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She's still not answering your question, but you promise that you won't ask again. You promise on all of your honor and all of your blood and all of your everything that you won't ask your ex-matesprit about her sex life again. [color=#5c005c]"That'S AlL? You'vE BotH JusT BeenN TalkinnG?"
===> GODDAMMIT NANIRE!!
YOU'RE SORRY, YOU CAN'T FUCKING HELP IT, YOU HAVE TO KNOW.
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[color=#bcbcbc]Shura received the jerky thankfully and began to eat it. "Well, I've always thought that it made me less fun," he said, smiling a little despite himself and what he was saying. "Unless it has to do with challenging for nests in the emergent, I usually don't take risks, so I stay at my nest a lot."
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[color=#5c005c]"I'M JusT AskinnG IF TalkinnG IS AlL You'vE DonnE WitH HiM. ThaT SeemS KinnD OF DulL. HavE YoU BotH WennT AnnywherE OR DonnE AnnythinnG, OR HavE YoU JusT BeenN SittinnG ArounnD AnnD TalkinnG?" Even without the bolded text telling you so you know that you're on shaky ground and that you have to be careful since you're walking on eggshells, and you can throw in all of those other idioms about being cautious about what you say, too. You want to know, but asking bluntly if they've had sex yet is a bad idea, and you really don't want Aamina to hate you.
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[color=#bcbcbc]This surprises Shura a bit. "Really? You don't think I've been holding you back or anything?" he asked. All he'd been doing this entire time, he felt, was messing up and being slower than Alette to for her to be slower and take less time.
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You sigh. Look at you, you're making her uncomfortable now. You shouldn't have asked that stupid question. [color=#5c005c]"NneveR MinnD. I GuesS IT Doesnn'T MatteR. JusT ForgeT I SaiD AnnythinnG." you look to the ground, embarrassed and angry at yourself. Gog, you're so stupid, aren't you.
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[color=#bcbcbc]Gradually, Alette's warm smile is able to put a smile on Shura's face, as well. "You're sure?" he asked, just craving confirmation. He'd thought he was being a pain with all of his slow carefulness, so it was a big shock to hear that he wasn't one.
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You don't say anything for a moment, just looking at the ground with a frown. She's mad at you. You can feel it. [color=#5c005c]"AaminnA, ArE YoU MaD AT ME?" you ask her, just wanting to make sure. Either way, you're going to feel bad. All of this is going terribly and you hate it. You just want to be happy with her and have her be happy but you can' t look at her without reminding yourself that she's with Srithe and she'll never leave him for you. Apparently she's willing to do that with you to be with him, though. It hurts a bit, but you want to keep loving Aamina, but to do that, you have to get over your envy and hatred of Srithe, and that'll be nearly impossible.
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[color=#bcbcbc]He nodded then, deciding not to mention it anymore. "Okay. But I'm still going to try and get better so that we can be on the same level. Even if you don't feel like you're being held back by me, I don't like having to be helped and taught. I want to get the hang of it someday so we can do things side by side instead of with me falling behind or you going slowly for me."
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"AaminnA, I'D NneveR WannT YoU TO FeeL BaD," you say quickly, feeling even worse now. [color=#5c005c]"ThE QuestionN Wasnn'T EvenN AnnythinnG ToO ImportannT. AlL I WannteD TO KnnoW IS WhetheR YoU GoT CloseR ThanN A HuG AnnD A KisS, IF YoU KnnoW WhaT I MeanN." Even if it's important, you still really don't want to ask the question itself.
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[color=#bcbcbc]"Good then," he said. "So, will we keep tree jumping from here, or will we try something else? Not that I have a problem with tree jumping, I'm just wondering."
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You nod. [color=#5c005c]"I JusT WannT TO KnnoW." You want to know because if they have done the do with each other, not only have they gotten farther than you and Aamina, they've also pretty much sealed their matespritship. They loved each other so much that they did that with each other. You wish you had that. Instead, you had sex with your moirail, and not a troll that you loved. It hurts.
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[color=#bcbcbc]"I think maybe we should tree jump a bit more. I want to get the hang of it," Shura said, starting to get determined now. You really want to get good at it.
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You had already known it from her reluctance to answer you. You exhale a shaky breath, and you hold your hands together as if you're trying to comfort yourself. The news is still big to you, but you try not to imagine it. She's happier with Srithe than she was with you, she's made that more than clear. You've lost her for good, you're sure of it now. Before you can stop it, a little tear trails its way down your cheek, though it's the only one and you wipe it away. [color=#5c005c]"...OkaY, ^" you say quietly. You can feel that she's looking at you, but you don't want to look at her out of shame. Knowing that she's looking at you to see your reaction makes you feel worse for even asking. Knowing is better than guessing, you guess, but you're still wounded by that.
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[color=#bcbcbc]Shura was surprised to see Alette moving so fast, and he tried his harder to jump after her, trying to use his wings less and less. While it was hard to adjust to not glide as much, he was doing pretty well, for the most part, although he hit his arm on a branch. There was a somewhat deep gash, but he disregarded it and carried on. He was only a few paces behind Alette by this point.
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[color=#5c005c]"It'S OkaY, ^" you repeat, your voice growing shakier as you feel as if you're about to cry more. You become aware that you're shaking now. You didn't ever think that you would react this way when you asked the question. You just thought that it would help you move on from Aamina and grow into acceptance. Instead, you feel like you're about to break down. The only reason you think you're still saying 'it's okay' is because you're trying to convince yourself of it. Well, clearly, it's not working, since you still feel like you're falling apart and on the verge of becoming a wreck. You understand why Aamina isn't doing much to help you. You probably deserve this sort of feeling since you asked the question. You also hurt her in a lot of ways, so it only feels fair.
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[color=#bcbcbc]It was only about a minute until Shura caught up wit Alette, and he was confused and somewhat saddened to see that she'd stopped. Was she waiting for him to catch up again? "What's wrong? Why are we stopping again?" he asked.
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[color=#bcbcbc]When she puts her hands on your cheeks, you trick yourself into thinking that she'll kiss you, but you don't mind the hug, either. It's better than nothing, definitely, since you weren't expecting any support at all. You continue to shake and tremble as you return the hug rightly, sobbing horribly and crying more than you can handle now. You feel so stupid, making her hug you like this when you really don't deserve it. Now that you're crying, you doubt that she'll let you go anytime soon, and while that would usually be a good thing, the guilt is overwhelming. You want to tell her not to be sorry, but you really can't stop sobbing and crying now.
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[color=#bcbcbc]You keep wanting to say something, but you're still unable, as nothing comes from your mouth but blubbering and loud sobs. You hold onto Aamina's clothing tightly as you continue to cry. Her apology is nice, but you still don't think she should be apologizing. You're glad to hear that she loves you, but you almost don't want to hear it. It's not the kind of love you want anymore. You want to be able to kiss her without Srithe making her reluctant to do so, so being told that she loves you while knowing that she wouldn't like you like that anymore only hurts a bit more. You want more than just this hug. You'll only be happy with a kiss that neither of you would end up regretting, but that's impossible.
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You keep trying to convince yourself that you don't need to cry anymore, and in time, it works, and you stop sobbing so you can speak. "YoU HavE NnO ReasonN TO BE SorrY, ^" you ensure her quietly, still holding onto her tightly as you cry silently now. [color=#5c005c]"PleasE StoP ShakinnG LikE ThiS.... ^"
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The screech was more so in reference to the vaporizing joke, but these raw feelings hurt, too. :c
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[color=#bcbcbc]You hear Aamina say that she has to go, and you almost don't want to let her, but you decide that that's for the best. You're both pretty broken up at the moment. You need to go home and think about this all, and Aamina needs to see the troll who she loves the most, the troll whose very presence in her life is not a presence that makes her confused and worried like yours does. You stop hugging her and clutching onto her clothing and you pull away so you can wipe up your tears. You say nothing, just waiting for this to end.
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