Posts by gracie0104

"Oh hey... um I should probably go." I said walking over to him. I hugged him tightly and mumbled into his shirt "thanks for last night." I didn't want to let go do I held on a little longer. I liked him so much that I hated the feeling and kind of made me sick to think of it. I closed my eyes as I listened to his heart beat making me feel so happy that I was here with him.

"Ohbaby don't think that I didn't have a good time.. I just.." I l let go of him and looked at the ground a little guilty. " I feel like I pushed you into something that maybe you didn't want to do." I didn't want him to think I was playing with his mind but maybe that's how it seemed. the guy thing is so confusing..

"you tell me.." I said crossing my arms and raising my eyebrows. I had been waiting and dying to know what we were and we never really had a chance to discuss our relationship. I badly wanted him back and I'm sure he wanted the same, I wanted to be more that friends I had been falling in love again this time. I had never givin him the chance to actually prove himself to me; and vice versa.

"that's the thing you don't listen to anyone even when they try to help you push them away." I said grabbing my keys I turned to walk away. I stood for a minute about to say something else but I walked to the front door and turned the handle slowly. I looked back at him and shut the door behind me, I left so I would lash out on him from all the anger I had bottled up inside me.. I'd apologize later but I just needed to clear my mind and get my thoughts together.

i got in my car and sped off to my house.. hopefully everyone was still asleep, the last thing I needed was someone questioning me. I got out the car and walked to the front door and slowly put the key in.. here goes nothing. I opened the door slowly only to see my brother playing some video game; fuck my life.
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I turned my attention to Lisa I laughed and paused the game "well well well look who's here.." I said with a smirk she had been out I could tell because of the strong smell of alcohol. "Leave me alone." she said going into the kitchen I tried not to tell because aubri was still asleep so I followed her into the kitchen as well. "You were at his house weren't you?" I said disapprovingly I hated Juan and his little brother sam which my little sister maddie was dating! "who's he? be more specific.." she said sarcastically.

i started to get frustrated it was hard talking to Lisa without wanting to punch her.. only if she was a guy. "Lisa i know you were over Juan's drinking and god knows what else you did but I'm guessing that's your way of fixing your problem.." it came out rather more harshly then I expected. She pushed pasted and me and ran up the steps... ugh I was the worst.
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I ran up the steps and walked down the long hallway, today just isn't my day. I saw Caleb's door open slightly so I decided to take a peek. I looked inside and saw Aubri sleeping wow my brother got out of bed just to scold me; nothing new.

I heard a creak on the steps.. probably Caleb. I ran to my bedroom and shut the door lightly so he wouldn't hear, I sighed and flopped down on my bed. I fell back and closed my eyes from the comfort of my bed I looked at my phone and decided to apologize to Juan it was a little early but I wanted to say sorry now.
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I jogged up the steps seeing my door still cracked, I walked in seeing Aubri still sleeping. I returned to my spot on the bed and wrapped my arm around her tiny body. "Are you up?" I said looking at the ceiling. I wanted and needed someone to talk to; and she was the best at helping.

i laughed softly and kissed her on her forehead and smiled to myself and then turned to a frown. "Do I do the right things all the time?" I asked questiongly.. I knew I was a hot head but sometimes I regretted the way I treated people.. even my sister.

"yeah.. I guess so."

I threw dresses behind me until I found my favorite tight black dress. I turned around squealing at Aubri, I couldn't contain my excitement because me and my brother were throwing a party! "Okay so I found what I'm wearing.. so what do you have in mind?" I asked sitting down next to her.. I hoped she didn't say 'jeans and a graphic tee'

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I blinked.. what was happening? I felt like I was in a trance like I could watch him all day. I hated to say it but it felt like I was intrigued by him. I looked at the ground and walked past him I didn't belong here I already knew. I was free now so I'd just go back to search for the pack I belonged to.
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I looked at the math book scratching the back of my head.. I tapped the pencil on my him trying to think. My thoughts weren't on the right terms I felt really nerves, I didn't want to screw up. "okay so um which problem are we at?" I asked looking at her admiringly.

I hesitated and turned around to look at his face.. he looked so torn apart. "No." I said looking into his eyes, what was he talking about? He remembered me but I didn't remember him though he looked so familiar.. and why did he look so hurt?
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I looked at the paper once again and squinted a bit.. these weren't math notes. "Kota, these aren't math notes these are codes for the deadpool." I widened my eyes and looked at her.. what could this mean? "Did Lydia give these to you?" I was assuming because she had recently been unlocking all the codes.. and Derek was one of them.

"I'm sorry but I don't remember you at all." I felt the pressure on my arm it was kind of hurting me. I took my hand and place it on his hand, it felt so weird when I touched his hand it was making me nervous just talking to him made me nervous. I didn't know how to feel towards him but I wish I knew more about him.
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"It's codes.. for the deadpool." I said grabbing the paper quickly. I paced around the room trying to unlock the code but I didn't have any luck.. I wasn't that smart. "Should we call Derek?" I asked looking up from the paper maybe he could help but he was at the high school, what was even taking him so long?

"hmm.." I tapped my chin and thought of the perfect outfit for her. "Here you take my dress." I said shoving it into her arms, I already knew what she was going to say but I was forcing her to wear it. "Now time to find me a new outfit." I said turning around with a smirk.. I wasn't going to try hard behind all my excitement was a dark cloud.

Ipoked at the ground feeling a little crushed that he was hurt by me. I whispered under my breath hoping he heard me "could you please help me find my pack," I said my voice cracking. I brushed a few stray hairs away from my face feeling a little uncomfortable.. it was awkward.
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I walked over to Kota and saw all the names appear on the screen.. holy, how'd she do that? I kept my eyes glued to the screen as I reached for my phone; I had memorized Derek's phone number by now. I dialed it and put the phone to my ear hearing the phone ring.. I mumbled under my breath "c'mon answer."

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