Posts by Dark Halo

(Goooood morning :P "Goood morning apartment" xD lego movie~ "He's coming... cover your butts" Morgan Freeman<3 )

Luke breathed in slowly and then his breathed hissed out through his teeth as her soft lips touched his skin, he closed his eyes and tilt his head back a bit, licking his lips as he was lost in his thoughts again
"Anju.." he groaned slightly and clutched the fabric of her shirt at her sides, just above her hips "It's not... decent.." he opened his eyes and tilt his head down so he was looking at her again. Oh how much he loved her, though he was angry with his mind and body betraying him. His breath was a little more uneven as he lift a hand and trailed his fingers up her jaw, running his thumb over her soft-pink lower lip. So many thing running through his thoughts as he took a step closer to her once again, so they were just touching. Holding her gaze her asked her
"you dont find it wrong?.." he raised an eyebrow slowly, yes he loved her but there was a thing such as self control and currently, he lacked quite a lot of it. He stepped even closer to her and leaned his front against hers "I want to stay... but it might be better if I dont." he glanced down between them then back at her eyes. Those amazingly blue eyes that shone with her love for him, as his did for her. And those perfect lips that he could kiss all day, Luke cupped the side of her face and leaned down so his forehead was against hers.
"I love you so much Anju-chan... so very much.." he breathed and tilt his chin down just a fraction so their lips brushed, his warm metal piercings touching under his lips just barely. He smirked a bit and sighed, his fresh warm breath billowing on her face lightly
"Oh the things you do to me Anju... I should have every right mind to stop right here.." he said before he pressed his lips to hers once again, and using the shirt fabric in his hands he pulled her flush against him without a care. What thoughts would pop up in her mind? he was curious to know but didnt feel like asking.

(oh, also, should we skip for Rebecca and axel? to when they reach this... safe house? or some other)

(haha awe thank you :3 i dont think i will be all to active this weekend because my mom and dad are going to be off work, not a good thing because they just took my phone away ((think im online too much)) and I had to hide my computer so they would take it )

Jul noticed the tone in her voice and he sat there quietly thinking for a few moments, watching as she wrapped up the wound with some odd white material. Then he lifted a hand that reached out to her curiously, his claws scooping up some of her thin flimsy hair, but her was surprised to find that it was soft and smooth on his fingers. Recalling that this was the humans hair, he gave a slight grumble "how do you decorate?" he garbled curiously, considering his dreadlock like appendages that were his hair had many silver and copper, each dreadlock had at least one or two, some of the longer ones in the front had three. The alien slightly forced himself to sit up, then he let out a few amused clicks as he gazed at her from behind his mask. He had avoided her initial question, if he told the human he was here because his ship crashed, due to a Xenomorph that had snuck aboard his ship, she would likely fear the creature he now had to hunt. In fact now that Jul thought more on it, he started to worry that the creatures would find their way to the town, it was likely that they already had.

(which should probably end with a skip xD alos, Kurosaki is in the room O.O er my gerd! )

Luke's kiss grew urgent and he took some of her hair at the back of her head and tugged it down slowly, tilting her head up so he could kiss her easier. He tilt his head to the side and French kissed her with his eyes closed, then he moved his other hand to the back of her waist and stopped moving it briefly, before he snaked his arm under her bottom and lift her up off the ground easily. Turning so her back was against the wall, his tall body loomed over her slightly but he was not being driven by the demon in him, no it was pure love and passion. Not to mention a need that was now driving him insane,
"I. Love. You," he breathed against her lips, his words staccato and his voice husky, "let me show you?" he whispered and opened his gray eyes, gazing at her beautiful face and not pressing his suit anymore. He wanted her permission and that was it, if she said no then he would stop. Breathing quickly but quietly he glanced over at Kurosaki sleeping on his bed, and then turned his full attention back to Anju, it was hard not to, he couldnt stop thinking about how perfect she was. Even though they had their problems and their demons, they were still human and that's what counted, how human they felt with each other. Despite having their lost moments, well everyone did, its just that they couldnt afford to because it meant a lot of danger if they lost control of their emotions. This was not loosing control, it was having every bit of control he had- and knowing exactly what he wanted. Not to punish himself or her for their mistakes, and not to be a 'monster' which he now knew he wasnt. and never gain would he trust the words her demon spoke from her perfect lips, never again. All that she wanted was for them both to suffer, she had one job and that was keeping the deal Anju had made with her, otherwise Luke would be just a play thing for her.

(no-yes XD duh... *scratches chin and grins* I mean, pfft totally skipping~ *opens up fifty shades* JK haha, now what was that book that you you read again? hahaha )

As the sun began to rise the next morning, the livingroom was filled with a soft glowing light from the suns rays. Luke was passed out underneath Anju, his arm wrapped around her waist and the couch blanket covered their sleeping forms. His snores softly filled the living area as he slept peacefully, in fact when he woke up he would know it was the best sleep he had in a long long time. His fingers twitched and brushed up against her hip a bit, and his hair was messy and spiked in different directions. His free arm was tucked under his head and his cheek rest on his bicep as a pillow since the actual pillows were on the floor, his dreams were more peaceful and filled with better memories and thoughts which was the reason why he was still sleeping. It would be likely that he would sleep in all morning, not that it was a bad thing since he was usually up at five am thanks to some nasty dream his mind had concocted. When he woke he knew that there were some things they had to talk about considering their haste last night, but he was too busy being happy with her in his arms to think about that even in his dreams. Dreams that were usually so full of worries and things he feared would happen. For once his fears had not come true, no it was his wildest dreams that had. Luke stirred under her a bit and grumbled something quietly, something about Axel being an annoying guy. He nuzzled his cheek against the soft under skin of his toned arm, soon he was back to snoring away in his dreams. He felt bad knowing that Kurosaki had been in the house, and he couldnt imagine what the little boy would feel when he woke up to find his mother gone, and laying on the couch with him. He was still a young boy, smart but not smart enough to know what had happened.

(you start with AxR?)

Luke woke when his stomach knotted and growled loudly, his blinked open his eyes and flushed a bit. He lifted his head a bit and looked at Anju, his cheek was read from pressing up against his arm and a smile played on his pale lips. His hand moved slowly and gently rubbed her back, never in his life had he felt more happy and at peace. Though this didnt last long as worries began to pop back into his thoughts, he shook his head slightly and then took a deep breath in, her body rising and falling with his breath before he spoke softly
"Anju?" he whispered and ran his hand up and touched her cheek lightly. His eyes adoring and filled with love as he gazed at her, swiftly he licked his lips to keep them from being dry. Luke was not able to sit up or move without accidentally disturbing her sleep, so he waited and watched her quietly. With a peaceful expression and a gentle smile on his lips he began to hum softly, rubbing her shoulder a bit and breathing in and out lightly. Oh how happy he felt, a feeling he wished would stay for ever.
Reality check genius, when she wakes up she is going to pummel you for not thinking about safety first. he sighed and then lift his head to rub his face a bit, yeah im not the worlds smartest guy, but im pretty sure neither of us thought about that. he shot back dryly, arguing with his conscious like he was some crazy nut case. It sort of made him feel like one, when in truth if he wasnt linked to some dead soul then he would probably be some normal teenage guy wasting his day away playing video games or sports.

Rebecca nodded quietly looking asleep on her feet, her bag was hanging off her shoulders and down over her bum with the straps so loose and her shoulder sloping down with exhaustion. She tilt her head back and yawned to the roof slightly, tottering a bit and snapped her eyes open again before she really did fall asleep on her feet. All night she had been driving towards this fancy place they now stood in, who's was it anyways? she was quite curious as to that answer. Closing her eyes for a brief moment she quickly drift off into dreams and tottered again, her hair falling forward before she forced herself to blinked them open. Letting out a quiet and tired sigh, all she wanted was to just collapse in bed and sleep all. day. Though she knew she had to wait, dragging her tired amber gaze away from her feet she looked over at Axel and offered him a smile. Hoping that he was at least feeling better, both boys had slept in the car and she was glad for that, maybe Axel had regained some of his strength. Oh did that mean he would start up with his comments again? she sighed and then looked away in slight disappointment.

(oh right right right XD i knew it was whisper something... going to ask my friend Olivier about that, I bet he's read it xD he is french... we all know what that means hahahaha though he is a h- dog x3 )

(NOT EXCUSED- just kidding haha, was it a good lunch? im just eating noodles and chilling. in my room. hiding. OH and my sister dropped my dog off the deck, he had a leash so he didnt fall all the way, but still, makes me want to drop her off the deck :\ )

Luke shook his head quickly as a feeling of panic swept over him, no had he offended her? his arm tightened around her waist slightly
"Ie. Anju-chan... I... last night, was the most perfect thing that has ever happened but I.." he closed his eyes and breathed out slowly "I am sorry, but i think you might have to take a back up pill." he let his head conk back dully against the arm rest of the dark brown couch, closing his eyes in shame and swallowing heavily. His index finger slowly traced a circle on her hip and he lay there with an unyielding arm around her waist.
"It couldnt have been better, last night. I felt so overjoyed and I didnt even know how to express my feelings except... well I was so lost in my thoughts I didnt even think about safety. Please forgive me, my love." he whispered and opened his eyes, then he moved and began to slide up into a sitting position, holding the blanket around her and keeping her against his chest "I swear I was not trying to pull anything with you, but I guess your just my weak spot for self control," he tried to joke, offering a small smile. Oh how he felt that he had disappointed her so, let her down in some way, which he had to be honest. There was no way they were ready to face any harsh consequences, and he wasnt about to add to her stress in life just to hide the fact that he had messed up. Slowly his fingers traced her jaw and he let his thumb brush over her bottom lip, breathing in slowly and sighing the air out "you are so amazing.. so beautiful... I would never want to cause you any harm or pain... I am just an idiot for not remembering." he said flatly in annoyance with himself once again. He hoped she would forgive him and he would make sure she was happy the entire day, she didnt need to be upset when he could add to the amazing happiness they had both had last night.

Rebecca placed a hand on Usui's shoulder lightly, she crouched down slightly and sighed, knowing she couldnt speak but her actions and her gaze asked him 'feeling okay?'. Her eyebrow was raised slightly as she gazed at him with worry, tucking her hair back behind her ears lazily considering she probably wouldnt have the energy to stand again. Oh how tired she was, but Usui came first and foremost, he was the one who didnt deserve to suffer this ordeal. Between them she was the adult and she would make sure she acted as such, and took care of him to the best of her extent. Resting an elbow on her thigh she rested her fist one her cheek and gazed sleepily across the room. When younger man left the room she glanced at Axel curiously, what had gone between those two with such few and.. particularly secretive words. She licked her lips slowly in thought and then looked back at Usui who was hugging his bag, still following Axel orders to remain hushed, she held out a hand in offer to hold Usui's bag for him. Her long but almost delicate fingers spread out and curled slightly, as well as her gentle amber gaze on the boy. Sure he wasnt a talker but it kickstarted this feeling inside, a feeling like she had to help, to make sure this boy didnt suffer so badly.

(oh also, my mother might be home from work soon, so it is likely that i will poof without warning, and should likely be back by six? or maybe later. im not sure, but if i dont answer at all then that means she has my computer too)

(yeah, im probably going to get in trouble for not doing the dishes and being in my room all day, thats about it haha xD actually i did put away the ones i washed last night since no one did that. and none of my sisters have done chores not to mention they said NO to doing the dishes, so whatever.)

Luke's eyes widened "you thought?- what oh hell no Anju, no offense but if you thought you were THAT bad then.. why am I still here?" he grinned slowly, it was a very attractive grin that would make a girl weak at the knees, and it was rare for Luke. He couldnt help being so happy and so.. confident with her, that how she made him feel at least. He leaned and placed a swift and deep kiss on her lips, before pulling away "well in that case ill go get dressed, you make breakfast and I can get my wallet for you? no offense but.. its kind of my house and my job to stock the cupboards." he said and tucked some stray hair behind her left ear, kissing her brow and then hugging her close with a sigh "be safe while you are out, and take my phone for gods sake." he mumbled, remembering last time he had left her to her own devices, she had been out for hours without so much as a text. Briefly he wondered if Kurosaki was awake, and then he worried that the boy would walk in on them like this.

Rebecca moaned softly and snuggled up to the pillow, she had started falling asleep in Axels arms and didnt even remember getting to the bed. All she knew was that it was comfy and warm, she sighed and then thought about it for a moment before she realized Axel had been the one carrying her. Though she knew she was alone her cheeks flushed and she turned her head into the pillow, allowing herself to fall asleep.
Usui was sitting at the table doing his homework quietly and Rebecca was pacing back and forth for some reason, the scene skipped and suddenly she was in that hotel room pinned down to the bed. Though it was not the man she remembered but Axel who stood there with a dark grin and a gun in his hand "So disappointing you are Miss. Takahashi, I almost expected better." his eyes traveled down and she started to panic as his fingers neared her shirt. For some reason his white shirt was soaking wet and plastered to his muscled torso, his dark eyes meeting her wild amber eyes that were wide. She couldnt move or do anything as he tugged her up and against him, leaning and brushing his lips over her ear. The words he spoke were muffled and she found herself gasping for breath-. Rebecca woke up with a gasp and she sat bolt upright, her hair damp and her skin warm to the touch. She sat there panting and looking shocked, considering her bodies reaction to the odd dream. She slowly got up and saw that outside the window the sun was going down, going over to her bag on the ground she grabbed out a white dress with spaghetti straps, the fabric was a light cotton and had an elastic through the fabric causing it to cut off the flow under her chest and then the skirt of the fabric flowed out and down to her lower thighs. Quietly she walked out of the room on bare feet and glanced around slowly.

(to late, my sisters are telling on me for having the laptop in my room. Im busted because none of these brats know how to knock. Anyways;... its likely i wont be able to speak to you at all once my mother gets home and they tell on me with some story of lies. but whatever, just gotta take it silently)

(well... i dont know its weird... mom just came home with pixxa chips and pop.. she ignored all of them trying to get me into trouble, sat down and turned on a movie.. i might be safe.. might not be. Anyways going to answer reply now :3 )

Luke got up with a look of amusement and he gazed down at her "like I said, best night of my life. And I hope I was.. to your liking." he smirked slightly and nodded at her question, his grin widening "I think that sounds like a good idea to me," he threw her another wink and then leaned, pressing his lips to the top of her head and then moving behind her, one hand going to the small of her back gently, his finger tips and heel of his palm just pressing up as he led her down the hall. "If i could explain in words what last night was to me.." he shook his head slowly "all I can say in hopes that you can decipher my male ego- is that I loved it, and I love you. I would do anything for you." he murmured in her ear and opened the washroom door, his arm reaching around and stretching out in front of her as he turned the door knob. Though he kept an ear out for her son, hoping the boy would catch up on his much needed rest for the day, giving them at least a little more time together, thats all he asked. Slowly he nudged her into the washroom and closed the door behind them, going over and turning the shower on. (skip to breakfast?)

Rebecca saw a room across the hall and noticed through the opened double doors, that it had a ivory large piano. She breathed in slowly and then walked across the hall into the room, looking around to find it had a couch for relaxing and a book shelf and a desk on the fair side with a big chair, it looked to be a mix of a family room and an office. She bit her lip and sat down on the piano bench, sliding down slowly and then she lifted her hands to the keys. Slowly she began to play, gazing down at the ebony keys as her long fingers gliding smoothly and gracefully from spot to spot. The melody picked up slowly and echoed the room and out into the halls softly, it was a bit of a sad melody but beautiful all in the same. Her long hair fell down onto the keys like a curtain, the sun shining through the window and turning her hair golden bronze.

Luke grinned as Kurosaki prayed, he was quite amused at the boys attempt to be polite and mature. He himself had never been one to believe in anything except the present and whatever life brought him, he kissed Anju's cheek and scooped up a plate of food "mm thank you," he said sweetly, though he was worried if she tried to lift her son like that to much she might strain herself. He sauntered over to the table, wearing a pair of slightly snug black jeans on his long toned legs and a simple gray band shirt with BfMV written in blood red across his chest. He sat down and looked at Anju's son "did you sleep okay?" he asked, his deep voice easing into a gentle tone as he spoke to the little boy, fearing that the kid was scared of him. After all he really was tall dark and dangerous, when his other side showed. In truth he was bashful, corny, sometimes a pretty good comedian- and sometimes not so funny. His heart was big and he tried to love all, it showed in his steel gray eyes as he watched the boy with a slight smile. He would try his best to be Kurosakis friend, not his enemy, not his nightmare.

Rebecca stiffened slightly and her breath hitched as strong arms wrapped around her waist, then that voice, that dark scary voice from her dream. Oh how drawn to him she was, she bit her lip and forced herself to continue playing, but the tune was more hushed now. Her chest rose and fell slightly quicker then before and she turned her head over and glanced at him out of the corner of her good eye.
"this is not my home to go making coffee for demanding men. I'm afraid I shall have to apologize for touching the piano, I could not help myself.." she whispered and looked back down at the keys, though her skin came alive like an electric current as his skin touched hers. She tried to ward away the feelings and put up her barricades once more "Is there any reason why you are touching me after my recent ordeal Mr. Awyzuia?" she asked curiously, though she willed his arms to stay there, for him to keep talking and his dangerous smell to envelope her still.

Lukes eye's widened and he grabbed Anju's wrist quickly, he stood slowly and gazed down at her "look, I am not sure who exactly he is talking about, but yelling at a little kid-your son- is not the proper way to handle things. He's only what? two? he probably doesnt fully understand whats wrong with the situation," he told her slowly and then let her wrist go "who is Wren?" he inquired now, wanting some answers as to why Anju would snap so suddenly at her own son, mother or not yelling at children was a hard limit for Luke. It was clear in his stone cold expression as his gaze went between the two, in the way he sat down with a straight posture and calmly crossed his arms over his chest. Though he said nothing further and just waited for an answer, yes, Anju was a very very young mother and she had never had much of a chance to raise the boy at all.. It still irked him a it, even though he was one to yell when he was angry. With a sigh he picked up his fork and resumed eating, waiting to hear an explanation from the both of these two, after all he was seriously out of the loop here and was going on a whim that Wren wasnt exactly Adonis.

Rebecca gasped in shock and her body was ram rod stiff as his body enveloped hers slightly, her fingers faltered on the keys as she stopped playing. The last keys of the melody echoing from the room. What was this man doing to her? she couldnt even stop the warmth spreading across her skin and the rushes of electricity where his lips touched. Her breath hitched and she closed her eyes, forcing herself to at least retain her ability to speak with him doing this "that was.. indecent Axel. And yes.. you do scare me.. that fact is... clear yet I cant help but be curious as to why you do this to me? unless I am not the only one?" she said quietly and took her bottom lip between her teeth, looking down at the piano keys and then folding her hands in her lap. "You have a good job- many good friends it seems," she added flatly, meaning the wealthy mans house they were currently in "and obviously the ability to get what ever woman you want. So why on earth are you treating me so?.." she asked and opened her eyes, her gaze blank and distant, despite all the thoughts running through her head. Then her dream came back to her and she lost control of her breath again, panting slightly she wanted to pull away now, he couldnt know what he was doing to her because he would only gain sick satisfaction out of it.

(yeah I still have a year before I can leave legally -.-' it stinks)

Jul grunted slightly and then he reached a hand up, his clawed fingers pulling off the mask with a slight suction considering the mask was form fitting to his alien face. The as it came off he stretched out his mandibles and glanced at her with amusement glinting in his ice blue eyes. "Ooman. I come from far, as you sssee," he clicked his mandibles and pulled them in tight over his sharp toothed jaws, almost in a smug like grin. Then he resumed speaking his garbled human speech, oh how tedious and annoying of a language it was.
"My ship, crashed as there was attack by the prey. On my ship there was other aliens to your species, you enemy I am and they too. They populate fast, consume and kill, and now they are here, missing from my ship. I followed here, but trail ended and my strength not hold." he said.

(omg.. Im so sorry.. I kept reloading the page but there was no post.. i had no fricking idea it had gone to another page D: )

Luke was quiet for a good long while, he leaned over slight and rested his forehead on the table, smelling the blood and hearing Kurosaki's whimper he spoke up quietly "Your mother is just sick thats all.. she will be okay. I am sure she is just worried for you buddy," he said and closed his eyes before he got up and began clearing the table, he stacked all the plates and then glanced at the little boy. He smiled reassuringly trying his best to seem as happy as possible, not a fake smile but he was earnestly trying to cheer the boy up. Then he held out a hand "can I take your plate for you kiddo?" he asked and raised a dark eyebrow, smiling a white toothed smile and tilting his head "gotta do dishes for your momma, want to help?" he asked curiously, maybe if he helped distract the kid he wouldnt worry so much, and Anju might have a little less weight on her shoulders. He was a little scared for her, considering he knew her body was unable tp handle stress. After he was done the dishes he would check up on her, and he hoped she would be fine.

Rebecca sucked in air but it continued to escape her lungs quickly, her back arched forward and up a bit, her shoulders dropping back a bit in defeat and she couldnt believe her ears as a soft moan escaped her lips. Her eyes closing and her skin absolutely alive under his hand, her heart beating heavily and rapidly which in turn heat her skin from head... to toe. Her teeth grit slightly at this revelation and she held back the answer, though he already knew what it was, she hated to admit it but the breathy word slipped from between her lips "yes.." she whined and her hands balled in her lap. Oh she was a doomed soul for this, may the heavens forgive her soul but didnt everyone have their quirks? Turns out hers was growing an attachment for some sick man who thought she was a... toy the word was sour in her thoughts and she dug her nails into her palms, surely leaving marks.

(I actually felt like such an idiot x3 I saw the '9' for the page count and i was on eight, I just sat there like... om fg. I had sat there two hours refreshing the page but saw nothing. I just wants to bang my head against the wall over and over hahahahahahah *flops on bed* where as my brain gone, summer is bad for me.)

Luke brought the plates into the kitchen, his hands trembled slightly as he set them down in the sink and smiled a bit as Kurosaki giggled. He let the boy use one sink and he used the other to wash the bigger dishes, scrubbing like it was his career so he could focus on something besides Anju's pain. Pressing his lips together he scrubbed until the pan was spotless, rinsing it slowly and taking his time then setting it in the drying rack. Each movement was clear that he was worried but forcing himself to stay quiet and strong, for Kurosaki, for Anju and for himself. He knew that Anju was likely starving for a hunger that no human being would want... It made him feel a little sick at the though and he raised a hand to his neck, rubbing his fingers over the nasty scar on his neck. He swallowed quietly and closed his eyes, bracing his hands deep against the counter and locking his elbows and he leaned forward. Then he lift a hand and opened the window over the sink, pushing it open and letting the cold air wash over his face, bring him out of his memories so he didnt have to deal with it anymore. He could not loose control in front of the boy, he couldnt put either of them in danger.

Rebecca on the other hand was puddy in his arms, as his lips touched hers her eyes rolled back and her eyelids slid shut. Another quiet moan escaping her throat and her hands clutching at the fabric of her dress over her abdomen, she thought it was bad the rate her heart was going at but it wasnt like any man had made her feel like this before. When his hand moved to her hip she rolled them forward a bit, her flat stomach up against his abs and her chest pressed against his. Then his hand moved up her shoulder and in her mind she screamed No! Rebecca stop it, get it together!! She stiffened against him and trembled in fear, oh how confused she was. She knew one thing though, he was trying to scare her, and not for his own satisfaction, he was trying to scare her away. She understood now and felt like a fool for not guessing sooner. Her hands reached up and she took his face in her hands, kissing him roughly and tilt her head a bit. Sliding one hand up into his dark hair before she tugged it hard, and then her lips were gone, her hand was away from his hair and she was pulling away. Standing up between him and the piano "fine. I get it. I lost." she admitted and tried to quell her racing heart and her discomfort. Then she quickly escaped his intimidating presence, walking towards the door with her hair swaying back and forth along with her hips. The suns rays outlining her figure through her dress as she walked, then she was no longer in the room, instead she was crossing the hall quickly and opening her guest bedroom door.

(okay T^T silly homework.. bleh. well my parent are not home they all went out for the day, but im not sure when they will be back.. hmm)

Luke moved swiftly and went down the hall, though he was cautious enough as he knocked on the door instead of barging in "Anju? please... tell me how to help." he murmured against the door, not loud enough for Kurosaki to hear. The poor boy was hiding under the couch and Luke had a feeling that the little kid had seen this happen to many times, the only thing was, she was losing her life by the seconds. Luke was scared she would die on him, no matter what words she spoke, enough blood loss and the human body just couldnt function. As he had before, he contemplated giving her himself to squelch her hunger, but he knew she would rather kill herself. Though the demon would be all for it, he knew in the end if that happened Anju wouldnt want to live any longer. What was the difference! he was loosing her anyways as the seconds ticked by "Anju?" he called again, his voice louder and fear seeping into his voice as well.

Rebecca closed and locked the door behind her and she went over to her bag, she tore all of it out in search for the bottle of headache pills "no... where are they?!" she ran her hands roughly back through her hair and felt her chest tighten and her eyes heat up. She grit her teeth and then got to her feet, tottering a bit and going over the the bathroom. She locked the door to the washroom behind her as well and went to the cabinet above the sink. Opening it and searching for something, but it was all vitamins and band aids, simple things. She grit her teeth and shut her eyes tight. Before looking around and going to the large showers, opening the glass door she reached across and snatched up a shaving razor. Gripping it tight in her hand and contemplating, shaking with fear and loss and an aching heart. Then she turned the shower water on so it was steaming hot, burning her skin and making her whimper a bit. She took apart the end of the shaving razor and felt a sob bubble up, she didnt want to take it anymore, why did she have to fake being brave?
Always so much loss and those happy moments are so fleeting, they are never even there. Am I really dramatic? no he just wants to cause me pain and make me feel bad about myself... escape the pain...