Posts by DEBIRU

Ghoulian didn't drink it. Debiru had thought the man was going to drink the beer not to use it to numb down on his headache pain. That made him blush in embarassment and shame feeling horrible now for assuming such a thing. He felt stupied now. Looking down at his own lap was thinking about what he could about it to help with Ghoulian's distress and headache right now. He would have offered some medicin for it but...mixing alcohol and medicin together was not a good option. It could hurt the organs or it might not have any effect at all. The doctor didn't wanted to risk it especially not when he had no idea how much Ghoulian had drinked to begin with. Obiviously alot... Blushing a bit when thinking back on what had happend between them previously would shake his head to get ride of them while trying to come up with something else instead. Maybe he could fix some ice for him or tell him to drink some water. Playing with his fingers still tried to come up with something but then he suddenly stopt. The moment Ghoulian started speaking to reveal this dark thoughts to him.

Kill himself?. Ghoulian had tried to kill himself?. Debiru looked up to glance at the other man who refused to look back at him with absolute horror. This was not something he had expected to hear but what horrified him the most was that he hadn't known any of this. Not the drinking problem or how much in pain Ghoulian actually had been all of this time. But it did explained alot of things. He started to puzzle the pieces together now to why Ghoul have come to him that night all crying and looking so defeated and destroyed. It had been around the time Darius had died, hadn't it?. But that didn't excuse how blind he had been even if he perhaps hadn't been in a special good condition himself back then thanks to his amnesia but still...he should have figured it out. Just thinking about it and how Ghoulian had all of this time dealed with this sorrow and pain all by himself, alone it broke his heart into two pieces. He should have been here and not in the coven's city. Ghoulian had needed him but because he hadn't been there, because no one had Ghoul had tried to drown it all in alcohol just like how Darius used to. It didn't made him feel any better to know he had been the reason for Ghoulian's final decision of trying to end it all once for all. It was his fault, it was his fault, it was all his fault.

Tears where close to run down the boy cheeks as he for the first time saw how much in pain Ghoulian actually was in by had been hidding. How much he most have been suffering all of this time. He could hear it in his voice, see it in his eyes, and watched as he tried to fish something up from his pocket but failed to. It was to much he couldn't watch it anymore. Debiru couldn't stand seeing him this way. Out of instinct Debiru moved himself closer to the taller man as he moved himself up to reach both of his hands in a attempt to place them gentle around Ghoul's head so he could guide his head down to his chest and he would hold him there, embracing him. " I'm so sorry i d-didn't know." he would speak softly to him. " But i'm h-here now and i promise i won't e-ever leave you again." i won't ever let you feel alone again,he would try to stroke his hair. " I cannot d-die Ghoul. I always comes back s-so please don't l-leave me alone in t-this world..." the last part came out as a hopeless pleading. The thought of if he had come back just one day later...if he had come back to late and Ghoul no longer would be here truly terrified him. It would destroy him.

" Without you i w-wouldn't be able to take it." Without him this world would be like a endless nightmare that never ended. Just him being trapped in a horrible place without a escape out from it. And only god know how much he had tried to kill himself in the past just like Ghoul had. He sniffled as he attempted to hold him closer to his chest. He couldn't lose him.

Debiru just happend to pass by while this trading was going on and he believed it would be good for him to stick around and watch it all to learn if he was going to trade stuff to in the future here. Debiru knew nothing about this sort but wanted to be useful around here and the best way to do so was to make sure thier stuff got sold. Since he was apart of the nurse division that would be his main focus and if not the only one. He was planning to go out soon to try it out but first should probably found someone who was good at making business so he could learn from them and not entierly make a fool out of himself. The kooiker would stop beside Sir Pentious while watching with interest having no idea at all that the buyer who stood here today was thier father. His fathers name was Iceshattered and he had only meet him once before which had been in the exiles out of all bad places and he, despite his crying and pleading for help the tiger had abandon him there not even looking at him like he had been a person but simple trash. Debiru would never forget about it and he had never seen him since and he hoped it would contunie on like that. His own father terrified him and he had never done anything for him aside from being absent during his whole life. There was nothing to say now, that bridge already to damaged to fix. So it might have been a good thing that he didn't know because Debiru wouldn't have known how to react otherwise if he knew his father was just standing a little bit away from him.

i don't wanna overflood you with threads but once you feel up for it this two should have a new thread there Deb comes to visit him and we could have that thread about the horses we talked about before?

Actually, Debiru had already experience in the medic field before. He had been a physician over two years time now but thanks for his amnesia when he first had arrived here had forgotten all about his previous experience. But now with his memories back again Debiru remembered everything which was why he now was showing a such progress. It was not like Aphy know that though since he didn't really talk about it, to anyone really. Just like Aphy had wanted Debiru did had noticed the note in his den after having returned from a flight he had taken to spread out his wings a bit as well to take sometime for himself to think had just arrived back only to found the note Aphy had left to him. The Pollux would read the note carefully before he had left the den again to walk down to the medic den to meet up with the leader just like she had asked him too. Just as he was about to enter the den heared the snow leopard hybrid call out his name. She sounded excited. His training?. So this was about his training as a heavenly apprentice then?. It did made sense with her asking him to come here and everything. " Hello Aphy. " he would greet her and dipped his head to her before seating down in front of her and brought the wings closer to himself under the meantime. " What did y-you wanna discuss?." he asked and titled his head a slight bit. Hopefully it wasn't anything bad he had done or stept out of line or something like that.

Feeling that light touch would make the kooiker turn his head around only to found Ghoulian standing beside him. He hadn't noticed that he had tensed up but started to be able to relax a little bit more now when his friend was here. While he felt relieved to have him here beside him in a time like this one when facing this pack of dogs felt more relieved over to see Ghoulian out for once and not locking himself away in the room rather then his own safety. Greeting him quietly with a slight wave of his tail Debiru would take one step closer to his friend in seek for comfort whilst his attention move back to the pack again and now one of them was talking, the one he had assumed to be the leader of this group to begin with. The first part of the conversation the Pollux stayed himself out from not wanting to confront or add in on a possible conflict despite he too found it a bit disturbing to watch the dogs tearing that rabbit apart but it had more to do with his personal problem with meat right now rather then the dog themself eating. It just made him feel a slight bit sick as he got reminded how he had been forced to eat that dog.

Debiru would wait until the leader actually started to explain to why he was here which turned out to be to join which was relieving, wasn't it?. He hadn't come here to cause trouble although it would probably take time for Debiru to feel comfortable around this gang if he could be honest with himself about it. But that was no reason to be unfriendly even if he would most likely try to avoid them in the future. " We-welcome to the c-cartel then Sin, i h-hope you and your f-friends will like it here." he would force himself to say with much anxiety and dipped his head to him in a form of a formal greeting and welcome, all the while ducking his gaze down to look at Sin's paws rather then his face. It had taken alot from him to build enough courage to say this words but it was done now, having once more battled against his own social anxiety. It was far easier to greet newcommers in the coven then here...maybe because he barely knew anyone here and the cartel...was filled with intimating people. It was easier back at the coven that was for sure.

gonna waste Deb's post here so i can post his 4,000 oneshot mile stolp thread now because i'm finally down writing it.

// TW for brutal abuse and sexual harassment/assault

It was a late evening and Debiru had just returned back to his room he had picked out in the mansion. It wasn't a special big one and not as fancy looking like some of the other rooms but it was good enough for him considering he was flying back and forth between here and the coven. He had just taken of the little shoulder bag he often had with himself to lay it upon the table and felt a little bit exhausted. It was tiresome to be living in two clans right now but it was importand mainly because Ghoulian needed him here right now and he wouldn't let him be alone anymore. That was the most importand reason to why he was here. Just as he had slipt into his own little thoughts a knock could be heared coming outside his door which alerted him straight away. Who could that be this late?. The only two people he could think about right now to come here for a visit at this time was either King or Ghoulian. Still it was strange anyone of them would come to his room especially King but Ghoulian?. He could only think of one reason and that was that something might have happend.

Debiru would get up to his paws to bring himself to the door to open it and had been expecting to see the white saluki standing out there but...instead he found a black panther outside of his door and it was not just any panther..." Jason?." Debiru sounded suprised and who could blame him, it had been a while since he last had seen the panther now. After he stormed away to come here hadn't been seeing Jason in the coven once he had returned back there. He had thought he was gone but here he was outside of his room. " Hey Debiru, may i come in?." Jason would say, sounding calm and collected as he gazed down at him, and Debiru who had no idea about the raging storm that went on inside of the panther right now saw no reason to why he shouldn't let him in for. Debiru would nod his head and let Jason inside before closing the door behind them.

" Look, i have been thinking and i don't like how things ended up between us back then. " Jason would start to explain right away and Debiru would listen as he watched him allowing him to speak. The panther then turned himself around to face the kooiker as he took steps closer and reached out a paw to touch Deb's cheek with it. " I did a mistake okay?. You where neglecting me and i didn't like that. Lets just lay this all behind us, okay?." he would say before moving the paw to Debiru's head to pull him in closer and was about to kiss him...however as Jason come closer Debiru moved his head away which stopt Jason's approching to contunie on with that kiss. Debiru couldn't say exactly why he had moved his head away. It just didn't felt right. He couldn't help but thinking back on what Jason had done how he had kissed somebody else right in front of his eyes which was still something he felt upset over and...then there was Ghoulian too. That kiss between them and what he had said to him the other day. If anything felt confused with his own feelings and he didn't know where he stood right now so it felt wrong. " I'm s-sorry Jace but i can't..." he would whisper.

" Can't do what?." Jason would say sharply and his eyes started to get darker now, this raging storm inside of him starting to explode up inside of him. Debiru didn't reply though just staying silence unsure what to say really. But it was then it just clicked inside of Jasons head. It was that fucking Ghoulian's fault, wasn't it?. That stupied bastard had been trying to steal his prey away from him, hadn't he?!. All of his fucking months of sucking up to this kooiker and he would get nothing out of it?. For how much longer did he needed to be patient for?. For how much longer did he needed to contunie on this facade of flatterings and acting like he gave a shit about this whimps problems?. It was then it snapt for him. " Tch, enough of this bullshit!." Jason would suddenly grap a tight hold of Debiru's head so he could ram it right into the wall and instantly he got right into his face. " You fucking ungrateful little whore!!, how dare you fucking turn me away now!. I have spent months by your side listening to your fucking sob stories! and now you think you can turn me away to whore yourself out to somebody else, huh?!. How dare you waste my fucking time!. How dare you play me for a fool!." Jason snarled and used his other paw to slam it down on the wall right beside Debiru's face while showing him his teeths.

Debiru how had not been expecting this outcome was shutting his eyes closed in fear as that paw got slammed down right by his face, and blood streamed down from the right side of his head after getting his head rammed into the wall. He was scared never having seen this side of Jason before and it made him feel so small right now, a familliar feeling he had felt with Leviathan. Sniffling Debiru moved his head away from the furious panther while shaking underneath his much bigger form. " It...it isn't li-like that!." he stuttering out, not liking this accusation to be called for a whore. It made him remember how in the exiles they had been whispering that about him after he had got drunk with Valentino and they had made out with one another. A night he had regreted every since then and felt very much ashamed about. " Jace...p-please calm down, y-you're sc-scaring me!.." he whined out closed to tears but Jason didn't bought it, he was done listening to him.

" Tch, shut up you little lying whore!!. I'm done listening to your excuses!. I have not come this far to get nothing out of this so you better fucking make up for it, to give me what you have been giving that scum!." Jason spoked and grapt Debiru's under jaws firmly to force his head around to face his and with a cruel smirk would lean in to forcefully kiss the guy with tounge and everything, wanting to get to taste as much as possible from that kiss. Debiru on the other hand didn't enjoy that kiss at all and started to struggle in a attempt to break himself free but then he realised he couldn't do so would use more force...Debiru would lash out his paw and striked Jason's cheek with it to give him a loud slap to force the head away to break himself free from that kiss. Tears now streamed down Debiru's cheeks as he was shaking but not only because of that, he feared what would happen next...

" You fucking bitch." Jason chuckled darkly as he used a paw to nudge his throbbing cheek while side glancing back at the shivering kooiker even more pissed now then from before. To this would smirk cruelly. " I'm gonna making you fucking regret that!." he would snarl before using the same paw to strike Debiru with it to give back the punch he just had been given. It was a powerful one which made Debiru's head spin around and he lost his balance and was about to fall to the floor but...Jason quickly grapt Debiru's throat to choke him as he lifted him up higher up against the wall until his back legs no longer could reach the floor. Debiru gasped for air and kicked with his back legs while using both of his front paws to grap Jason's much more massive one. Jason would keep him up there until Debiru almost passed out because of the lack of oxygen it was only then Jason would show enough of mercy to let him go again so Debiru could fall back to the floor with coughings and gaspings after air. But it didn't took long before Jason went for an other attack as he used his front paw to kick Debiru right into his stomach which was enough for Deb's stomach to crumble up as he gasped for air, but an other come and then one more. Jason contunie on to kick him with no mercy at all until Debiru coughed up blood. It was only then Jason would stop briefly anyway with the merciless kickings.

" Oh Debby you're such a fool, you know that right?. Aside from that pretty face of yours there is absolutely nothing to love about you because that's what you thought right?, that i loved you?. Haha!, you're a such a joke!. People like you're so desperate for love believing everything someone tells you. It's so pathetic to watch." he would say and it really hit close to home for the kooiker. Jason was saying everything he had been thinking about, everything he had been fearing. So he had just been a pretty face... All of this time Jason had just been like Mr Kuromiya and...Valentino too?. Only a pretty face. " I beat the other guy are just like me. He just want your body and once he has got it he will be done with you."

The other guy?. Was he talking about Ghoulian?. No...no..he had wrong!. He refused to believe it. Ghoulian had never treated him like Val or Mr Kuromiya had done or Jason. He had never expected anything out from him, never asked anything out of him. He had never imprisoned him against his will or forced him to do anything he not wanted to do. He had never tricked him or played with his feelings, never made a fool out of him. Ghoulian had never even once pushed him away only showing kindness to him, being nothing more then a true friend. I love you. Ghoulian's words ringed into his ears like washing water to remind him about that conversation. " Ghoul is not l-like that...he is n-nothing like you!!. " Debiru cried out as tears fall down wanting to believe it so badly but...he had been fooled so many times by now. Every person he had ever let in had let him down. Jason was just an other good and fresh example of that. Everyone just left him in the end who was to say Ghoulian wouldn't do so as well one day. Despite his promise. What if he would wake up founding him dead in his room one day or him just disappearing like Chesspieces and London had done, or Mulder and Barghest... Or for the red snake to get him like they had got Breakout...Debiru didn't wanted to think like that but the fear was there and oh so real.

" You sure about that?." Jason would say along with a smirk before leaning down his head and used a claw to catch one of this tears running down the kooikers cheek. Aha, he truly looked beautiful even when his whole world looked to be falling apart. " Well it dosen't matter to me i won't let him have you until i'm done with you. So why don't you just stop resisting me and accept me already. " he would say with a vile purr before moving down the paw to grap a hold of Debiru's chin to force him to look at him. Jason would then move his head down in hope to steal yet a other kiss from the kooiker but Debiru wouldn't let him, using both front paws to press them against the panthers chest as he tried to keep him away from kissing him again. " S-Stop it!!, i don't want to!, l-let me go!!." he would cry out while feeling so powerless and helpless. Jason on the other hand got sick and tired of Debiru contunie on to reject him to keep on pushing him away.

Growling Jason would let go of Debiru's chin to grap his throat instead to fore his head up from the floor only to ram it right back down again making him hit his head very hard at the same time of biting his tounge so it started to bleed. Jason would use both of his paws to grap Debiru's throat as he started to choke him again only this time it was serious. " If you won't accept me i'm going to fucking kill you!!." Jason snarled and that was his intention to choke Debiru to death. Once again Debiru was struggling underneath the others grip for air and for life itself not wanting to die again. But he saw no way out from this. Debiru was once more a helpless victim who couldn't defend himself. Nothing changed. It never did... Debiru started to lose his hope to keep on fighting...losing his will of even trying...

Ghoulian W.A.

Debiru had heared about the incident with Champagne which seemed to have been yesterdays gossips around here. Everyone had been talking and whispering about it, one saying it in one way while next told the story different. Some had even said that the dog had tried to eat Cham. It was difficult to know which one to believe in but for sure it had been chaos yesterday and all while Debiru had been out training with King in stamina. Debiru had been running alot yesterday so he was a bit exhausted this morning not used to be training in this sort of tempo. Hadn't Breakout been doing this sort of thing every single day?. Jogging in the morning, training combat at the evening and then jogging one more time before heading of to bed?. Debiru was amazed over how he had been able to do all of that and still been leading this group while Debiru was tired after just one excerise. It was truly something to admire.

The kooiker had just got up from bed this morning planning to take a jog around the territory like Breakout always had done to copy his morning routines and they said it was a good way to start the day by exercising first before eating breakfast and it could even help with the appitie a bit and Debiru who had difficult to eat properly thought it was worth a shot since well, he needed to put on some weight it wasn't healthy in the way he was going currently by skipping meals so tried his best to change that because it would be good for his training as well.

Debiru let out a yawn right before he left the mansion to head out to the courtyyard and it was then he saw the man with the dogs who everyone had been talking about yesterday. That made the kooiker froze in his steps at first feeling a little bit uneasy but as he contunie on to watch and saw Daeyung actually was playing with the dogs it made him relax a slight bit but also his curiosity grow. When seeing them in this sort of situation they didn't look all that scary to be honest. They just looked like pups playing in truth and the way Daeyung looked at them was similliar to how a father would look at thier kids. That was refreshing to see that Daeyung not always looked as intimating like he had done when he had first joined. Debiru knew that sometimes people looked more scarier then they actually was and judging them for it...that was a bit harsh wasn't it?.

" M-Morning Sin." Debiru would greet the other male softly as he started to approach thinking it would be rude to just contunie on his way by just walking past him and after yesterdays incident felt a little bad for him, and the dogs. Stoping before he got to close would glance over at the playing dogs thinking it was quite enjoyable to watch them playing. " They s-seems to be h-having fun."

Debiru had actually not been sleeping around that time all thanks to his insomnia his sleeping scheme was a complete mess most of the time. So he was actually up seating in his couch going through some papers to memorise for the upcoming test he was going to have in school in some couple of days. It was a big test and it was very importand he succeeded since the competition in the medic school was extremely high and mistakes was highly looked down on. In the middle of reading it all through was when he heared his iphone ringing which had got placed on the livingroom's table right in front of him. Putting the papers away on the table would reach for the phone and saw 'Sin Daeyung's' name showing itself up on his iphone. Uh. This was the first time he had ringed him this early it had to be something importand then. Unlocking his phone would press on the answer button and lifted the phone to his ear.

Listening to while the man was speaking he would tell straight away this was a urgent manner by how fast Daeyung was speaking and what he informed him about. It all sounded serious and he really hoped this was something that could be sorted out with the police. " I will go s-straight away." he keept it short as he informed him this before Daeyung hang up and Debiru would stand up from the couch to put the iphone away into his side pocket before wasting not time. He grapt his jacket and his keys to the apartment before hurrying himself outside and made sure to lock around himself before running down to where the bikes to search for his own which didn't took special long not to found. Unlocking his bike would jump himself up on it before tramping himself away knowing it was around fifteen minutes away from the student apartments to where Daeyung lived which was why this job had been so perfect for him since he could get himself there quickly.

Twelve minutes later and Debiru had arrived to Daeyung's house and tramped himself into his courtyard before getting of from the bike and parked it by leaning it up against the house wall. He would jog himself to the outside of the door and leaned down to fish up the key underneath the welcome mat just like Daeyung had instructed for him to do. Putting the key inside of the locker would twist it to the side until he could hear that clicking sound and would then open the door carefully to not let the dogs out in case they where out there in the hallway. Once he manged to slide inside would close the door behind himself and started to look after the dogs, half expecting them to come running up towards him, Enris at least. She always become so happy when she saw him which was a mutual feeling of course. Debiru really liked all of Daeyung's dogs but Enris had that special place inside of his heart.

// that's all fine! i love writing your posts they are always so enjoyable to read <33

Debiru was grateful for Ghoulian accepting to come with him today since he really had no experience when it come to trading or how to even go through with a business like this. But he wanted to learn so he could be helpful to the cartel even if it was a struggle to push himself through his social anxiety which was an other reason he appreciated for Ghoulian to be here with him right now, just like so many other times in the past. He was a bit worried though that he might be a bit selfish to ask him to come with him right now though considering what Ghoulian had told him the other day, confessed to him actually. I love you. That had been quite some powerful words which had been alot for him to take in to be honest. Ghoulian had been drunk that night too even if he not thought his words had been even less meaningful but it had still come as a huge shook for him, and Debiru was unable to give him an answer to this words right now. He wasn't entierly sure where he stood so needed time to think it through carefully since he believed Ghoulian deserved to get a proper answer from him. Still he didn't wanted things to change between them wanting to act like normal but he wasn't sure if it was a selfish thing of him to do or if Ghoulian prefered for them acting like normal for the time being as well.

" Uhm, t-thanks again for coming w-with me." Debiru would mumble to the saluki seconds before he come to a stop by the border sending a nervouse side glance over at him before glancing away again with ears heating up a bit. Oh Lupius. It was a bit difficult for him to act normal around him in truth when all he could think about was what he had said to him and that k-kiss. It made his face flush up everytime he looked at him now. Swollowing the kooiker would shift his wings a bit and seated himself down while glancing out over the border. " This place is very b-beautiful, don't you th-think?. I visited thier g-garden once. It's really worth to see." he would say softly trying to keep up a conversation until some solarians showed up so they could do what they had come here for, and that was to trade or sell some herbs and medicin, all Debiru had inside a bag he had carrying over his bag.

// please wait for Ghoulian W.A. to post first thanks! (:

Volary flights. A clan he had come to visit some couple of times by now for different reasons and actually liked to visit. They seemed like a peaceful clan and didn't come out as hostile. It was a great clan to come and visit and hopefully Ghoulian would feel the same way. Debiru had tried to be picking out clans that hopefully wouldn't be as judgemental or hostile against them but since he knew it could be a bit different for him coming here today as a cartelian and not a covenian it was difficult to tell. Debiru hoped this people wouldn't be to harsh though...especially not towards Ghoulian. It was a netrual clan they had arrived to after all and why he had picked this one above thier associates was for personal reasons really. The sanctuary lived to close to the exiles territory and he didn't had the courage to go there. The thunderlands...he couldn't bring himself to go there not after what he had done for over a year ago. Rivulet isles and Ivoria he didn't knew all to much about and so on. He pretty much picked clans he had visited before in the past and had been having a good experience with. It truly was for his social anxiety sake. This whole journey after all to come here together with Ghoulian was for himself to learn how this whole business organization worked. Debiru had never sold anything before and with his timid nature it was difficult for him to try doing something like this all on his own. That was why he had asked Ghoulian to come along with him who had been living in the cartel for quite sometime now so knew better how this worked then he did.

" I'm going to try h-handling this one...i th-think.." On his own he meant. Debiru was saying this with much uncertanity to Ghoulian though as he come to seat down by the border while shifting his paws a bit nervousely. He wanted to try doing this even if he had no confidence in himself he would be able to do it. But he had Ghoulian here who could jump in if he needed him to but also he didn't wanted him to. Debiru sorta, in a way wanted to impress Ghoulian by showing he could do this on his own. He didn't wanted Ghoulian to be the only one who forced himself out there, they where doing this together knowing coming out here with him wasn't easy for the saluki either. So...he needed to do his part and do his best too!. He could do this!, probably...maybe...unless he screw it all up. Debiru's face turned a bit pale by that thought.

// please wait for Ghoulian W.A. to reply first thanks! (:

Debiru had just happend to be close by when hearing somebody singing and at first he couldn't detect who the voice belonged to. So he become curious on to who was singing right now in a such pretty tone as well. The Pollux would drop whatever he had been doing before to go over to investigate as he followed the voice and as he come out to the spot Davis stood on the kooiker honestly was a bit suprised to see it had been the golden shepherd who was singing this beautiful song. It was really nice to listening to though and Debiru didn't wanted to interfere in the middle of his singing...Instead the kooiker seated down a bit away as he just closed his eyes to listen and took it all in while starting to relax. It was not often Debiru listen to music to be honest or got to hear somebody else singing but he had to say Davis was very good at it. Such an attractive talent to have.

" Do you need h-help Tem?." Debiru would ask gentle as he approached over to the tabby after having found her in the soil to pick up on the garderning they had started with before the storm had destroyed thier previous gardens and there they used to have lived. Aphy had been encouraging them to start up new gardens again and here Tem was doing exactly that which was nice to see. Despite the females uhm, disinterest sometimes? she still cared enough to do something like this for them which not a person who didn't cared would do. Tem cared more then what other people wanted to think she did, at least that was what he thought anyway. That there was more going on about Tem then she let people see about her. You shouldn't judge someone by the cover before opening up the book to read the material first.

Jason heared when that door got rammed in but he was to slow to react to it at all aside from swinging his head around to stare right into his attacker icy blue eyes seconds before he come at him, forcing him away from Debiru by the others teeths before he got knocked over but was still able to stand on his paws but used a paw to block his face from the upcoming hits coming from the furious saluki which Jason at the moment was unable to block out of the way from.

Under the meantime Debiru had got free from the panthers grip which had left him coughing and gasping for air on the floor. It had been a close call that was for sure and if not Ghoulian had stept in when he had...Death was not something that feared the kooiker anymore since it wouldn't be final for him but still, it was still an horrible experience to go through for someone to take your life away like that. Graping after his own throat which was all bruised and throbbing would glance over to where Ghoulian was currently attacking his abuser, and he looked suprised but also relieved, but that fear was undeniable unable to push away as well. " Ghoul." his voice was hoarse and soft, more speaking out the salukis name in suprise then anything else really. To weak at the moment to really get himself up or to do special much. This was the second time Ghoulian had saved him now but all he could think about at the moment was what would happen next...

" Ghoul you say?." Jason would mutter under his breath, having of course heared Debiru's weak voice and the fact that he was facing that little thief right now filled him with new strenght and power. With a growl Jason would use one of his wings as he attempted to hit Ghoulian with it to send him away right into the wall. If this was succeedfull Jason would lift himself up again with some bleeding wounds of scratches and for some sure spots on his body after the hits but it needed a little more then that to defeat him. " So you're that little thief Debiru cannot stop talking about, huh?." he would say as he spat some of the blood down on the floor before using a paw to wipe away the dropping blood from his mouth. Perhaps Ghoulian had been able to land a blow to his face anyway, tch.

Jason would lift his head up high as he stared down on the smaller male with a icy look and looked quite disappointed over what he found. A skinny little prick with three legs and a ridiculous outfit. He looked like a fool in Jason's eyes, a complete loser. And Debiru had picked this loser in front of somebody like him?. Aha, that did not set special well for the rouge. " I can't believe that Debiru picked a scrawny little thing like you in front of me. You're a fucking disgrace for the eye!." he growled, having at least been expecting someone worthy the competition not a joke like this one. In fact he felt humilated. But it was then he started to smirk, a cruel one.

" You wanna play the hero dweeb?. Fine then. " he said as he slide out his claws and lowered down his head, preparing for a fight. " I'm gonna shred you to pieces right in front of Deb's eyes and then he just have to accept me. Haha, maybe i will let you live long enough just to watch as i fuck that whore right in front of your eyes!. Just so you can hear him cry out my name!. " he said only to provoke, to anger this man because he loved to piss people off and then beat them to death unable to do absolutely anything about it. Watching as that fury turned to helpless despair as they where unable to defeat him in the end. With a sadistic lick to his lips the panther then lunged himself at Ghoulian as he went for his throat.

Debiru paid attention to when Ghoulian wrapped his arm around him to bring them closer which was something he would allow even feeling comforted by. Holding each other like this was something that had been happening alot between them lately.. Hearing him say that he wouldn't try taking his life again would make Debiru breath out in relief knowing it was a long way to get Ghoulian to feel better about life but just hearing him say this words meant at least he was going to try too. Debiru knew life wasn't easy, and he knew the feeling of just wanting to leave the world behind. He had been there himself when Mr Kuromiya had brought him to the exiles...there hadn't been much of a life left inside of him. " Mhm." he would sniffle while nodding his head. " I'll always be h-here for you Ghoul, i-if you need me." he would then say wanting to let him know that. If he ever felt alone or needed someone to talk with or just the company he would be here for him. No matter what. Even about his troubled past, Deb would be hear to listen to it all knowing Ghoul had guilt over past things he had done.

Clueless as he was though Debiru hadn't understood what exactly the words coming from the other man had meant. I want to live my life with you in it. Debiru had never been special good to catch up on things to understand somebody else's feelings. Debiru had always had a hard time to read people, to know what they where thinking about. That was why the bomb Ghoulian just dropt at him was a massive one for him. I love you. Hearing this words slipping out from the others mouth was spinning his whole world out of control. Debiru twas shooked at first, wondering if what he just had heared had been real or if he just had imaged it but...how could he or anyone mishear something like this?. He started to tense up a bit and his grip around the man loosen itself up a bit not holding him as tightly like before but still holding him all the same. The expression right now was with complete confusion and at first there was no words. Debiru couldn't found his tounge or the right words, his tounge felt like it had entangled itself up to a tight knot.

Love him?. What was he saying?. Why would he say something like this to him?. Was it possible he had been so blind all of this time to not see Ghoulian's true feelings?..or. No,no,no. He couldn't think properly right now. His whole head was spinning around, it was a rollercoaster up there as well with his own emotions. He couldn't tell them apart, couldn't tell what he was feeling himself. This had been taking him with such shook never having thought of Ghoulian like that but what did that meant exactly?. That he didn't feel the same way or..had he just refused to think about it?. To supress it all down for the sake of thier friendship... Friendship...what did that even mean for them now?. Was he going to lost it all now if he didn't gave them an answer?, the right answer?. " Ghoul i..." What about Jason?. What about his feelings for them?, had he even liked that guy to begin with?. What was he suppose to do now!!. The worst thing he could think about was to hurt Ghoul and to lose him for good over it.

Letting Ghoulian go now Debiru brought his hands to grap around his own arms as his expression changed into a pained one, an conflicted and confused one. " I had no idea..i.i..d-don't know what to say. I'm s-sorry." his gaze dropt and he looked guilty, wishing he could give Ghoulian the answer he most likely wanted to hear right now but...he just couldn't. It would be unfair of him to say it back if he not...felt the same. Because right now he didn't know if he did or not.

// ouch, this was difficult for me to write i won't lie :-:

Hello Oliver! welcome back to the site (: I can speak for everyone here that we very much looks forward to have you here along with one of your characters and i cannot wait to see what sort of character you are gonna bring here. My name's Seina by the way and i play this boy here!, if ever wanna plot or simple chat you're free to pm me or you can join our discord server which can be found in the covens guide, i think??, if not fill free to ask and i would happily give it out to you!.

I'm gonna keep my eyes out for your joining thread once you bring them over here and i cannot wait to get to roleplay with you and get Debiru to interact with your character ^^

Being here with him was a gift?. Debiru contunie on to seat there blushing as the flirty remarks just contunie on to storm in to overflood the kooiker. " Oh, uhm, i s-see..." he clearly didn't know what to say or how to respond to Cakey's bold approaches. There he went calling him for beautiful again after having introduced his name too him something that indeed made his whole body heat up. Being called for beautiful...it wasn't exactly the words he would describe himself by never having thought of himself as pretty or beautiful and since he had got that scar across his face...his confidence had only sinked down further since then. He wondered though if this guy really meant what he said or if he was just saying it to be nice or wanted something out of it...Debiru had gone through that before. People calling him for pretty or special only to forget about him the next day. But that was not something he wanted to think about right now.

" T-Thank you..." he would mumble shyly and looked flustered over to be called for such a thing. Cakey's full name though he had read before but still it was quite alot to take in still even after his date had spoken it out aloud for him to hear it. Huh?. Debiru at first didn't understand what Cakey was trying to say at first being quite oblivious to this sort of thing. So he would blink his eyes at him looking innocenly confused until you could see how his expression changed slowly to this widen eyes and how his whole face heated up again, burning itself underneath his fur. " O-oh!." he bursted out founding himself speechless there for a second before his gaze dropt to the ground. " I uhm, i-i don't think t-that's necessery." he would tell him in a matter of fact Debiru had never been with anyone before, that was how innocent he was. And following a stranger into bed was just not his thing. " What m-may i call you?, uhm, y-your name is..p-pretty long.." he would speak softly, and with his stuttering it was alot for his tounge to take.

When the flower crowns got brought up and he could see the male looked quite excited over to make some even if he had never made one before was something that made Deb relieved to see. He had been worried it would be a silly or boring thing to do but he got a quite positive reaction from it which was nice...Despite Cakey making him feel very nervouse and flustered he seemed like a nice guy which was honestly relieving to see. Debiru had never done blind dates before for a reason and the main one was he wouldn't know who to meet. " Uh, yeah s-sure!, i c-could teach you. I-it isn't that hard if j-just figuring out the tr-trick." he said as he sounded a little bit excited now and grapt one of the baskest to take some flowers out to show the male what he meant by starting to slowly entangle them together so Cakey could follow what he did and after some few minutes had already started to make a little crown of flowers. " See?, now y-you try." he would encourage him and waited for him to pick some flowers out too so he could watch and help guide him through it.

// sorry for this being so late! i've been a bit overflooded with threads :-:

i really love Cakey though!, reading his posts are so entertaining and i love how he flirts with my boy xD

The first thing Debiru would do as he attended the meeting today was to search after Ghoulian in the crowd but he couldn't see him anywhere and it was highly possible the saluki wouldn't even come to attend at all so waiting around for him...didn't seemed like much of an option. That meant he would have to attend this meeting all on his own and he had yet not really got around to get to know anyone around here... It was then Debiru spoted Daeyung seating down there at the meeting and in all honestly he had been having more of a conversation to this new guy then he pretty much had have with most people here. Some he hadn't even spoken too at all.

The kooiker decided to approach the guy he just the other day had been so intimated and even terrified by but after seeing him play with this dogs...his opinion had changed a little bit. Beside he felt bad for how he had got treated on his first day here also knowing how difficult it could be to get around in a new clan and unfamilliar faces everywhere. Debiru also felt bad too for judging him so quickly just because of how they had meet, and the way he had looked. He...wanted to make up for that somehow to give Daeyung a chance now when he was one of them. Everyone deserved a chance without getting pushed away.

Giving a dip of his head as a greeting to the guy Debiru would seat himself down on the side Thana not was seating on out of respect for the dog while at the same time not seating himself to close to Daeyung either to give him personal space as well. Seating by the back of the group Debiru would listen in to the meeting as it went on taking everything in but not having any special opinion over what was being said aside from feeling a uncomfortable clumb over the mention of the exiles...Debiru had been a victim to thier abuse and violent nature more then once before, and for months he had been forced to be a slave to one of thiers...It made him shift his paws in anxiety while this topic went on but once it was over with and the meeting contunied on to something else the kooiker could relax a bit again. It was only then Daeyung's name got called out in the crowd, twice actually that Debiru would say something but only after having shifted his gaze from side glancing over at the male and then back to the ground contunie on like that for a little while first before actually saying what was on his mind. " C-Congrats..." he would say softly, almost like a whisper and instantly he gazed down at his paws again, blushing slightly.

It was time for an other visit to the court to check up on them and see how they where doing. Debiru had been flying here and landed down by the border and brought the wings in to his sides to let them rest there. Debiru was really starting to get better at this, to fly he meant. A little tired he looked though not having got alot of sleep this past few days having to much to think about not to mention living in two clans now which took alot out of him sometimes. But still he prefered it this way made him keep himself busy.