[fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:430px][justify][size=7pt]Life is a fickle existence, proving to be neither a friend nor foe for such simple terms are not able to be place on something so vast, a stat which could never be contained by any mere mortal nor even that of an immortal. So many words can be spoken to describe it, to try and give a form to this shapeless creation which draws us all along upon a path that had been set so long ago but it would never come to work, they are all useless and eventually crumble away like dust in the wind. It did not matter the age or the time spent on this plane of living none could come close to containing the existence of life within such a tiny prison as the mind nor that of the voice or heart, it is not to be done no matter those who try. Within a moment one can be begun and life is crafted in the flames of some distance heaven for some, others merely thinking it comes to be made from the nothingness of space and time, yet can end so quickly like that of a candle wick being covered, the flame dying in a matter of seconds. Each person began and ended within the same format though death seemed to come within forms that the mind could not comprehend even when given time, death hanging heavy upon that day, or might it be possible to stop it from occurring? Time will only tell if the weak soul of a mortal could come to be saved but the child was not to bypass that chance to be claimed today, the last one had been all used up and now was the time for it to end.
This place had been crafted as many others to be a place where certain life thrived and that of others came to die slowly and painfully, seeking a way to quench their thirst or hungry, to heal their wounds yet finding no salvation, no sanctuary in which they would be safe for it was an unforgiving land, a place only the braze or stupid would come to tread. She was neither though, or at least she did not think that she fell within either category, a want to leave this place had seemed threaded through her from the moment she realized that her home was hell, but he had tried so hard to force it aside. In this land life is just a speck to those that might come to end it and this mere fact scared her, once there had been so much to live for but this fear had waned over time, no longer did she care for this place or those within. Her family had seemed to disappear off the face of the earth and she had been left behind, trailing along within their wake without hope of catching up. Did she really want to, though? So many times she had thought to simply run from this place and to be free of the shadows which had been thrown across her the moment that first breath had entered her lungs but she couldn’t, everything was here that she had once lived for so there was no point in leaving unless it was a more permanent fixture, such thoughts something she would not entertain for an end was something she seeked though one of such magnitude was not that.
In truth the child did not know any longer if death was such a bad thought for there was nothing here for her and seemed that there never had been, she was a face within the crowd so easy to forget as all are even if their name is etched in stone, eventually memory becomes tainted and those who hold it die themselves. All are forgotten in time, how long it takes differs but it seemed to have already come to happen for her for none knew her and she liked it that way. She was unforgettable for no one remembered her, the perfect way to end it all was now but was she truly brave enough to do it, strong enough to end it all and take another of her small family from this earth?
That was it, she didn’t know and her heart ached at the prospect of leaving her family in more pain than they had been with the end of Megaera, a mother who she had loved and yet had seemed never to be there, a figure head more than anything, gone after the first day never to be seen again. Maybe it was better that she was gone to a place better than this one or maybe she had been dragging into the depths of hell for her sins, which ever would this child go to? No sin had come to happen in her short life yet many had been dragged down the same as she even without being tainted by sin, all that mattered was her heart was blackened as was her soul. All that innocence was gone, that little girl, once so pure and perfect, if one could call one so broken perfection, had been shattered so long ago. Pain was what she found her and most like was to find in the next life she came to move to or the desolate existence she would lead once this one ended, which ever was to happen was hard to tell but she wished for neither of them, she just wanted it all too end.
Her mind was a swarm of such thoughts which followed this path as the child known by the name of Valkari drew on, walking so slowly and seemingly with purpose touching each short stride, feeling the harsh texture of the sand and the burning heat that it came to give off as contact was made. This place was not made for one such as she, one meant to be kind and good, this was a land of sinners who slept around behind their lovers backs, who lied for the fun of it, who killed for amusement or joy, of those who drank or found pleasure in getting high only to cause more damage to those around them. They were all broken, puppets dangling upon fraying strings following to the tune of masters they would never come to meet, laughing at their pain and suffering while the rest looked on. This was the cycle of life, that constant pain and temptation which destroyed all within the end for it didn’t matter how strong you thought you were or how hard you fought, the end was the same for all. Death and life is but a meaningless cycle made for the creators are sure to get bored eventually, it always happens and is never to change, their amusement in their wild little antics ending in due course only to bring one up to the death block.
Harshly she shoved these thoughts aside, she did not want them nor did she think any should have been a witness to such vile things as those who had surly made them, those terrible creatures which ruled with an iron hand at all times, punishing those they wanted without thought, caring for none but themselves. A sound arose within her chest and she was surprised at this, that deep and echoing growl so dark and filled with contempt, her choice finally made now. Death was better than any life she could have but she was strong, she would not succumb to their wants, she wold prove that she was not just a puppet for them to play with and discard when they were bored. She pushed herself to move, forcing her legs to move and soon the sand came to flew behind her as her pace quickened, becoming a study jog which drew ever further into the twisted land of that desert, the thick and cloying smell of decay and blood tainting the still air. The source was known by all here yet it was touched by something else though she didn’t care for the moment, why should she when she knew not that this third scent was to be her undoing?
Within the distance she knew the border of discarded bodies would be present and she rushed towards them with all her might, wanting to get past them and just keep going, to get anywhere that was far away from this place, but her plans were to be cut short. She drew to a halt when she noticed the bodies once and for all, looking over the bones that had long since been picked clean of meat and bleached beneath the sun, nearly covered by the mass of torn flesh which had been piled up on top. Each corpse told the story of someone who had come to their ultimate end in this place where death was a companion all walked beside, hand in hand from the moment they first step foot within this place, it was an inevitable occurrence. Now she looked upon the flesh of the dead and could not the help the nausea which arose within her, threatening to make her empty the little that remained within her stomach into the sand, yet she forced it to stay down, teeth digging painfully into her tongue, bringing with it that thick coppery tang of spilt blood as the skin easily broke beneath the pressure. She didn’t want to see this sight but it was necessary to get out of this place and she quickly forced herself on, running towards the bodies and catapulting so she did not have to come into contact with them, falling into a heavy heap upon the other side.
But she was not alone, though still at a distance she easily made out the distinct figure of a feline yet there was something wrong with the face, it was bulky and toned black whereas the rest of the body was blue, extending out into a circular grill through which to breath. It took sometime but she finally came to realize that it was not the face of the being but a gas mask that had been so carefully placed over his head to hide all features, but the scars, rather terrible marks earned by the flames, still scoured his body. Slowly the head turned and she looked into the clouded lenses of that mask and could not help the fear which grabbed at her, mint hued eyes fuelled by hate looking back at her and she was sure that he was smiling behind that thing. “Good night, sweet girl, you breathe your last,” the voice exploded within her head with such force she could not help the scream which tore itself from her throat, surprise all she felt at the low hissing tone which had voiced these words, causing her to stumble back and fall into the bodies.
She noticed this rather late for the smell of decay was all she registered at first, filling her nostrils but her vision was obscured by the sight of the many bodies, blackened by their appearance in front of her and she simply laid there, hoping that the stranger would leave. But he had other plans, a stick had been shoved into the ground so one tip had been suspended in the air, this end burning, the bark crackling as the heat came to peel it away from the wood beneath. Carefully he grasped it and tugged it from the grasp of the sand, tossing it at the old bodies in which had been dried by the sun, the flesh that still clung to the bones so easy to alight. It took moments for it to catch and the large piles of dried leaves he had come to scatter about the mass, cracking as it come to race along the length of the line, eating away at it all only to reach the figure of the lupine buried within the discarded bodies. She listened to the flames eat away at the bodes around her and came to feel fear rise within her as the heat quickly accumulated, pain flaring as it finally reached her, the fine hairs along her spine the fire to ignite. Her first thought was to stay there and just let the end come but soon the pain rose to a point that she forced herself to rise, shoving at the bodies which weighted her down. The time it took to get her out was rather lengthy and large patches of her fur had become completely singed off, the skin that had now been exposed blackening and cracking, blood seeping through this large patches of burnt flesh. Tears rolled down her cheeks and she forced her way out of that prison of flame, seeking the figure of the feline once more but he had disappeared, gone once his job was finished.
Putting him aside for the moment she moved over the bodies again, feeling the heat scouring her paws and legs, searing the skin there and making her journey back to the Capital all the more painful. Death seemed likely in this situation for her body had become a mass of charred skin which wept crimson tears yet she was strong, she was not going to die here if she could help it, dragging herself on through the burning sands. Each breath escaped her lips in a rugged gasp and she felt her strength wanning as each second drew on, yet her path was so close to the end, salvation at hand if she could only get herself there. “H-help…” she murmured this single word for she was simply done, there was no strength left in her and she simply collapsed within the sand, feeling the fine grains dig into her skin, irritating the burns but she didn’t care anymore, all she wanted was too sleep now, her eyelids slowly slipping shut.
[ this took way longer than it should have and damn it, how the hell did i get from bushmedicine to this? someone please tell me cause damn it this is just, i have no words anymore, i am just so damn tired so i shall sleep now ]
