Posts by sadify.

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    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]"It was horrible," kurt had murmered in tespomce to ehr question about the interviews. He really, really hates them. He hated how everyone wantsd to know his own personal life that had nothing to do with anybody else. and he hated talking about himself so that dudnt help. it was funr when they spoke about the band, but anything else he absoluteky hated. kurt had been in the closet, quickly changing from his jeans into a pair of old pajama pants, an old band shirt on qhwn he would comeback out, the very tired looking kurt smiling brightly as he saw leo. "hey leo," he had spoken softly, kurts own eyes bright as he was soon under the covers with them, sitting against the headboard as he had held leo
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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-size: 1px; color: transparent; letter-spacing: 5px; margin-top: -13px;]marsy loves you lots

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    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]Kurt had smiled happily as he had looked down at Leo, hearing his words, his eyes bright. "That's right.. Now you just have to remember to flip mummy off like I showed you, remember?" He had grinned, joking as he had looked towards Maria, a smirk on his tired features. His teasing smirk had settled into a smile as his eyes had landed over her baby bump, kurt always seeming excited about the baby, but also worried. His bright eyes had moved back to Maria again as he still held Leo as Leo played with Kurts hair. "We're you feeling okay today?"
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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-size: 1px; color: transparent; letter-spacing: 5px; margin-top: -13px;]marsy loves you lots

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    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]kurt had nodded as hr had looked towards hee, obviously always wprried over her and her pregnancy. he would always worry about her like crazy furing the day when he wasnt with her, it madr her feel horrible. hhe haf looked towards her as shr winched from the kick, his eyes on her. He gdntly reached out eith one od his hands, genrly placing it on her pregnany belly
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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-size: 1px; color: transparent; letter-spacing: 5px; margin-top: -13px;]marsy loves you lots

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    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]Kurt had kept his hand there as he had looked up at Maria with those bright blue eyes of his, happiness twinkling within them as he just showed her such a happy smile as he felt the kicks of their second child together inside. Kurt couldn't believe he was there with her, feeling the kicks of their very own unborn child whiletheir baby boy lay beside him. He wouldn't take it away from anything, at all- never ever. This was just so perfect to him, he loved the, both more than anything on the planet. He had seemed so happy, until suddenly he felt the kicks stop. He didn't think of anything at first, but as soon as he looked up at her and saw the twisted pain on her face, heaving Leo's words Kurt couldn't help but sit up more, instantly worried, "Maria.." He suddenly sounded horrified, worry and stress settling on his features as he looked at her, his eyes wide.
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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-size: 1px; color: transparent; letter-spacing: 5px; margin-top: -13px;]marsy loves you lots

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    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]Kurt was petrified. He was so scared as he held Leo as he clung to him, kurt looked so stressed and scared as he had stood up, the now wide awake Kurt helping her up gently, looking horrified as he did. He soon was helping her to the car, holding a crying Leo as he did, trying so hard to take care of the both of them
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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-size: 1px; color: transparent; letter-spacing: 5px; margin-top: -13px;]marsy loves you lots

  • if you'd like to see me fall (p)

    [fancypost borderwidth=0; width: 350px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; line-height: 12px]yay! ill post my chari hopefully v soon- & the whole male thing is fine, i was planning on playing male anyway c:

  • "you can trust me.. i won't hurt you.." ( girl needed . pafp . semi-adv. )

    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]once she was out of the room, dave and krist and quietly talked among themselves, discussing topaz's obviously deteriorating self care, and what they were going to do to fix it- and soon. it was blindingly obvious that topaz wasn't taking care of herself in an acceptable way at all, and it was extremely worrying just seeing her like that. it wasn't like it was entirely her fault or anything- topaz was clearly the type of person who put people before herself drastically, and having a child who needs it's undivided attention, and a man who was barely functioning in her life is obviously not an easy situation to be in- at all. what she had done for kurt was needed though, him being there, the way he was, and so drugged up and scared out of his mind without anyone he knew was going to make him go insane. he had been laying in the hospital bed, feeling so tired and down thanks to the medication they had gen him- he just felt like a zombie. it was a very pleasant surprise for kurt when he saw the albino walk through the door into the hospital room he already hated. dave and krist had looked up at topaz as she had came back into the room, their eyes on her as she stood in the doorway. "topaz, im going to make you a nice lunch okay? in the meanwhile, krist is going to go upstairs and draw you a nice relaxing bath, okay? you're not taking care of yourself, and it's obvious topaz.. you're not selfish for thinking about yourself, i know you're worrying about kurt, but he's a grown man. you out of all people know he;s already been through alot, and he can't do anything to himself right now- he's in hospital, surrounded by people who are trying to care for him, okay? you need some time to yourself," dave had spoken softly
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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-size: 1px; color: transparent; letter-spacing: 5px; margin-top: -13px;]marsy loves you lots

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    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]kurt looked so paniced as he had started the car as soon s it was in it, his skin a ghostly white, looking so scared as he had sped to the hospital, continuosly looking back at maria the whoe time, a frightening worry in his eyes. as soon as they had arrived, kurt was out of the car and helping her out, holding leo at the same time as he supported her into the hospital
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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-size: 1px; color: transparent; letter-spacing: 5px; margin-top: -13px;]marsy loves you lots

  • "you can trust me.. i won't hurt you.." ( girl needed . pafp . semi-adv. )

    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]Both Dave na diarist had such a sad look on their faces, both of them as they looked up at topaz. Her, Kurt had Caspar- the family that her and Kurt had tried so hard to have and create to be something that their family hadn't been. They has wanted everything to be happy, but now it was anything but happy, and none of them deserved it. "Topaz, yes we do. It's not any trouble, we just want to help you." Krist had spoken softly before his eyes had moved toe abe for a second, before he was standing. "cmon," Krist had spoken again as he showed her a soft smile. It wasn't long before Krist had drawn her a bath and left her to herself in the bathroom to have a nice warm, relaxing bath, while Dave was in the kitchen preparing a nice lunch for her.
    Kurt lay there in the hospital bed, his tired and aching eyes meeting the one person he knew in the entire place and didn't make him feel so crazy horrified and abandoned, it was Marcus. He had always been there for him and topaz, always had been there for his support and being so generous to them both. Kurt just layer there. He wasn't the same Kurt anymore- he just looked like an empty shell, so broken and scared. Mentally, he was a different person- this new illness, it was ripping him apart, it wa doc plenteous taking him over. Kurt was also just so drugged up on the medication right now, everything seemed so surreal and in a haze to Kurt right now. "I- I don't know.. I- Ive ruined everything, topaz is scared of me and Caspar is too.." He had stuttered out, his voice quiet as he just wanted to cry
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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-size: 1px; color: transparent; letter-spacing: 5px; margin-top: -13px;]marsy loves you lots

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    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]Kurt didn't leave her died. He was that scared, that nervous over everything.. What if it didn't work out? they couldn't loose a baby... And what if something happened to her?! His mind was just rushing with the worst possible occurrences possible. He was just so scared, just so horrified that something terrible was going to happen. He stayed close to he in the emergency room, not leaving her side as he just looked down at her with such worried eyes.
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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-size: 1px; color: transparent; letter-spacing: 5px; margin-top: -13px;]marsy loves you lots

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    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]Their baby girl was beautiful.. A little girl, so tiny, so small. Kurt was just in a daze, as soon as Maria had gone into shock Kurt had just completely zoned out. He was so scared and worried over everything, he was just so out of it as he heard their new babies cried and screams, Kurts eyes landing on the tiny little baby's, his body feeling paralysed by how worried he was over Maria.
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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-size: 1px; color: transparent; letter-spacing: 5px; margin-top: -13px;]marsy loves you lots

  • "you can trust me.. i won't hurt you.." ( girl needed . pafp . semi-adv. )

    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]Kurt really was just giving up on everything- the way he was mentally right now, was just ripping any caring part of his personality out of him, and literally any motivation to fight for the family the family that he loved more than anything. To him, topaz and their child was the only thing he really cared about- he could have nothing, just as long as he had topaz and Caspar he would be fine, he wouldn't care. You could say he would be happy with them- but Kurt wasn't happy right now. He wasn't happy at all, actually. All the joy had been sucked out of him with this new horrifying illness, everything was just so completely messed up within him. He had looked up at Marcus as he spoke, before he just couldn't handle it as he closed his eyes, tears slowly coming from under his eyelids as he just laid there silently, looking so fragile and broken.




    Krist had looked down at the purring car, gently leaning down to stroke it's soft coat for a second before he had moved towards the kitchen where Dave was. Once in there him and Dave discussed Everything from Kurts illness to topaz, resolving that the band was on a break until Kurt got better, of course. The media was going crazy with Kurts admittance to the hospital, especially with the seemingly disappearance he had had, refusing to go to any shows or do any interviews or just anything. Tabloids theorised over something to do with a suicide attempt or drug overdose- that was always what people seemed to assume about Kurt now, instantly.
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    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]kurt had instantly taken leo into his arms, holding him close for a moment the little boy huggwd him tight, obviously upset. "Its okay Leo, mummy is going to be finw, ans you have a little sister now," he had apoken softly as he looked towards Leo. Everything was dtill so frightening for kurt. He really was so scared over how Maria was, but at the same time all he wanted to do was go and see their new baby girl. "How about we go see your new sister?"
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    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]Kurt felt like he was in some type of strage dream as he held Leo, moving towards the sounds of the newborns cries in the room, his vision landing on that of a beautiful little girl, kurt instanntly feeling tears coming to his eyes. She was so tiny and small, yet she was just so beautiful. Kurt had just smiled, feeling so overwhelmed with a beautiful emmotion simular to when Leo had been born. "Look Leo, it's your little sister." he ahd whsipered to Leo with a smile. It was then he realised that Maria and him hadn't even thought of a name for the new baby girl yet.
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  • "you can trust me.. i won't hurt you.." ( girl needed . pafp . semi-adv. )

    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]( Sorry I havn't replied for absolutely ages! I know I seem to be doing this alot lately, between school and work I've had very little motivation to repy to anything lately, I will try a little harder though. )




    A broken, mentally ill Kurt had looked up at the nurse as he had spoken, listening to his words. As the targeting words were heard, something inside of Kurt just seemed to switch. Suddenly, like the flick of a switch, the drugged up Kurt had suddenly became very.. angry. He listened to the nurse's words who was most evidently just trying to help Kurt, as slowly but surely a frown had came across Kurts tearstained face, his eyes burning into the nurses. "I want to go home." Kurt had stated, his eyes on his. "I want to go home right now and see Topaz." Kurt had spoken once again, a somewhat force behind his voice. This wasnt the quiet and naturally kind Kurt. This was the Kurt that had broken all of his promises and had cheated on the woman who meant the whole world to him. This was the drugged up, hating fame Kurt. And he wanted to go home- badly.




    Krist hadn't even really been thinking- at all. Between everything that had been happening, Krist's mind was a billion miles away. But as he followed the fussing cat to the door of the bathroom, the sudden realisation of what could actually be happening to a very weak Topaz hit him. As a flush of fright came over him, Krist had instantly knocked on the door loudly, needing to know if she was okay. How stupid had he been to leave her there like that?! Anxious, he had waited for any type of erply to come from behind the door




    Krist hadn't even been thinking. With everyhting that had been happening,
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    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]Kurt hadn't left their newborns side until the moment she was taken away, the tired and stressed Kurt being ensured that he could see her at any time. He was a mess. With the baby being born premature, she had to be placed in a special unit, and Kurt could tell the whole thing was already going to be stressful. At the time when Maria had woken, Kurt had been sitting in the chair beside her bed, half asleep with a similar stated Leo in his arms, his bright blue eyes flickering open to the sound of Maria's voice. "Maria, it's okay.. she's fine. We have a beautiful little girl," his smile was genuine, a tired one, but it was happy as his eyes met hers.
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    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 6px solid #f2f2f2; background: url(http://i.imgur.com/rWMoTpX.gif) center; background-size: cover; width: 130px; height: 145px;][/fancypost][fancypost bgcolor=#e6e6e6; border: none; border-top: 4px solid #0d0d0d; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; height: 79px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-top: 1px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 158px; min-height: 79px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 9px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]KURT D. COBAIN —




    “birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don't speak bird.”




    [align=center]♓ | ♂ | ⚤
    [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost] [fancypost bgcolor=#f2f2f2; border: none; border-left: 5px solid #0d0d0d; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: hidden; padding: 7px; margin-left: -4px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; padding: 0px; padding-right: 24px;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 309px; min-height: 250px; padding: 0px; text-align: justify; font-size: 10px; color: #0d0d0d; line-height: 8.5px;]Kurt had nodded sleepily at her words, showing her a soft and carrying smile for a moment as Leo had moved out of Kurts arms, moving over to Maria's bed. Kurt just looked tired and stressed as he sat there, looking extreamlh washed out in the bright light of the hospital room, his blonde hair and blue eyes contrasting against the plain white, sterile look of the walls that surrounded the.
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  • "you can trust me.. i won't hurt you.." ( girl needed . pafp . semi-adv. )

    [align=center][fancypost bgcolor=; bordercolor=; borderwidth=0px; width: 388px; color: snow; line-height: 100%; font-size: 10px; text-align: justify; text-transform: lowercase;]Kurt looked up at the intelligent male before him that was responsible for such generosity and kindness towards him and topaz in a time that they had really needed it, and all he could do was think how much of a waste of space he had became to topaz, especially at marcus's last words. he was nothing but a stress to her. he had failed as a lover, failed all of his promises, even the ones he had made in the very beginning, that he would protect her, not let anything hurt her. he had lied- he, all along, was the one who had really hurt her. in the end it wasn't her parents which was the reason for their acquaintance in the first place, not the man who had taken her, not anyone who had ever tried to do something to her since they had met. he was the one who had hurt her the worst. mentally and physically, he was killing the woman he loved. and he couldnt stand that thought. even in his state of mind right now, he couldn't deal with it. he just looked up at marcus, he anger out of his eyes seeming to disappear within a split second as he just turned his head away, squeezing his eyes shut, wishing he had never ever existed.


    krist didn't wait any longer, instantly opening the door, havign a clear idea of what could be happening to her. of course she had a worst head space then them in this situation by a ton. but to both krist and dave, kurt was a loved one too. he was like family to both of them, and seeing a family member deteriorate into nothing but a mentally unstable and unpredictable mess was so hard. the sensitive, caring and creative kurt had turned into the unpredictable, moody and at times frightening kurt, and they were all so scared- what if the 'old' kurt could never come back? krist instantly saw her body slipping under the water, seeing her seemingly unconscious as without second thought he had moved quickly grabbing her by the shoulders, pulling her out of the water, beyond worried.

  • "you can trust me.. i won't hurt you.." ( girl needed . pafp . semi-adv. )

    [align=center][fancypost bgcolor=; bordercolor=; borderwidth=0px; width: 388px; color: snow; line-height: 100%; font-size: 10px; text-align: justify; text-transform: lowercase;]( everything seemed fine! gosh, last time I had replied I had said I was back for good, but obviously that's hadn't gone as planned cx I'm going to try to get back into the swig of this, because I really do miss this thread and seem to have a lot more motivation to do lately. )


    Kurt was so out of it. He wasn't the same Kurt any more. This new Kurt.. this new person wasn't who Kurt was. This new Kurt was unpredictable. He was moody, depressive, completely out of touch of reality. He took drugs recklessly and cheated on the woman who he loved more than life it's self and would once have done any thing for, not once but twice. He had broken every promise he had ever made, and unlike the Kurt that was desperately trying to come though, this new Kurt believed he had no hope left in fixinghis mistakes. The real Kurt would do anything to fix all the mistakes he and made. It was as if this new Kurt was a seemingly untreatable shell, and trapped inside was the old, caring, kind and sensitive Kurt who she had first met, his fingers bleeding and his cries sobbing as he tried to get out of the shell, tryed to get his way out of this new Kurt who laud in the hospital bed, drugged up on medication and looking dead and lost to the world- there was no life left in him, instead it was trapped under rhar shell, screaming and crying, begging to fix his mistakes and live happily.
    Kurt had listened to Marcus's words, his head still turned away, shutbtughly closed, Kurt resisting the urge to place his hands over his ears and just shut the world out. As he let a moment pass as Marcus had finished speaking in a question, Kurt had suddenly looked up at Marcus one more, his almost hypnotising bright blue eyes showing no other emotion but a cold stiffness. There seemed to be no emotion in them, when once they were seemingly always lit, always showing all of his emotions. "Who do you think I am? It means every thing to me, but I f.cked it all up! I've ruined everything again, it's all my fault! I don't fucking know who I am anymore, I'm just nothing but a f.cking screw up!" Kurts usually soft and gentle voice was now raised and almost aggressive, sounding distinctively similar to how he did when performing. Little did Kurt know press were outside the hospital at that moment, paparazzi waiting for news on the brand new hot celebrity that has 'gone crazy'.


    Krist felt frightened, like he might break her. Not even thinking of the point that she was exposed in front of his deep brown eyes, je had lifted her out of the warm water that splashed against the rough skin of his large hands, her body in full sight. There was nothing. Nothing but a frame. Nothing but a airtight case of bones and organs. She was so skinny it was frightening, the way her bones stuck out absolutely scaring the hell out of Krist, so had thought Kurts thinness was dangerous. Now the sight of hers made him think of pure death. She looked like she was close to just fading away, that if Krist accidentally had of fulle dude out of the water in the wrong way he would ave broken a bone. I top of everything, her dull looking skin looking like a shade of paper, and Krist could clearly see the messy scratch marks, which altered himeither more. "Topaz," his voice was comforting but obvious alert was hidden behind it, as his hands moved away from her body.

  • "you can trust me.. i won't hurt you.." ( girl needed . pafp . semi-adv. )

    [align=center][fancypost bgcolor=; bordercolor=; borderwidth=0px; width: 388px; color: snow; line-height: 100%; font-size: 10px; text-align: justify; text-transform: lowercase;]honestly, it sounds completely fine. i understand, don't worry about it. i've been so on and off this thread for the last year and i truly apologise for this. i do really want to try to get back into this thread though, especially because of where we left off. i feel so bad for topaz :( lol )


    kurt just looked up at Marcus as he had spoken those words, the old Kurt within him seeming to come through after a moment, as he just looked down, a frown coming on his face, the drugged up on medication kurts mind beginning to tick over like crazy. he had to get back to topaz. he desperately wanted to go back home, desperately wanted to be with ehr and caspar. and just like before, that thought brought back the anger within him. the spark that would go off within his unique blue eyes, the spark that would ignite that burning feeling within him. kurts anger was one that was always powerful, but very often also very hidden and deep, so suppressed and just waiting to get out. he couldnt stay there, but he knew he needed too.
    kurt didn't say anything back, his eyes down, his head turned away once more when marcus has soon left the room to attend to his other patients, kurt being left alone in the mess of the bright white, sterile hospital room, his medicated mind so stuffed up and kurt being so out of it. he was just so.. lost. the old kurt still trying to separately escape, kurt would lay there, his eyes wide open but his mind completely shut.


    krist felt terrible. he watched the tear move down her cheek, an empty feeling in the pit of krists stomach as he gently let go of her body, his eyes on her closed ones. "topaz.. please don't cry.. kurt will be back before you know it.. he's still there, you can see him whenever you want.." he had spoken quietly, really not knowing what to say to her at that moment. he couldnt begin to imagine how hard this would be on her.