Shadepaw generally enjoyed the company of other cats, but recently, he had been spending a larger chunk of his time in solitude. The world seemed duller and more empty, darkness seemingly clawing at his pelt. The negative thoughts that corrupted his mind wouldn't go away, and all the small apprentice constantly thought about was just how badly he had messed up.
Threatened by his own Clanmate, training in the Dark Forest, a shell of the cat he had been back when he was a little kit. Shadepaw was trying to convince himself that all of the changes he was making, the more brutal thinking his mind had adapted to, was for the best, but deep down he knew that that wasn't true.
He was close to the border now, stalking a mouse. The small creature had not yet noticed his presence, with Shadepaw swiftly dropping into a neat crouch, his paws moving almost silently across the ground. Once he was close enough, the ebony pelted tom sprang, landing straight on top of the mouse. He sank his teeth into his victim's throat, digging his claws into its back in the process, forcing himself to find some pleasure in the way blood coated his claws. He had to.
Shadepaw knew he had potential. He had the potential to be a powerful cat, a cat who others would treat with respect, bow to, fear. He didn't have to be a joke, he didn't have to be a worthless scrap of prey under the paws of his enemies. He was already a good fighter, growing stronger thanks to his Dark Forest training. There was nothing stopping him.
The small cat looked down at the mouse, blood staining its once white fur, deep teeth marks in its throat and deep claw marks in its back. Shadepaw was good at the things that he did. He could be good at being bad, too.
Digging a hole, he dropped the mouse inside, before covering the hole back over. He then glanced around, nose twitching, bright eyes wide, searching for his next catch.
"that's just what gangsters do."