It had been a long time since she'd taken up residence in a clan. BloodClan felt like a thing of the past; it had changed so much since her time there... perhaps for the worse. They'd softened, as had many of the groups she'd come across during her travels. But even if her place of birth had remained steadfast throughout the years, Ellaria wasn't sure if she'd even be able to return. The memories she had of her youth, while sweet, had eventually come to lose their rosy tint. Often times she looked back on her childhood with a feeling of burning resentment, only further fueling her resolve to do something worthwhile with the life she'd been given. She'd been played a rather lacking hand, but the woman sought to change that long ago.
For a good while she'd spent her time here and there, drifting about and learning all of the secrets that Agrelos had to offer. She'd devoted much of her time to the gods as well — praying, reflecting, changing. Carefully constructing the woman she was sure she'd always wanted to be. And only when she was satisfied with the figure she'd delicately carved, molded from heartache and solitude, did Ellaria feel ready to truly return to civilization. She'd met with people here and there in the recent past; merchants, informants, acquaintances, and even a few lovers, but none of it had ever felt... very real. She wasn't certain if joining a group again would change that, but surprisingly, the cynical woman was hopeful. Though she'd long since abandoned her homeland and made a calculated effort to avoid others of its kind, Ellaria would be lying if she claimed not to miss the hustle and bustle of a clan every now and again. At long last, she would be able to return to that comforting familiarity, albeit with a new, jaded sense of skepticism. Some might pity her for all she'd been through, but Ellaria felt that she was much better equipped to deal with the drama and politics of the lifestyle she was returning to. If nothing else, she was very curious to see where this new chapter of her life would take her.
And so she waited with her head held high on the outskirts of the canyon, piercing yellow gaze sweeping across the landscape before her with guarded interest.