Posts by gonebyebye

"Oh, shut up." Luke said. "You know that people care, so stop being so difficult! For f*cks sake stop wallowing self pity, and grow up!"

"Sure" Helena teased. "Please tell me."

"Please, please, please!" Helena begged.

"Well I don't care, there even though it's a lie!" Luke shouted. "Is that what you want to hear!? You're too f*cking difficult, so maybe I should just gie up! You refuse to let anyting be the way that's not your way, and you just think you're so perfect! So maybe I should just leave. Permanently."

"Fine. I'll go." Helena said. "I understand if you'd rather not talk to me."

"And why should I? Why should I stay?" Luke said.

"Jesus Christ Decode, can you no get it through your head that people care?!" Luke said, trying, but failing ant keeping his voice calm. "I'll stay. For now. If you'll stop wallowing in self pity..."

"I just don't get why you won't tell me." I've told you about mine."

"Will you stop?" Luke asked calmly.
"Yes you do." Helena said firmly. "Please tell me?"

"Please?" Helena begged. "C'mon Garan."

"Thank you..." Luke muttered.

"Alright, alright." Luke sighed.

"Sorry." Helena muttered. "I didn't know. I just thought that if you talked to me you'd feel better." Helena headed towards the door. "I can leave now." She walked out the door and stood outside of it for a minute. "I'm sorry Garan." She whispered. She headed a little ways down the hallway and sank down on the ground, against the wall.

"No you're not stupid, I just want to leave." Helena muttered. "I want to dissapear."

"I'm so tired Decode." Luke said. "Tired physically, tired mentally, just tired."

"Other people." Helena said. "I'm not important."

"I'm sorry for being awful." Luke said.

Helena laughed. "Sure."

"I'll always be awful Decode." Luke said. "You vision is just clouded."

"Then why don't you talk to me about yourself?" Helena asked. "I barely know you."

"It's true." Luke said. "You can make a saint of me, if you'd like, but I'll still be horrible."

"You haven't done anything wrong." Luke said.

"I think it'd be interesting..." Helena said. "Like I said before, I barely know you."

~Track

"Name one thing you've done wrong." Luke said.

"If you don't mind my asking," Helena paused. "Why?"

"No, it's not wrong." Luke said.

"I'm..." Helena hesitated. "I'm sorry."

OOC: Hmmm... I don't think you missed that much. Just some conversation between characters and it wasn't incredibly important.

IC: "Well I don't know Garan, what am I supposed to say?" Helena said.

"Listen." Luke said shaken Decode by the shoulders, "Your birth was not a mistake!"

"Well that's their opinion!" Luke said. "I don't think you're a horrible accident, in fact, I really like you..."

Helena stayed silent. Well that'ssohelpful, she thought.

Surprise bitch. I'll be making a boy soon.
[align=center]On the outside
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Helena/¥\Arabella/¥\Monroe
"No one's busy thinking bad things about you. They're all too busy thinking bad things about themsleves."

Nicknames:"Just Helena, I suppose."
Age: "18"
Hair Color:"Dark brown, are you fucking blind?"
Eye Color:"Blue, and I said it once, I shall say it again, are you fucking blind?"
Skin tone:"Very, very pale."
Body Modifications:

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Favorites
Favorite color:"Black, or mint green."
Favorite food:"I don't really have a favorite..."
Favorite Music Genre:"Rock, punk, pop-punk, post-harcore, alternitive, and indie."
Favorite Bands/artists:"Fall Out Boy, Bring Me The Horizon, All Time Low, Panic! At The Disco, Marina and the Diamonds, Lily Allen, My Chemical Romance, Pierce The Veil, Sleeping with Sirens, Artic Monkeys, I could go on..."
Favorite time of day, and why?:"I love when it's extremely early in the morning, hours ranging from 1am to 6am becuase everything seems so still and quiet."
Favorite animal:"Cats, motherfucker."

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Mental Health
Mental illness(s):"Schizotypal Personality Disorder, Antisocial Personality Disorder, Avoidant Personality Disorder, Obsessive-Compulsive Disoder, Generalized Anxiety, and Dermatillomania, also know as CSP. I sound pretty fucked up, don't I?"

Odd habits:"All my 'habits' are not fucking odd." She tends to pick at the skin or her arms, hand and fingers when she gets nervous. She trembles, or shakes. If she starts doing something she must finish it, or she will quite possibly breakdown. She makes lists of anything and everything she can. She counts her footsteps. If she feels that she does omething even slightly wrong she has to start whatever she was doing all over. She tends to keep track of time down to the second, but despite that she seems to lose track of it. She'll know what time it is, in the back her mind at the least, but she could be doing something and get so caught up in it that she'll continue it for hours, not realizing how much time she spent doing it.
Age of diagnosis:"When I was finally diagnosed with all my disorders, I was 15. But I was diagnosed with CSP at the age of three, OCD at the age of seven, Anti-social Personality Disoder, Aviodiant Personality Disorder, and Generalized Anxiety at the age of 13, and was diagnosed with Schizotypal Personality Disorder at 15. I was sent here a year ago."
Personality: Helena has a wide array of personality traits. She is a quite fanciful person, in other words, she can be very overimaginative and unrealistic. She is also very disconnected to the others around her, and lives in her own world more than the real world. Some would say she can be very antisocial. She is often quiet, but can get very aggresive and dangerous if she see's it fit to become that way. In most social situations she prefers to stay away from others, fearing that she'll embarass herself or make others dislike her, this being caused by her Avoidiant Personality Disorder. In certain situations she can become incredibly impulsive and reckless. Despite these different arrays of emotions, one is always present; paranoia. She constantly checks her surrounds, and her eyes don't stay in the same place for too long. She also becomes fatigued easily. She can also turn out to be impatient and irriatable sometimes. All in all, she turns out to be a very large pessimist. But just becuase she's negative most of the time doesn't mean she has no postive traits. You could say she is very unique. She's also a fairly innocent person and is harmless, once you get past her appearence.

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Love stuff
Sexual orientation: "I'm pansexual."
Past relationships: "Look at me, and ask yourself if I look like someone who has been in a past relationship! No, I fucking don't!"

Past
History:"I grew up in a household with only a mother since around the age of six becuase my father commited suicide. I have a younger brother, but he's completely normal; nothing like me. My mother basically ignored me all my life until my mental situation became to much to handle, because when I was around 16 I became depressed, and a bit suicidial. But that's over now... I can't seem to convince my shitty mother and the fucking idiots that run this place to let me out though..."
Family:"Just my awful mother, her name is Claire, and my younger brother Alec."