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  • how many characters does it take for your muse to break

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 360px][justify][size=7pt]the character itself doesn't matter
    i have to be in the mood for their personality
    i have a sassy/sarcastic character and he always has muse
    i have a bitchy character and don't usually get a lot of muse
    i always have muse for shy, cutie personalities
    it depends

  • help

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 360px][justify][size=7pt]the one box camp one is perfect! thanks!

  • sdrty

  • sdrty

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 360px][justify][size=7pt]keeping
    jackbuilder
    darius
    wendydarling
    curtis migale
    computerglitch
    (possibly?) ariel


    cutting out for now
    orangeglow
    brackenmagic
    antseeker
    yuzuki
    sundaypaper
    striationdapple
    alas mist
    laakeri
    bicoloured
    distantwavelengths
    giuseppe
    tinselteeth
    time waits for no one


    co-owns
    colourpalette
    des
    hera
    feja
    freya
    lecter


    temps
    firelight
    ironicwords

  • CO-OWNS AND TEMPS?

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 360px][justify][size=7pt]alright. a few of my friends mess with me for how many characters i have. so, i'll give you the skinny: i need to break away. i need to only work on fiveish for now, not over twenty.


    sooo, i have some a hella lot characters that need homes.


    please only offer to co-own or temp if you are ADVANCED, ACTIVE and MATURE. I'm sorry, but because these are my honeybabes this might not be newbie friendly. Go ahead and offer up, though!


    Most of these are 1st gens and none are hps because of how many there are. Do not be taken aback, this is why I need help.


    CO-OWNS
    if you for whatever reason won't be active please pm me so i'll know to check the threads more often.


    des********
    gen. 1 son od npc x npc
    hawkclan
    pale silvery-blue fur and pale yellow eyes
    quiet, sickly, hates fighting and killing with a burning passion
    literally won't hurt a fly
    wants to be a medic
    7 moons
    writing sample with and without him


    hera**********
    gen. ? directly related to ishmael
    scarclan
    maine coon with thick, long brown tabby fur and coppery eyes
    funny, friendly and curious
    ferdinand's "eternal" apprentice
    30 moons
    writing sample with and without her


    freya***
    gen ? daughter of ao shin x ?
    the skulls
    akita pup
    super sweet and outgoing, optimistic, motivated
    8 moons
    writing sample with her


    lecter***********
    gen 1 npc x npc
    the covenant
    wolfdog
    based off of hannibal lecter, creepy, passive-aggresive, cannibalistic, likes to tease graham
    9 moons
    writing sample with him


    ironicpaw ironicwords*****
    gen ? buckinghampalace x i don't remember, adopted by gallowscalibrator
    riverclan
    pale cream tabby with greenishyellow eyes
    closet ftm trans, wants to be a boy, based off of dirk strider, sarcasm is her/his native language, loves being called the prince of heart, is extremely ironic
    12 moons
    writing sample with her/him


    TEMPS
    unsure of length of temp.
    please give back if i ask.
    if i lose muse and you seem to be doing well i may let you keep the character.


    firepaw firelight**
    gen 1 npc x npc
    windclan
    red tabby with green eyes
    bitchy, rude, mean, secretly extremely insecure
    10 moons
    writing sample with her


    colourpalette********
    gen. 5 daughter of Acrylicpaints x Justdance
    sunclan
    scar across chest going down stomach from dearlea (sp?)
    calico with green eyes
    aloof, clever, rebellious
    26 moons
    writing sample with and without her

  • character placement

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 360px][justify][size=7pt]you guys probably get sick of these and i'm sorry


    i've got a new character, wendydarling, and i'm going to apply for her in a litter, but i can't tell what clan she should go to. preferably not a violent clan or anything extremely inactive. she's based off of wendy from peter pan.

  • wow ha ha should i bring this up with my counselor?

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 360px][justify][size=7pt]alright. NOT trying to fake a disorder. i've been accused of that before with my depression... not cool. so if you're just going to post about how i'm faking it, gtfo.


    alright. so. i feel the need to bring up the possibility of me having DID with my counselor, but i'm not sure. DID, aka dissociative identity disorder, aka mpd, aka multiple personality disorder, is where your brain creates alter people in your mind to help you cope with things. they are usually but not always caused by repeated emotion, physical and/or sexual abuse.


    while it's been questioned before about my family being emotionally abusive sometimes (a few people think my grandma is? and a lot of people say my dad is) i don't think that would be enough for it to be caused my emotional trauma. however, i have been sporting a lot of the symptoms here lately. well i've been sexually harassed and physically + emotionally bullied so maybe that's it? I dunno honestly unu


    the biggest thing at this point is the time blocks and my issues with not being able to tell whether i've actually done something or not. with DID, you usually (but not always) experience "time blocks" when an alter takes control. this can cause partial or complete memory loss in the time. i've noticed especially recently that after an uncomfortable situation, an argument, a near fight, etc., i will try to think back to what happened and find that i don't remember everything. it's a little different each time. i might forget things i said, or things the other person said, or things i did, or things they did, or i might confuse the order of things that happened. it's happened on multiple occasions, and it's really really weird. i've had to give reports of a fight, or an argument, and found that i couldn't remember hardly anything. any awkward or uncomfortable situations leave me guessing and trying to fill in potholes of what happened.


    regarding the other thing; every once in a while, we all have that feeling. "did i do this or was i just thinking about doing it?" "did i really do that or was i dreaming?" but seriously? it is now a daily basis. a game. i like to replay my day while laying in bed before sleeping, and it's gotten to the point where i'll have potholes, memory blocks, where i can't for the life of me remember who i was talking to, or what i said, or what they said, or if that conversation even happened at all. i have to check three or four times because i can't remember if i've actually done something or if it was just me thinking about it. i've literally thought to myself "did i actually have that conversation with my grandfather, or was i just dreaming?" and "did i really kill a roach last night, or was that fake?" the memories i have problems telling difference between fantasy and reality seem kind of hazy or foggy, and details are lost.


    i feel like i'm the only real person and that no one else will ever be able properly prove to me their existence as a thinking thing. i feel like everyone is fake, just a game. from what i read, this is something people with DID tend to think? i've felt that way for a while now.


    apparently the whole forgetting during stressful, uncomfortable or threatening situations can be (if the said person has DID) an alter trying to defend the host?


    when i'm upset or hurting or anything, i hear someone trying to console me, and i know they're not like, in the room, or anything, but it's not an all the time thing. i tend to talk out loud to myself and my brain sort of responds sometimes without me knowing what it's going to say.



    also, i've had an auditory hallucination a few times recently of a phone ringing quietly. what?


    should i bring this up with my counselor next time i see him?


    *if you're unsure of DID, please look it up before posting. thanks!*

  • ALL THIS AND HEAVEN TOO / bottlepaw x richard ; hp x hp litter

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 360px][justify][size=7pt]save


    moooo
    guess who cut out all but jack, darius and curtis as full-owns
    of the other eight i've decided to keep right now
    six are up for co-owns
    and two are up for temps


    [spoiler=notes][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 360px][justify][size=7pt]calico
    green eyes
    wendykit - wendypaw - wendydarling
    based off of wendy from peter pan
    preferred clan - shadowclan
    plot - falls in love with a darkclan cat armywife/soldierboy plot
    esfj "the guardian"

  • CAROLINA / EASTERN USA USERS CLICK

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 360px][justify][size=7pt]hey. i know this usually doesn't go here, but be careful. i'm a florida kid. you know that storm that went through and is heading (if not already hitting) toward you guys? yeah. i got it first. let me tell you. never has my city been on the national weather channel. i'm in pensacola. guys. guys. be very careful. my play director dragged us out (none of us were assuming it would be that bad) besides the flash flood advisory and tornado watch. i was supposed to get home at 2145ish. i didn't get home until quarter to midnight, just after the scare of my life.


    any streets that are lower or have even the slightest dip? flooded. you go to low into the water and get your sparkplugs wet, you'll get stuck there until god know's how long waiting for them to dry out. three people drowned because they didn't get out of their car and the water got up over the hoods of their cars, trapping them in where they couldn't open the doors while the water got in through cracks. my mom and i almost stalled out at least five times and it took almost two hours to get home. we got over 27 inches of rain, and that isn't even counting what was in the storm drains, which by the way were so flooded out that water wasn't even going in anymore. we were at the last speedbump when water got my mom's sparkplugs wet and stalled out our car. fifteen minutes later the car started up again and we got over the speedbump. we knew that our street was high up and that if we just got past that speedbump we'd be okay.


    guys, never since that house was bought in '91 has there been so much water.
    we got past the speedbump and stalled out in water that got quickly deeper. the storm drain we were stalled by was gushing water, and it was up to our doors. after five minutes, water was getting in the back door. long story short, i got out and tried to get to my house, but i couldn't because of the lightning and the fact that some of the yards were completely flooded out. long story shortish, my mom thought i'd fallen into the water because she couldn't find me. she ended up finding me, and today the water's gone on our road, but it was one of the most terrifying things in my life. all the water on my street was up to the middle of my thighs.



    please please please be careful. god, be careful.


    cars
    we drove through here
    sinkholes caused by the flooding

  • CAROLINA / EASTERN USA USERS CLICK

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 360px][justify][size=7pt]that's why i posted this, tikki. none of us thought it would be as bad as it was. that street didn't even flood when we got a direct hit from hurricane ivan. this is a very powerful storm system and i want everyone to be aware.


    it depends on how north you are, perfy. it's going as high as north carolina, as far as i know.

  • WCRPG EDUCATIONAL TUTORING PROGRAM || open || STAY RIGHT AND BE BRIGHT

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 360px][justify][color=#BDA58D][size=7pt]User name;; OPIA ?!
    Age;; 13
    Private or Public or both?;; public
    What time zone do you live in?;; central
    Level of Education or School Grade;; going into 8th
    Strongest subject(s) English, science, writing
    Weakest subject(s) For teaching people, math. I love it but I can't help with it
    Have you had any experience in being a tutor?;; I've helped younger kids with reading and writing
    I am available to assist anyone in the following;;
    Any writing classes
    Any English or reading classes
    Student may contact me also through...;; pm cx
    Will also be open as a student;; no
    Other;; this may not matter much, but if you've ever heard of the STAR reading test that they do in elementary school, they stopped making me take it in second grade because I scored a 12.9, the highest you could get on the test. (12.9 meant that at second grade I had the reading level of a twelfth grader in their ninth month of classes). So yes, my age may be young, but I tested out to the point that for online reading and writing things they were giving me college-level things to do in 3rd, 4th and 5th grade. I'm also *possibly* skipping eighth grade.