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  • Relief- that was the first thing in his mind. He didn't know what he would of done if she had agreed to his suggestion. He listened to Soni talking, focusing his flighty mind in on her words. His eyes glazed over slightly as he began to think on this- especially that first time. He dirt understand what had possessed him to think there'd be something worth stealing in an Avians pocket, but he had seen flying kids and got excited- curious, just to see if he could. Oddly enough, there had been a wallet, but it shouldn't of been worth it- not really. He'd gotten a heck of a bloody nose, and told off by a child. A child he now regarded with a bit more respect, but still a very small child.


    But his mind was wandering again, he needed to focus. "...well, if you put it like that," he said, attempting to make light of the situation, but his voice diet hold its usual, lighthearted quality. "Soni, I wasn't planing on leaving you and Mira-" he came to another realization then, and just as he had started sinking into sleep again "oh my god, Mira, is she alright?" That was a stupid question. He could assume Kip was pretty much a solid figure in her life, at least one consistent factor. Now he was gone- of course Mira wasn't going to be alright.


    Of course, she wasn't going to agree with that.


    "'M'fine." She muttered, dragging a blanket and pillow that she had unceremoniously taken from the bed. She padded through the doorway, just in time to hear the comment on her well being. She'd woken up in the room and...well, it was empty. This had scared her at first, until she heard Soni and Trouble talking through the wall- just voice tones really. But she'd felt to alone, and most of the time, when she was sleeping safe, there was another person in the room, whether they were sleeping or keeping watch. It was unnerving and she didn't want to feel so alone right now.


    Curling up at the base of the couch, she was comfortably nested in blanket and pillows (two, since Trouble didn't seem to be using his). "Too quiet." She muttered simply, voice muffled by blanket covering most of her face as she closed her eyes, beginning to fall asleep again.


    "G'night Soni. Trubs."


    Trouble winced at the use of the old nickname, but let it pass anyways. Not a lot of people called him Trubs. Just the one, and she wasn't around anymore. "...if I can, I'll make something good tomorrow." He promised aloud, a sort of roundabout assurance to Soni- he felt they shouldn't continue the conversation in front of Mira, though he knew that opinion would of made her angry- she was asleep now. He could feel his mind drifting off again and he yawned "Thanks fer' not agreeing," he mumbled "don't want t'be 'lone..." And he was asleep, mostly against his will, but he was.

  • Soni had been opening her mouth to reply to Trouble's question, but to her surprise, Mira beat her to it. Seeing her tired expression immediately made her feel guilty, leaving her in a strange room alone while she slept. She should have stayed with her. Kip would have stayed with her, so she should have too, at least, this was Soni's though process. When the little girl addressed Trouble by Trubs, the avian instantly smiled Nothing was currently funny or really even that amusing, but for some reason the nickname brought a sense of relaxation to her.
    "You sleep well, Mira…and Trubs."
    Soni knew there wasn't any point in trying to continue a serious conversation with Trouble. First, he had been shot and needed to rest. Second, it had been a long day and she needed to sleep. Third, Mira had entered the room, and she certainly didn't need any more depressing notions. So, no more talking. This plan worked rather well, just after Mira fell asleep, Trouble did. On the other hand, Soni stayed up a few minutes longer, hoping the keep watch, like she always did, but before she could help it sleep consumed her. In the moments before she fell asleep she regretted it, she needed it, but now no one was awake to watch over them.


    Soni woke up shouting. At the top of her lungs she yelled. Kicking out and gripping the edge of the chair until her knuckles turned white. Her vivid green eyes were wide, swirling with fear. Her chest heaved, trying to keep up with the labored breaths she was taking. Nightmares had plagued her mind while she slept. Normally these things didn't bother her, she had grown to distinguish that they were not real. And she had grown tougher over the years. She didn't have anyone to worry about besides herself either, so no body could hold anything against her. Now though, now she had Mira and Trouble, she had Kip, though obviously not anymore.
    Moments ago though it had been very hard to distinguish reality. And the result; a very startled Soni, now very much awake.

  • Some how, Mira slept. Soundly as she would have anytime else- which meant slight shadows, lurking in her dreams, and the occasional feeling of falling as she startled awake. She wasn't waking up though, not with the figure looming over her. A familiar one, not the vicious shape of an Eraser, all bulk, claws and teeth. It was leaner, not someone she knew by a name of any sort. Just a voice, smooth and calming- associated with panic, usually, and it turned her blood to ice. She should of been angry, she knew who this was, and she knew what she had done-


    "Shame really, I was hoping for a clean job."


    Mira screamed, though the reason wasn't apparent for a moment- just that Soni was scared of something. Mira was frightened, it was a mass of chaos, shouting, backed by one, high wail. The scream felt good though, she felt like she'd been too quiet, everything was quiet- noise meant she was alive, she hadn't died, everything was alright. Except, of course, it wasn't, but that was besides the point. Her scream slowly petered out, down into a small, pitiful noise as the air left her lungs. A little croak, and then she breathed, tears streaming down her face again. She was shaking, even after the realization that there wasn't any immediate danger. Flopping back down, she pulled the fluffy blanket back over her shoulder, trying to calm herself down. It just kept reinstating itself in her mind, repeating, she'd think she was fine, everything was just shiny, and then, out of the blue, she'd just remember


    Kip was dead.


    Then it was all over and she was back into tears.


    Trouble had a bit of a different reaction to the sudden burst of noise- his first thought was that somebody better be dying. It then struck him that, in his life, this was very likely, and he was up in a flash, though he stumbled slightly once standing, legs still wobbly. He saw static in front of his eyes for a moment, before the blood evened out and his vision cleared. His foot was still caught in a blanket, and he hadn't quite the balance to hop on one foot and stay upright- falling, he shook off the blanket, mind still foggy as he searched for an enemy. He was angry before he even remembered why, hands into fists.


    One, Two- I'm three, and...Four, where's four-


    Oh. That was it. Four, Kip, Trouble had been doing a headcount, of sorts. Figuring out where everyone was. Kip was probably wherever they'd left him, the previous night was still fairly fuzzy, and just his surroundings were confusing. Everything was very confusing, there was...some sort of invisible attacker, but no, that was just Soni, she was dreaming. Mira was the crumpled pile of blanket next to the couch, and where was Kip? He couldn't be dead, that was silly. Maybe he was just out, hadn't he gone off before? Supplies, and the like. Breakfast. He must of left early on in the morning, when he deemed it safe- maybe he'd left Soni on watch, Trouble couldn't blame her for dozing off. The night before had been taxing on everyone, Kip died.


    Well wasn't that a bit sudden. He found himself standing, feeling rather stupid, unsure what to do at the moment. He hadn't forgotten, his mind just kept working around the fact, plain and simple, that Kip had died, and he wasn't coming back. That wasn't hard to believe, it made sense, someone was going to die eventually- then there was that other one, Skye, she wasn't here either. He wasn't entirely sure what he thought of her, she reminded him a bit of Rose, never too sure which side she was on. One day she's helping him get out of the school, the next, she's leading him directly into a trap, assuring him that it was better this way. Safer, they wouldn't be hungry or cold, they just had to do some things every now and again for some people- the same people they'd just ran from. She thought she had been mistaken.


    He was angry again then, and resisted the urge to just leave, just for a while, clear his head, even though the noise had subsided, everything seemed too loud right now, too confusing. He needed to get out, go sit somewhere without anything. He wanted everything just to be empty for a little while, a big, blank expanse of absolutely nothing.


    "Soni?" His voice sounded calmer than he felt, and it was a bit abnormal for him to be so calm- Kip had thought him a nuisance at first for a reason. He didn't usually take things seriously, his first action was to run, quickly, and he spoke without much thought. "Mira- hey, you guys. Deep breaths. We're alright." He wasn't entirely sure who to comfort first- Soni looked violent, and Mira looked... well, he couldn't actually see her. She had buried herself under the blanket, only a bit of her hair poking out on the pillow she'd dragged out of the room earlier.


    "I-I wouldn't let anything else happen," He felt a bit awkward saying this, but he did mean it, his voice reassuring "We're safe." For now, because nowhere was really safe, was it?

  • The moment her scream began to merge with another one, Soni felt guilty again. How many times could she scare Mira? How many times could she do her wrong? It hadn't even been a full day since Kip had died and Soni felt she was already failing miserably at the promises she had made to him, or at least to the thought of him. How could she take care of Mira if she could hardly take care of herself?


    "Mira, Mira. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. It's just me, nothing's wrong, just me." Her ears didn't seem to registrar Trouble as he spoke, at the moment she could only handle one thing. One voice. One person. One problem. One thought. "Trouble is right Mira, we're safe," for now, she thought. "Get some more rest, I'm sorry I woke you up." That was one issue taken care of.
    The problem now was her mind prodded the idea that she needed to take care of both of them. But every other aspect of her wanted to let Trouble take this one. After all, he seemed to be doing a better job.
    "I know, Trouble. I'm sorry, I know. You're right, you're right. Now sit back down, you've been shot, rest." Soni looked at her hands for a long moment, studying the crevasses like they were important. She seemed to be repeating herself, as if her voice wasn't strong enough to convey the message so she had to say it again. "And Trouble?" This time she lifted her head to his,"We need to talk in the morning."
    Soni was exhausted but awake. And with little chance of carrying on a rational conversation, she decided it best that they continue their discussion in the morning. Besides, she didn't want Mira to overhear what she had to say. She hardly wanted Trouble to hear what was on her mind. But it had to be said, they had to plan what happened next. After Kip. After she started to focus again. After Mira settled down. They needed a sense of direction, they needed to regain that direction that Kip had brought. Soni couldn't help but think how much easier if would all be if Kip was just there. No conversation in the morning. Not as much responsibility. Not as many pestering thoughts. Not as much chaos.


    David had leapt out of bed at the shouts from the other room. He struggled to find a baseball bat from his closet, and upon exiting his closet, he stumbled over a pair of shoes he had left out. Managing to stay on his feet he had begun to creep into the other room, arms raised to swing his weapon of choice. But hushing and soothing noises followed the screams, which wasn't something he suspected would happen if the avians he had brought home were really in trouble. He lowered his arms, the tip of his bat dropping too. At first he thought he was disappointed, for he wouldn't get to chance to beat someone up, something that had always been on his tough guy to-do list. But he wasn't a tough guy. And if the people in his living room had wings, he couldn't imagine what their pursuers were in possession of. So he retreated to his bed, assuming that the group had things under control. Or as much control as they could manage.

  • "Right. Okay- alright, in a couple hours then." He said numbly, as if he'd forgotten he'd been shot- honestly, he shouldn't have forgotten. The drugs had mostly worn out of his system, it hurt to just breath, and he wasn't quite as drowsy anymore. His head did spin a bit as he stood, but that was resolved as he sat down again, staring ahead. His mind was too wired, still bouncing around everywhere. It'd bounce from one topic to another, like a computer running results, it kept running into the same thing- Inconclusive. Soni wanted to talk in the morning, technically it was morning, past midnight, sun ought to be rising soon.


    Yes, that's what he'd do, he'd go watch the sunrise. Picking up the blanket, he wrapped it around his shoulders and marched out the door, leaving it open just a crack. He wouldn't go far, just barely through there on the doorstep. The rainclouds had washed away, leaving the sky a watery, grey shade of ink, beginning to lighten on the horizon. Trouble looked normal enough, wings and tattered clothing hidden by the blanket as he sat, feeling the chilly air on his face. Sandy hair tousled, with dark circles under his eyes and a discolored bruise on one cheek. Yeah, totally normal, sleepy teenager.


    Somewhere nearby, a bird chirped, and the sky was steadily growing lighter. Without much thought, he used the corner of the blanket to wipe his face- tears, his cheeks were wet with tears. He'd been crying, and he hadn't even realized it. The sun was still coming up, it was going to be another day, and what would this one bring? Daylight meant safety sometimes, the Erasers came at night, when sane people weren't around to see the monsters. Erasers came at night, or when you least expected it- that was the day now, they could come anywhere, anytime. There was just such futility in it all, there didn't seem to be a way to escape. Alone, he'd been safe most of the time. The occasional close scrape, but he always felt like they weren't actually chasing him- not to say they wouldn't go after him if he drew attention to himself.


    So he was alone, picking pockets and having fun, because that's what he could distract himself with. Fun. Everything was a big, ongoing game of whether he'd get to eat or not by the end of the day, where he'd sleep tonight- one time, when he was younger, he'd seen a story about a boy who never grew up. Peter, and after that, he could play at that game for a while (he could even fly- what fun!).


    It was a lie. Just like the rest of him, he was one big lie, he lied to himself, he lied to other people. But it didn't matter, did it? Not really. This was alright. Lying was okay in his life, it wasn't something bad, it kept him safe, it kept his friends safe. He never felt guilt for stealing from others, and he lied- he was a cheat, but something he couldn't do right now was leave. Logically, he'd be safer away from them, Soni and Mira, the Erasers wanted them. He could run away now and he'd be safe, what did he owe to them?


    Oh, just a simple little thing- like his life.
    No.
    He wouldn't run.


    Mira was safe, she was safe under the blanket where everything was dark and warm and quiet again. She heard her heartbeat in her ears, she heard the sounds of Soni speaking first to her, and then quieter to Trouble. What could she think about- at the hospital, that little boy. Jay, with the cast on his hand, what had he done to get that? She could run a number of potential causes through her head, but none of them made sense, not for a normal little life that he probably led.


    This was so horribly wrong, all of it, she wasn't safe and she knew that. But here, under the blanket, she could pretend she was, her dove grey wings loosely folded against her back, downy red feathers warm and soft. But what of the others? The ones they took to the school, they were alone there too, weren't they? And Mira, Soni, Trouble- they were all out. They were outside the school, they could do something about it.


    They had to do something about it, though rationally, she figured it wasn't that bright of an idea. Eyelids drooping again, she decided to talk it through with Soni first, when she woke up again.

  • He's going to leave now. He's gonna fly away where he is likely safer. Why not, right? Then he'd only have to put up with his own crazy head. He can go have fun. If I were Trouble, I would leave…would I? Probably. I mean…I'm not Trouble though, so it's pointless to think about being alone. I wonder if he ever wished he wasn't alone…I bet living by yourself makes it easy to move on, which is why he probably had no problem leaving… Yeah, Soni started to talk to herself. Until eventually she came to the conclusion that Trouble was not likely to leave. She didn't know why this was her final vote. But for now it seemed to be the only choice on the ballot.


    Soni took a deep, unsteady breath. A breath that seemed to stumble to it's feet, hesitate, and then begin to stagger along. It took the girl a long moment to find the will the walk. Exhaustion wore her light bones and soft wings heavy. Even the needle that rested in her pocket appeared to drag her closer to the floor. Despite the tiredness weighting against her, she stood.
    Cradling the blanket around her shoulders and taking slow strides to the porch, she slipped out into the morning chill. For a moment Soni stood there, staring at the form of Trouble. And then in the next moment she took the seat next to him, following his gaze to the sunrise. Then several minutes passed which were simply lapses of a silence that invaded every corner of Soni's mind. It was a silence that helped the world still into a calm, nearly frozen setting.
    So amongst the tranquil morning fog, Soni merely sat and watched the sunset. She watched without really seeing. It was odd, for she was not distracted, as she had no thought in her head, but she was rather almost out of body. Disconnected, if you will.


    Standing out there, Trouble and Soni could have passed for normal teenagers. With their pale wings and dirtied clothes covered. They could have passed for people who weren't running from a ridiculous reality. People who hadn't run through hell and then been forced to crawl back through on their hands and knees. They looked normal. Plain, tired, teenagers.


    When Soni was young she used to wish that she was a normal girl. Unlike most who wished to be princesses or wished they could fly. She used to wish she had parents who would boss her around or get mad at her for not picking up her room. Then as Soni grew older she began to think she was lucky. Lucky not to have parents that bossed her around. Lucky because she could do whatever she wanted. Hell, she could fly. What more could she want…right? Now though, Soni didn't know. She wasn't sure what she wanted. She didn't have time to wish or want. It was need now. What did she need…what does everyone else need to survive…
    She could have passed for a normal teenager. Just cover the beautiful wings and fake it. Then she could have been a normal teenager.


    With no real gathered thought and absolutely no direct intent, she broke the silence with his name, and the world seemed to speed up really quickly and hit her all at once. "Trouble…it's pretty isn't it? The sunrise. Do you think Kip can see the sunrise?"
    She felt like a child. A child who hadn't quite grasped language yet, fumbling around in her mind for the right words. She didn't have words for how she felt. Or for what she thought. Nor did she have words to form a plan. Or the words to admit she had no plan. She did not have the right words to comfort Mira. No words to sort through with Trouble either. And there were definitely no words to reassure herself.

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  • He practically ignored Soni a she walked out, standing next to him. It felt strange, that after the utter chaos of the night. It was like everything was in shock, waiting for the next disaster to break loose. One big gasp, and now the world was holding it’s breath. Waiting, just waiting out, and when it let it go, there was going to be a gale, a storm. He was pretty good at flying in heavy winds, though not in any particular directions, just staying afloat. Trouble’s skin had gone ashen, partially washed out by the pale light, but partially thanks to the hole in his side- it was causing him some problems.


    Her question caught him off guard- he’d just nodded at first, agreeing with her. It was pretty, though maybe a bit unremarkable, he’d seen quite a few sunrises, and enough sunsets, though he recalled the first one he saw. It was in the winter, over a frozen, snow covered expanse of land- it had risen like someone had bathed the sky in gold. It’d given him a sense of just how absolutely massive the world was, gave him an idea of what he had been missing in the dark. But her question, if Kip could see the sunrise. He’d never considered what would happen when you died- for him, it was just Game Over. No point in wondering what happened when he died, because he didn’t plan on doing that any time soon. He glanced over at Soni, trying to read her expression, figure out what the ‘right’ answer was, because he wanted to say that no. Kip was dead, and even if his face was pointed towards the sunrise, he wouldn’t be able to see it because his heart wasn’t beating, there was nothing in his mind and he was gone.


    So he shrugged. Trouble just shrugged, pulling the blanket closer around his shoulders. “Maybe. It’d be a nice thought, I guess.” He said quietly, as if he was trying to keep the silence, like speaking above a hushed tone would shatter it. Bring some sort of trouble down on them. “...Are we going to go help them?” He asked, implying the other children that had been taken. Alexa, who had been bundled away in the chaos, Danny and Collin who’d disappeared from the start. Becka, who’d gone after them- Trouble hated the idea that they were just going to leave them there, after the kids had been gone, they’d had a life, a real life.


    Kip could not, in fact, see the sunrise. He could see a ceiling though, and there was even a little window, where feeble light was soaking through. He felt cold, all the way down to his bones, and there was something wrong. Something very wrong, as he slowly sat up, finding himself in some some empty room, spreading his wings out slightly. One was stiff, and he didn’t quite remember why- falling, he had fallen out of the sky, something had happened. And as quickly as the memory had come, it was gone, leaving him staring into a mirror. There was something about his features that looked familiar though too, beyond the fact that they were obviously his own. That was quickly dismissed as he noted that the room wasn’t empty anymore. He felt a surge of distrust, though he wasn’t sure why, as a man in a white coat walked in, though the nerves disappeared as well, slipping away.


    [[Alrighty, so I've sort of brought Kip back, as you can see. I was rolling around a couple ideas in my head as to what happened there, seeing as his death was so similar to Skye's, and then she came back, working for the White Coats. I figure they don't keep the Erasers, or other mutants that work for and with them in cages, honestly, I've always imagined more of small bedrooms where they can sleep, and then there's a sort of cafeteria for meals, and the like. So, the idea here is, Kip's been mind-wiped. Doesn't remember a thing now that he's awake, there's a handful of avians that the Whitecoats got working for them, or other experiments, a sort of team, and now they've got Kip with a blank mind. I dunno, thought it could be interesting, what do you think?]]

  • "Yes, we can help them. We should help them," Soni replied softly, echoing the light, feathery way his question left his mouth. Now, when she spoke her voice seemed as fragile as glass. One ginger tap and it would have shattered,"Kip would've wanted us to help..."
    Every memory of him, every thought, every shared moment came rushing into her mind. In a flood the memories bombarded her. Wave, upon wave, upon wave crashed onto the rocky shore of recollection, gnawing at the pebbles and eroding the sand of her composure. It hurt. She felt as if she were drowning. As much as she wanted to shut the thoughts out, to stop the title wave of memories from hitting her, there was no stopping it. Her grief was demanding to be felt. Though the feeling had been loyally with her since the three of them had lost Kip, Soni had used all of her energy to suppress it. Now, she had no energy. A small, lonely tear meandered down her cheek, leaving a streak in the dirt smudged on her face.
    She recalled when they first met. How she busted the locks of the two cages restraining Kip and Mira.
    She remembered when they stopped to eat blueberries out of a farmer's field. How relieved they had been for the small bit of food.
    She reminisced when they stayed up to keep watch and admired the beauty of the stars. How she caught him glancing over at her.
    She recollected when they went into town and nearly got run over crossing the street. How they sat in the back of Collin's store and talked.
    She reminded herself when they had stayed with Alexa's family. How after they had all showered Kip's clean hair had practically ignited with orange.
    She relived when he lay dead on the cold, hard roof of the hospital. How she sobbed over his dead body, and promised his lifeless form to take care of Mira.
    Mira.
    As if she didn't have enough reasons to wish for Kip to return, she wanted him back for Mira. The small girl's life was tragic enough already. Having wings ensured that. If life on the run wasn't enough to swallow, now the poor girl had lost her family. As much as Soni wanted to believe that Trouble and herself were Mira's family as well, she knew better than to think that would make it alright. She knew better to think that anything would make it alright.
    "How can I bring her into this?" Soni inquired abruptly. Her voice was louder now, inflated with emotion.
    "I promised him. I promised Kip that I would take care of her. Dragging her back to the school to save Becka and her family would go against everything I promised. Saving them is risky enough. This is an all or nothing notion. We won't be able to save any of them without risk, and with risk that means we either save all of them from the cages, or get locked away in them trying. I can't risk Mira's life. I don't want to risk yours either, Trouble. I don't know if I will be able to take her with me. I can't break my promise to Kip, and taking her with me could very well be the equivalent. I can hardly take care of myself right now, I'm not sure how I can take care of her as well. Splitting up has always brought bad things to us, but breaking our promises to each other could surely bring us worse."

  • He nodded slowly, listening to her work through the problem word by word. They did need to get the other kids, they'd had such a nice life before- it had to be a shock to the youngest ones, they probably didn't remember the School. He shuddered to think what they must be going through, just in the short time that they were already there.
    It had always been so cold where they kept the cages, the ground seeming to sap the warmth out of your bones when you laid down to go to sleep. Cold, and dark, and there was always something dying and you just had to tell yourself that you wouldn't be the one that night, you would live to see the door open at the end of the room one more time, whether they were coming for you, or giving you the next meal. The door was a sort of sunrise, a link to something other than the dark room they were kept in, but the only good thing to see it open was the fact that you were there to watch the light flood in.
    He existed.
    He was alive, and there were children younger than him stuck in that place- so many other's that they didn't even know.


    "Yeah." Kip. Kip would have wanted them to get out the kids. Trouble almost laughed, thinking how the statement made him sound like the type of person who ran to help every single little thing that got into trouble, rescuing cats out of trees. Not to say he wasn't heroic, but he just wasn't quite at that level. He was as human as the rest of them- which was to say, not entirely human.
    "We can't leave Mira here, though." He said after a moment- Once again, it was Kip that he thought of, he wouldn't have left Mira behind if he had a choice.
    Except now he was gone.
    "I mean- she's not much safer on her own-" But if something happened to her while they were in the School? If something went horribly wrong and they were all taken again? She'd be in the mess with the rest of them. But what if they were still watching? This was the plan they wanted, split into even smaller groups, swoop in, grab Mira, and then take out Soni and himself on the way back, it'd be easier for them. He put his head into his hands and groaned- it was a mess. It was such a mess, everything, they couldn't split up anymore without one of them being on their own. He knew Soni would be willing to go off by herself, but he wasn't exactly going to let her, was he? She couldn't go off by herself, as much as he wouldn't run away, and they wouldn't leave Mira behind in the hands of some stranger, or even on her own.


    She wasn't even trying to sleep anymore. Sleep was nothing but being back on that rooftop, or running in endless, white tunnels, trying to follow a shout that echoed- screaming, he was screaming, she could hear him but she just couldn't find him anymore, one empty room after another, walls marked with blood, or signs that seemed so simple until the ground fell out beneath her feet, and her wings fluttered uselessly as she tumbled through that endless black.
    And he wasn't there when she woke up again. He wasn't there. He'd always been there when she woke up, always near, reaching through the small bars in the cages to meet her own hand, arms small enough to go most of the way through.
    Kip was always there. He said that he'd always be there.
    That he'd never leave.
    He would stay with her and everything was fine because they were still together, that was how it worked, that was just how the world worked and it was great.
    This was wrong.
    She sat, huddled beneath the puffy blanket, her thin frame curled so tightly that she looked like she was trying to implode into herself, dig a hole and drag it back over her head once she was in. This was wrong, this wasn't how the world was supposed to be-
    But she had to be mature. She had to be grown up, she had to keep going forward. And in her head, there was some little voice- some, nasty little voice asking her why this wasn't how 'it' was supposed to be? Since when was life how it was supposed to be? Did she even know what that was like?
    No. She wouldn't know that was like. Kids weren't supposed to grow up in cages, their earliest memories weren't supposed to be getting dragged out of her brothers cage and thrown into her own, that wasn't how it was supposed to be.
    And her brother wasn't supposed to be dead.
    Mira pressed her knuckles against her mouth, biting back a scream of frustration- she wasn't alone. She had to keep reminding herself, she wasn't alone, Trouble was alive, Soni was alive. But she wanted to be angry at them, she wanted to hate them for... for what? For being alive while her brother died?
    "No," She suddenly choked out, and shook her head, burying her face in the blankets again, "No, no, no, no, I don't want them to die, I didn't mean it." As if just thinking it would end them, as if they'd know what she thought and leave. Selfish little girl. Selfish, angry little girl. Nothing made sense.

  • "I wasn't planning on leaving her alone." For the first time since she began to speak her eyes parted with the sunrise. She blinked slowly and when her eyelashes batted open, the girl let her gaze flicker to Trouble. It was clear in the one look what she had intended. That one, single look was all it took to convey that fact she hadn't planned on leaving Mira alone. She had planned on leaving Mira alone with Trouble. Though she wasn't folly enough think he would agree. Before he had time to protest, she jumped to explain this stray idea. "You've been shot. You're in absolutely no condition to go on a rescue mission anytime soon, and time is a valuable thing when it comes to that place. The sooner we can go after them the better chance they have," she paused. Not to give him time to speak, but rather to decipher his reaction to her debate. "We could try to get in and out as fast as possible, but three moving parts of a plan leaves a lot of room for error. Error that I don't think we can afford."
    Now, she waited to be absconded. She knew quite well that Trouble wouldn't let her go without him. Meaning Mira would come too. Though that didn't keep her from trying the idea on him. If Kip was there he would have reprimanded her for even thinking such a thing. But he wasn't. Soni chose to believe that even though the plan was surely suicide it stood a better chance of protecting Mira. She chose to believe that Kip would have wanted to protect Mira at all cost. Even if it meant that Soni's chances of making it out while saving the family were slim to nothing.
    Perhaps Kip's death simply made her feel desperate. Normally, the girl handled desperate situations calmly, calculating every choice with a critical mind. Now, the avian needed a plan. She needed one fast. She needed one with little risk and maximum efficiency. Her plan seemed to meet all of those requirements.
    "We needed a plan, I made one," Soni insisted firmly. Her gaze seemed impenetrable as she stared out at the sunrise again. Then she realized the orange color swirling around the sun reminded her of Kip's bright hair. Her gaze broke. Her confidence broke. Her heart broke. Soni parted her lips and took in a deep breath, her chest rising and falling in her tattered shirt. Lifted her chin, the girl looked to Trouble. Part of her was worried he would agree with her plan. Part of her was worried he wouldn't.

  • She couldn’t mean- No. The surprise flashed across his face, followed by a frown. It wasn’t like he forgot he was injured, there was a hole in his side reminding him of that. It also reminded him that she had a point, and a very good one at that. The conflict in his mind arose as he tried to work out how he could possibly be in two places at once- which he knew very well he couldn’t be. It was frustrating for him to realize that he would most likely be more hinderance than help in a rescue mission, but if that was the case, would he really do Mira any good if they were attacked? Of course, then they would either have to not go at all, leaving the family to their own devices, or all three of them would have to go, and around in circles his mind went, searching for an answer that didn’t exist in the realm of reality.
    He wanted back into his dream, where the sun was just forever on the horizon, the sky awash with the colors of the sunset. Except, much like the answer he wanted to his problem, that place didn’t exist. He looked over at Soni, eyes as grey and serious as a blank slate.
    “We’ll go with you, part of the way.” He said finally, wondering still if even that was a good idea. Could he even fly at the moment?
    “I mean- you have to wait. A little while, y-you need a full night’s sleep, and more to eat, and...” He bit his lip, feeling sudden tears well up in his eyes. Soni could die. They weren’t invincible, and they all knew it, now more than ever. It was horrifying to think- if Soni died trying to rescue the other kids, it would be just him and Mira, and that wasn’t something he wanted in the world.


    It all felt fairly surreal for Kip, having a set of clothes tossed to him to replace the hospital gown- that was a strange enough thing to wake up in. The clothing itself was interesting, with hemmed slots in the back for his wings to poke through, rather than ragged cuts- where had he gotten that idea? This was his clothing, he had wings, it made sense that there’d be slots in the back originally, rather than modified on the go. Shaking a chill out of his wings, he headed out down the hall, following the muffled noise- the person who’d given him clothes just told him to go to the cafeteria, and even if there were gaps in his mind that seemed to ache like someone had tried drilling through his skull, he could still figure out where a cafeteria was. From there, he was called to a table, and things were more widely explained.
    There had been an accident, he’d gone after some freak that was able to get rid of people memory. Go figure, right? The people around the table looked about his own age, some older here and there, and they went about quizzing him for what he remembered and didn’t, filling in the gaps. His name was Kip. He worked for a group of scientists, helping keep order among the other subjects. When someone escaped, it was their team that went out to track them down- recall was for the Erasers.
    Erasers. Something about that name sent another chill down his spine, though he shrugged it off. These were decent enough people, weren’t they? They were like him, despite the occasional bat wing rather than feathered, or a handful with no visible ability to fly.

  • He was pondering it. She could tell by the flash of surprise that dashed across his face. Though while he turned over the idea in his head, Soni did nearly the opposite. In the momentary silence she sat and focused on the pattern of her breath. It helped to drive out every thought that came to plague her. Her plan was one she didn't want to think about much. The odds were sketchy. Though they were also the strongest odds they had. Soni would face the concrete base herself. She would free Collin, and Becka, and Danny, and Alexa. Most importantly she would keep Mira safe. Rather, Trouble would keep her safe.
    Her heart twisted in her chest as she heard Trouble stumble over his words, for she knew what it meant. It meant he was just as aware of her odds as she was. Soni took in a shaky breath. A breath that seemed to embody every doubt, and worry, and concern that manifested between Trouble and herself. Though with the breath Soni expelled this doubt, for there was no room for it in her mind. "I can't wait foreve-" she stopped. He didn't need to hear the facts. He knew them. She knew them. There was no need to restate them. Instead, Soni nodded slowly. "I will wait. We will all have a long sleep and a good meal," the girl said simply. When she gathered the confidence to look up to Trouble, the avian couldn't help the emotion that seeped into her eyes. Yet again, a small, lone tear rolled down her cheek. Without warning Soni enveloped him. She clutched him to her chest and closed her eyes. She cleaved to him for reassurance. She clung to him with watery eyes. "With everything we've made it through-with all the impossible, suicide things we've done-we have to believe our odds are good enough to handle this too," Soni whispered. The words she spoke didn't waver, and she said them to try and instill confidence in him. Along with herself, for that matter.

  • He let out a sigh of relief, glad that she agreed with him- it was madness that she had intended on going off right then, no one was prepared. He hardly even remembered who they were staying with, considering how lucid he'd been through out most of the trip there. The previous night was one, painful blur of rain and feathers and tear-streaked faces, with nightmares to greet them when they finally slept. This was one moment of clarity, and it was nearly relaxing, even with a stressful topic. He was just too tired to feel everything he should have been feeling at that moment. There was just a sort of ache throughout his body, his eyes feeling scratchy from just waking up.
    When she hugged him, he let out a muffled noise of both surprise and pain, the sudden motion jolting his injury, though he hardly tried to pull away. Untangling his arms from the blankets, he wrapped them around her, squeezing his eyes shut- it was like they were falling. Falling, and they couldn't let go, because if they let go, they'd fall away from each other and sure, they ended up with the same results, but at least they could fall together.
    "Don't push your luck, ok?" He said quietly, voice hoarse. They couldn't afford to push their luck any further- he felt like he'd run out of his own, though in a sense, it was keeping him alive. It really depended on how he spun the situation. It was all relative, at this point, they could count themselves all lucky for still breathing- it was more than some people he knew. That list was longer than he would have liked it to be.
    The idea scared him. It scared him to think that they were just escaping out of the Schools grasp, now would be a good time to duck down and lay low, they could just blend in for a little bit, maybe they could stay in one place. And yet now they needed to go back into the hornets nest- except he wasn't being asked to go. Somehow, that made it that much more difficult, to let Soni go in by herself.
    "You're just...You'll be careful." He assured himself, as much as he was telling her. It was a strange conversation to have, both speaking to one another, but the words spoke volumes to themselves as well.

  • It wasn't until Soni was already cleaving to Trouble that she recalled the wound in his torso. It wasn't that she forgot about the hindrance - after all it was part of the reason she would be going into the school alone - rather, they had been so tangled up in their conversation, nothing else seemed relevant. She couldn't find the mental strength to pull away. She didn't. Though, to accommodate the bandaged torso the girl loosened her grip. Her fingers rested on his sunset pink wings and her eyes opened slowly to take in the tranquil sunrise. This was the calm before the storm. Even though she knew the impending events, she let herself relax in the calm as if it would never end. Soni let out a deep breath. The adrenaline that had been coursing through her veins all night had kept her from sleep, but now it had all worn off and left her drained dry. Her energy left her back on that roof top with Kip. She shook her head slightly on Trouble's shoulder, as if she could shake away all of those thoughts. To her amazement, they left her. Now, she was left with dulled emotions. That was exactly what she needed.
    "I'll be careful," Soni promised quietly into the soft fabric of his shirt. Then she took a deep breath and voiced what they both already knew,"...but I'm pushing my luck by even going. If I'm going to pull this off I'll have to risk it." She felt the need to admit it. There was no point in pretending it would all work perfectly. Granted, there was also little point in saying what was already known. Soni was so mentally shattered, and that was what intimidated her the most. Getting into the school was easy enough. Navigating would also be easy, for she knew that place like the back of her hand. Now, navigating undetected would prove a little more difficult. Of course, the challenge above them all: getting out. All she really needed to accomplish were the first two. She didn't need to think about that now though. "Don't tell Mira. Don't tell her the chances. She may know them, but she doesn't need to hear them. Not now."

  • Trouble let out a shaky laugh, uncertain as to why he found anything in the current situation. There was just something ridiculous about the entire thing, something stupidly ridiculous. Maybe he was just going crazy, it would stand to reason, after everything they'd been through. It made him feel bone-tired to think that they had more to come, and while he didn't like the feeling, he almost felt a sense of relief. He wouldn't be going back into the school. He wouldn't have to go back into that nightmare- he'd just have to watch Soni do it. Maybe that was just as bad, but when it came down to it, in the end, he'd be the one with the higher rates of survival. It was nearly shocking to him that this wasn't even his priority anymore, that despite his odds being better, it was barely a comfort. Would he live with the guilt of knowing that maybe- just maybe, he could have helped in some way?
    "She'll know. I mean- you're right, we don't need to tell her the odds, but I don't think she's going to like you're plan too much." Hardheaded might have been the right word Trouble would have used to describe Mira. To survive as she had, she had to have some sense of stubbornness about her, some sort of drive to keep her breathing in that pit. "We should go see if she's awake," He said after a moment, slowly pulling out of her grasp and gathering the blanket back up around his shoulders as he stood.


    Mira wasn't asleep, though she wasn't exactly being active either. She was still in her spot, crunched against the side of the couch on the floor, the puffy blanket piled around her and obscuring most of her body. Her head was mostly showing now, as it had started getting stuffy beneath the cover, and her eyes were puffy, red, from tears. She had her fist balled up beneath the blanket, pulling it over her mouth, obscuring the frown that creased her face. There was just... too much. Too many emotions roiling about in her mind, she was angry, furious at the school for what they had done, furious at herself for running out of the Hospital. Frustrated with her own anger towards her friends, she knew it wasn't their fault, and she knew it wasn't right of her, but there was still that ugly voice that whispered.
    Why couldn't it have been one of them?
    And then, underneath it all, to be the icing on the cake, she was sad. Sad didn't even cover it, anguished, heartbroken, terrified of what lay ahead in her life without someone who had been at her side since before she could remember.
    And so Mira simply held still, feeling like her body would shatter if she moved at all, the rise and fall of her chest hardly noticeable.

  • The girl realized reluctantly that they had just begun spiraling. She thought that when Kip had died, that was when everything hit the fan. She thought that was the end of the dark spiral. Soni was mistaken. This was not the end, but merely the beginning of an unknown adventure. Things would get darker without Kip, that much was obvious. A new dynamic would have to be formed, and frankly, none of them could even guess what was lay ahead. Kip's death had been a wake up call. It had been the start of a whole new way of life. Things were going to change.
    It was Trouble voice that shook her out of these realizations. "Yes, I suppose you are right." With that, Soni wiped the few tears from her cheeks, took a deep breath, and then extended her wings behind herself. They ached slightly from the stress of the day and it felt good to collect a small breeze with her feathers. She pulled them against her back before she gingerly stepped back into David's home. Her steps were light, and it seemed as if she was nervous the floor would crumble beneath her. Everything seemed fragile.
    "Mira," she began, her voice cautious, as if she expected to world to concave if she spoke to loud. Soni suspected the little girl was awake. Whether it was the fact that she was known to pretend to be asleep, or perhaps that the day's events had hindered her from getting some shut eye, she simply had a hunch. "Do you want to lay on the couch rather than the floor?" She suggested, determined to take care of her. All the way down to little things like comfort.

  • It was almost a little ridiculous, her train of thought as the other two crept back into the house. The breeze that crept through the door was cool on her damp face, and stirred at small wisps of red hair that grew uneven from the others. She opened her yellow eyes slowly, looking at the wedge of watery light that crossed the floor as the door opened and closed, before looking up towards Soni, not quite registering that she had said anything. It took a few moments for her mind to catch up, and she was grateful for their quietness as she let just the breath of morning air soak into her body. Just seeing the two again gave her such a sense of relief, the anger melting away, that she almost wanted to cry again. It was easier to be angry at them when she couldn't see them, easier to feel hate towards something unknown. After a few moments of mental preparation, she slowly uncurled, holding the blanket in it's tangle around her frame as she practically crawled onto the couch, the blanket trailing behind her. Mira let a whoosh of air out of her lungs, sighing audibly, before pursing her lips and staring back into space, eyes barely open. The world just needed...
    it needed to move slowly for a little while. She wasn't going to sleep, but she didn't exactly feel like moving either.


    Trouble found himself moving stiffly, limping as he went- he didn't quite feel like dying, but the sensation wasn't exactly pleasant. Considering his vision only went out for a few moments when he stood out, he decided that his condition was rapidly improving. He watched Mira nervously, noting her rather disheveled appearance, before trying to busy himself with folding the blanket he'd previously had about his shoulders, more for the action of doing something, rather than saying anything. What did you say to a little girl who's just lost her brother? It wasn't like any of them actually had much of a family, but she had, and the School had taken that away. And sure, Trouble was upset, though he was more shocked than anything else. It didn't feel like it could have been real, when people died in his life, he usually left everything he associated with their cold body, he didn't take anything with them- but he couldn't exactly leave Mira. He couldn't leave Soni, and he almost felt guilty with the knowledge that he was going to get over it. He was shocked now, and it would hurt later, but he knew he could go on without Kip.

  • Trouble was right. Although the she had already agreed to stay an extra day or two, she hadn't really accepted it until now. If she were on her own she would have left as soon as possible. However, Trouble seemed concerned. So figuring she might as well satisfy him and soothe some of his worry, she had agreed. She had agreed for him. Now, the avian was glad she had agreed as her mouth parted for an exhausted yawn.
    The world sluggishly moved along. Each of them moved without haste, as if they were all trapped moving through water. No one seemed to mind. After an action packed week - action packed life - Soni found moments like these a relief. Moments when time didn't care where it was, how fast it was moving, or who it caught up to. Time never stopped moving for them.
    As Mira clambered up onto the couch a sympathetic smile touched Soni's lips. Then the smile disintegrated into a somber, blank expression. The girl shuffled over and lifted the trailing end of the heavy blanket onto the couch with the girl. She sat down on the far end of the couch, far enough away to give Mira space but close enough to be considered near. Her legs nearly collapsed beneath her as she fell back onto the couch. Soni hadn't realized how much her body ached.


    David poked his head around the door of his bedroom. He wanted to make sure it was clear for him enter the room. These people had wings and who knows what else, the last thing he wanted was to aggravate them. After he decided it was clear he took a large exaggerated step into the living room. "How did you all sleep?" He asked, attempting to be a polite host. When Soni shot him a silencing look he assumed that no one had slept well, and he waved his hand as to say never mind. "Then would anyone like me to make breakfast?" Now Soni stared at him mutely. He knew it was early in the morning but he didn't think that anyone could be that cranky in the morning. Then he remembered. There was another one of them, and now there wasn't. David cringed slightly, but he did his best to pull it off. "I can make really good pancakes! I'm also good at waffles." Maybe consoling grieving, winged strangers wasn't his forte.

  • Trouble made an attempt at responding to Davids words, though his 'smile and a nod' fallback was looking fairly strained that morning. He was probably the only one who had gotten a fairly decent sleep. Almost awkwardly, he stepped slowly over towards the nearest chair, bundling the blanket he'd tried to fold into a ball and setting it gently into the seat, eyes flicking between Soni and David. After a moment of assessing the two on the couch and listening to the awkward silence build, he put on another slightly strained smile, and went forward. "We should make waffles, I haven't done that before." He suggested, stressing the 'We'. He wasn't entirely sure if it was to avoid the emotions cropping up around the other two, or if it was to take some of the strain off of them by directing David out of the room. He just didn't know what to do around Mira, how he should act. And so, with a slightly limping gait, he walked towards where he assumed the kitchen would be, seeing as he'd seen most of the rest of the house.


    Kip's life, as far as he could now remember, was uneventful. His teammates, or possibly friends, though they seemed too distant to really be his friends, closer with each other. It made him wonder why he wasn't a part of that, if he wasn't too new to the group? Except there was just something slightly off kilter about it, there had been things he got feelings about when he saw them, but with these people, it was just a blank slate. Nothing. Like a pair of gloves that were supposed to fit perfectly against his skin, but there was just the smallest bit of space that would shift about when he would wiggle his fingers.
    Apparently Paranoia was a side affect of the Mutants venom, so this was to be expected.