But god help me I have no one to talk to here.
So, I just came to college right? And I'm meeting all these new people right? Well, that includes guys.
I found this group on campus, does Live Action Role-Playing of Star Wars based on Kendo techniques. It's incredibly not as lame as it sounds. Well, there are alot of guys in it, and they seem to think being a girl with a lightsaber is hott... IDK, but they do. So, I make some bad decisions, and let the resident jerk spend the night a few times while my roommate's away. Of course, like two days later, I meet this OTHER guy at the LARP, and realize I have a thing for him. And, awesomely, he's from my hometown, which is three hours away and therefore incredibly cool. So, I start hanging out with him, which makes jerk-face all emo. So I pretty much have to tell him it was a one-time thing, and he flips his **** a little. So, I'm spending all this time with this guy I like, and he keeps sending REALLY mixed signals. Like, hugging me and calling me, and stuff, and everything... HOWEVER, while we were watching a video on his laptop yesterday, he got a pop-up IM from another girl in the LARP saying something about wishing she was in bed with him right then. He covered it up, but I saw it anyway. And I know SHE'S in a relationship with a DIFFERENT guy in the LARP. And so today, after lightsaber practice, I ended up riding in the back of a pick-up truck with the guy I like and the girl I know he's involved with. They started holding hands, so I covered my face with my hat and started crying, but of course, he saw. So he's all "What happened? and What to talk about it?" And now I'm REALLY upset cause if I hadn't obviously been deluding myself into thinking he liked me, he should have realized HE was the one upsetting me. In conclusion, FML, I hate the real world.
