This is something serious. For once, I'm not joking around. It's about me and my boyfriend, James (we all call him Jimmy though). It's something that been racking my mind since the day Sarah matched us up. This is a real-life match, and not something that happened on the internet, which is shocking for people who know me. The last two people I liked were online. I'm not going into that, because I lost one of my best friends when that happened. I confessed something, and now he's not talking to me. He told me that it wouldn't work, and to find someone closer to me.
I did. James lives about 15 minutes away from me, in the next town over from me. He's only a little more then 2 months older then I am... I met him through Sarah, my best friend, at her youth group one time. We had gone out to Lake Jean, one of the many state parks we have in PA. I guess this wasn't the first time I met him though. I had gone with that same youth group to the same place, exactly one year ago. Now, mind you, this was the first time that I had even talked to James (August 20, of this year) was the day we actually met. I didn't know anyone last time, and I just came because Sarah asked me to. It's the same way now. I don't go for anyone but Sarah and James. They all know that, and they seem to accept it. I'm not sure what the leaders think, though.
I'm worried, because James wanted to go out with me, 6 days after we started talking. Isn't it rushing things just a little bit, though? That's what I wanted to ask him, but, I've never seen him happier. I don't want to break his heart, and I'm happy with him...but... It just seems that we jumped into things. I really don't know, and I'm confused about it. Thoughts?
EDIT: Oh, god... I just went and saw him. He was happy to see me, and his stepmom and father seem nice enough. But, I learned some things about his past that really make me think about the two of us. I know he's happy enough to be around me, but, I'm not sure that he's okay with me knowing about some of the stuff he did. If you care to know, you can PM me and I will tell you. It's not something fit for a lot of the people of this excellent place to read.
He's not supposed to have a girlfriend until he's 18, and that's next May (of 2011). I did not know this when I decided to date him, and, I'm not sure if I should defy all authority and continue to see him. It's not his stepmom that said he's not allowed...it's someone who's a lot higher up then James' mom is.
I'm confused, and I think I wanna cry....badly.