for the usually happy zookeeper? it was very rare, and he usually kept it to himself, but it did happen. he never liked to think negatively about himself, but it just... happened. why was this happening? why didn't she tell anyone? why wasn't he here sooner? if he was hear earlier, would he have been able to help her? he didn't know if she was the one who had been dumb, or if it was him. how could he have just overlooked this? should he have said something about her "weight"? even though it was probably rude, it could have saved her, and that's all that mattered.
when nivata opened her eyes and called out for dancingloon, he choked on his own tongue. [color=#20ff00]" n-nivata-chan! are you okay? why didn't you tell me? " the words flew out of his mouth. clearly upset and on the brink of tears, merii waited for an answer from the other.