
GENERAL ;
James Ryan Haywood | Tom | 27 Moons | BloodClan | Chocolate sable w/blue eyes and bull horns | Single | Asexual Aromantic |
POWERS;
Elemental (Earth), Minotaur Form
INTERACTION;
HARD | attack in bolded #c3834c | no kill | no maim | pm for capture | no mentor
LINKS;
biography | plot
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[size=7pt][font=verdana]LISTEN UP THERE'S NOT A MOMENT TO SPARE
IT'S QUITE A DROP FROM THE TOP SO HOW YOU FEELING DOWN THERE[/fancypost]
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The words uttered in an almost desperate tone broke his heart, hadn't he just told Ray he wouldn't leave? But then he locked eyes with the dog and realized the real meaning behind his words. He didn't trust him. At first he felt a stab of pain at the thought, but why should he even be surprised? Hadn't he broken that trust once before? Stabbed Ray right in the back? Left him without a word?
Ryan had no right to feel hurt at the implications, he had no right to firmly deny that 'no, I totally mean it this time' when he'd basically spit in Ray's face before. There was more to it than just that too-he could almost feel the distrust now between them and he hated it, hated it with a passion.
But he'd done it to himself, he'd caused this. Ryan had no other choice than to simply try to fix it as best he could and he nodded mutely to Ray's words before dredging up the will to speak once more, "...okay.", he nodded numbly-eyes still wide and fearful as if he was being threatened, "...I promise...I'll tell you..." He had no intentions of leaving, but then again he hadn't before either. All the same, whatever helped-whatever put the other's mind at ease.
In saying such he felt a weight drift off his shoulders, they were still heavy; burdened with grief and guilt, but lighter all the same.
Now the air felt awkward and what he wanted was nothing more than to lift his paws and drag Ray in for a nearly bone crushing hug, get that sickly sweet scent of roses mixed with weed laced across his fur until he couldn't tell whose scent was whose anymore.
But he didn't, he wasn't sure if he was allowed to or not yet. He wasn't sure if it would put Ray off or upset him if he suddenly got physical without warning so in silence he lifted his paws in a sort of obscure gesture; hoping his intentions were clear but unable to form the words to say such due to the lump that had solidified in his throat and constricted his words.
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