If only Breezepaw knew. As if it wasn't enough that Morningdew had to worry about getting them all out alive, primarily them, because she would always and would forever consider her own life to be expendable -- she was, essentially, a loner alongside these WindClan-born cats, wasn't she? -- she had to deal with the guilt she felt for causing this situation, too. Trying to catch prey had only driven her to nearly fall off the gorge, and she hardly escaped from that with her life, as well as the lives of the two apprentices that came to her rescue. And trying to escape from the storm only meant that she led them into this den for cover, where a tree on the WindClan moor, of all places, had fallen to trap them inside. So it was that when Breezepaw asked that peculiar question, "Anyone done anything lately that would force the wrath of StarClan down onto us?", Morningdew couldn't help but wonder if... maybe she was onto something. Maybe StarClan was dealing their retribution.
The cream warrioress thought on that, perhaps more than she should have given the circumstances, given the way she should have been focusing on how much mud and dirt she was shoveling further into the den. Just, that story she had just recalled to them... the medicine cat who's name remained just beyond her grasp, who had said that because they refused to follow her word, they would all be condemned to a life of pain and suffering... had she been right? Was this the start of the return of Morningdew's bad karma? She wouldn't have even given it a second thought if it hadn't been for the insane chain of bad events that had plagued her and the two apprentices in the last few hours. But the mere thought only doubled over her guilt. By not heeding the medicine cat's word, had she condemned not only herself, but these two cats with her, who had nothing to do with her wrongdoings?
The thought was so horrible. It was so unbearable to think that she, in failing to save them, might have cost her new home two young and vibrant lives because of her own fallibility. Morningdew wasn't sure she would ever be able to forgive herself -- but that was only if she managed to come out of this alive, too.
"I see light! We must be getting closer!" When hearing the words, she turned her bright blue eyes onto her apprentice, briskly snapped from her thoughts by her voice. She sounded so cheerful, so full of pep... far more sure of herself than Morningdew was. Did she have reason to be worried? In the end, wouldn't it be better if she believed in herself? Most likely these two apprentices would be looking to her for support and guidance. Though she was not much older than them herself, she was the warrior. She was supposed to be the responsible one. And yet she was letting herself fall apart, when both of them were still going strong, having faith that all of them would survive.
"It's not a lot of it, but... this is a good sign, right?"
"Yeah," Morningdew had to focus to stop her voice from wavering, and revealing the extent of her weakness. "We'll be okay. We're going to make it."
I'll make sure you two get out even if it costs me my life.
Sablepaw glanced back to Breezepaw, mewing something that Morningdew didn't hear as she forced her paws in deeper, further out toward the claws of dim light that broke through from the storm outside. Lingering drips of rain chilled her numbing paws, making her claws slip in the mud and completely unable to catch a grip against the slick bark of the tree that blocked them from freedom. The hole that she and her apprentice had dug seemed big enough for them to start trying to squeeze through now. Morningdew wasn't sure she could fit through, but Breezepaw... she was the smallest of them...
"Breezepaw," She spoke so suddenly that she wasn't aware she had almost interrupted the apprentice's words. "You should be able to squeeze through here. If you can, start digging from the other side." Her eyes lingered warily on the roof of the set; like Breezepaw had noted, there was some sign of the smallest caving, and that alone was enough to make Morningdew's fur bristle. If some of the dirt was coming loose, the rest of it would be quick to follow. They were racing against time. "Sablepaw, you try and go after her."
She wanted them out first. Not only were they smaller, but if there was any risk of the set caving, their lives were the priority. She could be remembered as the foolish warrior who's mistakes got her killed -- but she didn't want them to be remembered as the poor victims of fate, who's deaths were no fault but her own.
Before the apprentice could come to the front of the den where they had been digging, Morningdew assessed the opening again, shoveling out a few more pawfuls to widen it. There was a small but sturdy-looking branch that was obscuring part of the hole, and it was the only thing Morningdew thought might prevent Breezepaw from escaping. Clenching her teeth, she reached forward through the opening, ignoring the fact that it drove her muzzle into the dirt and grime, and felt the wood with her paw. If she could break it, then Breezepaw would have no issue making it through. Unfortunately, no matter her efforts to get a good grip on it, her claws never did anything but slipped. Maybe it was the rain; maybe it was the mud that coated her paw, staining it brown as opposed to the pale and soft accent of white; maybe it was her weakness, for the warrioress knew that it had been far too long since her last sustaining meal...
Praise StarClan, eventually her claw snagged into the branch somewhere. Ignoring the taste of the foul badger-scented dirt that clung to her maw, she pulled as fiercely as she could. The good that came of this was that, yes, the branch broke, and the hole was completely clear for the apprentice to travel through. The bad? Morningdew could hardly bite back a hiss of pain, but stayed silent, ignoring the sting that resulted from her newly-ripped claw.
She stamped the injured foot down against the mud regardless. It lanced a horrible bolt of pain through her leg, but she feigned normalcy, refusing to indulge her own need to lament her agony because she knew that to show signs of panic would only put the apprentices on edge. She was fine. It was only a ripped claw. They didn't have to know.
"Go on," She spat out the mud, backing up far enough for Breezepaw to have a clear path. "We'll be right behind you." The warrioress hesitated for a beat. "...I promise."
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