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    [align=center][font=century gothic][color=white]In my whole life I've never felt so alone. Never.


    In the last few months, Almost all of my friends have thought of leaving, and sometimes it's just a bit too much for me because they didn't tell me what was wrong prior to it.


    And now I've basically just shattered one of my closest relationships.....oh, I'm so sorry, I can't explain. I really hope you are reading this...I won't name names, but I am really sorry. I think I'm moving towards the same point of view as you anyway, and I'm really sorry.


    And in real life everything has been piling up. I have Diabetes Type 1, which means I have to work double what most people my age do. I have to keep track of my Blood-Glucose-Levels, and then I have to record them and ajust my injections accordingly and all of that sh*t. I'm sorry for swearing, but it really is. Because of my Diabetes I am not treated like a real, smart, civilised person. I have top grades in my class, but if you are smart it means you are better than the rest of us and you should go away.


    Everything I believe in is torn down and ripped to shreds every day. I only have 1 friend, and she doesn't even go to school because she's lazy. I always feel alone and stupid.


    Then I come onto here, and there's nobody active. I'm Australian- I have to stay up till about 11:30PM just to see you all. Last night/This Morning was a blast. I had so much fun, even if I was paranoid that my mum would catch me online.


    I haven't ever seen anything wrong with the site. Never. So Wynn, if you ready this, please understand that This site is magnificent as it is.


    To my friends (Oh, boy), so that would be Care, Fly, Snow, Neko, Moon, Crazy, Emma, Derpy, Illi, Scowler, Pandorica, Okami, Sunny and so many more.....I care so much for you all. You are the people that made my life better. Moon and Neko took me along a path of self-discovery, and I learnt who I am. Care and the AVGHS gang were people who taught me I wasn't alone. Okami....you are so similar to me and yet so different. While I have a big heart and won't hurt a fly, you would send then down the stairs in an instant. You are my brick wall. With a mural on it of cource. You aren't actually a brick wall.


    My point is, If I leave one day with my account gone, then you know that I couldn't take it.


    But my Characters.....Swift goes to either Moon or Care. You two are the Who-savvy friends in AVGHS, and I know you'll take good care of her.


    Geronimo...needs to be developed. I need someone with a good mind to take him. Scowler, Moon, Neko or Pandorica....You guys should take good care of my baby. ;_;


    The Doc and the Poet go to Scowler. Dude, you are often more insane and lazy than me. I'm sure you can manage.


    My other cat characters don't have much choice....I don't RP Cat-wise anymore. Time of TranquilityClan goes to Haku if I leave.


    I most likely won't leave. But if I ever do, this is like my Will. This is what I want you lot to do.


    ....And at the moment, not naming names, I don't really care if you'll hate Owl City forever. But face it- I wouldn't be on this site if I didn't like OC. I love the music because iot gives me hope and happyness. If you don't care anymore, then that's fine. Really. It just means I know there is one person who won't care when i'm gone. But one in a sea of many- that's a different story.


    So, go ahead and tell me how much a wonderful person I am. I know you all will anyway. But I know that I just want to leave reassured. If I do leave I will most likely return. With the key word being most likely.


    So..........Everything in the end is all Wibbly-Wobbly Timey-Wimey, and I will always believe in Peace, Love and All That Jazz.


    After all....what do you do for your friends? You follow them inside the cave once you tell them not to.


    ..........................Wow.....that was longer than expected.


    Anyway, as I am a time-traveller, i Will tell you one thing about the future.


    Spoilers.

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    [align=center][font=lucida handwriting]aww man... im so sorry to hear that Rain ;.;, that sounds... awful


    but always remember Rain, sometimes people don't want to talk about their problems not because they just don't want you to help them, but because they just... don't want to talk about it, it's not your fault though, it's their decision. But wow... im really sorry to hear that you have Diabetes, that sounds horrible to have to deal with... And finding yourself losing all your friends... it's very lonely i know, having not so much friends can be very lonely and depressing, but there's always a way to make some friends right?


    But don't think that, just because you have Diabetes does not make you different, even if it seems like it. All it is is... uh... not sure how to describe it, but it doesn't make you different at all in the process, your still you, and if people can't seem to realize that then that's their problem. And there's nothing wrong with being smart, it just means that you'll make more money in the future, as well as make smart decisions. One of my friends has top grades as well, and i think she has more friends than i would ever have, so there's nothing wrong with being smart


    but i hope you won't leave... if it helps, i could stay up longer as well, so i don't leave so early... even though my brother is taking the better laptop and keeps forcing me to get off most of the time -.-, but if it helps you not feel so lonely, then im willing to take that risk :), your still our friend, and even though it's kinda sad to consider us your friends, even though we probably would never see each other in real life, you're still very important, to all of us


    But im sure Rain, that all that pain and suffering, will come with a great, happy ending... right? And also, whatever happens makes you an even stronger person, so don't give up, and keep pressing on, because what doesn't kill you makes you stronger

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    ;A;


    -hugs-


    I love you so, even though I don't know you.


    -hug again-


    Hang in there you.

    D: I'm sure everything will be alright soon enough. I just want to go to Australia and hug you. We all have problems and trials, big or small.


    --


    "Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls about like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. But resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same experiences of suffering are being accomplished by your brethren who are in the world.”


    Hope this quote helps. I really like it :)

    D'aww... Rain, it's okay. I know how you feel, and how hard it is without friends. In August I might be moving all the way across the country, to New York. I won't know anyone, I won't have an accent, I won't fit in, I won't even dress like anyone. Heck, my religion will even stand out compared to everybody else in Manhattan.
    But there's always somebody who's thinking about you, and as much as it seems that everything is falling apart, there's always even little things that can help. Even when it's as bad as it could ever get... it could only get better from there, right?
    I promise I'll try harder to be on when you're online. It's summer now, which means I can be on when I normally have school and I can stay up impossibly late at night to post.
    Everyone here loves you. Even those who don't know you do, and even those who hate you love you. You're just impossibly incredible like that. Everyone in our Doctor Who RP thread loves you to pieces. I'm so glad that I got to know you on the site.
    If you do leave the site.... we'll miss you. You'd better come by occasionally and say hi to us or I will fly to Australia with Schmaltzy and we will kidnap you because we can totally do that.
    I'm sorry about what's happening in your life, and I hope things get better for you.

    My post seems so short...



    And yes, we will so totally fly out to Australia. Don't ever think you're not important, because everyone is important.



    I have something to post here...but I'm not done with it yet.


    Edit: In the meantime I'll post this:


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    I'm learning this song on the piano and like to listen to it when I'm feeling down :)

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    Rain this message. . . this message won't ever be able to compare to what I need to tell you. It will never be able to because over this time we have talked about more things then can be recounted. And you know why? Because we are family, and just like ever family there are hard times. That is a fact and it is one I always regret because I think you all are facing it alone. Hearing wwhat you are going through though. . . and knowing how strong you have been it has caused me to just be in aw of you. I know you sometimes think I am just . . . I don't know suppose strong, but in comparison? Hun you have been through so much more so much younger. I know this because I have been through some of it with you. I just always want you to know that you have me standing beside you if you need to lean on me, or heck if you need someone to carry you. You are only alone if you allow yourself to be, lame I KNOW, but true. I won't ever leave your side. I have stayed up well past 3 and 4 in the morning because of you and Illi, because I know deep down that those times mean something. Even if some people say it is JUST an RP site, in my heart it is more. It is where I have meet the best suregent family I could. Just. . .take it all to heart Rain, because no matter what I am here for you.

    'Cheer up and dry your damp eyes, and tell me when it rains.
    I'll blend up that rainbow above you, and shoot it through your veins.'     -- Rainbow Veins, Owl City.


    Never knew you but you sound like a beautiful person. Best of luck, dear.

    [align=center][font=century gothic] fly : Always pushin' me on, eh? there's always the friend who never sugarcoats it. Thanks Poprocks.


    @Smosh & Memory: Thanks for hearing me out. It makes me feel special. :¨D


    @Scowler & Pandorica: I hope you know kidnapping is illegal in Australia... Wonderful Quote Scowls. Panda (That's your new nickname, alright?) i hope you do Okay in the big city. Track down the Pop Culture stores, the library and the museum and just try to stick to those sort of places. The ol' geeky hideouts. Wait, i'm impossibility incredible? O3O


    NEKO : Oh, my sweet Half-cat moma.....i don't know how to explain much to you at all, really. but i hope you understand this is just backup, right? just an emergency drill. maybe i should change the title to an impossibility.


    Pineapple : I heard things were getting rough for you too, so good luck. and thanks, i love Rainbow Veins ♪

    [align=center][font=lucida handwriting]of course, gotta keep pressing on motherf**ka! *battle cries* xD, but your welcome Rain :D, glad to help... in some way, shape or form xD

    *huggles rain* You must be having such a tought time right now rain. But just we're all here, and that if you leave, we'll all still be here waiting for you till you come back.

    Rain ♥ wrote:


    [align=center][font=century gothic]May it be through reverse psychology..... mothef***a i love you!



    [align=center][font=lucida handwriting]yes... even though i dunno what psychology means but yyeeeahh! xD man, i love you to broski! *MANLY BRO hug xD* and like Snowy said, we got 'cho back!

    but we will stay here even in the after life


    No problem!

    I hope you're feeling better, Rain. I'll try to be on more often too. School's out for me and Pandorica so we can stay up pretty late into the night :)

    My friend has type 1, so I completely understand what you mean. I walk her down to the nurse a lot. I hope you can stay.

    ash I have a friend with it too, he has the worst time keeping check of it and it worries me.



    Rain, I know it is a backup, but no matter what you do, no matter what is done I will not be going anywhere. You have my email, I have you on Tumblr, Deviantart, and Xbox live. honestly you aren't getting rid of your mama