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    A pure white apprentice sat alone by the river, his head tilted to the stars. He was going mad, he was almost sure of it. Feeling that he was alone, he began to speak.
    "What is it you want me to do? Why do you keep making me lose all that I care about? Co you all want me to end myself?" Peregrinepaw swore he saw one of the stars nod.
    "Why? I've lost everything I care about! My mate, my mother, my second mother, the respect the clan let me have, and now my daughter!" There were tears in his eyes.
    "Why do you all keep doing this to me?! All I ever wanted was to grow into a warrior, have a mate and give five beautiful kittens to the world, and live a good life.
    He continued on, "Why do all of you make me keep suffering?! I can't tell the one I love the horrible thing that will happen to her, I don't have anyone who still believes in me! I can't do this anymore! I can't!" Peregrinepaw was finally having that one thought in the back of his mind being considered.


    Suicide.

    [fancypost borderwidth= 0pt][justify] Milkpaw made sure she was silent as she stepped through the branches of the pines, looking at her former mate with stormy silver eyes. She had seen him trample out into the forest in the middle of a hunt, and didn't want to confront him in such a mood. The apprentice had heard him talking to himself, and it made her wonder who he was talking to. Milkpaw made sure she had rolled in some garlic to disguise her scent and quickly scampered up into the trees to spy on him a little. It didn't seem like he was talking to anybody, nobody was there at all. He was completely alone.


    I-I can't help but feel that this is my fault... If we were still mates, I'd be there for him through every minute of this... She thought as a huge wave of guilt washed over her. I'm such an awful being! I'm an awful mother, an awful mate, an awful daughter... The list went on and on in Milkpaw's mind. Tears came to her only eyes, but forced herself to shut up so she wouldn't get caught. I can't try! I must listen. Her ears were pricked as she tried listening for any more words spoken by Peregrinepaw. What can't he do anymore?


    ooc| I guess this can be the thread that they can have together..

    Oc: I was thinking like when Perey tries to drown himself, Milkpaw drags him out of the water, and she slowly falls back for him.


    IC: His blue orb was locked on the stars still, trying to find an answer within the millions that were in Silverpelt. "Ever since I lost her, it's all I can do to not go find a badger and let it rip me in half. But you know I can't do that, I can't leave my kits alone to fend for themselves, or leave them so they start thinking Capricorn is their father, or leave them alone to witness the pain of their mother with another tom's kits."


    The white runt bit back another tear.
    "Don't you think it's bad enough I can't hear?! I can't listen to her voice, I can't hear the voices of my kits, I don't know what the world sounds like! I lost everything when he took her away, the one I loved, the kindness of her mother, my sanity, but that's not enough for all of you! So then you took away my daughter!"


    Peregrinepaw stood and stepped toward the river. He was good with water anyway. His corpse would just drift away and nobody would care. He took a moment to stare at his reflection.


    The apprentice's face was without one eye, the other had a three-claw scar across it. His muzzle had scars on it as well. His large fluffy ears were torn, many scar ornateing his face. He took another step towards the water.

    [fancypost borderwidth= 0pt][justify] ooc| sure. :P


    ic| Her eye widened with every word he spoke, it made tears well up in her orb until she couldn't take it any more. Milkpaw realized that these tears weren't from messing up or making Peregrinepaw's life miserable, it was because deep down in her heart there were still feelings for her former mate and that she wasn't there for him when he needed it most like the old times.


    Wh-What's he doing now? The dark and pale feline peered through the trees until she got a clear view of him, and saw what he was really doing. "N-" Shut up! Milkpaw cursed herself as she silently began to slip out of the tree. That fool! He can't swim, is he really going to...

    OC: And then they make love! :)


    IC: Peregrinepaw dipped his head into the water, down to his shoulders. Nobody would care about his disappearance, right? They would be happy he left right?

    [fancypost borderwidth= 0pt][justify] "PEREGRINEPAW!" Milkpaw leapt into the air and aimed to grab his scruff to prevent him from jumping in. "You can't do this! I won't let you!"

    [fancypost borderwidth= 0pt][justify] She tried to push him out of the way so it would be she who fell into the river, not him. "P-Peregr-" Milkpaw never got to finish her sentence for her head had been submerged in the river.

    It had been three crucial seconds before Peregrinepaw relized what happened.
    Milkpaw had tried to rescue him.
    The runt searched for her head, spotting it, he leaped in, not caring if he could swim or not. He thrsted to her, aiming to grab her scruff. If he seceded, he would then try to drag her to the shore.

    [fancypost borderwidth= 0pt][justify] Milkpaw felt a strong tug on her scruff, and let out a forced breath of air as she was thrown onto the shore. The apprentice began to cough up water and gasp for air, it felt like she was going to faint from lack of fresh air. She let out a groan and fell to the ground as her eye started to close. "Peregri..."

    "Milkpaw! Don't die! Please! Please, you can't die!" Peregrinepaw cried, beginning to lick his beloved's fur backwards. If she died, everything that mattered to him would be gone.


    Hey tawny, where'd you get the fancies for your gallery?

    [fancypost borderwidth= 0pt][justify] ooc| from lime<3


    ic| The feline had only fallen unconscious for a few moments before feeling a warm tongue lick her bi-colored pelt. A weak smile spread across her face at the sight of her old mate, it felt so good to see him again. "Of course I'd die for you, Peregrinepaw. You mean the world to me." the apprentice said while purring softly at the white tomcat.

    K. Cause I need to start working on v. 3 of my gallery.


    IC: Peregrinepaw watched her jaws from corner of his scarred eye. He placed his head near her neck."Milkpaw, I- I couldn't live with myself you went to Starclan. You mean everything to me. You're the only reason I don't join Brokenheart. I- I don't know what I would if you weren't here with me. Milkpaw, you're the life in my soul that wills me to go on. The one I would do anything for. I would eat deathberries if you told me to. Milkpaw, I love you more than anything else in the world, more than how much Northpaw hates me. Just please, don't die."


    The white runt began to lick her neck and chest, trying to make her fur go backwards. More importantly, those areas were responsible for most of a cat's bloodflow.

    [fancypost borderwidth= 0pt][justify] "I sorry I ever left you for that jerk, Capricornpaw. I never liked him much anyways, I was just so mad at everything that I didn't know what to do. I felt like something had to change, my actions blinded me. Will... Will you ever forgive me?" she meowed wit deep sincere in her only eye that was left.

    Grounded off my computer right now. I'm wondering about who I need to give my Charries to. I'm thinking I might give Perey to you. Since you know just about everything about him, and his plot.


    "Of course I will, Milkpaw. After all, mates forgive each other, right?" The word was like sugar on his tongue. It had been a while since he spoke it, but even more, to tell it to her. Of course, he would forgive her. "Milkpaw, when I lost you, I lost what mattered most to me. I was blinded by the shock of losing the one I loved. After my shock wore away, it was replaced by anger. An anger that I still don't know how it came to me." The runt admitted. With her body radiating with warmth, Peregrinepaw attempted to grab her scruff so they could get back to camp.

    [fancypost borderwidth= 0pt][justify] ooc;; what? Have him forever?? ???


    ic;; All she could do was purr softly and close her eyes as her mate began to carry her back to camp. This is how things should be. Me and him, together forever...


    ooc;; mobile.

    D: I think you would just be temping him while i'm grounded. And Just until my grade in math is at a C. (On nintendo) Hey, do you think Milly should do her test?
    You know, we should have had the falling back in love part after they broke up; What if Milkpaw attempted suicide after their break-up?; Should Perey and Milly have a litter when their both warriors?


    IC: Peregrinepaw was purring as well. The air was silent, but the air had the sense of love dancing around them. Hunching her front side over his back, the runt began to trudge back to camp. "Milkpaw-" He began to speak, watching her jaws out of the corner of his eye. "Do- do you think we could start over, together?"

    [fancypost borderwidth= 0pt][justify] oh. xD
    Yeah we can do stuff like that. :)


    ic;; She tried blinking tears out of her only eye; Milkpaw was obviously crying out of love. "Y-Yes, I would like th-that very much..." the bi-colored apprentice barely managed to choke out.