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[fancypost borderwidth=0;text-align:justify; margin-top: -10px;]The serenity of the day was eclipsed by the sheer gravity of the situation. At least, that was how Egg justified taking the physicality of her surroundings for granted. Her one good ear that sat above her chartreuse eye swiveled about, attuned to the multitude of sounds being thrown at her. Attention piqued as soon as the deer made its way over, she found herself awestruck when the seal point spoke. Forgetting the words of the Protector with incidental ease, Egg was captivated by Crackedplaster’s claim to affinity. Jaws parted, Eigther’s astonishment was conveyed quite obviously. The former healer focused intently, doing what she could to remember the past in harrowing detail, replaying certain scenes mercilessly as if to inculcate her forgotten self into her present one. Inundated with nostalgia once more, Eigther drew in a sharp breath.
Genevieve.
There was a time when Eigther had resigned herself to do nothing but heal. Dark as that time had been, it had a certain admirable duality. Despite the intense feelings of worthlessness, Egg had studied her craft with the greatest care. She had been overtly passionate, and spent whatever time she could immersed in her own world. Healing was her gift. The feline’s pallid coat bristled with momentary excitement as her memory was restored. She could almost hear Margo’s frantic words echoing in her ear, and Egg swore she could still the smell the lavender she had used to lower Genevieve’s temperature. Lavender was always her favorite herb, but it seemed it was also the most notable, too. Reflecting back to the way she had maneuvered through the situation, the she-cat smiled proudly. It was a justified pride, though, not an unfortunate derivative of egotistical mentality.
Eigther owed her recollection to her devotion to healing. Without it, the seal point’s significance would have been lost on her. Seeing somebody from her past so abruptly was dubious yet rewarding, for whatever reason. She had no idea what to say. She felt gratitude, but it was so unwarranted she was unsure whether or not expressing it would be appropriate. After all, Genevieve—Crackedplaster—had not come to greet a joiner with the intention of reuniting with a quondam acquaintance. Taking a step to bring her small form a bit closer to Crackedplaster, she mumbled something so softly not even she could hear it. Egg had not formed words, rather she had muttered something incoherent for the sake of it. The silence felt burdensome, and Eigther felt partly responsible for alleviating it and mitigating the tension. ”You look like you’re feeling better. I think this is the first time I’ve seen you conscious for an extended period of time,” Egg said, tail flicking. She smiled. ”Yeah, wow, I mean—I’ve gotten bigger. And I know we weren’t really friends or anything, but you don’t know how good it is to see you. Genev—Crackedplaster, it’s been years.” Grasping for words of more weight and aplomb, Egg stepped back, shaking her head as if in denial. She was delighted, frightened, and confused. Did Crackedplaster know the context of her disappearance? Did she know the fate of Clownkit? Did she know what happened to Spartacus?
It took all of her effort not to ask the questions as they appeared in her mind. Egg needed to acclimate, and that would not happen overnight. The answers would come in time, and that she had plenty of. ”I’m returning home, yes. And it seems like it’s going to be more like home than I thought it would be. I just mean that you’re here, and, well, I thought I was going to have to start fresh.” Clearly, Eigther was confounded. Contradicting emotions raged and fluctuated within her. Surely, though, she could rationalize Crackedplaster’s presence. She knew that, in the end, she was glad she was there. She just needed to adjust. Several other members of the Dominion gathered around her static figure, but they said nothing, so she said nothing. Instead, she waited.
As if the universe was humoring her, she made out the approach of a once stagnant aura. It was an aura that belonged to someone as torn as she was; it was an aura that belonged from yet another old friend, if she could call him that. Cavalier immediately refuted the reprieve she had hesitatingly associated with Crackedplaster’s emergence. She thought of everything the former leader had done, both to her and to her friends. The soft, tentative sound of her nickname resonated eerily in the summer air. At first, she did not dare to meet his odd gaze. Instead, she looked forebodingly at her paws, not daring to face somebody so controversial. But how could she not? Egg raised her chin, making it clear that she was no longer the same hopeless kitten he had known her to be. Resilient and driven, Eigther had no incentive to comply with whatever raucous doctrines Cavalier intended on implementing. She shut her mouth, a hard line replacing open curiosity. Anger boiled under her skin, and she unsheathed her claws subtly and rightfully.
Of all the things that she had thought about in her time away, the exchanges that had occurred between herself and the former leader were what she dreaded the most. It was clearly necessary for her to review their dynamic, though, and no matter how much resentment she expressed towards what transpired, she could do nothing but be a spectator to the past. Bitterness haunted her features, and she felt aggressive. Maybe now was the opportunity to say all that she should have said before. ”You’ve lost the right to call me that.” Changed soul or not, Cavalier’s integrity was solely dependent on whether or not he attempted to right his wrongs. They had both lost mothers, something that Egg thought should have brought them together. They had both been promoted at a young, arguably inappropriate age. They were both susceptible to the judgments of the older high-positions, which were often cruel and presumptuous. They should have been closer, considering all that they endured separately.
She stared at Cavalier, knowing that he had shed his dignity long ago. Maybe he was desperate for it to return. Egg pitied him as he stood before her. She wondered if she should forgive him—allow bygones to be bygones. Shouldn’t she be glad that yet another familiar face had appeared? But to do so would discredit her own morality. Eigther was frustrated at her inability to move on. She wanted the complications of the past to remain there. How could she allow herself to simply ignore Cavalier’s vices, though? She could not. Sighing, she frowned. They would talk but not now. ”We could have been great, y’know. Really, I mean it. And I will forever mourn the loss of what could have been, but I can’t torture myself with possibility. I’m better than that. I thought a lot about how you treated me and everyone other than Col and Sparty. I did, I swear. I thought so much about it that it sickens me. I can’t stand to play the events through my head anymore. You were rotten, corrupted, and terrible. I hope you never know the joy of forgiveness; I hope your actions haunt you forever and constantly instill some higher morality within you. In fact, I’d go so far to say that that I hope you can never truly trust yourself and stand behind your actions with genuine conviction, so you’re always wondering if you’ve done the right thing. But, then again, maybe I should thank you for being horrid. If you hadn’t been, I wouldn’t be saying all of this to you now.
“Honestly, I don’t know what to do with you. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t hate you. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t glad you were here. I don’t know if I can reconcile your actions from before with who I’ll find you to be now. I’m quite confused, and I’m sure you are, too.” Egg had a propensity for delivering eloquent monologues, it seemed. She sat down, looking from face to face, waiting for a response.
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