Posts by ApplesandBananas

synopsis: cleft lip, twisted muzzle, disproportionate long legs, asymmetrical face looks lopsided, narrow thin face, one eye higher than the other.Taller than average, 'toes' are long. dull brown pelt with white muzzle and chest. Sunken chest plus scoliosis. Poor eyesight due to dislocation of the lens (myopia, astigmatism). undue fatigue, shortness of breath, racing heartbeats.

an optimist might say connie takes after her mother, with her verdant green eyes and brown and white coat, albeit her colouring is slightly darker and duller. however the similarities stop right about there, as connie's physical deformities transform what might have been a pretty little girl into something, well, ugly.

the first thing you would notice about connie possibly is how tall she is. she towers over her siblings with disproportionate long legs. it seem that every aspect of her limbs is extended, her ankles seem to be stretched out length ways, and her paws are skinny and long due to her toes also being oddly long. her height isn't in the realm of what is considered normal, as from a very young age she will be freakishly large. every part of her seems unnaturally elongated, perhaps after her limbs the most noticeable is her neck. These long legs of hers are what gives her her nickname, as she appears almost spider like.

next might be the scar that goes from her lip up to her left nostril, or if she is still very young her left unilateral cleft lip. while the tribe's medic stitched together the cleft at three moons, connie has trouble speaking loudly. she compensates usually with odd placement of her words so her voice usually sounds very breathy and nasally and she avoids large, difficult, words as it can be very easy to misunderstand her. nursing is a problem, and a system would have to be figured out with their surrogate nurse so that she is able to feed properly and once she is able to eat solid food, she does so in private as it can be an ordeal and every now and then food comes out her nose due to the cleft that still exists on her palate.

connie is prone to ear infections and her hearing in her let ear might end up impaired, although far from deaf, due to the reoccurring problems it has. even though she eats as much as she can, connie will remain scarily skinny in this body for her entire life. she cannot seem to put on any fat. Her joints bulge out and she looks unbearably spindly, as if a good gust of wind might whisk her off her feet.

connie's chest looks sunken in, as if someone pushed their thumb into the clay from which her body was made and forgot later on to fix the mistake. It is noticeable, but it is not as severe as it could be. the depression is definitely there, but in lieu of her other problems, it's almost forgettable. however, it's not forgettable for connie, as it reduces space for her lungs, and so she is permanently out of breath. her heat rate, as well, is unusually fast as it is slightly out of place, pushed out of the way by the concave nature of her chest. this amounts to sense of exhaustion, and physical activity is not something that connie can participate vigorously in.

although most of her physical disabilities are side affects of a single condition, it still seems like connie is a twisted reflection of a healthy canine. due to scoliosis, one of her shoulder blades protrude more than the other, and uneven hips mean that while it doesn't hind her actual mobility, it means her gait is uneven like she has a limp. connie's eyesight slowly degenerates until it seems like she permanently squinting in order to be able to see subtle of expressions and detail in the distance. usually she distinguishes people by their pet color, size, and occasionally accessories rather than their faces, as it's a much more efficient method for her.

besides the obvious worse side effects of inbreeding, connie's face just looks generally inbred. her long and narrow face places her eyes as uneven levels, small differences but all too noticeable, and her muzzle seems ever so slightly twisted. her face looks lopsided.

as a realist might say, connie is the sad result of generations of inbreeding.

connie is called the arachnid mostly for her appearance rather than her persona, but she does have that tendency to lurk around and frighten you by appearing suddenly. this title and the fact she scares other people with her appearance most of the time has left connie cripplingly self conscious, and she is heavily dependant on the sibling she is betrothed too.

as a kit she will be infatuated with him and follow him everywhere, regardless if he wants her to or not. he will be her idol and possibly her closest friend, depending on what the roleplayer that owns her betrothed wants. connie will remain heavily attached to her family through out her life, and will be distraught if any of them decide to leave. as she grows up, connie will will also grow out of her infatuation of her betrothed, however she will still stay almost attached to the hip with him as without him her self consciousness and social anxiety renders her unable to speak to anyone.

perhaps connie will slowly gain some confidence, and get better at being in public and around others, but this mostly depends on the circumstances of roleplaying and how active the roleplayer of her betrothed stays.

connie is awful at making decisions. tell her to choose between an apple and a pear and she wouldn't have a single idea of what one to choose. most of it comes from the pressure of making the decision rather than knowing what she wants. she will needlessly complicate things, and dither over it for far too long. by the end of it, she'll tend to end up asking someone else what they think and follow their advice.

as connie is constantly of the mind that no-one would or even could love someone as 'monstrous' as herself and her constant refusal of any feelings that are not her betrothed it takes a very long time for her to realize that she is exclusively interested in females, romantically and sexually. her crush on her betrothed in her kits hood and early apprenticeship was mostly founded on the expectation that she should and her idolisation of him. when she does discover her orientation, it takes even longer for her to accept it, and she will probably have a litter or two before she does so. (Most likely with a sibling, if their roleplayer agrees)

having children is something that connie has always wanted, however her physical conditions makes pregnancy controversial issue, let alone the whole incest thing. despite a risk for her own health, she will attempt to have children throughout her life and will suffer some miscarriages along the way. she will view these as her 'failures' and will suffer from bouts of depression over it.

connie always thinks her actions through, and sometimes her tendencies to plan ahead to much can get her in trouble. usually she will plan her conversations with other people, and when it goes awry, as it usually does, she gets flustered and is unsure what to do. improvisation is not something she enjoys, but when she must employ it she tends to take an obvious route as it tends to be easier for her that way.

this femme seems to be always doing something. she likes to get chores done straight away and will happily run errands for her family and perhaps the high positions of the tribe so long as they are not too difficult. connie is a person who aims to please others rather than herself, as she tends to measure her own worth in what others think of her, ergo her crushing insecurities about her appearance.

connie tends to get paranoid that people talk about her behind her back. sometimes she will convince herself that an entirely innocent conversation means that the speakers are really laughing about her. in some cases, she even goes so far as to believe that people are conspiring against her or are purposefully leaving her out of things, excluding her from social events even though she knows she likely wouldn't attend any parties or something similar anyway.

It's odd, because while connie tends to suffer from a generalized sense of paranoia she's also fairly naive and gullible. She tries to see the good in everyone, and so will easily be betrayed. fiercely loyal to her family and friends, it will take the hardest of proofs and the worst of crimes to make her think any less of them. she forgives easily, perhaps too easily, and if someone took it in their mind to trick her they probably would have any trouble doing it. so usually her gut feelings are totally wrong, as she finds ulterior motives in innocent things, but will fail to see when someone is actually manipulating her.

-polite/old fashioned
-struggles with faith/morals
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