𝕟 𝕦 𝕞 𝕓 𝕥 𝕠 𝕥 𝕙 𝕖 𝕗 𝕖 𝕖 𝕝 𝕚 𝕟 𝕘 || private w/ freak..?

( ooc >> no worries! i’m glad your laptop is alive lol. i finished my night shift a while ago so i might zonk out for a bit here shortly because i haven’t sleep yet. just so you know if i go awol for a couple hours. also, amelia’s info looks great. )

spencer listened to their exchange carefully, jumping into action the moment vince flew at amelia. he tackled him square in the guts, sending them both to the ground. they struggled there for a moment, earning himself a solid hit in the face as they fought for dominance. after gaining the advantage, he straddled the others chest and repeatedly clocked him in the face until he refused to move anymore. he grabbed vince by the hair and leaned forward to look him in the eyes.

“don’t you dare try coming near her again, let alone try contacting her or i’ll see to it you’re six feet deep in the ground.”

he growled lowly, slamming his head into the ground and spitting blood from his split lip into his face. when he was finished with him, he stood up and grabbed amelia’s other bag, turning towards the exit and hopping into the bus. signaling for the driver to take off as he slumped onto a sofa. he wiped at his mouth, blood smearing on his knuckles. he stared at it and laughed a little. he had been a little excessive in that fight but that sucker deserved it, not to mention he had a point to prove.

he glanced at amelia, trying to read her face. he would have smiled at her but his teeth were stained with blood and that wouldn’t really be a reassuring sight.

“i look pretty hot right now, don’t i?”

he joked, motioning towards his split lip. a shit attempt at trying to lighten the mood.

spencer grimaced as she pressed gauze against his wounds, it stung but it was nothing unbearable. he knew he’d went too far, but that guy seriously deserved it. sighing softly, he watched her as she took care of him.

“i know— i wanted to make sure he’ll never lay hands on a girl again.”

he smiled a little at her joke and shrugged. she didn’t owe him a thing and he’d make that clear later but for now he just soaked in how much she cared about him. admiring her gentleness and kindness. his fingers curling around hers momentarily as she cleaned his knuckles. he didn’t know if she felt it too but there was this weird feeling when they touched, a sense of belonging. laughing a little now at her last comment, he finally opened his mouth to speak.

“nah, you don’t owe me a single thing, but you’re more than welcome to fight off the crazies. it’d look better if you did it, haha.”

like usual, spencer got carried away at the after party. he got lucky most of the time that amelia was there to get him home safe. he felt guilty after a while because not only was she his good friend but now she was his babysitter when he decided to make bad choices, which wasn’t fair. at least it shouldn’t be to her. but this was his scene, he couldn’t just escape it.

caught in his feelings, he dismissed himself from the party before he ended up too far gone and dragged himself to the tour bus. smiling at the faint sound of rock music coming from behind the door he pulled it open and climbed in, waving sheepishly at the other as he wandered her way. he stood behind where she was sat, leaning over her a little to peer what she was working on.

“that looks awesome, you’re ridiculously talented, you know that, amelia?”

he stated, beaming as he stared down at her. he was so proud of her. she had overcome so much and was truly thriving where she was at now. she was talented, funny, witty, and crazy beautiful... he’d gotten see so much of her that he was sure no one else had. he wanted delve deeper and get to know more, yet he knew he may not get that chance. deflated a little, he draped his arms around her and sighed. he was drunk and his mind was in overide, also not mostly aware of what he was doing in the moment. all he wanted was her. to lay down and cuddle up with her. to laugh at stupid things with her. to do everything with her. he turned his head a little to look at her, his eyes searching her face. slowly started to smile stupidly at her before speaking slurred words.

“you’re so fucking beautiful...”

spencer laughed sarcastically at the statement of him not being drunk enough and with a defeated look on his face he shrugged and snatched a water bottle out of the small beverage fridge just a little ways from them. it wasn’t garbage he was mumbling about but he didn’t dare argue with her about it.

plopping down on a chair opposite from her and taking a small sip from it before meeting her eyes, his eyes bloodshot and red from tonight’s events that contained plenty of drinking and perhaps a pill or two. he crossed his legs where he was seated and grimaced as she pointed out that there was something up with him. it may have been obvious but he was in a state where if asked things liked that, he was going to say things he never dared sober.

“just feeling like shit a little more than usual today... i kind of came to the conclusion i’m really no better than that douchebag and you’re basically just my glorified babysitter until i get my shit together, which is unfair, so i’m sorry about that.”

he let out a heavy sigh and sunk back impossibly further into his chair, his eyes directed at the ceiling. he really needed to shut the fuck up. he told himself he’ll change and he would but that would require a whole new coping mechanism, and there were just some things he couldn’t throw onto amelia’s lap, so it would be a while before then.

“although, you have been the highlight of my life recently so just know i’m beyond grateful to have you here.”

ooc || hey!

i had some personal matters to attend to and needed time off from here. i have everything all taken care of and have both time and muse to continue this roleplay if you'd still like to, if not, i respect that. just let me know and i'll post a response. i apologize for any inconvenience.
have a good day! :)

ooc || great! thank you for understanding. i look forward to continuing this roleplay.

ic || spencer let a hand travel over his face and through his hair, breathing out as he let his fingers tousle his dark brown strands. gaze still set on the ceiling as the other spoke, he eventually let his eyes wander back to amelia's face as she spoke her last couple of words. he immediately wanted to disagree with her on a few things but instead opted for a quiet:

"i guess."

he may not know everything vince had done to her but he had a pretty good idea of what all went down. it still angered him to think about it, about the ways that vince had laid his hands on her. the ways he hurt her and traumatized her. he let his hands fall into his lap and he squeezed them tight for a moment, reminding himself that that scenario was all done and over with. he offered the girl a shy smile, chuckling a little before chewing at his bottom lip, searching for more words to say.

"yeah, that definitely would be a nightmare. keeping me sober, i mean. i would never expect that from you. it's something i'll figure out eventually..."

he replied, going back to nonchalantly dismissing his own problems per usual. he was opening up too much for his liking, but with amelia it felt so normal. still, he hardly addressed his substance abuse outside of his songs so this moment was a little much although he was the one who brought it up. he just wanted to apologize to her, he felt he owed her at least that for his behavior recently. staring awkwardly now at the floor as the room filled with silence, spencer rubbed his calloused hands together. allowing his eyes to move from the carpet only to search for something to shift the conversation elsewhere, his pale blue-grey eyes landing on her sketchbook.

"so uh— what were you working on?" he asked as motioned toward what she was drawing.

spencer leaned forward from where he was sitting in front of the other, his mouth forming a small 'o' shape as he took in the details of the drawing before him. he was hardly able to tell it was him earlier due to his up in the clouds state, all he could make out in that moment a couple minutes ago was that it was a person and that amelia's drawing skills were extraordinary. now, he can blatantly make out that it was him. everything in the drawing was spot on, something that only someone who paid such close attention to him and their surroundings could clearly draw. he could now feel himself grow hot as a blush creeped it's way across his face, his lips curving upwards into a small smile. he didn't realize how much attention the girl actually paid to him until now. he covered his mouth a little to hide his glee.

"wow— what i said before still stands. that looks surreal. i'm honored. you could really go somewhere with this, you know?"

he told her, still slightly in awe. he thought for a moment, wondering if maybe she did decide to go do work regarding her artistic abilities, would she still be by his side? still slightly leaned forward, he rested his elbows onto his knees and let his chin fall into his hands as he eyeballed her. taking in the red that decorated her own face and how she bit her lips he was reminded of his feelings for her. he didn't dare want to see her go but he was almost hesitant to ask that sort of question. he was already gutsy as hell a month or so ago when he asked her to come with him on tour. although, now they are closer compared to months ago.

"uhm, kind of early for this kind of question considering we still have a couple months left of tour but whats your game plan for after?" he questioned, slightly tilting his head to the side as he searched her face for an answer before it even came out of her mouth. they were a popular enough band that they toured for a little under a year, in both small cities and big ones, and eventually it would all come to a halt until the next time. they all had a place where they could return to down on the coast but amelia was a whole other story. he let his lips part once more before she had a chance to speak. "i mean you're more than welcome to stick around with us if you don't know what to do... i've got no one else but the guys and we all care about you anyways. we have enough room in our home for another person, and our home isn't this bus believe it or not." offering her a smile as he attempted to end on a somewhat humorful note, trying to let her know she didn't have to feel forced to do anything.

spencer nodded as she mentioned she would probably stay with them a little longer, relief flooding through him at knowing he wouldn't have to say goodbye just quite yet. he understood her wanting to get a job and eventually being on her own, she probably had lost a majority of her independence when she was with that psychopath of a man. how could you do much of anything around someone like that? it's important she eventually got a normal life back. he chewed at the inside of his cheek as he moved to reach out to her, out of his seat and standing in front of her he settled his hands on each of hers. shaking his head a little before showing her a gentle smile.

"you could never outstay your welcome, you're always welcome here. all of us would say that."

he paused for a moment, sucking in a shallow breath as he gathered courage to say what he was going to say next. it would come out all wrong considering his current state but he was going to say it anyways. he watched her from where he was standing, starting to withdraw his hands a little before he opened his mouth to speak once more, not wanting to overstep any boundaries.

"you're not just a girl i decided to tug along, if i really felt that way i could have just taken anybody with but i've never done this before. you're the only person i've ever extended this offer to and it's so hard to describe why. we just click..."

spencer smiled nervously as she spoke, not expecting the words that left her mouth. eventually, the nervousness faded from his face and he unwaveringly took her hands into his own again, squeezing them for a moment as he scanned her face. he lost himself in her eyes for a moment as he fought to find words, overwhelmed with happiness and surprise. he never saw this night turning out this way but there were no complaints about it from him. he was beaming like an idiot as he curled his fingers around hers, testing how it felt and god, did it feel so right...

"you don't hold me back from anything and i don't know what you're thinking right now but—"

he freed a hand and let it gently caress the side of her face as he paused. he could tell she wasn't confident in herself, that she felt insufficient and would be a burden to him but that wasn't the case. it wasn't something he could just promise to her, that she was enough. after years of being told and treated like she wasn't, she surely had to be shown again she was worth it.

"—don't think that. okay? just keep being you, that's all i'd ever ask of you because you don't need to be anything else. and i know you're not a hookup type of gal, that not what i'm going for this time around. i want to commit, to not mess around, to take things seriously right now. i want to try if you're willing to."

the boy let his hands fall onto either side of amelia on the couch as she pulled him closer, leaning into her now as she gently kissed him. he was a little taken aback by the sudden action but obliged to it nonetheless. gently kissing the other back with a small smile playing on his lips, eventually pulling away to gaze into the girls eyes. she was so beautiful, he wished she saw it too. he took her gently by the waist and hoisted her up into his arms, positioning himself in what was once her spot on the couch but with her on his lap so he could give her control of the situation. he offered her a playful smirk, about to entertain what she had said last.

"i'm an idiot? how so?" 

he asked, capturing her lips once more before she had an opportunity to respond. he kissed her with a little more vigor this time but still gentle, holding almost a carefulness not to hurt her as his hands found their way to her face again, cupping her cheeks to keep her face close to his.