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Matthias eventually stopped pacing and looked down at Ashi with a look similar to grief. He could see it in the other's eyes, he could hear it in his voice: he was close to tears, and that made Matthias feel even worse. He didn't understand - he couldn't fathom - why someone would want to be with him. He didn't think that he had absolutely anything to offer Ashi in a relationship. Sure, he was great in bed, but surely that wasn't all that Ashi wanted. No, Matthias was convinced that Ashi was so close to tears because he had practically sexually assaulted him and Ashi didn't want to make it seem bad. He was sure of it that he had hurt Ashi, that he had scared him.
Matthias reached his hands out to rest them on Ashi's shoulders, hesitating for a moment, wondering if he was allowed to touch him. He was always so hell bent on consent... He eventually placed them on his much smaller shoulders nonetheless, swallowing thickly and staring deep into the Russian's eyes. "Babe - Love - fuck, Ashi.." He paused, trying his best not to look away, his face bright red. "I'm sorry. Did I hurt you? Did I hold on too tight?" His eyes traveled down the other's body for a moment, biting on his lip, checking for injuries.
"I... I'm sorry. I don't.. I don't want to scare you, I don't want to hurt you. Are you even gay? Because I sure am. I'm so gay that it practically hurts, Ashi. Stupid joke- um - I'm sorry. I wasn't allowed to touch you, I didn't get your permission. You probably don't even like guys and did you even want that and I'm so sorry I practically sexually assaulted you just now and I know first-hand that sexual assault is like the worst and I'm sorry, fuck, I'm rambling.."
He paused for a moment, taking a deep breath, and then enveloping the other in a tight yet gentle hug, mindful of the wounds. He rested his head down on the other's, closing his eyes tightly and still muttering his apologies. "I'm sorry, I'll never scare you again, I'll never hurt you again."
He pulled away again, staring into the other's eyes. "I'll make it up to you. I will. I'll make it up to you. I promise. I have to go to work, but I'll be back as quick as I can. Alana's gonna be coming up to check on you. She'll point you in my direction if you need me.."
He stopped again, bringing his hands up to cup the other's cheeks and suddenly leaning forward, catching the other's lips in a soft, yet needy kiss. The door opened and still Matthias didn't turn away, although he could hear a sputtering Alana, who cried jesUs FeCKing cHRist and closed the door again, calling through the wood if Matthias ever locked a door once in his life. Eventually, Matthias pulled away, staring down at the other's lips and then deep into his eyes, swallowing thickly once again. "I'll make it up to you." he promised again, starting to feel guilty about the kiss, too, but he had to know. He had to know if he actually wanted it or not.
He pulled away from the other, grabbing his jacket and gun by the couch, slinging the strap over his shoulder and heading towards the door. He ushered a quick and embarrassed greeting and goodbye to Alana and rushed down the hallway. Whether to get away from any more heavy emotion or to get to work, Matthias wasn't exactly sure.
Alana stepped through the door, closing it with slightly widened eyes and cleared her throat. "Well," she began, looking up to Ashi with a wide, all-knowing smile. "Is he cute or what? Sorry, Sorry, I... I've been trying to hook him up with a guy for a long, long time. He's always too sheepish. He's never been with a guy, you know. Not in a serious relationship, that is." She paused, the smile still lingering on his face. "He really likes you. But ANYWAY! How are you feeling?" Oh, yeah, as if she just expected Ashi to just answer the simple question after all of that that he had to take in?




