**TW for suicide, depression, possibly selfharm, etc**
Heyooo, so im Charlie for those of you who are unaware, and I have PTSD and a Panic Disorder, this comes into play later.
I am at a point where I am super emotionally exhausted with myself, my peers, my family, and just life in general. I work and go to school while being close to taking an online college class in the spring. I feel like im wearing thin trying to take care of myself and help those around me all the time, but feel horrible when I don't, which just aids to my panic attacks. Like currently, my best friend has been talking to me for over two hours about how much he dislikes his appearance, and I feel utterly helpless and as such am super upset. It's situations like this that I can't back out of, but my brain is exhausted and I feel myself getting depressed again.
I also just,,, really have been hit hard with issues from PTSD at this point. Frequent flashbacks and nightmares all around, which are contributing to my poor mental state. It's making me regain suicidal thoughts, while I haven't and nor am I going to act out on. Life in general is just beating the shit out of me and I don't know how to cope with my mental and physical health right now.